I recently did a number on myself trying to rid my body of muscular parasites. I did a good job, even though it made me sick for a couple weeks. Barely any muscle twitching at all. I think ivermectin will have more affect nowadays.
Last night I dreamed of sweeping out my ”house” (body representative). It was a large travel mobile home (RV). I was sweeping out debris, broken glass, putting everything back in order. There were a few “people” in my home still, and there were some outside who wanted in.
I still have work to do, but this dream tells me I cleansed my body of the majority of the disruptors and interferers.
Next cleanse will be more gentle.
I think parasites are a form of low vibrational “demons” that infest a “host” and feast on the life force and essence of the host.
I’m pretty upset that the medical field, having full knowledge of parasite infestations in the body, agreed to Rockefeller renaming of symptoms as “diseases” and treat the symptoms, but don’t address the actual cause.
Many cancers and so-called diseases ARE parasite infestations. The medical “professionals” failed the people miserably… all for profit.
As people age, the likelihood of them having muscular parasites increases over 90% (my estimate). These parasites feast on the muscle mass, causing “marbelling” of the muscle. It’s one reason older people lose muscle mass, becoming weakened, and age quickly, getting sick more often.
We are over 70% water. The waters are infested with parasites. We are the river of life. It is our responsibility to cleanse and purify these waters.
I dreamt once of a man, woman and child. They were in the river of life, on a floating raft of sorts. Parasites were sucking the life out of them all. The man was dying, or dead. The woman was asleep. The infant was still moving around.
We must purify the waters of life that we are.
Shame on doctors in the medical field who left human beings vulnerable to parasitic infestation.
Sleep aides such as zzz quill or any other put the sleeping subconscious into a lower state, a lower realm, where beings plant seeds into the consciousness. These seeds affect the waking mind, knowingly or unknowingly.
Drinking tea before bed can put one into a higher realm, but know this, the boogie man gets bigger the higher you go, so to do this on a regular basis can be dangerous as well.
It is best to go to sleep without these things, working consciously to raise one’s state of mind while awake so the sleep pattern is level, balanced between the higher and lower realms. This is where we are meant to be, in balance.
Pharmaceuticals and OTC sleep aides, alcohol and illegal drugs throw this balance off, affecting the waking state, and therefore affect the balance of the seen realm we walk in during our waking hours.
Ok so first I do have background in psychology BUT I’m writing this thread mostly from my experience and from a background of 10+ years of helping my clients and my close friends and myself. It’s rough out here and I noticed the hands on work yields more perspective with emotionally nuanced things like this.
When you grow up with a narcissistic mother it’s confusing. As with all narcissistic parents, you start off being a bother as a baby, just something to show off but emotional needs, outbursts and selfless attention and time are usually a bother UNLESS your mom thinks it makes them look like a good mom to handle these things well.
Narcissistic mothers feed off of their image of what they feel “makes” a good mother. Sometimes we get lucky and some of those things are nice. But emotional empathy is ALWAYS missing at the end of the day. Even emotionally “supportive” was moreso centered around the support THEY felt like you needed. Any emotional request outside of what THEY feel is valid gets shut down, berated and they self victimize instead of just giving you what you’re asking for. There is no genuine empathy.
When you’re young, you usually become some type of doll. Like you’re pretty, you’re great in school, you’re well behaved and these things are constantly bragged about. It gets confusing bc this is usually how narcissistic mothers show their love. Being “proud” of you for the things that reflect good on them.
The MOST confusing thing is your mom will constantly exclaim about how much she loves her kids, how she’ll do anything for them all this shit right. She’ll constantly tell you who SHE is and how you SHOULD view her. Honestly it takes time and space to break this rhetoric and see the reality of how selfish she is bc you get taught you shouldn’t hold her accountable for her faults bc of all that she does to try so hard for you and how much she had to sacrifice to be a mother.
It’s veryyy hard to stop making excuses for your mom but it’s important bc if you don’t, you internalize all of that resentment and rage designed for her and it comes out in how you feel about yourself, it makes you guilty for having boundaries with people and saying no.
Once you start getting into puberty tho you become the enemy. Even before that, when you start developing your own individuality you’re suddenly “disrespectful” and unappreciative of all your mom does if you’re not submitting to them and their advice or you letting them over rule you.
This starts the battle. Your mom will then find ways to let you know you’re inadequate. It’ll either come from hyper criticism in the name of “trying to help” or it’ll be downright insults when you’re doing something you’re own way instead of the way they’re telling you to or “suggesting” you to.
If you have a mom who flies into violent narcissistic rage you’ll be called everything in the book when she feels challenged. One way my mom would berate me even as a grown woman would be to refer to me as “little girl” or once called me “her bastard bitch”. I mean it gets nasty.
If you have a mom who goes into a quiet narcissistic rage she’ll become the hyper victim, self loathing and guilt trip you until you feel bad and stop trying to hold her accountable for whatever you’re confronting her with.
You having your identity is literally threatening to your moms identity. If she can’t take credit for every part of you, her self loathing and jealousy will kick in and she will try to project those feelings onto you.
This creates a lot of self doubt when you become an adult. It feels easier to put yourself down than to build yourself up. You may not believe when other people compliment you or are nice to you. You may struggle with depression and not know how to give yourself positive reinforcement.
