All posts tagged Awareness

It’s Obvious You’ve Been Made For A Reason

Published November 18, 2018 by tindertender

“Know yourself, because … if you know yourself, you will understand, that good and bad, come from you. It’s good that you should know your own existence: you’ll become amongst others … of a higher existence. When you’re knowing yourself you know everything: with this knowledge you’re free from every evil thing. As you don’t know you, you don’t know your worth! If you can see your Self, you will see God, the Truth! Your servants, seven planets and nine skies will be; it is a great shame that You are a slave to your body! If you should be looking for that blessing so blissful, don’t be chained down by animal pleasures, blissful! Become like men who are great … don’t eat or sleep! Explore yourself like who the world explore and seek! Belonging to the realm of animals is food and sleep: the spirit that’s in you, lives by knowledge … to keep. Begin waking up … how long will you keep sleeping? Look at yourself … you, are a really wonderful thing! Think … and remember, from where you are coming: why is it fact, that in this prison you’re languishing? Break out from your cage and be flying to your tower …

It is so obvious that you’ve been made for a reason … it is such a shame if you don’t accomplish. It’s a pity, a shame for an angel to Satan be obeying: its such a pity for a king, a doorkeeper be obeying …

Upon your treasure you have some dragon squatting: kill that dragon … from suffering yourself be freeing! If you should feed it, you will into a coward change … and would when talking of treasure, become strange. It is like, if you should have in your house a treasure, even if you are sick … in your hand you have the cure! You’ve fallen asleep, how to reach your destination? Talisman fascinates you, but treasure … why, go on? Smash up that talisman and that treasure take up … suffer a little pain, and from yourself … pain, take up!”

Spinning Entry … or Standing Still

Published November 18, 2018 by tindertender

How many doors are there to all knowledge? Is one forced to locate ‘A’ door? Pigeon holed into one line of entry? Or are there many doors, everywhere, all along life’s path?

Wherever we find ourselves on the journey, we will find, upon deep reflection, we are actually in the eye of the storm, standing smack dab in the middle of where all doors … and openings … meet.

Do you dare enter one of the doors? Or do you open them all and stand center, sending love and song and sweetness into each of them? Not really joining with, or meshing with any single room, or path, or group.

She spins right, wearing her white dress. Sparkles begin to fly off of her as she spins, entering the dark opening of each door. It’s as though a tube is surrounding all of them, and sliding down the rim of the aperture is Golden streams, like water dripping down the outer edges. Darkness is behind, yet these golden rivulets are reflecting light.

She stands in a circle of light and all of the doors seem to disappear, all except one large opening. It seems to open into darkness, but as she looks at it, it begins to glow slightly blue, ever so subtle in the dim, near impenetrable view.

Aaahhh, sunset. The sky a pale blue as the light fades. Silhouettes begin to appear. Buildings, hills, and anything that is abound the earth.

Hair like liquid gold, parted on the right. Gentle waves and a thin band across the forehead. Features delicate, beautiful … yet eyes are like liquid, icy laser beams. Your energy pushes against my middle and a sensation like … fear? … butterflies?

I wonder, your features say you are young, your stature small … yet there is no such thing as small is there? That is a word humans dreamed up after they stuffed themselves into a flesh suit. Reality … who are you really? Why are you pretending to be small when in fact you are so very large? Are you here to burn away my illusion? What if I’m not ready? What if I’m comfortable in the uncomfortableness?

Strange. I thought myself courageous, brave, and willing to face what is … yet this moment allows me to understand there is still fear embedded in the mind. It holds me back from walking through doors, from committing to anything, to remaining aloof.

One thing I’ve learned is that while patient, there is only so much of it that can be offered an individual. At some point, the comfortable will be pushed into discomfort, forced to stretch beyond that which they know. We’re forced to face our fear, willingly … or kicking and screaming.

I think again about what nice means. I think to myself, it wasn’t very nice of me to yell at someone the other day. Fortunately for me, he forgives easily, quickly, and just lets it go like it never happened. Then on the other hand I know someone who refuses to even try to come to an understanding, about what? I do not know. I realize I’m swimming between two poles of experience with two different people. One who forgives and moves on, the other who refuses and fosters negativity. Two completely different reality’s, and me standing in the middle … sometimes frustrated by it all.

All of a sudden I consider many other things as well.

Many … other … things …

Theory vs Reality

Published November 16, 2018 by tindertender

How many ‘theories’ have been proven as ‘reality’ throughout time?

As we age, thought processes and belief systems change, sometimes just as drastically as our physical appearance. Considering ‘you’ of ten years ago you may be hard pressed to see yourself there … Foods disliked are now liked or rigid beliefs may have had a shift.

