When we say things such as, “I’m afraid I do not understand” we are limited in thought and potentials… for we have allowed the subconscious format of fear using the word afraid in our sentence at all.
These ingrained, unnoticed, habitual phrases need to be sniffed out and eliminated from our conscious and subconscious thoughtforms.
Have you heard the phrase “You are the company you keep”? Well, our creations will be treated with what our inner thoughtforms are, our inner dialogue. The inner dialog becomes the outer dialogue and then creation followed by reaction or response, repeated for who knows how long.
We have the choice of our creation only when we become responsible for our inner dialogue and guide the outer with empathy and care.
We truly are in this together, for our combined efforts of increased and united thought forms cause our greater reality. Each one is crucial to the whole.
You are an older woman. Just look at you! Those beautiful wrinkles, that shining light coming straight from your forehead, from your eyes. Yes, you are a beautiful, older woman.
Let us begin to rephrase our internal dialogue. Notice it. If it sounds like something negative, flip it right away. Turn that self talk around! You deserve someone who adores you … let it begin with you … with me … with WE.
I’m beginning (again) to realize this life does not make sense. What is the meaning of it … if you don’t have children, or a husband, or a job? At the end of it all, would anyone even knew I was here?
Not likely.
I can’t sit here and rightly cry about what might have been, for I chose it. All of it.
If a person lays crap here, and crappy attitude there, to that one, and over there to another, and so on … ALL of that will boomerang back. Little mini boomerangs being returned to the gifter … and the gifter cannot possibly catch them all, not even close. They will return, whacking the gifter up along side the head, hitting various parts of the body, tearing down the energetic and mental form. Perhaps even causing physical illness.
When will we tire of dodging boomerangs? Those turns which we create?
When we choose to put out nice stuff, rather than the stuff that hurts, it will not matter if we catch all the boomerangs. It won’t hurt so bad upon their return when we fail to make the catch if we choose to make our gifts to the others sweet.
I like writing. It assists me in paying closer attention to what I’m thinking about.
Maybe it’s time I practice being optimistic rather than pessimistic. It is said practice makes perfect, and I’ve practiced pessimism just about as long as I’d like … thank you very much.
Whatever happens, don’t go all dooms-dayer on anyone. They will not hear you.
Maybe I’m a distraction … to myself … imagine that. I’m in a river, and I do not swim well. I’ll have to do my best to simply float.
Sssshhhhh …. Control your mind, stop leaking.
The elusive butterfly.
He already knows what spices he’s going to use. What could spices be used for?
Pessimism states, he’s speaking of cooking me.
Optimism states, he’s thinking of bathing me.
Oh, the human mind. Always playing tricks.
Yay for Optimism! May it grow in minds, be shared by hearts, and become all encompassing throughout time, and the world.
I’ve been thinking lately about life and relationship.
When I was young, one of my favorite things was to watch people …. or “people watch”. I stopped doing that in my mid-twenties, when I began a certain relationship.
Now, thirty years later, I am beginning to think I’ve turned into a jaded old lady! Who, in current scenarios, has not really given men a fair shake.
I vow to take on some activities, where I can observe men, being men. I want to fall in love with them all over again.
As I shed my pain from past failed relationship, I open myself to loving once more, those who I have unfairly dropped blame.
This is only a beginning. It is not a request for attention or relationship. It is an acknowledgement, that I have been harboring resentment that may have poisoned further opportunities for love.
The journey begins … of further release.
Pain, anger, resentment ….. these have no value, for that which holds value.
May the release be swift.
May my appreciation for the masculine be rebirthed with vigor, in a sacred way.
May admiration, for all of them in their various forms and activity, grow in my heart.
May all things emanating from my person, be pure, healthy and loving.
My longest known friend of 30 years and I have history … a lot of history.
Yesterday, I unleashed on him. Something he wanted to talk about, kept putting it in my face, triggered a memory of pain from our past, and I lit into him. And I left, pissed.
Later, I called and came back by for a conversation.
You see, it is not his fault I carry pain. Sure, he participated in circumstances, but it is I who have yet to heal my trauma, learning how to love me, more completely.
