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And The Sky Opened

Published September 19, 2018 by tindertender

“She has the strength of a thousand suns”, they said … or was it only herself speaking? What is it like, knowing life is so … very … large? What is perceived with the mind through emotion is just the tip of the iceberg. Life is much more vast than that small understanding. It is so large, understanding ceases to exist!

Uncovering the inner most portions of self is like the best present ever! There is a time when you may feel like you “know” you … but didn’t you feel the same ten years ago? And are you that same person you were then?

This package we were born into holds treasures beyond words.

On the job site, or in relationships of all kinds, there may be a ‘holding back’ of heartfelt ideas or desires. There may be a twinge of fear, or shame attached to it. Through life others may have instilled the idea that the sweet inner fire of you is a thing that should be doused.

Underneath the programming, when the heart and the inner parts of self are delved in to, beautiful surprises begin to show up. When opportunity arises to try something new … one day, rather than saying no thanks, instead the answer may be, “Why not? I may not be good at it, but I might just be, as well!” And the effort is made, and the answer as to whether it is something one would wish to add to the tool belt of knowledge is discovered.

Try, try, try again. All that which does not harm self or others, when opportunity arises, try it.

How many gifts will you discover buried ‘neath that barrier that has been created? Are you a painter, a writer, a food preserver, a gardener, a medicine man, or woman?

In life, attention is often on finding the treasures within others, our partner, children, friends, acquaintances. Very rarely does one look inside for the treasure, they’ve instead taken on others opinions of what their personal treasure is, or is not.

Solitude is a blessing, even if only an hour a day. Sit, quietly with personal thoughts and see what relations on the “larger side of life” may offer you.

You just might be surprised.

Does Life Evolve Outside Of Time?

Published September 18, 2018 by tindertender

Does a light being need to be birthed inside of time to generate massive spiritual growth, or does life evolve outside of time as well? If it does, are the lessons learned as intense, or extreme, or are lessons learned more slowly? Is there such a thing as slow or quick when outside of time?

I’m curious why their seem to be so many felines in the spiritual realms. Rarely do canines show up, at least for me. Strange how I happen to really love canines and have never been a cat person … although that happens to be my sign.

I’ve heard it said that when this life ends one ought to enter ‘the light’. I recall a time before time where I walked straight into the path of the sun … right into this life. Perhaps that is what walking into the light really is, an entry from spirit into time, and from time into spirit.

Perhaps this is why the sun has been worshipped for so long, it is the gateway to and from this world and others.

It just occurred to me that my Snowy girl is 11 years old. She’s been slowing down and I wonder how much more time we have together. My Toby is one year behind her. It is sad to think of the day when they will leave me behind on their journey to the sun.

Is it possible to love sufficiently? I mean, is it possible to do it just right? I think of the walks that I have not taken my pups on and knowing how much they love that, I’m sad. Working full time and then living in an area where so many people keep their dogs off leash makes it very difficult. I do not like being in the middle of dog fights.

Divine nature has blessed me with this time … for in less than four years my pups will most likely be gone, and this world will be in for a real ‘treat’ … or should I say, surprise. I’m not quite sure what that will be, but it’s coming, nonetheless.

Healthy vs Sick

Published September 16, 2018 by tindertender

The difference between people in a healthy world full of relationships, is in the ‘healthy’ see potential in others and situations, whereas the ‘unhealthy’ search themselves, others and everything else for what they see as lack.

This world is very sick right now. We’ve been bred and trained to see lack in our self, in others, and in every situation we may be part of.

It is up to the individual to break the mold and rebuild their training, searching for potential in everything instead.

When we see our self in the mirror, if there are any thoughts of negativity directed at that image, at self, then immediate and hard work must be done to counter those ideas. It’s difficult, but necessary to break the cycle.

When one can finally look in the mirror and like the person they see … not all about the ‘looks’, but the strength behind the eyes, the endurance while wearing a smile through all trials, if anyone comes along to try and tear down that fresh new view, walk away from them quick.