Often we are told the far out and unbelievable are only conspiracies spread by those who do not know any better. We do know now that for decades there has been in place employees who intentionally spread disinformation so that those who try to get the word out about some things are slandered, even by those too afraid to look at the information themselves, preferring to remain naive.

In order for the plan of chaos to work properly, people must be led to believe all allegations are false. Many people just need to be told what to think or believe, and if it sits well within their safe zone, they’ll fight to make it as real as they are told it is. They will attack anyone who puts the illusion at risk.

Too many times it has been proven that different representatives are basically the same, if not at the start, then by the end. Citizens do not want to believe their representatives would lie to them … sadly, many do not want to admit the truth.

Those who speak of chemtrails or geoengineering, or the use of HARRP technology for weather manipulation are slandered and attacked. Some of the attackers are they who refuse to have their comfort zone altered, others, are hired to start the attack, to work up a crowd who refuse to consider possibilities.

At first those who tried to warn people were attacked, but more and more people became suspicious. The claim that the particles sprayed into ‘prolonged contrails’ were being used to confuse tracking devices, or block out the sun was included in the conversations. We can see deniers turned into sharing ‘partial’ truths, just enough truth combined with falsehood to confuse people about the reality. Still, it is easier to have a conversation about ‘cloud seeding’ than ‘prolonged contrails’ with most people. Its easier to attack, dismiss, and forget what some are trying to share.

We live in a world that is for the most part detached from reality. In the comfort of schedules and normalcy relaxation takes over the mind and outside influences ignored.

It is almost the year 2019. Let us hope that whoever takes office in 2020 with put the brakes on and work toward regenerating community in country shared the world over, rather than further division. With division all will be lost, all of it. We should know the direction it’ll go by 2021. Although I’m fairly certain now, and have been since 2015, I still have hope.

Let the ‘theory’ and ‘prediction’ of yore be found to be just that … theory. May ‘reality’ bring us peace and harmony in a world on the mend.

“Bowing to the wild intelligence of your life force, and choosing to respond to the deepest wisdom of your soul, is no longer merely an opportunity for growth, it is the global imperative upon which cultural transformation depends.” – Clare Dubois

Opening Hidden Doors

Published October 30, 2018 by tindertender

If you are able to do so, I would highly recommend a past life regression hypnosis. It will open up the reality of life.

The mysteries of this world are vast, yet given these glimpses into the past as well as the time between lives is mind opening. The experience brings a surety of ‘more’ than this experience.

Atmospheric Adjustment – Global Consequences

Published October 15, 2018 by tindertender

Let us suppose that chemtrails don’t exist as people now describe them. Let us say that cloud seeding is actually what is happening.

We have ships that spray sea water into the atmosphere to create clouds. Planes then come to seed those clouds and grow them, (as well as those wisps of clouds that are already existing). Let us go one step further and say that the HAARP technology pushes these seeded cloud structures to wherever they want them to go, causing storms or drought, wherever they (the directors of this program) feel the need for such.

Some think that HAARP closed its doors, and it did … for a time ( According to this next article though, they reopened and began working again in 2015.

The High-frequency Active Auroral Research Program, or HAARP, is a scientific endeavor aimed at studying the properties and behavior of the ionosphere. Operation of the research facility was transferred from the United States Air Force to the University of Alaska Fairbanks on Aug. 11, 2015, allowing HAARP to continue with exploration of ionospheric phenomenology via a land-use cooperative research and development agreement.

Here is a little information on what they do with this technology.

Do you believe it is okay for some to alter the atmosphere of this planet which provides life for all living beings without a vote? Is this an acceptable situation for you, for the earth, for life? After all, the chemicals they use to seed the clouds … let us just say … have the potential of altering the growth and life span of all plant life, not to mention the toxification of the waters.

While many get technical concerning chemtrails and adamantly deny their existence, the fact is CLOUD SEEDING has been going on for a very long time. Way back in 1965 there were concerns of how this procedure might affect plant life, crops, and other health issues. Yet they continued, even to this day, trying different chemical concoctions to achieve their dream of “Weather Warfare” … or would it be more accurate to call it “Space Warfare”.

Geoengineering: Who controls the weather controls the water. Who controls the water controls the food. Who creates seeds which will grow in toxic soils, using toxic waters, controls life. Unfortunately, life cannot endure these toxic conditions, no matter how the rich and powerful might try to change it.

These “persistent contrails” have been classified by NASA as clouds. These ‘clouds’ are then seeded and manipulated as those ‘in charge’ see fit. Here is a link for more information on the various Contrails and the actual request to help study them.

Here is a small article on “Cloud Seeding”.

Here is another interesting article.

Shouldn’t the human population have a say in what these environment, atmospheric adjustments are, and whether we want them or not? Why do the few in ‘power’ feel they have the right to manipulate the life giving source we all rely upon, the Earth, the Planet, on which we need to be healthy in order to survive?

