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Forgiving Self

Published September 28, 2018 by tindertender

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If one lives long enough, and they are willing to look at their past deeds, there will inevitably be something in that time-line which is difficult to come to terms with … some hurt that may have been done to someone, abortion/murder, rape … fear, sorrow, anger and guilt which surrounds these things can seem impossible to shed, or to ‘reconcile’.

This is my current journey. Finding a way to forgive self is a challenge. It is said that we are our own worst judge. I’m not too sure of that, but I do know it has been impossible to heal the pain of some actual events in my life … I know also that I am not the only one who has this dilemma.

As I reach out for assistance in this matter, my hope is that one day I’ll be able to free myself from constant punishment, remorse and guilt. Society has a tendency to affirm judgement that people may have laid upon themselves (and absorbed from others), rather than try to understand, and assist in healing.

These pains we carry with us must be mended, reconciled and healed if there is any glimmer of hope for a better tomorrow, and future. Pain, suspicion, fear and guilt keep us in a perpetual cycle of doom and gloom, making it impossible to gain higher vibration, no matter what practices are used in the attempt to raise it.

If, when you look at past experiences, you find it difficult to forgive yourself I encourage you to seek assistance from someone who may be able to help … this is what I am going to do. Life is too short, and these burdens are heavy. Perhaps in self healing, the aid we can bring to others and the world will be amplified.

Nurture and Grow

Published September 26, 2018 by tindertender

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You are a keeper of the planet.  You are adept in the use of your creative/spiritual energy. You have gained access to power. Your challenge is to handle it humbly, considering the good of all. Use your power to acknowledge the Source, to herald the dawn of a peaceful age, to uplift those who cannot yet see. Use your power to heal, to love unconditionally. This is the prime of your energy. You must not deny self, but merely find the right channel for expanding.

Pay attention to ‘life’ all around you … those walking, those flying, those crawling. Watch their seasons, and learn from their behaviors. Honor them, as well as yourself. Give yourself time alone with the quiet of the wind. Blend with the waters and the foods the earth provides, be one with this amazing life. Nurture the young ones, for they will one day be nurturers of you. Discern between those playing falsely, and those living in truth. Be keen on the energetic output of self and others. Balance the forces that swim in your arena, get to know them, move them about, settle them when they uprise. Respect the ancestors, the elders, for they have already walked this journey and have much to teach. Be willing to listen.

Commitments

Published September 14, 2018 by tindertender

What are you committed to?

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Photo by Rainier Ridao

This can feel like a loaded question. Often we are afraid to tell others what we are committed to, for inevitably there will be those who deem inappropriate or silly that which we deem important.

I ponder this question, and I know it is not something that can be answered in a matter of minutes, no … this one requires deep thought and consideration. Some of the things I am committed to:

My pets, my friends (which seem to be few), myself (not necessarily in this order, anymore). I am committed to speaking truth, to not baring false witness against anyone, to taking long hard looks into the depths of me and find out what is making me tick, where are my triggers, and how can I alleviate them.

I am committed to seeing beauty in this world that tries so hard to strip it from my view. I am committed to finding this same beauty in me, and blocking those who would have me see something else. I am dedicated to seeing the best potential in all situations and people, and if I cannot see it, then I turn away and try to remain silent so as not to cause damages I cannot see.

It is difficult to remain silent on subjects we see around this world, in the people, and what many do. The easiest way I have found is to turn it around and begin to reflect on what part of the outside world do I find within myself, and then mend that.

It is a daunting task, this shift creation, and it always begins and ends with our inner workings. It is all too easy to point fingers and say the blame, or problem, lies within someone else, or somewhere else … and quite difficult to find these things in our own being. Rarely does one choose to pick themselves apart, and it is no wonder. Most of life is built in defending ones self from the outward attacks of others, and so we lash out, giving what we receive.

Change comes in giving what we wish to receive, and no matter how often we are given the opposite, a continuation of goodness must be poured forth in order to change the balance of things. This ‘alchemy’ is the most difficult of all. It has taken lifetimes of training to get where we are, and to undo the learned habits will not be easy.

Only the true warrior will attempt it,
The rest will continue to shift responsibility to others,
Who are doing the same.

There are many tools to allow time and space to stand still for a moment, while we reflect on that which is needing attention, the mala and mantra, meditation, exercise, time in nature … knowledge brings us closer to our goals. Listen to Spirit, for what you need to know and understand is so desperately trying to reach you. Give it a chance.

Sense of Entitlement vs Reality

Published August 29, 2018 by tindertender

One of the males stated, “He’s entitled to that.” They make plans for when ‘they come back’. Getting ready for when they come ‘towards the finish’. Still, to this day, they have no regard for those who’s lives they have negatively affected, they actually are not entitled to anything, but that which they have meted out into the world, and to those lives which have been disrupted by their actions.

