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Picture Perfect Stay In The Woods

Published October 14, 2018 by tindertender

Saturday was my day. I had a reservation to stay the night in a tree house, I won it in this summers company picnic raffle. Check-in wasn’t until four pm so I decided to go for a hike up a mountain. Boy, that really was something!

The views were beautiful, but after a mile climb up this steep, 3.8 mile trail I decided to visit the museum … haha.

The Interpretive Center had a story to tell.

They knew that the influx of population was damaging the plentiful flow of fish (among other life) yet they continued doing what they were doing anyway.

There was much beauty before, and also after, ‘civilization’ arrived.

I decided I would head on up the hill to the tree house. I was relieved to be able to check in 30 minutes early. This place has no TV, telephone or WiFi, so for the most part, I was there 30 feet in the air, in a cabin wrapped around, and anchored from, this beautiful tree.

I walked in to this house built around a tree and found … peace. A view of the mountains across the wide, beautiful water presented itself to me as if to say, “Welcome Home.”

I opened all windows and sat admiring the mountain and river view as the breeze poured inside the room.

Juniper Beatles are in season. There were hundreds of them! They were flitting this way and that. They are so beautiful. When they spread their wings the sun shines through them revealing a vibrant red color. This season is not for those who have the heeby jeebies around flying things. I captured the many that were in the house and released them outside.

The tree house gently swayed in the breeze. There is a sign posted inside near the door which reads, ” Be good to the tree, it is holding you up.”

I brought my music player with me but turned it off … the one sound from the city.

I decided to sit with my back against this huge, 42″ diameter tree. I asked it to recycle my breath, and my energies. I couldn’t help but also ask how it felt about being such a lovely tree surrounded by brothers and sisters who had been defiled, in a way … cut, shaped, sanded, bolted and nailed. I am curious if they are still in relation now that some no longer have roots.

I stepped outside for a view of the big rock faces and the walking path. Amazing how things look when the shadows begin to fall.

I prepared my dinner and sat back to enjoy the view.

Next morning, as the sun rose higher I watched as the trees danced in the wind. I can feel the sway of the tree, as the house moves with its ‘host’.

I peeled myself an orange for breakfast to eat with some cheese and crackers. I drank my water and watched as the forest came awake with the rising sun.

As I drove away, not ready to leave but the city called me home, I stopped and looked at the tree house from below. I saw that this majestic tree had also been defiled. Hooks were buried deep into it and cables attached from them going everywhere. The weight of this building hung from, and rested upon huge metal rods buried deep into the trees flesh.

Inside, there was only one spot that bled sap. The tree outside, in the walkway, bled huge amounts of sap, all the way around it. This tree house probably won’t last 1 or 2 more decades.

This is the first time I actually got to sleep 30 feet up into a tree. Yes, I was in a cabin, some people have done it without shelter!

I hope others will be able to stay at least one night in a tree house during their life. It’s really something to go to bed and then wake up seeing this beautiful tree, giving of itself to steady you and shelter you as you walk around it.

It is amazing how the heart and mind heals when surrounded by the forest, especially when part of the forest sleeps with you.

Changing the Brain

Published October 7, 2018 by tindertender

You’ve probably heard it said that if you believe something is true, it is. Dr Joe Dispenza is an extraordinary man with real life experience. He’s been studying the body mind connection for at least two decades. Below are a couple interviews of him explaining how things actually work.

This journey is one in which all people can explore, and create. Changing the synapses of the brain is absolutely doable, and the future can be very bright indeed.

Time Structures and Hidden Love

Published October 7, 2018 by tindertender

I finally found the love for an abuser in my past. I remembered while soaking in a mineral bath this morning the sorrow I felt for him when he told me he watched his house burn, and his mother was inside. I remember the damage that it must have done to his young heart and mind, and how he found it impossible to be nice to women he was intimate with. I was of the belief he blamed her for running back into the house, for leaving him, and therefore he took it out on the women he had relations with. I could have been completely wrong, but this is where my love for him lay. To find it today is in a way a sense of closure, for I thought up until then I despised him. So nice to find the love in my heart was still there.

