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St. Mary of Egypt

Published January 11, 2026 by tindertender
Saint Mary of Egypt as a Recluse, BoĂŤtius Adamsz Bolswert, after Abraham Bloemaert, c.1619

Let Difficulty Transform You

Published January 11, 2026 by tindertender

” Let difficulty
transform you, and it will.
In my experience,
we just need help in learning
how not to run away. ” 💫
– Perma Chodron

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“Don’t power walk. Saunter slowly in the sun, eating chocolate, and carry a blanket so you can take a nap.” ~ SARK

Mantra :: This is a journey – not a sprint – so I take breaks and reward myself along the way.

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Sure, I could imagine the worse case scenario and try to prepare for it. I prefer however to use my skills of imagination, my inner vision, to generate future details which bring joy to my world. Not to say one shouldn’t be prepared.

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I can think whatever I want without interference. They don’t get to crowd my present moment any longer. So refreshing!!

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People might question how I did it, what techniques do I use. I simply reply, resilience and perseverance. Sometimes inner fortitude is all that works.

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In the forest, when all goes silent, it’s the animals waiting to determine if predator is present, or just nature doing its thing.

Similarly, when all goes silent in the world, you can be certain the real danger is near, or the true bringer of change has arrived.

Pay attention.

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Seems the norm in this world is to “challenge” people.

I’ve been called challenger and adversary, with no intention of entering the game.

I’m here for expansion and knowledge, thank you very much.

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Even the strongest woman cannot save a man who refuses to save himself

Published January 11, 2026 by tindertender

When a man is unhappy with himself, he will project that unhappiness onto any woman who tries to love him. He will ruin her happiness because he cannot find his own.

So, dear man, work on yourself because a woman’s love is not a remedy for your pain. It is not her job to heal the wounds you refuse to face. If you carry unresolved anger, insecurity, or self-doubt, you will inevitably turn her tenderness into a battleground where she constantly fights for a love you have not yet learned to give.

She will try to hold you, to remind you of your worth, but if you do not believe in it yourself, her words will feel like lies. You will push her away, not because she is unworthy, but because deep down, you believe you are. And when a man believes he is unworthy of love, he will unconsciously destroy any love that comes his way.

You might criticize her, belittle her, or make her feel like she is never enough. Not because she isn’t, but because you feel like you aren’t. A woman in love will do everything to bring light into your darkness, but if you refuse to let go of the shadows, you will dim her light too.

This is why healing is essential. You cannot pour from an empty cup, nor can you build a loving relationship on a foundation of self-hatred. Work on yourself so that when love comes, you can receive it with open arms instead of rejecting it out of fear.

Heal your past, so you don’t bleed onto a woman who had nothing to do with your wounds. Take responsibility for your happiness, so she doesn’t have to carry the weight of both her heart and yours. Learn to love yourself, so when she loves you, you believe her.

A good woman will love you deeply, but even the strongest woman cannot save a man who refuses to save himself. If you are broken, acknowledge it. If you are lost, find your way. If you are hurt, seek healing.

Your pain is not your fault, but your healing is your responsibility. No woman deserves to suffer because you refuse to do the work. Love is meant to be a sanctuary, not a place of destruction.
So, dear man, work on yourself—not just for her, but for you. Love yourself enough to become the man who can love her the way she deserves.

CTTO.

She wrote that women’s souls could speak directly to God without priests so the Church burned her alive for heresy.

Published January 10, 2026 by tindertender

She wrote that women’s souls could speak directly to God without priests—so the Church burned her alive for heresy.

Paris, June 1, 1310.

In the Place de Grève, a woman was led to the stake. Marguerite Porete, accused of heresy, had spent over a year imprisoned, refusing to answer the Inquisition’s questions or defend herself before judges she didn’t recognize as having authority over her soul. Witnesses later described her calm demeanor—no screaming, no begging for mercy, no recantation. She faced the flames with a serenity that unnerved her executioners.

She died for writing a book that claimed a soul could unite so completely with divine love that it transcended the need for Church hierarchy, sacraments, or ecclesiastical mediation. The Church couldn’t tolerate that claim—especially from a woman.