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Photo by Nicolas Ladino Silva

Those who plot an outcome are in for a big surprise. They obviously have not learned by now that the way to make Creator laugh is to ‘make plans’. The indigenous cultures know this, but most people in the world have been trained to ignore them and to proceed with ‘plans’ anyway.

It will come toppling down, as it must. Mankind needs to be reminded that their attempt to control this world and all in it … well … they must be reminded that they too, are part of this world which suffers from their decisions.

She sat upon the back of her stallion holding staff in her left hand. Fire was all around her, yet she, nor her ride were burned. They are about to leave the octagonal ‘garage’ they’ve been ‘parked’ in.

Never look behind me … this is the phrase to be remembered. Certainly, being aware of surroundings is important, but as far as the past goes, let it go. There will always be those who attempt to flip emotional triggers, they may even succeed. But with intention, these triggers can be healed, by understanding them, by seeing what caused them to be in the first place. This requires a deep inner journey, and it will not be easy … but in the end, well worth the effort for when you are able to release the need to react to others who willfully spend energies bringing others down, you will be free.

Patience is key, for change does not happen in a moment. It takes time, and fortunately, time is speeding up so change will be quicker. Know this, don’t give up when you are so tempted to do so. Keep going.

 

Defining Self

Published August 28, 2018 by tindertender

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How many people still equate “who they are” with their physical body, their job, or their possessions? Although I honestly believe the number is on the decline, there are still many who think of these things ‘as them’.

It can be difficult to look deep in to ones own psyche and take a good long, hard, honest look at what is there. Personally, I think those individuals who have are those who may be depressed … at first (been there). Yet it is also they who show the utmost bravery, for it takes a tremendous amount of courage to see truth, raw and bare. (The key is to not allow any other person define who we are).

Youth, remembering it I see clearly the flippant cocky way I once behaved. When I experience the same behavior from others today, it takes me right back. I think to myself, there must be a reason I’m being exposed to this right now … what have I to learn that I haven’t yet learned from those days? So I ponder it …

Not so much focused on what was said by another, but what I said … then, and now. What do my actions of past, and my responses of present have to teach me?

Well, I can assure you life is one grand affair! To be able to say I was young and naive, then hurt and depressed, beaten to the ground, then a fighter … cocky and … dare I say, cruel? Then lost in twilight zone, to now. Rebirthed, new, yet filled with so many memories of these roles I’ve held. So funny, and odd, to see an aspect of my younger self in action today, as a male no less!

It seems I am different, and I am, yet the memories remind me of what I hold inside, that which has formed my current reality.

And still, there are those in this world which make it their mission to tear down people, too afraid to tear down their own psyche, bust their egoic person right open and create a kinder, more connected, gentler self. Or perhaps they are still, only too stubborn, unable to see.

The day will come, if they make it. So many do not …

I’m curious what tomorrow brings for this world. I see the whole. It is so much bigger than my personal world … than any ‘personal space’.

Interaction ~ Memories ~ Contemplation

Published August 28, 2018 by tindertender

Ran into a young man on line today who I had never had interaction with before. He decided to throw insults at me. Pretty amazing … I remember being young. It isn’t always pretty.

Let’s see, he called me a jaded old lady, menopausal at the least, unable to attract a mate and reproduce, that I was not desirable in any way. He called me a fraud. Said I lived in a glass house and that I was an idiot. I guess he was insinuating I wasn’t worth a dam … but he has no idea.

Hopefully he lives long enough to realize his potential for good is as strong as his ability to throw slander at folks and potentially cause harm.

All this came about due to my questioning if any of the commenters on a post were human. They were talking about humanity as “they” were this and “they” were that.

Extremely interesting to have this blatant and obvious interaction with the youngster who bragged about his PhD as though that would prove him smart.

Let me just say this … if you go around bragging about your PhD, and then waste your ‘intelligence’ and effort on the attempt to make others feel bad about themselves, then you haven’t learned a dam thing about this life, and are in a complete and utter delusion.

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A look into the past, remembering what is was like to think I knew it all. I too was not the kindest person. But life taught me … boy how it taught me. When ego dies it is not an easy process, releasing that and finding what it means to practice, and be in humility is painful … at least it was for me. I really thought I would die, never being normal again to say the least. Yet here I am, alive … different than before, certainly. I also recognize there is so much more to learn, and life is about release, and accepting, a constant revolving flow.

I hope all the people who believe they have it ‘all figured out’ do not experience the reality of truth as extremely as I did, but for some, it may need to be that way. I hope they survive.

