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Wait for someone respectful, not only in the beginning stages of the relationship when things are bright and beautiful, but also when things get hard. Wait for someone who respects your boundaries and does not force you to do things that you’re not willing or ready to do.
Wait for someone who is giving and does not keep count of the good things they do for you.
Wait for someone who challenges you mentally. Someone who inspires you to be a better person.
Wait for someone who takes their time to learn and understand you.
Wait for someone who is consistent with their efforts in showing you how much they care about you.
Wait for someone who wants to be part of your world, and wants you to be part of theirs.
Wait for someone who lets you know you’re on their mind, someone who checks in on you, someone who wants you to know that they care for you.
Wait for someone who is willing to commit to you, someone who is willing to choose you.
Wait for someone who makes love feel easy, calm. Like coming home.
Wait for someone sincere. Someone who doesn’t confuse you because their actions don’t match their words. Wait for someone honest.
Wait for someone who does their absolute best to not hurt you, someone who strives to protect your heart.
Wait for someone who will choose you over and over and over again. Love is a choice you make every single day. You deserve to find the kind of person who shows up for what you share, someone who believes in it.
Wait for someone who’s not perfect, but rather, real. Perfect is an illusion. Real is where you find something rare and special.
Wait for someone who reminds you that love was always meant to be soft. 🌱
When I was 5, I wanted to be like mama. Mama smoked. I used to get the buts out of the ash tray and pretend. By 7, I was taught how to properly inhale by a babysitter. By 11 I had mother approval, was given allowances, and notes of approval for purchase of the cigarettes at the store.
At 16 my mother bought an exorbitant amount of alcohol for self and friends, a party in the woods! Alcohol use approved, and supplied.
In life, people have tried to label me as addict. I would never accept that.
I experienced a pattern of excess, then I stopped. Those historical experiences don’t determine who I am today … or even then …
Some use cannabis, or hemp, and are labeled as an addict.
Some drink to excess and are seen as sophisticated … or a lush, depending on social status.
We as humans have experiences. Sometimes these experiences destroy us. Sometimes we physically perish, sometimes spiritually. If the bioform survives, the Spirit advances, expands, elevates …
While others get so angry at your rising, overcoming, gaining resilience and knowledge that could help others avoid such paths …
An experience isn’t an addiction.
Doing something repeatedly isn’t addiction.
It isn’t addiction unless there is craving.
Cigarettes have an addictive substance added to ensure this, so does alcohol, and junk food …
Addiction is allowed by governmental allowances of addictive substances added to natural products and foods. Many things are advertised as helpful and healthy. Of course “addiction” has grown into a complex money-maker for governing systems.
I never did the 12 steps.
I simply decided not to overindulge anymore.
And with flow, experiences come and go.
Mostly it is Man who judges harshly.
Spirit is happy for the wisdom, resilience, and inner fortitude manifested within.
Challenges are to be overcome.
Challenges aren’t meant to be a lifetime shadow of self-perceived weakness.
See yourself as “at risk” of falling and failing,
Or see yourself as an Achiever of whatever the mind desires.
Man’s judgements inhibit flow, and interfere with the lesson.
Especially knowing about all the interferences meant to manipulate this flow … or stagnancy.
Rise, beautiful mighty one.
Those challenges meant to drown you or bury you in suffering and shame were only fuel for your Soul Flight. Soar.
Leave the manipulations behind.
You aren’t what others tried to create in you.
I used to wonder why I wasn’t like other people.
So many are running on intellect rather than passion.
I get excited! I LOVE big, innocent and pure, like a child … free of pollutants. It scares people! They cringe when the Love is spilling over the top of the Love Cup.
It took time for me to understand the calm demeanor didn’t reflect a calm interior. It seems to be more of a lack of internal fire, repulsed by the fire seen in others.
Some feel superior because it seems they are always calm, cool, collected, but often they secretly cast foul word spells against the Light in you, throwing toxic, lower vibrational energy at you, to dirty your shine, your intensity.