No one has the right to tell you who you are, how strong you are, or what potential you have … that is for you to decide … or to one day ‘find out’.

Even when not making a decision, a decision is made. Be present.

Too Much Woman

Published September 16, 2018 by tindertender

Too Much Woman

There she is. . . the “too much” woman. The one who loves too hard, feels too deeply, asks too often, desires too much.

There she is taking up too much space, with her laughter, her curves, her honesty, her sexuality. Her presence is as tall as a tree, as wide as a mountain. Her energy occupies every crevice of the room. Too much space she takes.

There she is causing a ruckus with her persistent wanting, too much wanting. She desires a lot, wants everything—too much happiness, too much alone time, too much pleasure. She’ll go through brimstone, murky river, and hellfire to get it. She’ll risk all to quell the longings of her heart and body. This makes her dangerous.

She is dangerous.

And there she goes, that “too much” woman, making people think too much, feel too much, swoon too much. She with her authentic prose and a self-assuredness in the way she carries herself. She with her belly laughs and her insatiable appetite and her proneness to fiery passion. All eyes on her, thinking she’s hot shit.

Oh, that “too much” woman. . . too loud, too vibrant, too honest, too emotional, too smart, too intense, too pretty, too difficult, too sensitive, too wild, too intimidating, too successful, too fat, too strong, too political, too joyous, too needy—too much. She should simmer down a bit, be taken down a couple notches.

Someone should put her back in a more respectable place. Someone should tell her.

Here I am. . . the Too Much Woman, with my too-tender heart and my too-much emotions.

A hedonist, feminist, pleasure seeker, empath. I want a lot—justice, sincerity, spaciousness, ease, intimacy, actualization, respect, to be seen, to be understood, your undivided attention, and all of your promises to be kept.

I’ve been called high maintenance because I want what I want, and intimidating because of the space I occupy. I’ve been called selfish because I am self-loving. I’ve been called a witch because I know how to heal myself.

And still. . . I rise. Still, I want and feel and ask and risk and take up space.
I must.

Us Too Much Women have been facing extermination for centuries—we are so afraid of her, terrified of her big presence, of the way she commands respect and wields the truth of her feelings. We’ve been trying to stifle the Too Much Woman for eons — in our sisters, in our wives, in our daughters. And even now, even today, we shame the Too Much Woman for her bigness, for her wanting, for her passionate nature.

And still. . . she thrives.

In my own world and before my very eyes, I am witnessing the reclamation and rising up of the Too Much Woman. That Too Much Woman is also known to some as Wild Woman or the Divine Feminine. In any case, she is me, she is you, and she is loving that she’s finally, finally getting some airtime.

If you’ve ever been called “too much,” or “overly emotional,” or “bitchy,” or “stuck up,” you are likely a Too Much Woman.

And if you are. . . I implore you to embrace all that you are—all of your depth, all of your vastness; to not hold yourself in, and to never abandon yourself, your bigness, your radiance.

Forget everything you’ve heard—your too muchness is a gift; oh yes, one that can heal, incite, liberate, and cut straight to the heart of things.

Do not be afraid of this gift, and let no one shy you away from it. Your too muchness is magic, is medicine. It can change the world.

So please, Too Much Woman: Ask. Seek. Desire. Expand. Move. Feel. Be.