Patience, it is difficult to remember to practice it, as I face these ones, and as I learn … still learning … to breathe through the tension, and release once more, and as I continue the attempt of accepting others as they are, and myself as well.

Interview: Future Events

Published August 25, 2018 by tindertender

I went to a party, there were many in attendance. There was a table with a lamp on it without a shade, I turned it on. A fellow came and talked with me. I went into a sort of trance and started telling him things, answering questions. Afterward I mentioned to him I barely recollected what I had said. He stood in the kitchen somewhat silent. I asked him if he was afraid. He told me he had wished he hadn’t been in training during the time of ET’s(?) I asked his  friend who was also there, “He’s not afraid is he?” for he had sat down, still silent. I walked over to him, bending at the waste, putting my hands on his knees and asked him if he was afraid … then tooted. I laughed and said, “Whoops! Tooted!” People started to laugh, I stood and walked down the hall, hands over face, laughing, a little embarrassed. I really needed a snack, chocolate or something and I recalled seeing a pile of mini candy bars on that end table. I heard a woman say, “Laurie” and I answered, “What?” as I then realized I was sleeping, coming into wakefulness.

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It seems to me that there are remote viewers who wish to know things. They want to know of the ‘others’ intention, what their plans are. Apparently, whatever it was I had said wasn’t exactly comforting.

I sit here now, having typed the above just in time for it fades very quickly once alert, in conscious movement, distracted by everything else around me.

Before I had laid down for a nap I sat in my chair and heard the word, “Peacemaker”. I said, “No one is innocent, but perhaps the children, and animals.”

Humans have been trained from birth to behave as ‘parasites’, just like the original destroyers. I mentioned it might just be best to wipe humanity from the planet and try again, start over, with those who actually have potential to withstand the destructive training and absorption into habits that kill … body, mind, earth, waters, air … everything good. That’s when I got very sleepy and lay down for a rest.

And so, what do I do? I walk to the kitchen and retrieve a bag of Hawaiian Kettle Style Potato Chips, Luau BBQ, sweet and spicy. Very tasty … logic tells me the ingredients in this bag are poison to my body and the bag itself poison the the earth, but I eat them anyway.

You already know the foods we have to choose from are mostly like this bag of chips. Even should one choose plain old corn chips they are made with GMO corn, a poisonous, toxic base. Sure I could make my own, but even the flour is toxic. It leaves one tempted to resort to the phrase and thought of, “What’s the point?”

Governments remain silent as chemicals are sprayed over our heads. They are silent as HAARP and Geoengineering poison the soils, the air, and our bodies skin (the largest organ we have) absorbs the nano-particles of biological warfare. They cause areas of no rain, and they cause areas of massive flooding.

Those who operate these facilities believe they are doing good, brainwashed into blindness as life around them dies. Fires are set using Directed Energy Weapons, and they feed the masses story of drought, when that is a completely made up, spoon fed lie.

It is difficult to believe humanity deserves this beautiful planet. I need to remind myself of the shadow that has been perpetrated on the human mind via fluoride and other chemicals, inhibiting connection with our greater family. I must remember they have been manipulated into believing this false scenario they’ve been told of, therefore, it isn’t most of humanity that is responsible for this … it is those who knew of the dangers and manipulated circumstances to make their pockets full of cash, stealing from the masses, all the while poisoning them. Greed ~

If enough of the people continue to die in a timely manner, then there wouldn’t be enough people waking up to the truth and they can continue to spread the lie. The problem for them is, the damage to the world is so intense, people see it enmass. The only way for them to regain control of their illusion is to ‘mass’ kill people. Small little wars aren’t doing the job any more.

They will start a BIG war … one in which they will lose … it is inevitable. While the innocent, or should I say naive, suffer, those who inflicted these damaging ways on the planet and all life will be eliminated. They will be prohibited from returning.

Whatever is done to this atmosphere will be accustomed to, and life, while it may not look like what we have experienced up to this point, will continue.

SO, even if you are not able to understand this, know that what is coming is for the benefit of the whole. My hope is that you will be able to acknowledge this truth before the time comes so that you won’t go into panic mode.

What will be will be, and should you desire benefit for life, and choose love over hate, and sharing and caring over greed, whether you lose this body or not is of no consequence (although you may think differently). Time … it will continue. If you are so inclined, shed the need to destroy hearts and land and waters, and you will be okay.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/High_Frequency_Active_Auroral_Research_Program
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Climate_engineering
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Directed-energy_weapon
http://www.anonews.co/the-list-of-foods-and-products-that-have-tested-positive-for-monsantos-carcinogenic-glyphosate/
http://humansarefree.com/2018/08/an-open-letter-to-illuminati-bloodline.html

https://methodise.me/?truth-geohaarpmindcontrolnanotech

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