Marguerite Porete was born in the late 13th century in Hainaut (modern-day France/Belgium border region). Little is known about her early life, but she became part of the Beguine movement—communities of lay religious women who lived together in prayer and work without taking formal monastic vows.

Beguines occupied a complicated space in medieval Christianity. They weren’t nuns bound by convent rules, but they weren’t ordinary laywomen either. They lived religious lives outside institutional Church control—which made Church authorities nervous.

Marguerite was educated, literate, and theologically sophisticated—unusual for a woman of her time.

Sometime in the late 13th century, she wrote “The Mirror of Simple Souls” (Le Mirouer des simples âmes) in vernacular Old French rather than Latin.

Writing theology in the vernacular was itself significant. Latin was the language of Church authority—using French made theology accessible to ordinary people, particularly women who hadn’t learned Latin.

But it was the book’s content that proved dangerous.

The Mirror of Simple Souls describes a mystical journey where the soul progressively lets go of attachments, ego, and even virtues until it reaches “annihilation”—complete dissolution into divine love. This “annihilated soul” becomes so united with God that it no longer needs:

Church sacraments
Moral rules
Priestly mediation
Fear of sin
Virtuous acts done out of obligation

Because the soul is completely aligned with divine will, it acts naturally from love rather than from external commands.

Marguerite wrote in dialogue form, with characters including “Love,” “Reason,” “The Soul,” and “Holy Church the Little” (institutional Church) versus “Holy Church the Great” (the mystical body of all souls united with God).

Crucially, she distinguished between institutional Church authority and direct divine relationship. “Holy Church the Little”—the hierarchy, rules, and priests—was necessary for beginners on the spiritual path. But advanced souls could transcend it through complete union with God. This was explosive theology.

The Church’s authority rested on being the necessary mediator between humans and God.

Sacraments administered by priests were required for salvation. Confession, penance, Church law—all of this presumed that people needed institutional guidance.

Marguerite was saying: at the highest spiritual level, you don’t need any of that. The soul united with God transcends institutional authority. Church authorities saw this as dangerous heresy. It suggested that mystics could claim direct divine authority superior to Church hierarchy. It implied that someone in mystical union might be beyond sin or moral law—a heresy called “antinomianism. “And it was especially threatening coming from a woman.

The Church insisted women needed male spiritual authority—priests, confessors, bishops—to guide them. A woman claiming direct divine relationship without male mediation challenged the entire gender hierarchy of medieval Christianity.

Around 1296-1306, Marguerite’s book was condemned by the Bishop of Cambrai. It was publicly burned, and she was warned to stop teaching her ideas. Marguerite ignored the warning. She continued circulating the book and discussing her theology. She sent copies to theologians and Church authorities seeking approval, but also continued teaching despite the prohibition.

This defiance was crucial. She had multiple opportunities to submit to Church authority, burn her book, recant her teachings, and avoid execution. She refused every time. Why? Because she believed—genuinely, deeply—that her mystical experience and theological understanding came directly from God. No earthly authority, not even the Church, could invalidate that divine relationship.

In 1308, she was arrested in Paris. The Inquisition began proceedings against her. During her imprisonment (which lasted over a year), she refused to cooperate with the trial. She wouldn’t answer questions. She wouldn’t defend herself. She wouldn’t acknowledge the tribunal’s authority to judge her spiritual state. Her silence was deliberate and theological.

She believed the judges—bound by “Holy Church the Little”—couldn’t understand the mystical theology of souls who’d reached union with God. Answering them would be pointless.

The Inquisition found her guilty of heresy. They declared her a “relapsed heretic”—someone who’d been warned before and persisted in error. The penalty for relapsed heresy was death by burning.

On June 1, 1310, Marguerite was led to the Place de Grève in Paris. Accounts describe her facing execution with remarkable calm—no terror, no last-minute recantation, no screaming as the flames rose. Observers noted this serenity. Some interpreted it as demonic possession keeping her from repenting. Others saw it as proof she’d achieved the mystical state she’d written about—transcendence of fear through complete union with divine love.

Marguerite Porete became one of the first women burned for heresy by the Inquisition in Paris. Her execution was meant to be a warning: women who claimed spiritual authority independent of Church hierarchy would be silenced permanently.