I also found love in my heart for a female who was abusive as she played the role of ‘baby sitter’ in my youth. She never would have done the things she did if she, too, had not been victimized and abused. I was able to forgive her, and find compassion for her inner child.

And me … that beautiful child I once was who loved dancing in the rain, feeding the cows, picking flowers and appreciating them not for their smell, for often they did not smell real good, but for their beauty. She loved the potato bugs that were always between the grass and the driveway cement, butterflies and cherry blossoms and wind and blue skies. She loved haunted houses, one of which was at the end of the street, she was able to stay the night there, sleeping under the kitchen table, for things were always thrown around in the night by the unseen. She loved bumble bees and laughter and helping peel potatoes. Oh beautiful girl, I love you so much. Your faith in love and joy were incredible.

For years now I have been surrounded by those in a Council Circle, female, male, and male child to the left, two males to the right, and crying boy in the center at the outside of the circle, as well as many others who are on the outside edges of the circle. They have a lot of discussion going on, looking for something that will end this cycle they find themselves in.

I saw myself as an antennae, one armed raised, palm up and flat receiving light from the heavens, and one arm down, hand bent and palm flat with the earth, another beam of light blasting into the soil on which I stood, uniting Heaven and Earth with an amazing channel of light.

A little surprised, the knowing that I Am Many came to mind. I visualized the child, the young girl, the young woman, the woman, and the older me of the future. We were standing in a circle around the council circle shown above, and we held hands while we smiled at those in the inner circle, moving in a counter clockwise motion.

It seemed a little strange that we moved in a counter-clockwise manner. Could it be we were unwinding time, and experiences? Undoing wrongs that had been done?

Circumambulation is done in a clockwise movement, many religions do this in worship, or to ward off evil.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Circumambulation

Widdershins is what the counter-clockwise movement is called. In Judaism sometimes circles are walked in this manner. “The twentieth-century German-Jewish philosopher Franz Rosenzweig suggested that the secret to returning to Judaism is to connect to Jewish time. The Sabbaths and the Festivals structure life; they transform time that is otherwise constructed on the basis of secular obligations and opportunities into sacred time.”

http://www.orzarua.org/Orot5768_HJWechsler_Counterclockwise.pdf

Perhaps there is much more to be discovered in this consciousness. Knowing that I Am Many, I can visualize different aspects of myself during this life, as we hold hands and move in this circular motion. Maybe one day I will come to understand the actual meaning of this ‘dance’.

Until then, I’ll be working on my visualization techniques. After all, if you can visualize the mountain as moving, then it will.

Large Life

Published October 2, 2018 by tindertender

It is quite interesting that I should come across this video this morning.

I will never forget being so afraid of what was ‘outside’ that I sat frozen ‘inside’. I had to urinate so badly that I finally said to myself, fine, if someone or something ends my life when I walk out these doors, so be it … I walked outside, and no one was there to harm me. I walked straight into my overwhelming fear and found it to be nil.

As time progresses I find that the reactions I receive from people are me from a previous time in life. I often find myself saying that was me when … I behaved just like that!

I resonate with what she says about the spirit being sort of separate from every day life … and still I watch as it is uniting with all else as well. It is taking time, but it is happening.

The running away she mentions is so true! I ran and ran and ran, and then I got tired of running, I got tired of the same old story playing out in my life. So I dealt with the pain, I stopped all the things I used to do to try and bury the pain and the shame. I then began to understand that what happened to me was not anything but experiencing others in this world … their story, their journey did not belong to me, it was only experienced by me. This brought much relief and freedom. Of course the understanding never ends, it morphs as it needs to, in time.

The union of vibratory structures, bodies and colors extends beyond that which we can see. It is amazing how large this life really is.

Rebirth

Published September 28, 2018 by tindertender

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Judgement is simply the return to Self of that which Self has given forth. From the mountaintop, you can look back and see the footprints of your path through the snowy valley of life. Here, your heart can open to all, for you to see clearly from on high. No anger is stored. No judgement is hidden. Now, you have learned to express what needs to be expressed, to empty the heart and open its doors for true love to enter.

