There is this thought process going on inside of me … every time I am faced with the purchase of something new I always go for the lesser of the items … lesser expensive, less bells and whistles, less ‘pretty’ or desirable by some. I’m not certain if this is a good thing or bad … I’m not certain it can be classified at all. I think about my lack of need for luxury, preferring instead functionality.
Does this mind set come from a place of lack, or a feeling of not deserving more or better, or is it truly coming from a place where less is best and more is wasteful?
My waking dream is to some day have land with sleeping quarters (cabins) upon it and a main ‘lodge’ like structure where people will gather for food growth, preparation and storage, and for meals, laundry, and reading in the library, perhaps even a board game or two. Yet subconsciously I lean toward the small and confined spaces which are really only sufficient for one.
How to break free of the limited subconscious need to care for only self? How to widen this into a reality which cares for and is able to be supply for many? Certainly it takes a group effort for maintaining such a facility, perhaps it also takes a group effort to realize the dream into reality.
I am not a monetarily abundant person although I have extreme wealth. I have been blessed with life that leaves me with an ever clearer understanding of our connection and similarity.
As I notice my inner self pull away from contact, I also note the desire to break free from the shrinking away, to widen my truth into something that is more inclusive. There is a balancing taking place in me between solitude and an allowing of that which accepts the larger truth, which is that we are all in this together, whether we are able to acknowledge it yet or not.
Learning to value each other as we live, as individuals, affecting each other with our decisions, coming to realization that our choices determine the reality of the whole, in turn becoming our personal reality once more … it can be a challenge, yet is absolutely necessary for health and well-being of ALL life. It is a cycle, never-ending, always returning to us what we give.
With that in mind, what would you like to receive? Think about it, and then start giving, then await the return. Be patient, for there is something profound happening in this effort, or better said, this allowing. What you think you need may never come, but in gifting of yourself you’ll find blessing. Also important to remember ~ don’t be attached to the way your blessing will arrive, or what it will look like … sometimes what we want does not appear as what we need. Trust the Divinity of the Universe, it is always caring for you … for WE.