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Living Without Strings

Published January 22, 2018 by tindertender

Argument has it … it never ends. It is a pity the way compromise of a sort can never be made. Back and forth they go … it is as though one has to convince the other of their point of view. I do not know why they can’t just say to each other, “I respect your views, and here are mine. Now let us move forth into progression of a kind.” But no, spinning, spinning, spinning … minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day, year after year, it never ends. I am sorry for this … I do not think I’ve caused it, but then perhaps I do not know. Maybe the simplest of things has gotten skewed by my own contribution, however that continues to show up. It changes, frequently.

I close my eyes and am still for a moment …

It very well could be all of the tentacles of the past which has inundated my journey are twisting what started as something so beautiful into a mess. Releasing the binds that have formed knots in this life, in this heart and mind, is not an easy task. There are no teachers, only experience. It is a short life … will there be time sufficient to complete the smoothing of thought?

I feel as though I should apologize, yet I do not know exactly what I’ve done wrong. I can theorize, there are plenty who will offer their opinions on where I’ve erred. It seems this is the easiest thing for folks to do … yet I continue to look deep and hard into my heart. Who am I? There are many answers, so many possibilities, so many truths. A well rounded experiencer of light … of shadow … of joy … and of pain. It is all true, every reaction, every response to an outside event or occurrence, was me … in the moment. And I have changed immensely over time.

Time ~ the clock keeps ticking, going round and round. It will stop, indeed, it stops for many every moment, every day, and someday it will stop for me too. I am curious, where on the wheel of time I will be when I arrive in a timeless state. I wonder if all experiences will conglomerate into one big ball of energy, which would be the new me. Will my spirit be able to handle all of it? It is a good question, for the nervous system of the human body can only take small portions of this grand reality at once, before a fissure erupts in the psyche.

Some call it madness, some call it a gift. Few can lead one through it, even fewer survive it. So here we are, floundering in a vast sea of awareness that was not here before. Embracing the unknown is a difficult task for fear is a substantial staple in this land, perhaps in many lands.

Twisted shadows in twisted minds hide in plain sight. Seeing the whole from the inside is difficult, impossible even. The only way is to step out of the box, turn around, and truly see. Death may occur, it often does but once seen, life will never be the same. Explaining to someone, anyone, impossible, for we can only comprehend what we’ve experienced, no more, as much as we’d wish to.

So yes, this journey is a solo one. There really is no one who can travel this path the way you can, the way I can. We have come equipped for a certain amount of tension, the skill is in keeping just taut enough, so we do not go limp, or snap into pieces. Like balancing a pencil on its tip, gently moving it in any direction to maintain its uprightness, this is our life.

Live without strings. You’ll be glad you took time to develop fortitude.

The Challenge of Growing Pains

Published November 22, 2017 by tindertender

1000 times over there is demand to inform the world why these games are played out. Lives are at stake, they are being ended by this carelessness. There is no need to be loud or obnoxious to make it clear.

Growing pains

Life plus trauma, begets life plus trauma, it is everywhere and expansion is increasing. The pain must be observed, embraced, and consciously healed by each individual in order to reverse the flow of that which is damaging to the planet, and all possibility of a peaceful future.

It is challenging, it is frightening to revisit that which has caused so much pain, but if it is not dealt with, if people continue to stuff it and pretend it is not there, it will continue to manifest in very destructive ways, it will never heal, it will fester. We can see the truth of this in every day as we look around us and when we see into our own heart and mind.

The task of bringing healing to the earth is an arduous one, it is not meant for those who will not bring themselves to muster strength to face these things, however, ALL people have within them what it takes to do so. It is a choice, a decision which must be made on a personal level.

You’re either for growing pain, or for healing it.
What seeds are you planting for the future?

Her Testimony

Published November 10, 2017 by tindertender

“I wonder what it would be like if people
just loved each other.”

