After years of reading books which offer advice and guidance on improving the mindset and beliefs about the past, I now am coming into the desire to read something other than that. There are stories of the villain and the hero, those who love so great that they lay their very lives on the line while fighting to eliminate darkness from the world.
I know there are many who walk this earth with desire to free people from tyranny and evil, and many are misguided by those very villains who wish to destroy the earth, and life upon it. I wish I could say this was fantasy, but it is not.
My hope is that those who fight for freedoms sake see that freedom is being lost in this land, and they will be able the extricate themselves from what they do in order to bring balance for the people at home.
Training to ‘follow orders’ runs deep in the psyche. I hope the inner person will be able to see through it, to see clearly, and to make choices which benefit, and not harm.
Through the thick darkness a sliver of light appears, red and glowing, heat eminating from it. It widens, soon joined by another, the darkness shrinking. Small, low flames develop, the heat intensifies. Darkness is split in two, it disintegrates in this heat, this fire. A spicy aroma begins to permeate the room, not unpleasant, but causing a slight burning of the eyes. Helping We … It begins.
Within each of us is a force that yearns to assist in healing. There has been much hurt and harm inflicted upon the human race, indeed, upon ALL life. Now is time for an allowing … a saying YES to partnering with that which will end the constant war, the war that has been brewing and killing since time began.
There is a need to stop self-poisoning with substances made legal and pawned like candy to an ailing society … alcohol, foods laced with chemicals one cannot pronounce, waters filthied with unknown compounds, pharmecueticals which mask issues caused by the poisons, numbing the mind to the connection which heals while cultivating new dis-eases.
There are alternatives available, should the choice be made to find them and learn a new set of tools for coping with a system intent on destruction. There is no one who can make this decision for your life but you.
If it weren’t so serious it would be comical. “HA!”, she laughs. Two sides of the coin. Are there always two side to the coin?
Life is incredible. We come into it and we are impressed and molded with the state of the world. We get to know it intimately, and then we transform the training of current reality, altering habits, and create a NEW reality into which others are born.
Outer change of the ‘big picure’ begins with alchemy of self.
There is no ‘going backwards’, there is only release of that which is not benefitting life. Utilization of what works while honoring the sacred, we build a new future.
As in part one of a movie series, what was in the beginning outshines what comes after, realizing this, it becomes the favored.
She dreams, her breath comes deep and her feet move as she lives in the unseen world. She stops … resting once again. He says, “I’m the idiot …”, and she says, “NO … I do not claim it, and I do not perceive it to be you.” She breathes as she watches the night behind closed eyes. He continues, “… a terrible mistake.” She wonders who they speak of when they say, ‘Jacobs family’.
Jacob experienced a vision of a ladder, or staircase, reaching into heaven with angels going up and down it, commonly referred to as “Jacob’s Ladder”. He heard the voice of God, who repeated many of the blessings upon him, coming from the top of the ladder.
According to Midrash Genesis Rabbah, the ladder signified the exiles that the Jewish people would suffer before the coming of theJewish Messiah: the angels that represented the exiles of Babylonia, Persia, and Greece each climbed up a certain number of steps, paralleling the years of the exile, before they “fell down”; but the angel representing the last exile, that of Edom, kept climbing higher and higher into the clouds. Jacob feared that his descendants would never be free of Esau’s domination, but God assured him that at the End of Days, Edom too would come falling down.
It is so difficult to see what our governing bodies have allowed to happen in this world, to know the harms they have permitted to come to all life. Greed and the need for power are so ugly, and all the while they smile as though they are helping people, helping the animals, the land and the sea … the air we breathe, cleansed by failing forests which are depleted from destructive land usage.
I have purchased Bamboo toothbrushes and will continue to buy bamboo toilet paper to lessen my impact on the forests. I bought a water distiller and a stainless steel water bottle and stopped buying bottled water some time ago.
Plastic MUST go! Life of everything rides on the immediate decisions we make, all of us who do not make changes in our habits are responsible for this destruction. Life will cease if we refuse to care, and act accordingly.
In my life it has been made clear time after time that I am not quite what someone else wants in their life. I have often berated myself, accusing myself of not being good enough. I have experienced much pain due to rejection.
In my now it has been made more clear than ever that although I may not possess the qualities others perceive might benefit their lives, I do have every quality that can benefit my own.
A life lived in the attempt to be all that others think I should be has led to much heartache, for I will never be able to live up to so many peoples differing ideas about what that looks like. Better to work towards pleasing ONE (me) than the many.
I have shut the door, for now, on folks who are not willing to keep it open for me. Instead of always trying to enter their lives and be what is pleasing to them, and being rejected, I stop trying, and it is apparent they have no intention of trying to meet half way. Too much of myself winds up in disappointment as rejection of my personality is stated and made clear, so I focus on loving me. Who can do it better?
I have lost a lot of time training to be my best friend, while trying to be that to others, and failing. As time on this earth is not foreseen or guaranteed, I will not waste any more of it. Loving others from a distance, while loving myself up close and personal, is where this life is going to be spent.
Those who feel the same about the environment and other topics I care deeply about, will be there. SO … focusing on issues that are important to me, ME being one of them, and reclaiming the wasted energy of attempted people pleasing, will allow room for those who are of the same capacities as myself.
With patience and honor for self, I provide nurturing in my home, and when that cup runeth over, it will spill goodness into the outer, for that is what I cultivate here.