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Absolute Truth

Published September 16, 2022 by tindertender

Most people see lack in others, perhaps for their own perceived shortcomings. But sometimes you meet a real gem that sees nothing but potentials, and offers opportunity for them to shine. I SO Love these ones!!!

My life blossomed when I met someone who believed in me.

I want to be just like them.

You’re Stronger

Published September 15, 2022 by tindertender

“One day when you wake up, you will find that you have become a forest.

You have grown roots and found strength in them that no one thought you had.

You have become stronger and more beautiful, full of life giving qualities.

You have learned to take all the negativity around you and turn it into oxygen for easy breathing.

A host of wild creatures live inside you and you call them stories.

A variety of beautiful birds rest inside your mind and you call them memories.

You have become an incredible self sustaining thing of epic proportions.

And you should be so proud of yourself, of how far you have come from the seeds of who you used to be.”

~Nikita Gill


Published September 10, 2022 by tindertender

When I was 2.5 years old my mother got busted with a suitor in the cafe she worked at. Dad pistol whipped him, putting him in the hospital. Told him he best leave town if he wanted to live. He did. My father left us. I remember laying on the floor of some cold brick building with my mother for sleep. This song was playing, and she was sobbing. I cried as she clutched me close to her chest.


And love

In one



Every time I hear this song I relive that moment.

Ally In Disguise

Published December 28, 2021 by tindertender

When a resolute young fellow steps up to the great bully, the World, and takes him boldly by the beard, he is often surprised to find it comes off in his hand, and that it was only tied on to scare away timid adventurers. ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

As you advance along your journey, prepare to encounter all types of people and circumstances. There will be those who start off as allies but turn out to be otherwise. There will be those you judge as enemies who become the greatest instigators of your spiritual growth. If you know in advance that even the enemies you encounter are allies in disguise, you can relax. So, relax – as there really is no such thing as a true enemy. When you reflect on your life, you realize the most difficult challenges taught you the most valuable lessons and have made you more resourceful and resilient than you would otherwise be. Revel in the reality that you are who you are today, precisely because of the challenges you’ve faced and aced.

Mantra ::
I revel in the blessings discovered in the most unlikely people and places.

Artwork by Rassouli

~ the Hero’s Journey dream oracle by Kelly Sullivan Walden

Forget Who You Are

Published December 26, 2021 by tindertender

Conditioning falls away
Memory no longer defines you

“What do you call yourself?” the fawn said at last. Such a soft sweet voice it had!

“I wish I knew!” thought poor Alice. She answered, rather sadly, “Nothing, just now.”

“Think again,” it said: “That won’t do.”

Alice thought, but nothing came of it. “Please, would you tell me what you call yourself?” she said timidly, “I think that might help a little.”

“I’ll tell you, if you’ll come a little further on,” the fawn said. “I can’t remember here.”

So they walked on together through the wood, Alice with her arms clasped lovingly round the soft neck of the fawn, till they came out into another open field …

You are amidst a new experience – one in which you have no idea of who you are anymore. Paradoxically, this apparent loss of self is a beautiful gift. The loss of memory of the self, the absence of the conditioning that defines us, means we can approach new people and situations with an innocence and freshness. This is an opportunity to connect from the heart.

So it is with Alice when she enters a Looking-Glass forest with magickal powers … all who enter forget who they are. Thus, not knowing he ought to be frightened of a human, a fawn approaches Alice. She responds with an incredible fondness for the fawn and they meet in simple affection, connection and friendship. When we forget what we have been taught to fear or hate, it brings the opportunity for a whole series of beautiful relationships to blossom. This is the situation you find yourself in now.

Forget what you tell yourself you are. Forget what others have said you ought to be. Forget the enmity, the avoidance, the fear we live with far too often. Forget who you have been taught to be. Instead, re-awaken the innocence of the soul. Un-know thyself! Accept the mystery of you! Within that open space, within that forest where we are all returned to our ancient, most natural self, we can all be one again.

You are discovering what can happen when you rely less on conditioning, memory and civilization, and more on heart, receptivity and nature. New friendships, connections, gentleness and joy will be yours.

Artwork by Jasmine Becket-Griffith

~ the Alice Wonderland oracle by Lucy Cavendish

Thank You

Published February 19, 2021 by tindertender

Years ago I had something happen which nearly ended my life, and actually DID end life as I knew it.

For years my mind was in chaos, and only since August of 2020 has it smoothed out.

In these moments, when power is out and life has gone basic, I am finding that I Am coming more into alignment with my Soul Essence, which I have seen on 2 occasions in the astral.