This is the thought she had for days prior to being relieved of the burden of anger. For years she carried a heavy load, weighing her down. She was fed up with the seemingly unjust life she was born into. She was indeed angry, she was hurting through and through. This pain she carried leaked into the world, it got on everything, but the day the load lifted she felt lighter, she actually felt the burden leave her shoulders, she grew taller.

She found that forgiveness came easier, but damage was done. Those who felt her pain over the years cannot seem to shake the old her, and embrace the new. They do not see she no longer carries the burden of anger, and that she no longer lashes out attempting to assuage her suffering by dumping it on them, or others. They do not see her concerted efforts to do what nice people do.

One-of-the-happiest-moments

She continues to work on the most important thing of all ~ forgiveness of herself. She looks very deep into her wounds, she removes the venom from them, and keeps them clean while they heal. Combating this poison is difficult for it has embedded itself into her. She is consistent in dressing the wounds, and they slowly heal.

It is sad that she need to love from a distance those who she caused suffering in the past. Because they cannot see the new her, they insist she hasn’t changed, the memory of the venom clear in their minds. It is important that the proper message be told in her life, and that is the knowledge of who she is becoming … not who she once was. She sheds the memory, she sheds the opinions of the past, she refuses to wear these labels any longer.

Embracing the new self she is creating, she improves on the efforts to become more than she was before. She longs to build a kinder, gentler world and she knows that it begins in her own heart and mind, in her own life. She knows she must be willing to be that which is needed, and it must start in her personal space, she must walk the walk.

She may stumble periodically, however each time she picks herself up, the footing of the new life becomes more sure, the relief becomes more firm in her mind and body, in her heart. Every day she begins again, finding ways that will help her to continue shedding this old persona.

She is a creator, a powerful force,
and it is seen in the way she changes her life.

You're in charge

Claiming Authority ~ Inner Strength

Published October 29, 2017 by tindertender

I will not limit myself with a definition, just as I lay no claim to any labels.

I. AM. ALL POSSIBILITIES.

The question is … what possibility will I encounter tomorrow? What aspect of my potential will my soul call forth?

There are those who wave it off, they say we are nobody, they pay us no concern. They make the mistake of underestimating the goodness … and the strength … that dwells in us. They do not know that we are rousting out the impurities of our hearts, of our minds. They do not see us grow.

Potential is deep within each of us. Every day we choose. We choose to believe what has been said of us, we choose to honor labels placed upon our person by others … OR … we choose to redefine who we are, and what we offer the world. We choose to watch ever close for opportunity, and we walk straight into our fear and we make things happen, good things.

Shedding the past we journey into the next phase of life, a phase which is inclusive of all sentient beings. We nurture love for self, and when the well fills, it overflows into the world. It takes time, this transition, fortunately we have some.

I am excited to see how tomorrow goes, for I feel it turning … in me, and in the world. As Darpan states, “Chaos will become peace, and sorrow will become joy.”

What Will We Do?

Published October 24, 2017 by tindertender

It’s 3:23 in the morning, and I’m awake
because my great, great, grandchildren won’t let me sleep.
My great, great, grandchildren ask me in dreams,
what did you do, while the planet was plundered?
What did you do, when the earth was unravelling?
Surely you did something when the seasons started failing,
as the mammals, reptiles, and birds were all dying?
Did you fill the streets with protest when democracy was stolen?
What did you do once you knew?
~ Drew Dellinger

One With Nature

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12 Steps For Self Care

Published August 22, 2017 by tindertender

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We see everywhere we look people marching for this and for that, attempting to “change” other peoples minds about a different number of subjects.

The truth is, we have better control over changing our own heart and mind, and this is often the most avoided method of altering the world reality.

When we say, “So and so is this or that”, we ought to ask our self, “Am I this or that?” Only by doing this will we better understand that we, and they, are not so different, and the opportunity for change becomes greater.

It is near impossible to change the heart and mind of another, but it is absolutely possible, and a necessity, to look deep into our own heart and mind, shifting all behaviors that do not benefit us, or the whole.

Leading by example is the most effective way to alter the course of our collective future.

 

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