Courage

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The Sleeping Giant

Published November 6, 2017 by tindertender

Inner PowerShe walked beside her, listening as she was being verbally attacked. She felt her blood turning within and then … something snapped. She leaned into the verbal spewing, it seemed she grew 3 inches, shoulders broadening. The eyes of the one spraying poison from her mouth widened, she became silent.

This strange and terrifying energy is ‘in check’ most of life, never exploding in an effort to do harm, yet it is available for use in the need of defense.

He began the beating, and growing tired of this repetitive mess she retaliated. She threw everything she had into letting him know this was not going to be tolerated any longer, he ran from her as she beat him about the head and neck with her stick. He never thought he would bear witness to this wild defense, he was taken aback, this tough man. Witnesses told her of it afterward, she had no memory of it.

This world is full of those who give no mind to what they put into it, they take and take, they harm and continue, as long as no one stops them. The intensity of their venom grows stronger as the masses are led to believe they must be silent, that they somehow deserve it, that it is their lot in life to be abused.

She found herself alone, after all the energy she poured into helping another receive what was needed. She spilled her life force so thoroughly that she was completely depleted. Even after all was said and done, he could not stay. He left her to pick up the pieces of what remained of a fragmented self, to put it back together. One trauma after another occurred and she wondered what it all meant. Slowly, she began to understand that she needed to put herself first. She knew then, that self care is not selfish.

Sleeping GiantOur best friend is the sleeping giant within our core. The innermost portion of our being is so large. Perhaps you have said it yourself, “I am larger than life!” Many of us have stated this, as though it is an embedded bit of knowledge, a truth, that we know for certain. This majesty which is us waits to be recognized, not with arrogance, but to be embraced with the authority we possess already.

There are those who have worked very hard at maintaining a fear based, pain related society. They plan, and then carry out agendas which are shocking and spark outrage, followed by pleas of the people to have more of their rights taken … shrinking the already constricting cages they dwell in. They manipulate the minds of folks and make them believe they actually want to live within these bonds.

If only you knew how great you are. If only you would sit in stillness for a time and feel the blood pulse through your veins. If only you would notice the power of this life force within you. You would then know that you need not fight for anything, for you already have everything you need.

Freedom ~ Breaking The Binds

Published November 6, 2017 by tindertender

Silence isn't empty

In the beginning humanity lived with a pure heart, joy filled and kind. In naivete they trusted and fell into that which causes unsettling emotions, predicaments arose which stripped them of surety and peace. As time continued, these defensive habits, practiced and utilized in order to form a barrier of perceived protection, were taught to others, ‘improved’ upon, the wall between each individual growing ever thicker.

Soon, people peered at each other with a paranoid fear, assuming that whoever they came into contact with had the intention of harming them. Their shields would raise and they would close off from them, staying in the dream they created within their own minds.

When they closed off, living decidedly in fear, they also closed off all possibility of love reaching them, they became trapped in an invisible cage. This cage, filled with pain and fear prohibits them from coming into the fullness of their being. They are afraid of being vulnerable, they are afraid of being hurt, they no longer take risks.

This mess we find ourselves in is stifling, yet it is still possible to break free from the bindings … we need no key, we need no permission, it is our right and all we must do is choose it.

Great courage is found in the hearts that are willing to stand in vulnerability. It is true that there will be those who throw invisible darts and attempt to get you to shrink, to retreat into the little cage once again. But you remember … you remember that joy is outside of these walls, you remember that there is true love waiting for you here. You have missed it so much, and you now know that only you are preventing the truth of it, and the experience of its reality.

And so you commit to feeling the pain, you know it well. You commit to it, for you know that on the other side is limitless love, and until you wade through that which causes suffering, you will not find it.

Your courage is commendable, for in your brave endeavors you show others how to unleash that which binds them. You provide hope as you present a path of release. You assist the world on its journey back to freedom, you grow compassionate understanding and the ability to rise, and to assist others in rising, with every step you take.

Cycle Of Pain

Published November 3, 2017 by tindertender

broken heartThe smell of a “too hot” cast iron skillet is pretty awful, I thought it was the worst of the day. I went to bed and my dogs decided I only needed 12″ of the mattress to sleep on, so I got up. That topped the cast iron “too hot” smell. But then … a complete stranger living with the pain of ancestors trauma decided to take out hatred and anger on me for no reason, insinuating I must be putrid. This is the icing on the evenings cake, and it is sad, for there are many hearts who are in the grip of this horrible pain, and the only solution they have to deal with it is lashing out and blaming others … others who had no part in the history made.

We are in the midst of creating history this very moment. To make this tale a good one, we must stop with the continuation of the old stories, the old experiences, we must build a new life which starts from square one. Out with the old, in with the new.

It is scary, for this pain has become the only friend some people have. For many years it kept me company, and anger was there too. I have had my fill of these two, they do not belong in the world I live in now, nor are they invited into my future.

Hurt people hurt others, until they decide they have had enough.

My hope is that it becomes easier for us all to accept the credit we deserve for the energies we put into the world. Healing the old stories in our personal lives will assist the ancestors in their own release … if this is something you can relate to. The cycle must end somewhere, and it will … whether we determine the change, or are given it.

Step Into Power

Published October 31, 2017 by tindertender

“You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something, build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete.”
     ~R. Buckminster Fuller

“We cannot be sovereign if we do not hold ourselves in the highest esteem, which we means we love, honor, and respect ourselves unconditionally.”
     ~ Jennifer Hoffman

As creator beings we have the power to alter the futures path … currently, it doesn’t look so great, however, within you, there IS greatness. 

