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Time Flowing

Published March 19, 2018 by tindertender

Hopes and dreams down the tubes as truck load after truck load of items are removed. So much waste. Moving from a big house to a small apartment rids much debris from life. Air conditioning no longer available, fans must be put in place to move the air.

Running up the hill, followed by another I make my way to perceived safety. I turn around and there he is, no danger after all.

Movement so slow it is easier to get out and walk. Oh how I wish I remembered.  Images once so clear fade into nothingness.

She gave up the home for another, allowing the use of it by them both. Windows at the front of it exposing the insides to any one who passed by. Vulnerability in darkness.

He remains there although I have gone. Unusual. I leave the house and begin to walk only realizing after a time that I had forgotten to take the car. I turn to look for it and see a man and a woman. They argue. He is upset because he was not given a parking space near his dwelling. He must walk, he is going to file complaint. Amused I walk by him, continuing my journey.

The most important part evades my mind. It is also the most recent. Short term memory … poof! Gone.

And still they talk, expressing their “like”. At the same time discussing it is not what they seek. Confusing as they will never leave, back and forth with the like and dislike, with belief and disbelief. Constant turmoil and opposing ideas. It is not possible to be speaking truth when they pull at the emotions like waves from a tide, back and forth in constant flux.

Change never comes from comfort. There must be a constant tension, a tugging back and forth between what was and what is, and what will be.

Effort renewed, cleanliness adopted once more, the journey begins again.

He finally leaves, as I knew he would. I will call to him in awhile and he will return. He does not like it if I make any moves without him, he walks away when I do. Not that he is mad or upset, just that he doesn’t like to be alone.

Good morning once again. I would call you a friend if I thought you were a benefit. Instead I will call you companion, for you never leave.

Experiences beyond time, one foot in and one foot out. No explanation given. You say you try but the effort escapes me.

Moon River, wider than a mile
I’m crossing you in style some day
Oh, dream maker
You heart breaker
Wherever you’re going
I’m going your way
Two drifters off to see the world
There’s such a lot of world to see
We’re after the same rainbow’s end
Waitin’ round the bend
My Huckleberry friend
Moon River and me

Sweet, Continuous Dreams

Published March 19, 2018 by tindertender

Man & Birds.jpgRational. Irrational. It’s all conditioned responses.

I don’t know how to resign myself, especially when the requirement is unknown.

It challenges my beliefs, all of it. But the truth is they are not my beliefs. These are the stories which have been told since before I was born.

Cold nose and chilly cheeks, I lay my head in hands. This is an odd feeling, and the first time I’ve noticed it. The rest of my body quite warm, I consider crawling back under the covers.

Slipping Out Of Their Hands Now

Published March 18, 2018 by tindertender

“Don’t listen to their threatening language, just do your thing.” 

Astral World_4

There are those who wish to use you for their own agenda. There are those who wish to stop you from being all that you can be. They see the light in your eyes and the positive energy you emit and they want to close it down, save it for when they have opportunity to manipulate it.

The scourge of the earth slinks about unseen, using others to do their dirty deeds.

Products world wide are laced with toxins. These toxins pollute the mind and body, they dull the senses and make connection difficult. Sickness comes upon people and they are so focused on the pain of it they cannot see the root cause. Doctors today treat the symptoms, rarely discussing origination of the dilemma … and the body and the mind become even more polluted than before.

And then we die, and change which we arrived to incorporate never occurs.

“Just listen … back and forth between sobbing and serious contemplation of the situation. Mind warp at its best.” But is it good enough to fool you? You decide. Will you allow your emotions to be toyed with, or will you step into your inherent power ~ that which you arrived with, that which is deep within you?



Open the door and let the light shine. Light the incense and watch the smoke rise. A bed of sand insulating the heat, aroma wafting through the air.

This is your time. There may not be much of it, use it wisely. Many of the older people did not know, being raised by another with belief that the reason for living was to simply survive. You know better.

The young have limited DNA damage caused by the poisonous market. Their bodies and minds sharp, their desires for peace potent. I consider it a blessing to see them rise and work what some call magic, but I call creation. Intense, honest, free from greed, they see the damage done to the world. They see how it is pushed onto the masses, they see right through the lies.

They are the future. YOU are the future.