Make your waves, fan your flames, give your chills.

~~~ Ev’yan Whitney

Messenger

Published September 15, 2018 by tindertender

Shadow: Be Vigilant
Soul: Let Go Of The Old
Let Two Be One: Nurture All You Love

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Photo by Vero Photoart

Be watchful and cautious of both others’ actions and your own. Stand ready to protect yourself from those who may covet what you have or seek to harm those you care for, but also be vigilant and watchful of your own actions lest you be the one doing harm. Weigh your actions. Be sure you act wisely. Be sure you have done all that needs to be done before moving forward. Leave nothing to chance lest all you have nurtured and cherished be undone by your own lack of vigilance.

Are you holding on to beliefs and notions that no longer serve you? Are you blocking your own growth and forward momentum because you fear to end a chapter in your life? It is time to release all that you hold onto that no longer serves. It is time to say goodbye to all that no longer has a place or purpose in your life. It’s  time to have an emotional, or physical, spring clean. It’s time to let go of the past so you can be open to what the future may bring.

Take the time to nurture the things you care about so that they may flourish and grow. Your hopes, your dreams, your body, your mind, your spirit, your creations, and your relationships; all that is you needs to be cherished, loved, honored and respected. Without care and attention, these aspects of self can fall into a state of neglect that does only harm to both you and the world around you. Nurture them, and they will bring you peace and fulfillment.

Shadow and Soul

Published September 14, 2018 by tindertender

Shadow: Share you thoughts
Soul: Stay strong
Let two be One: Embrace Spirit

 

Photos by Ahmad Odeh

You have hopes, dreams, goals and ideas. Do not guard your ideas jealously nor keep them locked within for fear that another may steal them o offer ridicule instead of support. It is time to share your vision. Tell Great Spirit and Gaia of your dreams and hopes so they may send you what you need. Speak of your dreams to others. Connect with those who share your goals and hopes for they may be able to help you realize your dreams sooner.

Life will present you with many trials. Life will bring you times of joy, but also times of suffering; like the weather, it can be unpredictable, harsh and cruel. But you can endure all that comes. Know when to resist, and know when to let go. Know that sometimes you will lose, but that loss can make you stronger at the core. Stay strong. With hope and faith, you can endure all.

You are a spiritual being, living physical life. Embrace spirit in your journey and reaffirm your connection with the Divine. Fly to the heavens, but remember to look down and see that the Divine exists in the magical, natural world beneath you. Spirit dwells within all ~ in everything you see and know, and everything that you do not see and which is unknown. Both the creative and the destructive, the beautiful and the ugly, are born of the Divine.

Commitments

Published September 14, 2018 by tindertender

What are you committed to?

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Photo by Rainier Ridao

This can feel like a loaded question. Often we are afraid to tell others what we are committed to, for inevitably there will be those who deem inappropriate or silly that which we deem important.

I ponder this question, and I know it is not something that can be answered in a matter of minutes, no … this one requires deep thought and consideration. Some of the things I am committed to:

My pets, my friends (which seem to be few), myself (not necessarily in this order, anymore). I am committed to speaking truth, to not baring false witness against anyone, to taking long hard looks into the depths of me and find out what is making me tick, where are my triggers, and how can I alleviate them.

I am committed to seeing beauty in this world that tries so hard to strip it from my view. I am committed to finding this same beauty in me, and blocking those who would have me see something else. I am dedicated to seeing the best potential in all situations and people, and if I cannot see it, then I turn away and try to remain silent so as not to cause damages I cannot see.

It is difficult to remain silent on subjects we see around this world, in the people, and what many do. The easiest way I have found is to turn it around and begin to reflect on what part of the outside world do I find within myself, and then mend that.

It is a daunting task, this shift creation, and it always begins and ends with our inner workings. It is all too easy to point fingers and say the blame, or problem, lies within someone else, or somewhere else … and quite difficult to find these things in our own being. Rarely does one choose to pick themselves apart, and it is no wonder. Most of life is built in defending ones self from the outward attacks of others, and so we lash out, giving what we receive.

Change comes in giving what we wish to receive, and no matter how often we are given the opposite, a continuation of goodness must be poured forth in order to change the balance of things. This ‘alchemy’ is the most difficult of all. It has taken lifetimes of training to get where we are, and to undo the learned habits will not be easy.

Only the true warrior will attempt it,
The rest will continue to shift responsibility to others,
Who are doing the same.

There are many tools to allow time and space to stand still for a moment, while we reflect on that which is needing attention, the mala and mantra, meditation, exercise, time in nature … knowledge brings us closer to our goals. Listen to Spirit, for what you need to know and understand is so desperately trying to reach you. Give it a chance.

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