Daughters with Narcissistic Mothers

Published March 18, 2023 by tindertender

Ok so first I do have background in psychology BUT I’m writing this thread mostly from my experience and from a background of 10+ years of helping my clients and my close friends and myself. It’s rough out here and I noticed the hands on work yields more perspective with emotionally nuanced things like this.

When you grow up with a narcissistic mother it’s confusing. As with all narcissistic parents, you start off being a bother as a baby, just something to show off but emotional needs, outbursts and selfless attention and time are usually a bother UNLESS your mom thinks it makes them look like a good mom to handle these things well.

Narcissistic mothers feed off of their image of what they feel “makes” a good mother. Sometimes we get lucky and some of those things are nice. But emotional empathy is ALWAYS missing at the end of the day. Even emotionally “supportive” was moreso centered around the support THEY felt like you needed. Any emotional request outside of what THEY feel is valid gets shut down, berated and they self victimize instead of just giving you what you’re asking for. There is no genuine empathy.

When you’re young, you usually become some type of doll. Like you’re pretty, you’re great in school, you’re well behaved and these things are constantly bragged about. It gets confusing bc this is usually how narcissistic mothers show their love. Being “proud” of you for the things that reflect good on them.

The MOST confusing thing is your mom will constantly exclaim about how much she loves her kids, how she’ll do anything for them all this shit right. She’ll constantly tell you who SHE is and how you SHOULD view her. Honestly it takes time and space to break this rhetoric and see the reality of how selfish she is bc you get taught you shouldn’t hold her accountable for her faults bc of all that she does to try so hard for you and how much she had to sacrifice to be a mother.

It’s veryyy hard to stop making excuses for your mom but it’s important bc if you don’t, you internalize all of that resentment and rage designed for her and it comes out in how you feel about yourself, it makes you guilty for having boundaries with people and saying no.

Once you start getting into puberty tho you become the enemy. Even before that, when you start developing your own individuality you’re suddenly “disrespectful” and unappreciative of all your mom does if you’re not submitting to them and their advice or you letting them over rule you.

This starts the battle. Your mom will then find ways to let you know you’re inadequate. It’ll either come from hyper criticism in the name of “trying to help” or it’ll be downright insults when you’re doing something you’re own way instead of the way they’re telling you to or “suggesting” you to.

If you have a mom who flies into violent narcissistic rage you’ll be called everything in the book when she feels challenged. One way my mom would berate me even as a grown woman would be to refer to me as “little girl” or once called me “her bastard bitch”. I mean it gets nasty.

If you have a mom who goes into a quiet narcissistic rage she’ll become the hyper victim, self loathing and guilt trip you until you feel bad and stop trying to hold her accountable for whatever you’re confronting her with.

You having your identity is literally threatening to your moms identity. If she can’t take credit for every part of you, her self loathing and jealousy will kick in and she will try to project those feelings onto you.

This creates a lot of self doubt when you become an adult. It feels easier to put yourself down than to build yourself up. You may not believe when other people compliment you or are nice to you. You may struggle with depression and not know how to give yourself positive reinforcement.

You may also start to feel competitive with other women bc of the distrust. This comes more from the guilt tripping mothers. You feel like you constantly have to be “beneath” others which can create an inferiority complex. It can cause you to withdraw and self loath when needing help bc you may feel like you don’t deserve the help, like you needing help is an inconvenience.

If you have the more violent nasty mothers, you may be downright avoidant of forming healthy relationships with other women. It may be hard for you to let them in and be soft. You may feel overly self sufficient and not really comfortable asking anyone for help. You don’t want to be viewed as a weak bitch. And that’s on berating from our moms whenever we actually need help.

HOW TO HEAL:

First, it’s a process. You may need to get a therapist to help you expand your awareness on how things have impacted you but if you feel like you have a good grip it may not be necessary. Start to notice how your mom speaks to you on the everyday and the defenses that’s created with others.

Then, notice how you were spoken to as a child and how that’s helped shape your inner dialogue. Next, notice how your emotions have been handled by your mom and how you’ve transferred this into your relationship with yourself and with others. This one is hard bc there’s so much unlearning to do with how to emotionally handle people when they’re vulnerable and how to handle your own vulnerability.