But her book survived. Copies circulated anonymously throughout the 14th and 15th centuries. Because Marguerite’s name was suppressed (she was executed as a heretic), the book was copied without author attribution. Monks, mystics, and scholars read it for centuries without knowing a woman had written it. Some copies attributed it to male authors.

The mystical theology was considered so sophisticated that people assumed a man must have written it.

In 1946, scholar Romana Guarnieri finally proved that Marguerite Porete was the author. The evidence included trial records and manuscript traditions connecting the condemned book to The Mirror of Simple Souls.

Suddenly, a text that had influenced Christian mysticism for centuries was recognized as written by a woman burned for heresy.

Modern scholars recognize The Mirror as a masterpiece of mystical theology. Its influence can be traced in later mystics including Meister Eckhart (who faced similar accusations of heresy).

Marguerite’s theology anticipated ideas that would later appear in Protestant Reformation critiques of institutional Church authority and in modern mystical and contemplative traditions.

Her story matters because: She claimed spiritual authority as a woman: In an era when women were required to be spiritually subordinate to men, she insisted her mystical experience gave her theological insight. She challenged institutional religious power: She distinguished between institutional authority and divine relationship—a distinction that threatened Church hierarchy. She refused to recant: Given multiple chances to save herself by submitting to Church authority, she chose death over betraying her spiritual convictions.

She was right about mystical theology: Modern understanding of contemplative spirituality recognizes the validity of much of what she taught. Her work survived despite suppression: Burning her body didn’t destroy her ideas—they circulated for centuries, eventually vindicated.

The tragedy is that Marguerite was executed for theology that, in different contexts or coming from a man, might have been tolerated or even celebrated.

Male mystics like Meister Eckhart taught similar ideas and, while investigated, weren’t executed. Her gender made her dangerous in ways male mystics weren’t. A woman claiming to transcend priestly authority threatened both religious and gender hierarchies simultaneously.

To Marguerite Porete: You wrote that the soul united with God needs no intermediary—and the Church killed you for threatening their monopoly on salvation. You refused to recant even when recantation would have saved you. You chose death over betraying your mystical experience and theological convictions. Your silence before the Inquisition wasn’t weakness—it was theological statement. You didn’t recognize their authority to judge what you knew through direct divine union. You faced the flames with the serenity you’d written about—the transcendence of fear through complete surrender to divine love. They burned your body. They tried to erase your name. They suppressed your book. But your words survived. For centuries, they circulated anonymously, influencing mystics who didn’t know a woman had written them. When scholars finally proved you were the author, your genius was undeniable. You were right about mystical union. You were right that souls can experience God directly. You were right that love transcends institutional authority. The Church that executed you eventually had to acknowledge the validity of mystical theology like yours. The ideas they burned you for are now recognized as legitimate contemplative spirituality. You died for claiming women’s spiritual authority. For insisting divine love was greater than ecclesiastical power. For refusing to let priests mediate your relationship with God. That claim cost you your life. But it couldn’t be silenced. Your voice, speaking across seven centuries, still insists: the soul united with Love needs no permission to speak directly to God. They couldn’t burn that truth. And they couldn’t burn your courage.

I Am Grateful

Published January 9, 2026 by tindertender

Occasionally, there are thought flows in the mind, a receptive glimpse into the collective energies of the world. It is sad. The mind says, “Can’t trust anyone, cannot be certain of this protection. Rejection has been the truth of cycles long gone, over and over, we do our work to be shut down, forgotten”.

The mind, the heart, the wounding of Collective Soul is so deep, so potent it nearly swallows the heart and the love energy, it begins to shift the thinking, the perception … and the senses begin to reject the safety, because the senses of the past remind us that eventually, the protection will disappear and once more we’ll be the only one left to guard our soul … and it is sad, even more so, that the cruelty of the soul shattering, spirit rending, flesh tearing trauma has been done by the hands of a man (for the most part) lifetime after lifetime … those men, made in the image of God, those hands meant to protect, have done their very best to destroy.

My heart, my soul, screams sometimes to “step back” !!!!!!! Do not get too comfortable !!!!! and I can feel myself pushing against that which is trying to love me. And it is hard …. perhaps you can relate?