It hurts dammit!
For both party’s.
The pain of high vibrational people butting up against lower vibrational people is very real. My own mother confessed that to be around me caused her literal energetic pain.
The Light, the vitality, shows the truth, and that truth is desperately pushed onto the light source as it’s “fault” when the truth of the inner is simply being revealed in them.
Some feel so empty inside that when your light reveals something within them, they must immediately push it out onto you … they don’t dare admit it resides in them.
They’ve created an image in mind about those who have vital life force (out of control, over the top, always talking, always doing) vs those who aren’t driven to explore and go, go, go with the inner fire (appearing calm, but literally lacking the passion to ignite an idea, preferring a lazy life, undependable).
One, seemingly, important, manager material.
The other a vital force which must be managed.
So they slander you. They shame and blame your inner child for their own, personal unhealed wounding, which your light reveals … they want you to believe the pain is your fault.
Before you allow someone to criticize you for living an expanded, authentic life, consider the source. It could simply be that your vitality irritates their demons.
So Love is slapped around and kicked around because the darkness inside the lifeless ones can’t stand to see themselves.
They think themselves superior, but they lack the vitality necessary to generate anything beneficial … hence the need to “manage” your Creator Self, high energy, offering solutions in this world, processing so fast you make “management” look bad.
Habitual patterning throughout generations blames the outside, (others), for what’s wrong on the inside. Blaming whoever is shining a light of truth … delivering a healing vitality to a circumstance.
Keep shining.
Eventually it will be seen you were the True Master Strategist all along.
Puppetry.
Wanting to control your output.
Treating your vitality as unworthy.
While invading your energetic fields, in many spaces and places, trying to “wear” your essence, and command you … as you.
Gotta just shake your head.
Remember … you are the Light. You carry Light within you. They don’t.
I feel sex addiction in the world has gotten so out of control because the low vibers only feel energetically alive when they are exploding in ecstasy.
Sanity is a beautiful blessing.
You don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone.
And you’ll be ever so grateful when it is returned to you.
Just make sure you stay alive.
It’ll get better.
Everyone seems to be “using” humanity.
We must affect change.
It truly does feel like a reunion. The energies have been a little edgier lately, more masculine. I’m thinking it is the reintegration of the Shadow Self. Perhaps you are feeling it too?
As I sat in the bath I cried. The realization hit me hard and I called out to TMH asking, “Why do I have to die every time I fall in love?”
Three times in life I have loved a man deeply.
The first, aged 15-17, beat me, choked me, raped me, all under the nose of my “guardians” for he mooched his way under the roof and into security.
The second 18-20, innocent, sweet, and a slave to his phallus. I came home after work to find him and his ex on the sofa nearly naked. A heart shattering. Blind faith destroyed. Trust obliterated.
The third, aged 24-31, I won’t go into detail. Infidelity. A slave to his phallus. A moving out. Dog murdered, job lost, homeless, living in car.
It’s obvious someone cursed me. That every time I loved, I would also be shattered.
I’ve determined I’m no longer willing to “die” for love of a man. He has proven himself unworthy of the essence herein. I connect to TMH, my King of the highest heavenly mountain, and deny the rest.
After 22 years of conscious attack within the field of awareness (and 37 years prior of sleeper attack) I woke this morning feeling as tho I had been eclipsed out of their reach. I thought, it’s all well and good.
Solitude in my life, solitude in my mind. I need no ripples in my waters made by an other who feels the need to dictate my moves, my mood, my life. There is no value in such a connection and I’m not willing to pay the price. It simply isn’t an equal give and take. It’s parasitical, and I won’t feed into it any more.
I choose me. I am worthy of the value of the gift TMH has given ME. It’s weird how some say,”bring all that is yours as tho it is mine.”
I say, if you were worthy of such a gift TMH would have bestowed it upon you.
But he didn’t. He gave it to me.