If not able to fully utilize your stores of nourishment for self and others, go and prepare a nurturing space. Renew yourself. Get what you need to fill your space and feel good about sharing once again with others. Your life is designed to bring you into constant relationship. Each relationship is a chance to act as if you are serving the Divine Being by serving that Light which is each human and creatures presence.

Shed old habits of death and destruction through a simple turning of mind toward ‘rebirth’. This is the power of regeneration, the turning point. Free yourself from the limitations of circumstances.

You may want to write poetry, paint, act, sing and/or dance. You may begin to feel as though you are a child yourself. You may actually begin to see the Kingdom of God is within you. Let your heart be light, you are the new sun, Christ consciousness reborn on Earth this day.

Nurture and Grow

Published September 26, 2018 by tindertender

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You are a keeper of the planet.  You are adept in the use of your creative/spiritual energy. You have gained access to power. Your challenge is to handle it humbly, considering the good of all. Use your power to acknowledge the Source, to herald the dawn of a peaceful age, to uplift those who cannot yet see. Use your power to heal, to love unconditionally. This is the prime of your energy. You must not deny self, but merely find the right channel for expanding.

Pay attention to ‘life’ all around you … those walking, those flying, those crawling. Watch their seasons, and learn from their behaviors. Honor them, as well as yourself. Give yourself time alone with the quiet of the wind. Blend with the waters and the foods the earth provides, be one with this amazing life. Nurture the young ones, for they will one day be nurturers of you. Discern between those playing falsely, and those living in truth. Be keen on the energetic output of self and others. Balance the forces that swim in your arena, get to know them, move them about, settle them when they uprise. Respect the ancestors, the elders, for they have already walked this journey and have much to teach. Be willing to listen.

Asking Questions ~ Working For Peace

Published September 25, 2018 by tindertender

What is true for me?

Asking questions of self can be a liberating exercise. The answers which come out first are only an entry point into deeper meaning and realizations.

For instance, I might say that what is true for me is a desire for family. True family. In my past there were many step fathers and step siblings, they came and went as the wind blew it seems. But deeper than that …

I desire a sense of belonging. We don’t always get to choose who our ‘family’ is, but when the day comes that we are able to choose, sometimes we have to let go of that which was chosen for us.

Truth for me is a longing of connection to those who appreciate the earth and the ancestors, who respect each others decisions, even though we may not always agree.

Freedom, to be and to do what our ‘heart-speak’ whispers to us, as long as it is not harmful or deceitful. Yes, our heart-speak may not be what someone elses heart-speak is, and it may hurt the feelings of another especially if they are smitten with us, but honoring each others heart-speak is essential … for it is this freedom which allows our soul to grow.

Pain cracks open the heart, and what happens to a seed when it ‘cracks open’? It blooms, it grows, in a way that it never would have been able to if it had not been cracked.

Free-will allows us to choose whether we would have this crack ooze poison, or a healing salve which creates a beautiful experience, enriching life and offering possibilities to grow, and to harness strength.

Remaining open after a heart crack is a challenge, but it provides extreme beauty if we are willing to move with it, forward into the next opportunity for love.

So, what is true for me? I long for love, for peace, for belonging, and so I work to cultivate it … I love who I am today, more now than before all of the heart break and rejection. I have discovered that the beauty within me only became richer by my experiences and losses. Even today, I embrace those who deny me opportunity, for I know that the time will come when all will flow quite nicely.

Patience, this is key to all things. Trust in the grander scheme, the higher plan. Humanity cannot possibly know what this is, but it always seems to work out that every need is met (even when we are living in our car, yes, I’ve been there).

Connecting Heaven and Earth is a wonderful thought, and totally possible. Effort is needed, for this connection happens through the human body and mind. If we are wiling to try, if we want it to be, it will be.

Here is an exercise for morning and night and any time you feel the need to fill up or recharge or get grounded. I did this in the restroom yesterday afternoon, it was a great break from number crunching, and brought a sense of peace in the middle of my day … and no one even knew I did it.

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