When you’re actually self-aware… you’ll find there’s no time or space to focus on what other people are doing with their lives… this journey is not a competition.
We carry our attachments, trauma, and pain in our bodies… as we let them go… our bodies, our actions, and our lives change.
I’d rather get hurt from loving too much than hurt someone else because I’m full of hatred.
NO ONE can knock me off my healing and growth path unless I let them…
And that is my Power.
From youth the feminine has been trained to see the masculine as provider, leader, caretaker, boss … she has been taught to relinquish her personal authority to him.
Often, she discovers that the roles we are told belong to him are poorly managed, leaving us to fulfill the roles ourselves, yet not getting the recognition of authority, regardless.
Personally, my conscious self has determined to hold the position of Head-of-Household, I pay the bills, I make the decisions.
Yet in the astral, my young, trusting, innocent self is holding on to the position of subservience.
Oh how she challenges me!!
I hereby decree that any masculine or feminine of the 4D astral or any dimension seeking control, the magician who hypnotizes and manipulates into subservience the human being, has NO AUTHORITY here!
The astral me does NOT have my conscious permission to enter into ANY agreement which is less that empowering to Self, which brings harm or abuses to Self, or ANY of my relations with my human family, ANY other life form, or to the planet and that which lives here … I avow this across all timelines, past, present, future and parallel, and beyond time, ALL dimensions, ALL universes, All planetary systems AND the void.
I’m stepping in, and She of Me in the Astral will fall in line with MY wishes, embracing HER authority.
I will untrain her, bring her forth into her Sovereignty and Divinity … leaving behind subservience and the gifting of personal Will to any other.
By the determination of my Conscious Self, I vow this to be true.
Do not think that because she agrees to anything in 4D or other realms it be valid, for I have told you … she does not have the authority in her current state to make these agreements, I forbid it.
You Voyers, Violators and Manipulators have given me a run for my self … in a way, I thank you, for it is with these challenges, I Rise.
She/Me WILL command our own presence …
Love is one of the most misunderstood and misplaced human experiences. Ever. Love is far more than a pleasant feeling. Love is a creative power. Love is not something you give away. It is something you reflect. Listen to understand why “I love me when I am with you” has far more balance and affection than “I love you”.
“I think unconditional love is a beautiful thing, so long as we don’t use it against ourselves. I can love all of humanity, but that doesn’t mean that I will put up with all of humanity. The boundary, for me, is set at healthy self-regard. When my unconditional love for another undermines my self-respect, the fence goes up. Not because I don’t believe in their possibilities, but because I have come to realize that there is no value in sacrificing my actuality for their potentiality.
I make a distinction between human potential — which may well be infinite – and human reality – which is often quite finite, particularly in those who choose, over decades, to remain asleep. Yes they may well awaken, but we should never postpone any part of our own life waiting for that to happen. Unconditional love begins at home, with the protecting and honoring of our own unique journey.”
~ Jeff Brown
It doesn’t matter what size beads you’re working with – be it size 10’s, 11’s, 15’s or 20’s – it always takes 7 beads to close the circle. For many, this number is significant.
For some, who follow Christianity, the number 7 indicates completeness. In Genesis, God created the heavens and the Earth in six days, and, upon completion, God rested on the seventh day. For this, it’s considered a holy number.
Other people, who follow the red path, will associate 7 with the seven directions. Most of all people know the first four directions; the east, the south, the west and the north. There are three more though. The fifth and sixth direction are the earth and the great mystery that is the sky. So what is the seventh? It’s the self. Think a moment about that direction and it’s significance. Without the self, there is a missing direction and a lack of completion.
Without that seventh bead, the circle is incomplete.
Traditional people believe that each bead has spirit. Contemporary beaders who find that a beadwork is too crowded might crack a bead to make space. However, many traditional people prefer a different correction or they will simply and humbly live with the mistake rather than crack a bead because that bead has spirit.
When you are beading, you are already connecting with a tradition. Through your thread and your needle, you are connecting to past generations. And, you are creating for future generations. You are, yourself, a part of the circle. Your self. That seventh direction, it’s between you and Spirit.
I’ve come to the realization that the things and people in my life are there because I chose them, or allowed them to be.
I’ve also realized that I have been ‘settling’ … I’ve been settling for a shitty situation when beauty is right out in front of me, and I see it while others enjoy it. I hold myself back from it, while putting another before myself.
I’ve somehow convinced myself that by catering to another’s needs that I’m being caring and kind … when in actuality, I’ve become an enabler for one who cannot, or will not, take care of their own problems and needs.
When expressing my thoughts about this I was asked, “So, your problems are my problems?”
What a lovely and transparent thing to say. Now I am free from making their problems my problems any further.
Now, I come to the point of creating my future. I can tell you, it does not look like this.
Self love requires me to put myself first in the coming days, especially with this realization of how little my efforts to ensure the comfort and needs of another being met have been valued so very little.
I will not settle for this crappy situation in my future.
It is only I who can change it, by making new and different choices.
One cannot possibly love another sufficiently if one cannot even love themselves properly.
I write about this for the simple act of visually reading and acknowledging my own situation, and for convincing myself it is time to be a little bitchy … I’m no stepping stool.
I see myself in joy and love
I know myself
I am enough