Pure Love, welcoming with joy all that she sees … all that I see.

Only in the last 2 days have I really looked at my defensive nature toward things, people … seen and unseen.

I Am learning how to release that portion of self … there isn’t any need for it in the New World … the world I very much long to be a part of.

My most sincere apologies to my visitors in the astral.

I know I have not been the easiest person to visit.

It is a challenge, this transition, especially because of the way it started for me, all those years ago.

I am grateful for your persistence and patience.

I cannot promise that I have achieved a full liberation from the old me, but I am in process and looking forward very much to returning to that place of Love unconditional, in all instances.

I know it will be reciprocated.

I Am so happy you did not give up on me.

Thank you
Thank you
Thank you

With Great Gratitude …

Love Letter to Me

Published February 11, 2021 by tindertender

Dear Self ~ I love you … and find you the most fascinating person ever!

Through everything you’ve experienced you are willing to remain open to Love and to Loving.

Bravely, you shatter internal barriers that could keep you from Love.

Courageously, you remain open to receive fully this Love, knowing full well being wide open could also lead to suffering.

You understand that Love has no price not worth paying.

I am so proud of you as you continue to hold the doors open to your sibling and parents even though they do not show care or concern for your existence.

The way you continue to hold Love in your heart for others is amazing! Your ability to forgive, seemingly, immeasurable.

You are gentle and kind.

I am so sorry I treated your body, heart and mind so roughly while allowing others to do the same.

I will spend the remainder of days making it up to you, with proper care from me, and the insistence that it be shown by those who have placement in your life.

I apply intention, and effort, into healing your heart. You’ve been through a lot emotionally, energetically, and physically.

You have needed to be ‘tough’ all your life. It seems you are a magnet for those who long to possess your light, your beautiful essence. Seen, unseen … they continue to try.

Focus, dear, on the Love that resides in you. Pay no attention to those who’s entire existence seems to be intent on interrupting the personal Will of you, of others.

I want to walk with you, to talk with you, to Love you as no one ever has. You deserve my devotion and the devotion others have for you.

Allow it to flow from me to you, fully. Accept it from others. Be willing to recognize Love coming to you through others daily on behalf of Source Creator.

I Love the way you laugh at seriousness, at incredible absurdity and in the face of fear. May you always release Love in the face of anything or anyone who attempts to overpower your senses or your devotion to Self and to Soul.

I am going to start cooking for you again. Wholesome, nutritious meals, tasty even.

I am going to dress you in fashion appropriate for your personality … all of them …. that wascally character.

I am going to give you more time in nature, to smell the flowers and feel the breezes.

You are the best thing to ever happen to me.

Our relationship has been tumultuous. I have allowed others to do you wrong.

From this moment on I will do everything in my power to Love you fully and to eliminate from your presence anyone who does not honor you, or cherish you as you are, and as you deserve.

You are a Queen … a Goddess, even.

The Star of my most Brilliant life.

Forever Love, Me

Fear and Love

Published January 19, 2021 by tindertender

Let me quickly tell you something about fear and LOVE

The Cellular Memory and Imprint of Fear

Throughout the annals of Western history, you have passed down an imprint of fear. When Family of Light incarnated over two thousand years ago, they were adepts of Light and Love, capable of many miraculous feats, and those in authority felt threatened. They did not want these teachings brought to the masses, and so there were many opposing factions from the beginning. (*The Pleiadians say “Family of Light” are system busters who travel through time to systems in need of change, helping facilitate the collapse of the system.)

The Roman Empire was the Piscean version of the New World Order — a karmic parallel of the Aquarian Age. Both orders, old and new, offer the possibility for a domineering, world-conquering force. When you manage people, you must first convince them they need managing. So they create the problems and then let the people cry for solutions. Fear is distributed throughout the land — not love. Fear has a very powerful vibration, and when one holds fear in the body it transmits everywhere rather quickly with the same “catchiness” as love.

There was a battle over love and fear. If love had prevailed, then the people would have understood their higher powers: the ability of the human mind to transcend the body, to astral travel, and to feel connected to All That Is. If that had occurred, then humans would have ended their separation.

Well it was not to be. In the last two thousand years, you have moved deeper into separation rather than deeper into unity and love. Fear won. If you question this conclusion, we ask you to open the fan of history and see how many people have died in the name of a higher power.

How many books have been burned and how many people have been raped and tortured? How many indigenous lands have been wiped out and ancient manuscripts destroyed?