Every one of us walking the planet loves life. Even when we are in our worst despair, we still love life, for we choose to suffer, rather than leave. Now, what if we decided that suffering is no longer an option? What if we decide that in order to change, we begin by altering our own reality … by taking a course, for instance …

“You are going to learn super fine and powerful tools to maintain your own energy economy. That’s very stimulating for your health and well-being.

You’ll find that you really get into your strength and you get a sharper image of what life actually content and the choices you actually have.

Society has shown us that we have much less freedom than we actually have, and when it comes to shove, it is all for itself.

From 5 November, you will experience how to grow from equality and freedom. You’re not alone in this, but you’ll always be able to fall back on people who are in a similar process like you.

We have a special group of people rising freely regularly updates and discussed new methods.”

People Rising Freely!

There are still a few places available so you’d like to join the workshop mail then to teameaseupyourlife@gmail.com

#couragemylove

Published October 21, 2017 by tindertender

Bird with key

Yesterday I got a message from someone
who told me they were raped at 7
And a woman who found out her husband
had another family
I got a message from a girl who said
her brother had touched her for 14 years
And a mother who confessed
she had beaten her daughter regularly
when she was just a baby

Tuesday I woke up to a photo
of someone’s severely undernourished body
asking me if she had to eat today
And my Instagram inbox was flooded
with excruciating pictures
of sliced up arms and inner thighs
and pleas dripping in agony
and unanswerable questions like
“why me, I can’t stop hurting”

People are in suffering
a lot
It blows me away
what we humans endure

What we face in our day to days
is often unspeakable
and so we push things deep

The challenge is
sometimes we forget
where we put things

Sometimes we forget
we got hurt
and didn’t feel

So in the busy
when something gets hit
when we get triggered
and we go down
we are not clear
how one little thing
can feel like the world is ending

I have been playing with this lately

When I get upset
I tend to quickly,
often carelessly
assume why

I will look around me
and assign something
or someone
to that feeling

Now…
This makes me feel better
at least temporarily
because, I think,
“now I know!”
But it’s often not accurate
And it certainly creates separation
when I am constantly
making everything
about something outside of me

It justifies itself
and then conveniently
I don’t have to look at myself
I don’t have to dig deep
Heck,
all I have to do
is fix the thing outside of me

But that hasn’t been working
not lately
And I think it’s mostly because
it’s me
just me
that’s freaking

And while yes, things are triggering me
the work isn’t so much
about changing everything around me
but looking at
what keeps getting hit
in me

Hard things happen
to most of us
at some point

We get wounded
And then we get to choose…

Do we spend a lifetime
wondering “why me”
feeling pity
Or do we learn to be okay
again
and again

It feels as simple
and challenging as that

And…
I am pretty sure
there is no gray zone here
there is no “kinda trying”

Healing takes commitment,
time and energy
And you either choose to see it through
Or you spend your life trying to manage
the world around you
so you know you will be okay
constantly fearing
the next shoe to drop
the next hand to slip
the next fracture
that will only confirm
what you are starting to believe is true…
There is no one as messed up
as you

If we all were actually open and honest
I think we would be shocked by
what is really going on
for most people
on the inside

I am lucky
I get access
a lot more than most

People share their deepest
darkest, tenderest secrets with me
daily

I am moved
regularly
by what I see, hear, read

And it reminds me
over and over and over again
that we all have
our silent sorrows

And it reinvigorates me
to do my work
to do the work to be
to be
with more
more easily

Because my rope
got frayed badly
these last few years
So even the slightest weight
or pull
has me questioning
if I can make it through
or if this time
my rope will break in two

And I am pretty sure
that all my bracing
isn’t helping

I have been noticing
how much I find myself
literally bracing often
My jaw instinctively clenched
my hands trembling slightly
my mind racing
searching for any indication
this isn’t going to be okay
that I am not going to be okay

And the worst part is
I know this isn’t effective
We will always find evidence
for what we focus on

Healing, I find, is a balance
A balance
between trusting
and listening

I think my fear has been
that if I am not careful
I will keep repeating
the same missteps
I will keep choosing
things that deeply hurt me
I will keep being disappointed
in me

And I genuinely feel
that I am touching tired
in a way that has me feeling
significantly less resiliency

So I get it…
I get why we get paralyzed
and freeze
I understand why we aren’t sure
if we want to try again

But I also see
nothing but suffering
when we decide
there is no hope for me

So while I cannot tell you
why something happened to you

And while you cannot go back in time
and change anything
You can choose
today and everyday
to never let
anyone
or anything
ever
reduce
you

You my friend
get to choose
Be un-reducible

❤️ Emily Joy Rosen

#couragemylove #justwakingup #healinghearts #secretkeepers

[o] Painting by: Christian Schloe

Heart Healing

Published October 8, 2017 by tindertender

“In the depths of the darkness of your soul, when you are fighting with the demon of anger or hatred or shame, when all succor seems a far and distant oasis, have you ever felt that the feeling was bigger than you? You know you are right, for when we are pushed to the depth of our limits of despair, when we are moved to the height of suffering and pain, there we attune with ‘collective suffering’. This vale of tears is an archetypal well of remembrance, a place where the demons of corruption lie.

This is why it is our destiny to heal ourselves with courage, mercy, refinement and grace. For when we do heal, our brothers and sisters heal too. When we experience truth, inspiration and sincerity, we feel illumination seeping through the very morrow of our bones. Therefore, our soul tingles, our heart resounds and all ‘heart stabs’ are cleansed …

… We’re really not so separate from this peace. We just think we are.”

~ Stewart Pearce, The Heart’s Note

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