Decades old pain arose, surprising me, for I thought I had put it to rest. Well, I did put it to rest … without the proper processing necessary first.
I cried for a whole day. And even some on the second day.
I told myself to stop living in the past, to push it aside, to shut off the tears, to ‘woman’ up.
And then I spoke to some very dear friends, one of which asked me this:
Do you take a shower to wash your body?
I said, yes.
She said, “Tears are a cleansing for the soul. It washes it pure after trauma, or heartbreak of any kind.”
She explained to me that I should NEVER shut down my tears, that I should pay very close attention to what is being “washed away”, to feel it thoroughly and then release it.
After this talk, I vow to never put a damper on my tears, never to put the breaks on any release of past hurt or trauma.
I will allow my tears to wash my pain.
I will permit the process of healing in my person.
Morning: Today is a day to focus on cleaning. Cleaning out the things I don’t need. I will clean out and get rid of the negative feelings, regrets, grievances, grudges, and unhappy memories that clutter up my life. I no longer have room for these. I release them all, and I will spend the day with only good things, ideas, and thoughts that support me, in my heart and mind.
Evening: I know that I did my best today to focus on cleaning out what I don’t need. Tonight I will rest knowing that my heart and mind have released the debris of my old life, and made room for the new.
Men … so ready to “defend”. Bless them. I cannot fathom what it must be like to dwell constantly with the knowing that at any time, the inner defender may need to be unleashed.
To see them in action … ooohhhhh …..
To know of the safety they provide their families.
The security they bring to their wives, to their children.
It is a heavy load. One I’ve never really thought about before.
What do they go through when their protection efforts have failed? What happens to their hearts, their minds?
Who will defend their inner being when that time comes?
The woman.
The nurturer.
This is why partnership is imperative. We balance each other in the flow of life.
If one half is suppressed, the functioning of the whole suffers.
May the masculine be recognized for his efforts.
May the value of woman be realized as the important aspect of life that she is.
May partnership become full and well rounded, in balance.
And may all hearts be blessed with the knowing that whatever we go through, if we utilize partnership in its proper form, ALL will be well, no thing can destroy it.
May all beings be honored, endowed with grace, and trust rebuilt … beyond any doubt.
Artists do not allow an outside influence to construct their painting, or other creation. It is born of their own accord.
Remember this when it comes to your character.
Who you are, is the masterpiece YOU create.
It is your art piece.
It is your statement to the world.
An original.
If an outside source is constantly telling you what your painting or creation should look like, what it should represent and so forth, it is no longer your perfect creation … it is tainted by outside influence and it is not 100% authentic.
Embrace YOU
You are magic, walking around spinning off pieces here and there wherever you go, affecting the world around you.
It is powerful
And when pure, authentic character and personhood blooms, it is the rarest flower (or bush, or tree, whatever analogy the masculine might like to use) and no other is quite like it … like YOU.
I had no idea Character Evolution could be so fun.
We get to choose our persona every moment. Who will we be today? Are we grouchy, happy, sad. Do we seem to fluctuate readily and often between such emotional states?
Control Your Mind
Take command of your output.
Of course there will be times when we burst open and spew that which we are attempting to leave behind, it happens. The key is in recognizing it when it happens, and making the shift … choosing your reality, not letting emotion steer the ship. It’ll crash more often than not.
Grab the reigns, ride this wild life like no body’s business!
Becoming the best version of YOU possible, through sheer Will Power!
From the flawless patterns of your spirit, great light shines upon the world. You are a leader, a healer, an inspiration, a free spirit … unrestricted by traditional thinking. A desire to be all you can be, and a vision for positive transformation, draws you into deep exploration and clarity. Break free, reshape your destiny and follow the spiraling, intertwining pathways of peace, love and wisdom.
There is a higher purpose to everything, but currently it is not clear. Something in your life is changing, and it is unsettling. Soon, the pieces of the puzzle will start falling into place, and you will begin to find meaning in it. For now, trust the refinement process, hone your ability for love and develop your capacity for compassion. As taints fall away, the truth becomes clearer.
From the calm, neutral perspective of love, and free from the fear, guilt and judgement of this world, your higher self looks through the conflict and drama of the physical world and sees hidden meaning and purpose. From a distance, present chaos looks perfectly ordered. Seek greater awareness. Tune into the depths of your heart to find heavenly peace.
In these days we can sometimes feel overwhelmed by the chaotic movements and energies around us.
We may become so overwhelmed that it is difficult to know which direction to turn, which project to tackle first, or be completely at a loss as to how to begin lifting the pile of worries from atop our heads.
Breathe.
In times of stress it is typical for us to lose our rhythm. Our muscles contract, our breathing becomes shallow or labored, and may include any form of release … outbursts, tears, fights.
If this is your current experience, stop.
Check in with your heart, your muscles, your breath, NOT the mind. Examine the tensions dwelling within your person. Focus on relaxing them, and releasing them.
Take time every morning to make a vow as to the efforts you will apply to the day.
What will you create? Where and how will you apply your energies to affect a benefit for the whole?
Our energies influence all others, just as ours is influenced by those we encounter.
Distinguish the subtle differences between your energy and that of those you have relationship throughout the day. Become familiar with what belongs to you, and that which you pick up on and absorb.
Reject any energies which are not yours if they are dark. There are many methods of this and I have found the best is to move, breathe and gently push the negative away.
As with all delicate energy work, we must be tuned in order to recognize the varying degrees of flow.
With time and practice, you will easily remove the energetic imprints people add in your experience. You will maintain balance. You will stop ‘reacting’ and will start ‘responding’. You will become an expert at energetic transmutation.
Control your emotions.
Do not be controlled by them.
In all instances, keep humility in mind.
None of us know it all.
Everyone has a lesson to teach.
Everyone has a lesson to learn.
It truly is a team effort, and the more of us who are aware and practicing, the quicker the transmutation process becomes, not only for self and personal relationships, but the flow of the entire world will begin to shift.
Allow yourself to be inspired. Find or be your own muse. If you are feeling uninspired, do something you do not normally do. It’s time to indulge yourself in music, song, dance and poetry.
It is time for a change, and it will be positive. Respect your own natural cycles. Be mindful of seasonal changes and go with the flow taking these into account in your diet and activity level.
You will be victorious. Teamwork or a partnership may be better than going it alone. Synergy is important right now. Delegation is useful.
Financial aspects come to the fore. Your prosperity will improve. You can be physically and spiritually rich. Ethics are necessary for real success.
You are loved and protected even through the most difficult of trials. This is a time for healing. You need mothering or to use your mothering energy. Magic is happening!
A relationship of some kind is spotlighted. Re-examine your loyalties or commitments and see if they are still warranted. Petty jealousies must be put aside for the greater good.
Reading from the deck “Goddesses and Sirens” created by Stacey Demarco
Your time of healing is here. Past hurts will recede. Be inspired to create – this in itself is healing. It is your birthright to create.
How to move forward in this healing:
It is never too late to change. Regret is useless. Forgiveness may be necessary. Bravery is valuable.
Celebrate in joyful peace. Be contented with what you have. Dance, sing, love, and create without anxiety. It is time to rest and to cease driving forward for a time.
It is time for a change, and it will be positive. Respect your own natural cycles. Be mindful of seasonal changes and go with the flow taking these into account in your diet and activity level.
We are all irresistible in our own ways. Enjoyment is a natural part of life. Center yourself and be confident among chaos.
Healthy fierceness is required. Strengthen your physical body. Walk forward in pride and know that you can fight any battle. You need to strike a balance between masculine and feminine.
Reading from the deck “Goddesses and Sirens” created by Stacey Demarco
