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Free ~ No Longer Your ‘Assistant’

Published November 18, 2018 by tindertender

After all these years I must tell you that this is why I will not stand with you. I have experienced your presence while you speak about me as though I cannot hear you, you behave as though I am not worthy of a one on one conversation. This is not acceptable, I am not at your disposal, nor am I willing to give you any further energies.

I have tried many times in the past to convince myself that we are alike, that you must have good reason to behave the way you do, that if I were in your position I might even do the same. Regardless, I am not in your position, and I do not behave the way you do, even though I have good reason to.

In this manner, we are nothing alike. In fact, you could say that we are polar opposites. While you are very good at mimicking goodness, sooner or later your inner self shows. It brings down the House you try to build, time and time again. The foundation is not true.

I am sorry for you, but I do not pity you, for you have consciously, fully aware, chosen to do the things you do, putting forth influence onto the vulnerable and unaware. Many lives have been affected … or ended, due to your selfish behaviors and trespasses.

I would like to say I understand, and that I forgive you. I will also say that I will do whatever I can to ensure that the privileges you’ve been taking advantage of will never be fully loosed, or enjoyed by you.

This is a time for those who have been running with you to open their eyes and get serious about what they choose. In the ‘end game’ nothing could be more serious.

How many life times does one soul need to determine where their heart resides? How long does it take to reclaim the spirit and mind from those who have manipulated actions and circumstances to coincide with greed or need for power?

When will mankind discover that no one has more authority over their life than they themselves do? People are always looking for a ‘leader’ or a ‘teacher’, not realizing that they can, and do lead, and teach … they lead their own lives, getting what they give, or accepting what they allow. They are in process of teaching others what to, or not to, be and do, shared through example. They are in process of being ‘taught’ by those they have perhaps not been willing, or able, to acknowledge.

All of this, all of it is known to the gentle heart who wishes to participate in the healing of the world, of life in general.

You know this. You take advantage of the gentle souls who long for peace. You lead them to believe that if they trust you, if they agree to help you, that peace will be. But peace is not coming forth from the chaos you bring. It has only become more chaotic, more solidly enriched with pain, supported by fear, by paranoia.

I hear you laugh as you see the affect you bring to people. I sense your pride in your ability to manipulate emotion, allowing, or ending life … as you will.

As a collective, this I know to be true. You have dared to attack the unwitting. The selfishness of your goal leaves no room for compassion. You say, “I like this one” as though they were an object … not someone who feels, thinks, loves, and acts. You behave as though you do not see the truest power that resides in them. Maybe you do, and simply pride yourself on the methods used to extinguish that bright light within them.

I cannot silently stand by and watch you ruin lives.

Those of us who are on to you know full well that the ones you attack are not only fighting you, but fighting the others who you have controlled. Double whammy, the people who join you are not even aware they are under your influence, actually doing your bidding … as you laugh, all kicked back enjoying yourself. I am amazed how well you keep secret the influences you lay upon minds, they so often are not even aware that these ‘thoughts’ and ‘desires’ are not even their own.

There is a time coming soon when we will find out how this goes. So many believe they already know. Unfortunately, all they really know is what they’ve been told to believe, what they’ve been taught as factual. The actual ‘experience’ of knowing eludes many.

On this level, I am torn. I would never wish my experience on anyone, for I know many who did not make it through. Yet at the same time, if something doesn’t shake the ol’ tree, no one will ever see clearly, or at least come to the knowledge that what they thought they knew was a lie, all along.

May the eyes and minds of humanity be quivered ever so slightly to break up the rigidity of ‘lessons learned’ which have developed into habits. May they be ‘gently nudged’ into motion and discovery of their inner, innate power for goodness. May it be done quickly, thoroughly, and with minimal ‘safeties’ on. May the hearts of mankind be unshackled and set free, without erupting into deep sadness, depression, remorse or anxiety. May they see through the fog that has been placed upon them, may their blood remain warm, and their strength and courage steadfast, their hearts pure.

… and may all that is good bless me with the same.

Burdens Carried

Published November 14, 2018 by tindertender

Burdens carried can weigh us down. Often the burden has become such a part of life its presence is nearly undetectable. The symptoms are masked as physical pain, and perhaps depression, or anxiety.

Is the story of life real, or simply an illusion built around that which is ‘less painful’?

