And The Sky Opened

Published September 19, 2018 by tindertender

“She has the strength of a thousand suns”, they said … or was it only herself speaking? What is it like, knowing life is so … very … large? What is perceived with the mind through emotion is just the tip of the iceberg. Life is much more vast than that small understanding. It is so large, understanding ceases to exist!

Uncovering the inner most portions of self is like the best present ever! There is a time when you may feel like you “know” you … but didn’t you feel the same ten years ago? And are you that same person you were then?

This package we were born into holds treasures beyond words.

On the job site, or in relationships of all kinds, there may be a ‘holding back’ of heartfelt ideas or desires. There may be a twinge of fear, or shame attached to it. Through life others may have instilled the idea that the sweet inner fire of you is a thing that should be doused.

Underneath the programming, when the heart and the inner parts of self are delved in to, beautiful surprises begin to show up. When opportunity arises to try something new … one day, rather than saying no thanks, instead the answer may be, “Why not? I may not be good at it, but I might just be, as well!” And the effort is made, and the answer as to whether it is something one would wish to add to the tool belt of knowledge is discovered.

Try, try, try again. All that which does not harm self or others, when opportunity arises, try it.

How many gifts will you discover buried ‘neath that barrier that has been created? Are you a painter, a writer, a food preserver, a gardener, a medicine man, or woman?

In life, attention is often on finding the treasures within others, our partner, children, friends, acquaintances. Very rarely does one look inside for the treasure, they’ve instead taken on others opinions of what their personal treasure is, or is not.

Solitude is a blessing, even if only an hour a day. Sit, quietly with personal thoughts and see what relations on the “larger side of life” may offer you.

You just might be surprised.

Does Life Evolve Outside Of Time?

Published September 18, 2018 by tindertender

Does a light being need to be birthed inside of time to generate massive spiritual growth, or does life evolve outside of time as well? If it does, are the lessons learned as intense, or extreme, or are lessons learned more slowly? Is there such a thing as slow or quick when outside of time?

I’m curious why their seem to be so many felines in the spiritual realms. Rarely do canines show up, at least for me. Strange how I happen to really love canines and have never been a cat person … although that happens to be my sign.

I’ve heard it said that when this life ends one ought to enter ‘the light’. I recall a time before time where I walked straight into the path of the sun … right into this life. Perhaps that is what walking into the light really is, an entry from spirit into time, and from time into spirit.

Perhaps this is why the sun has been worshipped for so long, it is the gateway to and from this world and others.

It just occurred to me that my Snowy girl is 11 years old. She’s been slowing down and I wonder how much more time we have together. My Toby is one year behind her. It is sad to think of the day when they will leave me behind on their journey to the sun.

Is it possible to love sufficiently? I mean, is it possible to do it just right? I think of the walks that I have not taken my pups on and knowing how much they love that, I’m sad. Working full time and then living in an area where so many people keep their dogs off leash makes it very difficult. I do not like being in the middle of dog fights.

Divine nature has blessed me with this time … for in less than four years my pups will most likely be gone, and this world will be in for a real ‘treat’ … or should I say, surprise. I’m not quite sure what that will be, but it’s coming, nonetheless.

Healthy vs Sick

Published September 16, 2018 by tindertender

The difference between people in a healthy world full of relationships, is in the ‘healthy’ see potential in others and situations, whereas the ‘unhealthy’ search themselves, others and everything else for what they see as lack.

This world is very sick right now. We’ve been bred and trained to see lack in our self, in others, and in every situation we may be part of.

It is up to the individual to break the mold and rebuild their training, searching for potential in everything instead.

When we see our self in the mirror, if there are any thoughts of negativity directed at that image, at self, then immediate and hard work must be done to counter those ideas. It’s difficult, but necessary to break the cycle.

When one can finally look in the mirror and like the person they see … not all about the ‘looks’, but the strength behind the eyes, the endurance while wearing a smile through all trials, if anyone comes along to try and tear down that fresh new view, walk away from them quick.

No one has the right to tell you who you are, how strong you are, or what potential you have … that is for you to decide … or to one day ‘find out’.

Even when not making a decision, a decision is made. Be present.

Weather Manipulation

Published September 16, 2018 by tindertender

Ships are now beginning to spray ‘salt water’ into the air to try and manipulate the weather.

We can see from these videos that tests on what causes warming vs those chemicals and particles which cause cooling have been underway for some time.

My concern is, that the testing they’ve done and found to actually cause ‘warming’ may have done irreversible damage. Yet they continue to mix different concoctions and spray into the atmosphere in the attempt to get the perfect combination of chemicals to ‘cool’ this ailing planet.

Are they unaware that the forests that are earths ‘natural cooling system’ are dying due to the chemicals they’ve been spraying in order to control the weather?

If the forests are continued to be cut down, it will not matter how many chemicals they use to create ‘rain’. Their money would be better spent to create healthy and full growing forests to replace what we’ve cut down and destroyed.

My opinion is they’re worrying about the rain and global warming instead of going to the ‘root’ of the problem and replenishing the earths natural cooling system.

Support the planet, let the earth do it job. Give it back its trees. Stop poisoning the earth and its soils and waters.

Feelings

Published September 16, 2018 by tindertender

What are you feeling? These types of questions can take time to answer.

Last night I joined a drum circle and met a man who does Shaman work. Considering the energies I’m experiencing I am thinking of sitting with him awhile, should his initial observation convince me I ought to.