Pawing … energetically, physically, by those who desire to TAKE the gift from me, to claim it, to control it, to flaunt the wealth of it to their friends… to hurt the source and play with hoes draining the essence, dressing up in the energy, prancing about as a lord.
No.
No more.
I choose me.
I choose to be eclipsed out of this energy.
TMH knows where I’m at if he needs me. If our family, true blue, needs me they know where I am.
I no longer entertain parasites who cannot win the battle with the snake they must live with.
I’ve no need.
TMH has provided.
And the whispered questions of “Who will be with the woman?” Go unanswered.
Hidden harvesters of the Stars, who don’t abide in Love.
The topics he touches on are important.
I AM calling upon my Inner Mother, Source of creation
I AM a river of thy Divine Love
I AM Abundance
I AM lighting the path for all to see
I AM watering you with Love, wisdom and power
Within each and every breath I nourish you
I AM THAT I AM
I AM the Divine Mother
Excerpts from “Spring and Easter”, Open your heart to the Sun ~ The Way of the Sun ~
White Eagle’s teaching for the festivals of the year
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… man has been put into a physical body in order to learn to free himself from the bondage of matter and to fill the physical life with the beauty, happiness, well-being and health that God intends him to have. In other words, to attain mastery over physical matter. By self-discipline, by subjugation of the lower instincts the selfishness which is the flesh, and man can be reborn into the spirit. In time the spirit will command the whole earth and the golden age will come on earth.
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“He that believeth on me, the works that I do shall he do also; and greater works than these shall he do …”
Every man has this gift within him, but the creative power which man has to change himself, to change the world, is not loud, noisy, and quarrelsome – it is the humble, gentle, loving spirit. It is the gentle spirit of Christ which you all have within you which is the power that performs miracles.
This… is what will save mankind, not the crucifixion of the Master on a cross, but the crucifixion of the lower self and the release of the glorious son of God in man.
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This is a lesson which Easter has to teach. It is a time of sweet surrender to the light and beauty of the spirit; and within this surrender comes the great outpouring from the Son, Christ, to bless the child of God.
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… you can only arrive at constant renewal by cultivating awareness and faith in God.
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Understand that life itself is the Son in you, and the Son is the Christ spirit. The real you, the essence of you … is part of the Christ spirit, for you are not the little earthly personality that you think you are. You came from God, you are part of God, you are God’s seed.
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A master is one who has by hard work and self-discipline and divine love in himself – and in giving his divine love, giving all gentleness and kindness to his brethren – attained to a degree of mastery of matter. You too have to learn how to rise in spirit and command flesh.
You are now in the process of crucifixion. It is very painful, your life may be hard, you get weary of the burden, and the cross you bear is more than you can stand sometimes; but it is only the power of the spirit of Christ within you that will enable you to rise and carry that burden as though it did not exist. This is for you, it is for everyone on this earth plane, to understand, and to set to work to develop more and more this divine love in the heart.
Through development of divine love in the heart, wisdom comes, knowledge comes. With the coming of knowledge and wisdom and love the whole being of man will be suffused with the power of heaven.
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Some people think that love is purely an emotion and that therefore the voice of love cannot satisfy their reason; but love in its divine sense completely satisfies. And when fully developed in man it can raise him from the valley to the heights, giving him a range of vision which is only possible from the apex of the mountain.
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‘Salvation’ is the true word to describe the mission of the Christ spirit; for when the Christ spirit becomes alive in man, man is literally saved from his sins; he lives in the light, and brings the light into the world. Once the Christ quickens within him, the world can no longer touch him. This is what salvation means – not salvation through belief in one particular man, but salvation by reason of the Christ love within man himself. This will forbid him to wage war against his brother or to treat his brother as less than himself; but will inspire him to words and actions of kindness and consideration, to work for God in his daily life, to live in consciousness of a glory which is above, around and within him, and in all life. This is salvation by Christ. Always the Lord of this earth, the Sun, the Son who is the savior of mankind, quickens the life of the spirit in man.
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