Just underneath consciousness there is a place where communication happens with those who we cannot see. Being quizzed, I woke to hear myself silently answer, “I carry the burden of shame”.

I thought about this periodically throughout the day and have come to the conclusion that this ‘burden’ is facilitated in the mind from birth.

As children many of us are taught that our creations are lacking beauty, that we ourselves are lacking that which makes us lovable. When pure joy rises up in us there is always someone there to squash it. It seems to carry on into adulthood, until it is recognized, and consciously ended. Often we must leave behind those who claim to ‘love’ us.

I wonder about this cycle in the world. It happens everywhere, not limited to this country or that.

As chaos grows on the planet we can see those who facilitate destruction more clearly. They are being called out, exposed for the ‘average person’ to see. This can be quite disheartening, for those we have trusted, and their methods, will be seen plainly.

The tough part of the process is to learn to see our own heart just as clearly as we ‘think’ we see others. This is difficult, for many of us prefer to think we are ‘righteous’ and the others who do harm are not. It is important to know that what we see in the world is also part of our self. The only way to heal it is to recognize it, ask of our self how much of it we see in our own actions and thought patterns, and then heal that.

In the shadows of the mind many things dwell, many things that are difficult to look at, to decipher, and to cast out. So many people project outward, trying to mend the illness of the world, all the while refusing to mend what is in their own heart.

Personally, I am left to discover this ‘burden of shame’ which I carry and make the attempt to find forgiveness where it is concerned … to heal, to shed the weight of it, and to freely rise beyond it … without the use of excuses.

It is a difficult process, for while the inner work is done, those who we see, other people, will attempt to reinforce the negative. At the same time, those who we cannot see will attempt to reinforce the burden we carry, convincing our mind that the burden cannot be released.

This battle is with the invisible realms, attempting to keep us from joy and balance and love. This battle is also with others we can see who are under the influence of those who wish to keep us from happiness.

The key is to observe, not absorb. Outside influences we can hear, and sense, are only that … outside influences. Let them remain as such while you gather your own thoughts and ideas about what you believe will bring healing … to your life, and to the lives your life touches.

Today Is A Big Day

Published November 7, 2018 by tindertender

What is hidden will be uncovered.

Balance

Views about the unknown can be full of trepidation, or perhaps angst. There is a tendency to ‘fight’ against circumstances, to rebel. Flow is cut off as energies collide. Although there is a time and a place for this, sometimes surrender, or a ‘relaxing into’, is needed.

Seeing beyond the immediate is necessary. Too often habitual thinking takes place, seeing the possibilities of negative outcomes. Taking charge of thoughts is key to finding peace. Control your emotions, do not be controlled by them.

Now is the time for transformation. Remove restrictions and practice using your senses to see into the hidden realms, stretch your abilities for knowing. Follow your heart, your genuine truth. It is time to realize balance. Do not forget to laugh at the world, and yourself.

Try to be receptive of the Love and Protection which envelopes you as you move throughout the day. Let emotions flow smoothly. Be courageous and brave. Strength and stability are yours as you move through growth and secure balance. Using discernment, adapt to situations, communicate your intentions.

Knowledge and truth will be found, and with it, stability. Listen to the teacher within to receive knowledge. Use that knowledge properly and you have wisdom, and with wisdom, power.

Oneness

Published September 30, 2018 by tindertender

I’ve heard many people say life is the Universe experiencing itself in many forms, but this afternoon I finally got it!

Born into this world to different parents, different schools, different friends (or enemies). Marriages that work, or don’t, that are loving or abusive, with children or not.

Male or female, straight or gay, or both! Different skill sets, languages, and vision. Energies that are hyper connected to the unseen, or muted where focus is on the seen only.

To be abused, or catered to … Being able to observe the obvious, or remain in illusion … or delusion … monetarily focused, or happy with the basics.

To be consciously aware of actions and words and how they affect those in the vicinity, and to choose kindness and care, or anger and hate, or not really caring to associate with the outside world at all.

I actually felt what it must be like to BE all of these things at once. Evolution is speeding up faster and faster as more and more people are born into this ‘time’ construct.

So strange to have heard this said time and again only to really see it for the first time. It never ceases to amaze me how the mind ‘clicks’ when it is good and ready, and not before.