I realized, that while I speak frequently about the “blame game” and how it does no one any good, I actually hopped on board the blame train yesterday, and I felt as tho I failed myself, and my friend.
The time to have these conversations was at least 20 years ago.
It is not my intention to cause suffering for a man who is in his final years. As I mentioned, the time for these conversations was a long time ago, and I chose not to have them then. The time for talking of the past is gone.
The time for healing trauma from the past is now. Without pointing fingers and taking the easy way out, by offloading pain into another being …. human or animal.
Too many people choose to put their pain onto another life form, regardless of their lack of participation in the original offense.
We must learn to transmute our pain, NOT spew it into the world, exacerbating and intensifying the pain already in the world. No, transmutation is the only way.
How to do this?
I cannot say for certain.
Yesterday I drove into the forest. I veered onto a road which turned off the main highway and I followed it for awhile. There were no vehicles or people there.
I pulled over to the side of the road and got my folding chair out of the car and had a seat. I began to pray.
Now, I’m not a regular praying type of gal. When young, my Prayer was done in song, and talk, into the seemingly empty forest. This is where I found myself once again. And so I began speaking.
I spoke of my feelings and how I am aware that blaming others for our pain is unacceptable. I asked earnestly to be shown how to transmute my pain so I did not leak it into the world. I prayed for a better understanding, so I could stop making assumptions based on a skewed perspective.
I asked for release, so I could offer it to my friend.
I choose to remain in love. And it isn’t always easy.
Looking for ways, asking for spiritual assistance, to shift perspective, clean up past emotional trauma, and move forward in a clean state of being, a state which only increases love with each encounter, rather than leaving behind anything that might cause doubt, anxiety, or any form of negative thought patterns in those I encounter.
1) Face it Feel it. The first step of transmuting pain into power is to allow yourself to feel your emotions.
2) Pick up your jewels. The second step of transmuting the pain into power is recognizing that no experience should be left on the ground.
3) Don’t sit on it, share it. The final step in transmuting pain into power in my humble opinion is to share the lesson of it.
https://intuitiveartists.org/blog-posts/category/the-art-of-transmuting-pain. According to Jan, Emotional and even physical pain is the way our bodies (and hearts) tell us, “Pay attention to me.See me and understand me. Witness me and get curious about why I showed up here, and then I can be on my way.” It’s really only when we keep denying it or believing we’re truly oppressed by the pain that it shows up over and over again to teach us differently.
https://www.paintransmutation.com/. This site offers courses in transmutation. Healing from pain, trauma, sadness and energetic imbalance is a conscious choice. You have to decide that you deserve to live and feel free from pain and follow that decision through.
Will you transmute pain, sorrow, fear, loneliness and trauma with Soul Alchemy and love?
Will you break the karmic cycle with your awareness?
Will you accept your sacred path, and become what you are and always have been?
It is amazing to me how people think they have permission to be cruel, and still go to heaven, while believing those they have judged will not.
This does NOT mean I do not believe in God. I certainly do. And I’m afraid I’m not measuring up. And if I’m not measuring up, that means those who judge me are probably not either.
Let us clean up our own houses, our own inner temple. Stop looking outside and blaming the world for your situation. We cannot do that. We must create a beautiful situation from our own inner fortitude.
Do you think a person, who relies on another to solve their problems, will ever solve a single problem themselves?
No. It’s a partnership. And a partnership that is only half functioning is not a sufficient partnership.
Karma. It’s a real thing.
Self-righteousness is also.
Be aware of where you are in your own thinking and action.
There are many in this country, indeed this world, who say Peace is not possible, that with millions, and billions of different personalities it simply cannot exist.
I argue that when millions and billions of people the world over sit with this thought form, focused so intensely, believing it to be true, it IS. This is a powerful thought form, an egregore created by a massive amount of people … which is exactly why Peace has not occurred.
People want to strike! Argue their point! Be right!
Seems the days of cooperation and compromise are over.
If folks would instead focus intensely on the future they desire to see, pouring their energies and actions in forward momentum toward that ‘future’, things would shift dramatically.