Conscious Connection

Published March 17, 2018 by tindertender

Conscious Connection

I sit listening to the high pitch in my ears as well as music, soft without words in the headphones. The two sounds mesh and I feel the pulse of blood course through my body. More than blood though, there is energy, alive and fierce.

I thought of the supplements I take and realized I hadn’t taken them. A cleanse has recently happened … first a 3 day fast, then a cell cleanse followed by little food and much water, or at least more than normal. The body is vibrating a soft hum.

Understanding has changed. It has gone from the superstition taught in today’s world to a deeper source, truer. Many call it mythology, but the evidence cannot be denied. Regions around the whole world have similar data which has been kept in shadow for a very long time.

Funny when really considered … history is a made up story, much of it … mythology more real than we’ve been led to believe.

Eagle staring me in the face,
Huge, hooked beak right before my eyes.

Sensing is quite interesting. Coming into it again, slowly. The first round was too fast. While I do not understand it fully (or at all, consciously) it’s happening, none the less.


Before Time

Published March 17, 2018 by tindertender

“What the heck you doin’?” he asks.
I reply, “Remembering.”

Golden Grasses

Long ago he was there, on top of the mountain, far away, yet seemingly so near. The message was clear … he was mine. I walked toward the sun in a meadow of golden grasses, looking once more over my right shoulder to see him … and then I was here.

Sixteen years ago, late at night by rivers edge, I looked to the sky and saw several spinning wheels, different colors … red, orange, yellow, green.

Color wheel

A few months later I lay in bed listening to an amazing choir singing in mind, nothing like it had I heard before. After a time, they stopped and, “You Bitch! We knew it was you!” an invisible female shouted.

2015, January, I was told by spirit that eight years were going to go by quickly. Confused I spoke of it at church. Adding numbers, that puts it at 2023 … five more years to go.

Present day, there are many who deny the existence of this war in heaven. They refuse to even consider its reality. They think that it happened long ago, not realizing it is going on now, still.

There is an awakening in process. Perhaps you have noticed more now … seen the truth behind the facade. Maybe you are now aware of the smoke screen which has kept evil veiled. As people speak out against new knowledge, they are attacked, killed, maimed, jailed … the world over.

The awareness continues to grow, spreading like a wild fire now. As shadow is brought to light it is painfully obvious, shocking even, perhaps so much so that it is tempting to deny the truth of it.

There is no going back, only forward. I am fortunate, just as you are. We know what we need to know, when we need to know it … nothing before. We are being eased into this new reality. This is how much we are loved.

Hold it together. Walk into the fear, for it is a blockage in the mind only. Face it, run right through it. You will be amazed. And remember always, love is waiting.

… So Now What?

Published March 17, 2018 by tindertender


“The land of the gods was a luminous enclosure or turning wheel. It rested upon a mountain rising to the center of heaven. The mountain became a tower of seven or nine levels or tiers. A dragon, demon, or monster once held a princess captive in the tower. The warrior-hero slew the dragon and rescued the princess.”

The man on the mountain … he’s mine … and they’ve found me … so now what?


Obstacle Challenge

Published March 16, 2018 by tindertender

An appointment yesterday left me with knowledge of a current health situation. Without going into detail, I will tell you, I accept this challenge.

OM – The Sound, the Vibration of the Universe, The Primordial Sound
GAM – The Seed Sound, or bija sound of Lord Ganesha
GANAPATAYE – Another name of Lord Ganesh, the one who overcomes of obstacles.
NAMAHA – I offer you my salutations, I bow to you.

I will transform this body.
I will purchase a stationary bicycle, and use it.
I will join a water aerobic class.
I will retain and gain mobilization.
I will alter my diet.
I will shed extra pounds which cause stress on the body.
I will gather with open minded people.
I will share my intention of health.
I will do whatever is needed to more fully synchronize mind and body.
I will strengthen spirit/soul.
I Am a warrior.
I will sprint to the finish line.
I will continue to affirm what I will do, and not what I won’t.
I will grow love and compassion in my mind/heart/spirit.
I will love me just as I am, and then some.
I will let this compassion for self merge with compassion for others.

This challenge I have been given wasn’t really given. I was told to go about life until I couldn’t any more and then we would look into resolution. I say NO. I will look into resolution now, when it is needed most. I have a vision embedded in my mind, and I will transform this reality into a different one … because I have that power … and it will be.

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