And What About Love?

You have all been touched by love at least once in your lives, and many of you come here over and over again just to experience love. When you find what is important to you, what is worth accruing, and list your values, we ask you to reflect for a moment:

How important is love? Love comes in many many flavors and experiences. Love is the heart opening through an energetic connection between electrical fields that unites people, touching you in a way that never leaves you.

We see over and over again that what moves you forward is this invisible force, this frequency that is called love. However some of you believe you are here to experience, to learn, to gather data, and to have a good time, and the importance of love is news to you. There is nothing wrong with these assumptions. Yet understanding the frequency of love is your ultimate lesson in living. To manifest it, all you have to do is feel it.

You must begin to manage yourselves as biological spiritual beings. Love is one of your major tools to living. How free you are with it, how self-generating and responsible, is the lesson that you have come into life to learn.

You know when you feel love it is quite contagious, is it not? Love spreads quite easily and is the opposite of fear. If you reflect upon fear and are truly honest with yourselves, you will see that many of the ideas instilled in you through your ancestral lineage, books, and history, are about fear. You are encouraged to be afraid of God and your bodies. You are convinced you must have an authority outside yourselves because you are not capable of managing your own biological beings. And now you are being convinced that even your local governments cannot manage you, that you need a larger global government to manage your world.

Limited thinking, encouraged and taught to your ancestors, is imprinted in the cells of your body. Your ancestors’ responses to these teachings over thousands of years, and to the times in which they lived — their reactions to violence, laws, and authority — were imprinted in their bodies in the course of daily living. Everything you deal with in daily living is recorded and stored in your physical body, and just because you do not consciously remember your experiences does not mean the cells of your body forget. Memories and responses to living are passed through your genes from one generation to another.

Love is The Great Solution

Your great solution, no matter what is occurring, is to love yourself and vibrate that frequency outside yourself. Doing so will allow many doors to open, and likewise many unwanted probabilities will simply pass you by, like a bird on the wing.

Today you are faced with a recurring opportunity. Imprinted in the consciousness of humankind are the experiences of all of your ancestors. When the ages shift, a great opportunity is at hand, so what will you do about it? Will you claim your power? Will you claim what is in your genes?

If you reach further back in your mind, you might remember another calendar point… about thirteen thousand years ago on the precession calendar, another important time of enlightenment occurred. It was a time when power was to be understood, a time that you yourselves remember as the final collapse of a very old civilization, a royal age unable to manifest because it was based on selfishness. No one in Atlantis counted love as their most important value.

Contemplate what their experience, thirteen thousand years ago, suggests to you. The Atlanteans were savvy with their technological skills, and they too understood the ether as an invisible spirit world, a world to travel into and to bring energies from. They understood the power of crystals and the power of the mind. More than that, they understood mind control, for the ability to control another human’s mind reaches deep into time. You seem to have developed your own perfections of it in late-twentieth-century Earth; however this practice dates back into the early annals of existence, as some already know and remember.

Your world may appear baffling. You may feel that there is so much to integrate, and wonder: How can I make sense of it all? You can. You will. You must. You are here to chart foreign territory and to pioneer an unnamed opportunity. By doing so you can truly discover one of your greatest abilities: that you are creators.

You are not victims. You are not flawed. You do not need authorities. And no one needs to save you. You do not need to memorize anything from books. You must learn to use the power of your will and your intent to discover the great flowering and blossoming of life that is occurring in your Now.

Your world is marketed for separation, for meaningless living; with all the sins, heavens, and hells, it is a wonder anyone wants to be born any more. However, love is here in a form that is beyond what you can ever experience any place else.

Source: @Karina89350882

Time Has Told Me

Published January 14, 2021 by tindertender

Time has told me
You’re a rare, rare find
A troubled cure
For a troubled mind

And time has told me
Not to ask for more
For someday our ocean
Will find its shore

So I’ll leave the ways that are making me be
What I really don’t want to be
Leave the ways that are making me love
What I really don’t want to love

Time has told me
You came with the dawn
A soul with no footprint
A rose with no thorn

Your tears, they tell me
There’s really no way
Of ending your troubles
With things you can say

And time will tell you
To stay by my side, oh
To keep on trying
‘Til there’s no more to hide

So leave the ways that are making you be
What you really don’t want to be
Leave the ways that are making you love
What you really don’t want to love

Time has told me
You’re a rare, rare find
A troubled cure
For a troubled mind

And time has told me
Not to ask for more
For some day our ocean
Will find its shore

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