Cry it out. Cry for the little girl who put her moms feelings first. Cry for the little girl who wanted her mom to change. Cry for the little girl who had more empathy for her moms situation than her own. Cry for the woman who feels betrayed. Cry for the woman who feels shorted from having a good relationship with their mom. Cry for the woman who doesn’t have the advocacy they very much need from the person who birth them. Cry because it hurts 💔

If you’re into holistic healing I have a guided meditation that could help with the process. I needed this A LOT when becoming a mother. And to become a better version of myself. I hope this helped, and it does get better 💖💖💖

https://www.etsy.com/listing/1251572396/healing-mother-wounds-visualization

Two Worlds Collide

Published March 16, 2023 by tindertender

You may have noticed dreams becoming quite unpleasant. If this is the case … let the night be the night, and the day be the day.

Don’t bring the agitation forward with you. Wake, and release, and move on in as happy a position as you can muster.

This is a war over consciousness, and what it creates in the seen world.

Mental attacks are high right now. Thru the dream state, and in the governing bodies trying to flip this world.

Remain in love.
It’s a challenge.
Overcome it.

You have what you need to do so within.

Meditation Message

Published March 13, 2023 by tindertender

I love the message received during meditation last night. It’s something we all should keep in mind. Lightening our energetic and emotional load is a full time job requiring our full attention.

Remember this phrase …

“Don’t judge yourself heavy on classic interference”

By the way, this came after I blogged about idol worship … take from it what you will.

On Mind Manipulation

Published March 12, 2023 by tindertender

“Don’t judge yourself heavy on classical interference.”

Grateful for the message Spirit, Team.

Grateful for your presence.

Grateful for sanity in an insane world.

Thank you for being here.

https://powerlisting.fandom.com/wiki/Mental_Manipulation

Parasitic Infestation

Published March 10, 2023 by tindertender

^{It just occurred to me that trichinella spiralis in the muscles (including the brain) is how these 4D parasitic entities access our consciousness. It’s never talked of, for the “rulers” of humanity utilize this method to keep the human collective in lower vibrational frequencies, coupled with the programming in movies and media and patented voice to skull tech it’s a breeze to format people’s lives.}

^{They hone in on the frequency of the parasites.}

^{Cleansing, deep cleansing, may help in this. It seems to me NAC is working to eliminate such things, by the sensations I’m having in legs and skull. I’m going to add wormwood, and also add wormwood to dmso cream for legs, and wherever else I feel twitches.}

^{THIS (parasite infestation) is why many don’t eat pork (especially) and other undercooked meats.}

NAC, activated charcoal , sleep and parasites

Parasites embedded in the muscles (and brain according to another site I read, I’ll try to find it). They say there’s no cure once they’re in the muscle. I’m going to prove them wrong.

https://www.health.state.mn.us/diseases/trichinosis/trichinosis.html

I actually have apricot seeds. I bought several bags of them. I knew they fought cancer naturally, but at the time I did not know cancer is caused by parasites.

I’m going to add this to my regimine. I’ll start slow with everything so as not to shock my body.

https://alivenhealthy.com/2022/07/14/why-do-i-have-parasites-vitamin-b17-deficiency-and-parasite-infection/

It’s way more common than they make it sound. I’m thinking they are cause for stroke and aneurism’s too.

There’s a reason they won’t ever suggest treating it. Sickness makes them lots of money. Greed!!

https://www.cdc.gov/parasites/cysticercosis/index.html

“An apple a day keeps the doctor away.”

https://www.britannica.com/story/can-apple-seeds-kill-you

Seeds carry B17. Seeds carry low doses of cyanide. God/Creator gave us the trees with fruits bearing seeds. We were instructed to eat of them. He did not say to eat the animals.

Some interpret this to mean we eat the fruit and plant the seed. What if He meant were were to eat the seeds also to keep sickness away?

Genesis 1:29-30 Plants and Fruits that are allowed

Bloodroot has a lot of significant healing abilities, used cautiously. It helps with cancer, and also may help cure a parasite infestation. Do your research, be cautious with this one.

http://medicinalherbinfo.org/000Herbs2016/1herbs/bloodroot/

3/12/23:

Testimony Report:

After 3 applications of Bloodroot in dmso cream the twitching and movement in my muscles (parasites) has significantly decreased. I will continue doing this morning and evening until my wormwood arrives, then I’ll switch to it and do the same. I’m gonna kill these muscular parasites if it’s the last thing I do.

I take 2 first knuckle pulls of the cream, add 6 drops of bloodroot, mix then apply. I’ve been covering my whole body, or as much as I can reach (the back is tough to get).

Fluoride CAUSES Cancer!

Published March 6, 2023 by tindertender

Fluoride in the water and toothpaste and whatever else they’re putting it in CAUSES cancer. They knew/know this. They WANT the people sick, suffering and dying!!!