You may also start to feel competitive with other women bc of the distrust. This comes more from the guilt tripping mothers. You feel like you constantly have to be “beneath” others which can create an inferiority complex. It can cause you to withdraw and self loath when needing help bc you may feel like you don’t deserve the help, like you needing help is an inconvenience.
If you have the more violent nasty mothers, you may be downright avoidant of forming healthy relationships with other women. It may be hard for you to let them in and be soft. You may feel overly self sufficient and not really comfortable asking anyone for help. You don’t want to be viewed as a weak bitch. And that’s on berating from our moms whenever we actually need help.
HOW TO HEAL:
First, it’s a process. You may need to get a therapist to help you expand your awareness on how things have impacted you but if you feel like you have a good grip it may not be necessary. Start to notice how your mom speaks to you on the everyday and the defenses that’s created with others.
Then, notice how you were spoken to as a child and how that’s helped shape your inner dialogue. Next, notice how your emotions have been handled by your mom and how you’ve transferred this into your relationship with yourself and with others. This one is hard bc there’s so much unlearning to do with how to emotionally handle people when they’re vulnerable and how to handle your own vulnerability.
Cry it out. Cry for the little girl who put her moms feelings first. Cry for the little girl who wanted her mom to change. Cry for the little girl who had more empathy for her moms situation than her own. Cry for the woman who feels betrayed. Cry for the woman who feels shorted from having a good relationship with their mom. Cry for the woman who doesn’t have the advocacy they very much need from the person who birth them. Cry because it hurts 💔
If you’re into holistic healing I have a guided meditation that could help with the process. I needed this A LOT when becoming a mother. And to become a better version of myself. I hope this helped, and it does get better 💖💖💖
It’s time to stop speaking on the atrocities perpetuated in the world currently. Our words, our speaking, in any form (spoken, thought, signage) creates. By repeating the horror using our voice, it creates more of it. It’s the way creation works.
Magicians know this.
The unaware (🙏🏼) do not.
It’s been the drive to get people to know what they are dealing with, but maybe the peacemakers had it right the whole time.
I leave behind those who lie, steal, commit fraud or any other crime. I give them no more of my time or attention.
It is my intention to witness them fizzle out, of their own accord.
Here we are, between worlds. Stagnant are we, waiting to see what direction this river will take.
Will it flow?
Will it get jammed, as in a winter rage?
Will it dry up?
Will it create a new path?
I need not know. I need not know the players. I need not know my role. I need not know who’s right or who’s wrong, or how it ends.
I need not know what I deserve, or the fate of any other.
I release the dream and I step forth into a new reality, whatever that may be.
May the collection of life’s challenges be remembered as I pull from the strength gained thru them, resilient, persistent, determined … determined to live as happy as I am able despite those who would snuff the promise of reward.
I release the dream, while it still lives.
If it’s meant for me it will be.
After all, everything experienced, everything, can be used to shoot the arrow forward, or break the bow.
I love the message received during meditation last night. It’s something we all should keep in mind. Lightening our energetic and emotional load is a full time job requiring our full attention.
Remember this phrase …
“Don’t judge yourself heavy on classic interference”
By the way, this came after I blogged about idol worship … take from it what you will.
Prayer Flags, also known as Tobacco Flags, are for defining a sacred space and keeping it protected from unwanted external energies.
Prayer Flags is comprised of a group of 7 different colored strips of cloth with a handful of tobacco tied to one end and the excess material dropping down like a tail.
The 7 colors represent the 7 Sacred Directions and the help received from the Spirits in that direction.
Yellow for East is for inner-child work.
Red for South is for work on the youth stage of life.
Black for West is for work on adulthood.
White for North is for work on elders and Ancestors.
Blue for the Above Direction representing help and assistance from Father Sky and other Supernatural Spirits.
Green for the Below Direction representing help and assistance from Mother Earth and other Earth Spirits.
Purple for the Within Direction, representing Great Mystery which is the connection between your spirit to all of Creation.
People going on a Vision Quest make Prayer Flags to keep them protected from distraction from outside energies so that the individual can focus on going within self to find the help and answers they are seeking with the help of spirit guides.
The 7 Flags are hung up independently with each color in the appropriate cardinal direction beginning with the yellow cloth and going clockwise in attaching to a tree branch or stick on the ground in a circular pattern around their personal space.
The green and blue flags are usually hung in the western direction with the black flag while the purple is hung in the northern direction with the white flag.
For a building that serves to help children and youth, the Prayer Flags are usually combined altogether and hung up near the main entrance to protect the building from the negativity of outside energies. So that the building and people in it can focus on purpose of being there.
Flags are made from 4-inch strips of fabric usually broadcloth with one end having a handful of tobacco or with a mixture of other medicines tied in.
This end holding the tobacco is hung upwards so that the top has the offering requesting spirits for help and guidance.
The tail of the material allows a pathway for spirits to come down and do whatever is needed to accomplish the request made with the tobacco. If no intention was made while making the Prayer
Flags, expect no results because people get what they asked which was nothing.
The Prayer Flags are to be burned at the end of the term be it at end of a vision quest, school year or physical year end.
Nothing lasts forever and tobacco does wear out and so does the cloth.
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