My auric photo from 2016 and the one recently taken has shown the energies of my ‘field’ have changed pretty dramatically. Although I feel better now than I did then, there is much work to be done.

Aura 2016 & 2018

What am I feeling? Right now I feel a ‘pinch’ in the shoulder blades across the upper back. During drumming last night I felt a lot of release of the ‘pressures’ in head and heart areas, but as soon as the drumming was over and I was headed home an intense pressure came once more in my heart space. (This is not medical, for I’ve done the tests that show heart is not under stress).

Energy … it gets stuck every now and again. There are ‘others’ who work in our inner energetic spaces remotely. Some ask our permission, and others … well, they take liberties.

Physical sensations we have are not always explainable by our doctors. They do not know of the spiritual attachments we gain over time. All they can do is prescribe a drug to counteract the affects of the base cause.

Back to “what am I feeling” … I am grateful for community, for seeing the beauty in people who come to gather in spirit and walls come ‘tumbling down’ as we interact with each other. Most of all I’m quite happy to be alive, and have opportunity to choose what I will contribute to this world, consciously, aware.

I would need to focus in depth to know what one feeling leads to, a deeper, more inset feeling that perhaps isn’t thought of consciously … but for now, I’ll leave it at this.

Too Much Woman

Published September 16, 2018 by tindertender

Too Much Woman

There she is. . . the “too much” woman. The one who loves too hard, feels too deeply, asks too often, desires too much.

There she is taking up too much space, with her laughter, her curves, her honesty, her sexuality. Her presence is as tall as a tree, as wide as a mountain. Her energy occupies every crevice of the room. Too much space she takes.

There she is causing a ruckus with her persistent wanting, too much wanting. She desires a lot, wants everything—too much happiness, too much alone time, too much pleasure. She’ll go through brimstone, murky river, and hellfire to get it. She’ll risk all to quell the longings of her heart and body. This makes her dangerous.

She is dangerous.

And there she goes, that “too much” woman, making people think too much, feel too much, swoon too much. She with her authentic prose and a self-assuredness in the way she carries herself. She with her belly laughs and her insatiable appetite and her proneness to fiery passion. All eyes on her, thinking she’s hot shit.

Oh, that “too much” woman. . . too loud, too vibrant, too honest, too emotional, too smart, too intense, too pretty, too difficult, too sensitive, too wild, too intimidating, too successful, too fat, too strong, too political, too joyous, too needy—too much. She should simmer down a bit, be taken down a couple notches.

Someone should put her back in a more respectable place. Someone should tell her.

Here I am. . . the Too Much Woman, with my too-tender heart and my too-much emotions.

A hedonist, feminist, pleasure seeker, empath. I want a lot—justice, sincerity, spaciousness, ease, intimacy, actualization, respect, to be seen, to be understood, your undivided attention, and all of your promises to be kept.

I’ve been called high maintenance because I want what I want, and intimidating because of the space I occupy. I’ve been called selfish because I am self-loving. I’ve been called a witch because I know how to heal myself.

And still. . . I rise. Still, I want and feel and ask and risk and take up space.
I must.

Us Too Much Women have been facing extermination for centuries—we are so afraid of her, terrified of her big presence, of the way she commands respect and wields the truth of her feelings. We’ve been trying to stifle the Too Much Woman for eons — in our sisters, in our wives, in our daughters. And even now, even today, we shame the Too Much Woman for her bigness, for her wanting, for her passionate nature.

And still. . . she thrives.

In my own world and before my very eyes, I am witnessing the reclamation and rising up of the Too Much Woman. That Too Much Woman is also known to some as Wild Woman or the Divine Feminine. In any case, she is me, she is you, and she is loving that she’s finally, finally getting some airtime.

If you’ve ever been called “too much,” or “overly emotional,” or “bitchy,” or “stuck up,” you are likely a Too Much Woman.

And if you are. . . I implore you to embrace all that you are—all of your depth, all of your vastness; to not hold yourself in, and to never abandon yourself, your bigness, your radiance.

Forget everything you’ve heard—your too muchness is a gift; oh yes, one that can heal, incite, liberate, and cut straight to the heart of things.

Do not be afraid of this gift, and let no one shy you away from it. Your too muchness is magic, is medicine. It can change the world.

So please, Too Much Woman: Ask. Seek. Desire. Expand. Move. Feel. Be.

Make your waves, fan your flames, give your chills.

~~~ Ev’yan Whitney

Planetary Offense

Published September 15, 2018 by tindertender
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There has been much talk of ‘devils’ over the years. What if they are simply displaced souls from another planet, a planet that was destroyed in war? What if the very same ‘people’ who destroyed that planet are here, doing the same? (Or attempting to).

What if the story of ‘devils’ was created to limit, or stop altogether, communications which have potential of saving this planet and life upon it? What if there are impostors, pretending to be devils, so that when communication finally comes from those out of body trying to help, they are mimicked, and communication turns bad, solidifying in mind the ‘reality’ of devils?

I’m beginning to think devils walk among us, not unseen, but in body … and they mean to poison every aspect of life on this planet, making it impossible for life to flourish. They mean to turn life against itself, in all forms, imploding … and if life doesn’t, they have ideas to explode it.

What if they succeed? What if we, too, find ourselves on another planet undergoing the same scenario and we try to help but are without body, and life upon that planet has been trained to believe we are ‘devils’

Are planets being systematically destroyed?
Why is there so much intensity around finding other planets with life?

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