It’s murder, plain and simple.

Scientists Splicing Human Genes into the Food Supply Since 20,000 BC?

Published March 5, 2023 by tindertender

Of course they won’t admit it, and they’ve locked away the data in vaults the chattel shall never see.

Some say that during 18,000 BC is when the developed the sow that we eat, by genetically splicing it with humans, and that eating them, is essentially eating self. Canablism. I’ve heard stories of the genetically modifying rice with human dna too. Let me find it.

Its U.S. developers say they could be used to treat children with diarrhoea, a major killer in the Third World.

The rice is a major step in so-called Frankenstein Foods, the first mingling of human-origin genes and those from plants. But the U.S. Department of Agriculture has already signalled it plans to allow commercial cultivation.

The rice’s producers, California-based Ventria Bioscience, have been given preliminary approval to grow it on more than 3,000 acres in Kansas. The company plans to harvest the proteins and use them in drinks, desserts, yoghurts and muesli bars.

The news provoked horror among GM critics and consumer groups on both sides of the Atlantic.

GeneWatch UK, which monitors new GM foods, described it as “very disturbing”. Researcher Becky Price warned: “There are huge, huge health risks and people should rightly be concerned about this.”

Friends of the Earth campaigner Clare Oxborrow said: “Using food crops and fields as glorified drug factories is a very worrying development.

“If these pharmaceutical crops end up on consumers’ plates, the consequences for our health could be devastating.

“The biotech industry has already failed to prevent experimental GM rice contaminating the food chain.

“The Government must urge the U.S. to ban the production of drugs in food crops. It must also introduce tough measures to prevent illegal GM crops contaminating our food and ensure that biotech companies are liable for any damage their products cause.”

In the U.S., the Union of Concerned Scientists, a policy advocacy group, warned: “It is unwise to produce drugs in plants outdoors.

“There would be little control over the doses people might get exposed to, and some might be allergic to the proteins.”

The American Consumers Union and the Washingtonbased Centre for Food Safety also oppose Ventria’s plans.

As well as the contamination fears there are serious ethical concerns about such a fundamental interference with the building blocks of life.

Yet there is no legal means for Britain and Europe to ban such products on ethical grounds.

Imports would have to be accepted once they had gone through a scientific safety assessment.

The development is what may people feared when, ten years ago, food scientists showed what was possible by inserting copies of fish genes from the flounder into tomatoes, to help them withstand frost.

https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-440302/The-rice-human-genes.html

https://phys.org/news/2011-06-genetic-rice-years.html

https://www.smithsonianmag.com/innovation/researchers-transfer-human-protein-plants-supersize-them-180978443/

They say they’re using “other animals” but they’re using the human genome. Soul traps?

https://www.google.com/search?q=science+sicing+human+genes+into+the+food+supply&rlz=1CDGOYI_enUS704US704&oq=science+sicing+human+genes+into+the+food+supply&aqs=chrome..69i57.17123j0j4&hl=en-US&sourceid=chrome-mobile&ie=UTF-8

They’re doing terrible things in Ukraines biolabs. Not only creating weapons of virological assault on life, but most likely contaminating “everything” from food, to medicines.

https://www.foxnews.com/transcript/tucker-the-pentagon-is-lying-about-bio-labs-in-ukraine

The Solar Spiral

Published March 3, 2023 by tindertender

In February 1940, in Arizona, some members of the Hopi, Papago, Apache and Navajo tribes signed a commitment by which they waived the use and reproduction of the “solar spiral” because this symbol was very similar to the “gamada cross” that the NSDAP members were using on Germany.

“Therefore, we decide that from this day and forever our tribes renounce the use of this emblem known as Swastica in the making of blankets, baskets, dresses and objects of art.” (Commitment of the Tribes, 1940)

In the following years, between 1940-1960 the Paiute, Ojibwe, Chickasaw, Washo, Colville, Kree, Pequot, Nipmuc, lenape, Illiniwek, Modok, Abenaki, among many others, also stopped using the “solar spiral” in their cultural representations given the stigma that this symbol had for Europeans, Americans and Canadians.

Historian Alison Bernstein points out that they did it as a means of protest over the abuses that the Germans were committing in Europe, but anthropologist John Fox says the Washington government forced them to do so under threats, which the Indians protested noting that the “solar spiral it existed long before the nazis appeared in history.”

Reference:
.- American Indians and World War II, Alison Bernstein (1999).