I am grateful that if I sit with it for a while, if I allow myself to feel the shock and the hurt of it, to pray about it, ask for ease and grace, assistance with transmuting it … for Self, for the Collective Soul of Humanity … that after some time of focus and intent, the sensation fades, the upset of the mind trying to reject ~ eases ~ and I am able to smile once more and relax into the love of the connection.

I wonder sometimes what God thinks when He looks into my mind and sees me wrestling with my own past trauma, and the actual expansion into the Collective Human Soul, feeling even more of ‘centuries old traumas’ stored, sitting with it, while it is alchemized …

Thank you family, for I know you, too, are sitting with the Collective Human Soul shattering, bringing light love and healing to it, as you do for your own, personal healing. Thank you.

Aho. Wado. Amen

She succeeded where they were certain she would fail, and they’re mad!

Published January 4, 2026 by tindertender

She’s got a whole Universe of Kings and Queens, Gods and Goddesses, whatever the Upper Echelon of the Universe call themselves, the Counsil of Universes, for there are many, unified in their decision to elevate her.

She is alive because they have deemed her worthy of life. She has been given reprieve, for they have deemed her innocent of any crime, and are rewarding her for the centuries of torture she endured at the hands of man … because she dare speak of love, because she dare be intelligent, because she dare expand into life and be recognized as a Woman who deeply loves Creation and the Life it holds … gifts of the Mother Father Most High Divine.

They poisoned her and hurt her bad, physically and with magic … they wished death upon her the whole of her life. They insist she isn’t responsible, even though she succeeded where they were certain she would fail. They were certain their efforts to deteriorate and disqualify her were sufficient. They are hollering, whining really, and insisting they have rights to her essence, energy, gifts ,,, soul and right to life.

They want to rule the universe. They’ve been slave trading for centuries, announcing themselves conquerors, masters.

The universe came together without prejudice and chose this Woman Survivor as Representative. A whole Universe of teachers to teach, to guide, and the Most High Divine within all realms supervises it all.

This time, it will go a little differently.

But the trafficker insists it has rights to the merchandise of angels, so the transition is a little bumpy.

May it settle quickly.

Aho. Amen. Wado.

Can you decode/decipher it?

Published January 3, 2026 by tindertender

This sort of freaks me out, knowing they inject the babies right away. What are they “really” doing?

Some hints in here .. matrix, blue minds, 3D world…so many in a short clip…animals, cannibals, can you decode/decipher it all…?

**Decoded/ Deciphered by Vrill Slayer Posted by Mel Raggam

Gematria

Some hints in here .. matrix, blue minds, 3D world…so many in a short clip…animals, cannibals, can you decode/decipher it all…?

From the lyrics of Iniko.

Snippet From My Cosmic Burst in Simple Gematria equals
331 x 6 = 1986

= The Neptunes Presents Clones

From two rap artists including Pharrell Williams having an album named Clones as human clones exposed by Donald Marshall.

= Science Fiction Movies Are Reality

We have all viewed movies and TV series that call it science fiction but art imitates reality they are trying to warn you, hint you of the technology that is used on mankind – hinting human cloning, body snatching Vrill that turn into hosts as the technology for consciousness transfer put into an Avatar or clone even downloading dead consciousness to be put into a synthetic body.

= Brain Invaders Must Be Destroyed

This is relation to body snatchers as those who do human experimentation on people through MK Ultra, invading the mind for control, torture through clone after clone.

= Brain Chip Implant The Witness

As those who are chipped that go through REM even those who aren’t chipped. Donald Marshall which exposed about the RFID chip used to download dead consciousness to individuals who become coherent and submissive. This also includes remote neural monitoring.

= They Just Pick Up Another Body

Leah Remini who used to be part of Scientology mentioned in her tweet that those who die they just pick up another body recalling their memories to be put into a new body. Think of movies like Self/Less or Replicas.

19 + 86 = 105

Full Reduction ‘105’ codes

= SIX HUNDRED AND SIXTY SIX

Root of this technology is THE MARK OT THE BEAST.

= MILITARY INTELLIGENCE

Known as Military Industrial Complex which is know also from when making super soldiers as they reference the MILITARY INTELLIGENCE codes from the movie.

Star Children I Got News For You in Simple Gematria equals
343 x 6 = 2058

= Infiltration Instead Of Invasion

A quote by JFK in 1961 before assassinated exposing secret societies. They infiltrate to parasite instead to invade.