If you read nothing else, you should read the PDF in the attached link from 1965. It tells of what they were doing then and also some of their concerns. This technique has not ended, it has only morphed into new strategies, equally damaging to the planet.

I was raised in the deep wilderness. In the 70’s the forest was lush, green, beautiful and teaming with life. It was a jungle, a beautiful jungle one could crouch behind a bush and disappear in. Today when I visit the place I was raised, I see a sickly forest. This is not unique, for all forests I visit these days are struggling to survive.

These atmospheric sprays must be stopped. The forests are our planets natural cooling system. When we make them sick, the planet warms … just as it is doing, yet the sprayers persist. They cannot make this damage right by doing more damage, they must cede to the Earth, give in, and relinquish power.

There are global consequences to these actions and they have known about this since before 1965. Here is a very telling document from 2010, and another link you may find very interesting info from.

This could have something to do with the huge push for flu vaccines on pregnant mothers. Are they attempting to alter the DNA structure of the unborn to see if they will fare better in this toxic environment than our current human ‘body suits’ are faring? But, this is another subject, which obviously has ties to the whole.


What Are You Looking For?

Published October 11, 2018 by tindertender

Sometimes I find myself looking for the car keys, or glasses, or the other shoe. But what am I really looking for?

As a child I was looking for acceptance, praise, approval … and belief in what I said was happening to me.

As a young woman I was looking for love, for a mate that would commit for life, yet that did not pan out like I had imagined it would.

Today, I look for depth. Depth of self, and depth in others. No longer interested in what is fashionable, or ‘normal’, or widely accepted. No … I seek the inner workings of me, and of others, and of all life … including this beautiful planet that supports it.

Questions constantly arise: Who am I? What am I here for? What is my purpose?

I am tired of wasting time. There is only so much we are given. It seems the youngsters are focused on popularity, hanging with the gang who gives support where it might be lacking.

Too little time is spent teaching the value and importance of the earth and all it provides life. The sacredness of life itself is tossed to the wayside, while mothers and fathers toil and sometimes struggle just to put food on the table. This land gets forgotten, and the connection damaged, if not broken.

What am I looking for?

I’m looking for the reconnection to all that is sacred, to that which does, and always has been with me, part of me, inside me, and also surrounding me … seen in everything I view.

By becoming aware of the fact that what I see resides in me … the angry one, the sad or depressed one, the joyful one, the idle one, or the work horse. I have worn these shoes, and worn them well, so when I see these things in others I reflect inside, and look hard to see if it still is there, or if I’ve been successful in transmuting it, or nurturing and growing it.

Alchemy of the Spirit and of the Soul, not an easy task, but the effort to make alterations opens doorways not possible before.

Torn …

Published October 6, 2018 by tindertender


My love has been trampled, my life and the life of my children abused. Yet still, I listen to and have compassion for the one responsible for much of it. He says to me these days, “You used to listen to me.” Yes, I did. I used to trust him, and then I experienced his true self. As he called me selfish, he behaved in that manner, deflecting the action(s) onto me.

While he calls Dr. Ford harsh names, spewing spittle from his mouth and snarling as he does, I cannot help to wonder what he will think when he passes from body. Will he become aware of the wrongs he has done? Will he take responsibility for his portion of pain in this world?

Currently so many people refuse to own their part of the whole. They look at themselves as successful, righteous, and fair. The changes they have taken part in … the coercion, the judgement of others … it has never even occurred to them that somehow they may have had a hand in a painful outcome, they are too busy laying blame elsewhere while they don their hats of superiority.

I mentioned to the room of guides and spirits, “He will know some day” and in return, “Someday soon”. It is so strange that through it all I still have love and compassion for this relationship, and others. I honestly don’t think people are aware of what they do, for they are too busy looking outside themselves, blaming others, than taking a good hard look at themselves. Maybe because it hurts to do so … I don’t know.

This country is anything but united. Men vs women, skin color separation, ethnicity differences, religious practices, awareness and sharing and refusal and demoralization by those who cannot see.

Children, animals, and others who do not wish to fight are abused every single day.

I will never lay down and pretend to be weak. I will never think it is okay for someone to stomp on another persons right to freedom of choice. Too many think they have the authority to tell a woman what to wear, what to say or not to say, what work to do, or not to do. They mistreat her as she brings new life into this world, they beat her physically and emotionally and they think this is acceptable.

Even towards those who have caused me pain I still find the love I had originally. I hope that when the time comes for them to experience what they unleashed onto others lives  it will not be as painful as the original experience, for all at once, this will be unbearable. I know what is coming even while they refuse to believe.

I look into my life and I wonder about my actions … how did my words and motivations affect those who took part in this life? I would like to break it down, understand it, and try to make it right before I leave this body, for afterward, there will not be that opportunity.


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