I saw a male who had amphibian like features, he had a very long white beard. I laughed a little, as I certainly was not expecting someone with those features to actually have facial hair.

I said that if the Universe is experiencing itself in all forms of life with many different aspects at the same time, then it also means bearded male too, and those with him.

I’m wondering how many life forms exactly there are in this Universe, and Multiverse. It becomes a little mind boggling to wrap the head around this idea of Creator … Divine Being … experiencing life as so many variables simultaneously.

And then here we are, fighting amongst ourselves in our own country, divided, spouting hateful speech to those we share space with.

I see the sprays overhead which many refuse to acknowledge, and I wonder why the elected officials would poison their own country … what is the true agenda? Do they need to eliminate folks so they can truly create the World Union they desire?

Poisoning the countries lands and waters makes no sense at all.

It’s a shame really, for I do believe the phrase, “Divided we fall”. It shouldn’t be too much longer now.

It Was One Heck Of A Ride!!!

Published August 19, 2018 by tindertender

Jam packed full of events and sights to see, tensions ran high amid all the chaotic adventures.

The tour of the gardens was spectacular, the whale watching had me on the edge of my seat and offered up a face and mouth full of salt water. I had no idea it was that salty, although I don’t think I ever really thought of it before. The city of Victoria BC is beautiful, and clean, with so many shops and a long, long history!

Below are a few of the pics from my trip …

Gardens ~

Whales ~

Sea Lions ~

The Govenor’s House was amazing, the rooms … most of them … were ‘no entry’ but what we were able to see was incredible! Ahhh, Queen Victoria … if the DNA test was accurate, I am to believe she is my distant relative!!

Once back in Seattle the tour of the new glass floors in the Space Needle was interesting.

The Chilulay Glass Museum was phenomenal …

… and the Phantom of the Opera made me cry.

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This vacation was chuck full of so much, the nerve body was ramped up with energies and the patience wore thin. It will take me a week to absorb all the details. What a whirl-wind! I am grateful my friend and I can still say we are … friends … even when the inner Dragon and Tiger shows up!!

It is time to get back to routine.

As I swam in a sea of a go-go-go schedule, chaotic emotion, and frustration which challenged the work I’ve been doing, I’ve neglected my inner sanctuary … for four days.

There is much to be learned from this experience. My inner fortress needs built up … weak spots have been observed, and a fresh approach to the work remaining is at hand.

SO!! Here we go again.

Sacred Studies

Published August 9, 2018 by tindertender

You may now be discovering that some of the teachings of the elders are of great value. The time for rebelling against them has come to an end as you embrace that which benefits your actions and goals, and move away from those which do not.

At one time it was quite common to hear people say, “It is fate”, or “destiny” and that, “it could not be helped”. Those days are over as people realize they do indeed have the power to change circumstances, not only in their own life, but in the world.

Your good cannot be destroyed … only that which is oppressing you is dissolving. While your job may end, or your relationship, your habits, or whatever it may be, it is only occurring so that you may grow.

It may shake you to your core, it will not be a comfortable ride, but time of separation is over. Through the elimination of those concepts that limit your good, your energy is released to serve the whole.

Healing comes by destruction and rebirth. Life continues. Learn from the creatures who live in earths body, the smallest life forms, the tiniest crawlers, are necessary to break down the larger forms that are no longer needed.

Opening To Love and Trust

Published August 8, 2018 by tindertender

In todays world we are taught to close down, to not let anyone in, to hide our deepest desires and hopes and wishes. We are taught that others will harm us if we are not careful, we are trained to live in fear, and/or to be aggressive.

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Photo by Joshua Earle

It is important to rid the body of toxins. Physical labor offers an avenue of ‘sweating’ as does the sauna, or sweat lodge. As toxins are released, so are poisonous fears and toxic doubts. Our mind becomes more clear, our intuitive ability more focused, and we are less susceptible to the manipulation of those who would have us remain in chaos.

Whatever you put into your body prepares it for the next life.

This describes the foods eaten, the thoughts entertained, the habits carried, and the attitudes emitted into the world.

See beauty, speak to beauty
See love, speak to love
Where you cannot see these things,
Supply them.
Bravely go forth and change the words
That cause harm, grief or hunger.
Change laws, change limits.

Review concepts, re-mind yourself, re-create a better place to play.
Plant seeds of freedom, liberate the young, show them how to transform the world.

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