= Fallen Angels Are The Actual Illuminati

Known as the Annunaki, the Sumerian gods, known as the sons of God or the Watchers – they are the original Illuminati the renown as the Freemasons are just puppets of Lucifer.

The star children are related to those who are called starseeds or the Pleiadians of the Galactic Federation – Donald Marshall exposed them to be Vrill hosts they are parasites wanting to infiltrate and take over hosting humans to be drones.

= Are We Living In A Simulated Reality
= Everything Is Hidden In Plain Sight

The world has become a simulation or altered realities, brainwashing and programming of the mind such with media, social media and today’s social environment.

= Grey Alien DNA Forms A Proto Species

The term grey aliens are the Vrill Type 3 people know them as aliens from outerspace but they’re form deep inner earth and not outer space. Proto species would be half reptilian hybrids that become cybernetic machines modified DNA turning humans into hosts – this also relates in the realms of Transhumanism.

= Donald Marshall The Soulstone Chip

For the years Donald Marshall has spoken about this even of today. Putting souls into devices to the next clone. The cube of Saturn which contains cube shape devices of trapped souls.

“..this is a 3D world it’s corrupt and blue..”

This Is A Three D World in Simple Gematria equals
217 x 6 = 1302

= Dont Worry Darling

A movie which has a character name Alice put into a simulated world of a false reality which she later founds out. Think of terms like Alice in Wonderland.

= Subconsciousness

That which the subconscious mind becomes altered from reality. Think of Dorothy in Oz or Alice in Wonderland. This relates to also Don’t Worry Darling or the movie Inception.

Body Snatching

Published January 2, 2026 by tindertender

“Switching people out. Taking out the soul and putting a different person in the body” … it’s what this curator is threatening to do to the Magistrate, the Planetary Gatekeeper.

Blood Holds Life

Published January 1, 2026 by tindertender

This is why the elite like “blood transfusions”. They like to “be seen as” and angel, and they “harvest” them for these fluids, for this “blood-born and known” angelic identity and the “life” it holds. Vampires think of us as a commodity. Theyve been asking if a woman is “compatible” and are told “she’s compatible with everyone” so she must be O+ / O-. (O positive (O+) is not the universal blood type for everyone; O negative (O-) is the true universal red blood cell donor, meaning it can go to any patient in emergencies, but O positive is the most common and often used in trauma when types are unknown because most people have positive blood. O+ can donate to all positive types (A+, B+, AB+, O+), making it widely needed, but O- lacks A, B, and Rh antigens, allowing it to be given to anyone.)

“The blood holds the life.” — Deuteronomy 12:23–24

In Hoodoo understanding, this verse is not poetic language—it is spiritual law. Blood is not just fluid; it is carrier, witness, and record. Scripture says plainly that the life (the nephesh) is in the blood, meaning that memory, lineage, trauma, blessing, and covenant all move through it. This is why Hoodoo work is careful, ethical, and lineage-aware: when you touch blood—literally or symbolically—you are touching life itself.

From a Hoodoo perspective, blood explains why ancestry matters. What our ancestors endured did not disappear when their bodies returned to the earth; it traveled forward in bloodlines. This is why certain gifts, fears, illnesses, strengths, and callings appear generation after generation. Blood remembers. It carries spiritual residue—both wounds and wisdom. Hoodoo is not about escaping that truth, but working with it responsibly: cleansing what was harmed, strengthening what was righteous, and restoring what was broken.

This is also why Hoodoo rejects reckless manipulation. If life is in the blood, then forcing outcomes, binding wills, or acting without discernment is a violation of divine order. Elders taught that improper work “comes back through the blood,” affecting family, health, and spirit. True root-work seeks alignment, not domination—because blood answers to Yah, not human ego.

Blood also explains why prayer works. When Psalms are spoken, when hands are laid on, when healing is done righteously, the work reaches beyond the surface and speaks to the blood—to the deepest level of being. Healing the blood means healing the soul, the lineage, and the future.

In short, Deuteronomy 12:23–24 teaches the foundation of Hoodoo wisdom:
life is sacred, lineage is real, and spiritual work must honor the blood it touches. To work roots without respecting blood is to work blindly. To honor the blood is to honor life itself.