Years ago I had something happen which nearly ended my life, and actually DID end life as I knew it.
For years my mind was in chaos, and only since August of 2020 has it smoothed out.
In these moments, when power is out and life has gone basic, I am finding that I Am coming more into alignment with my Soul Essence, which I have seen on 2 occasions in the astral.
Pure Love, welcoming with joy all that she sees … all that I see.
Only in the last 2 days have I really looked at my defensive nature toward things, people … seen and unseen.
I Am learning how to release that portion of self … there isn’t any need for it in the New World … the world I very much long to be a part of.
My most sincere apologies to my visitors in the astral.
I know I have not been the easiest person to visit.
It is a challenge, this transition, especially because of the way it started for me, all those years ago.
I am grateful for your persistence and patience.
I cannot promise that I have achieved a full liberation from the old me, but I am in process and looking forward very much to returning to that place of Love unconditional, in all instances.
If you come to me as a victim I will not support you. But I will have the courage to walk with you through the pain that you are suffering. I will put you in the fire, I will undress you, and I will sit you on the earth….
I will bathe you with herbs, I will purge you, and you will vomit the rage and the darkness inside you. I’ll bang your body with good herbs, and I’ll put you to lay in the grass, face up to the sky….
Then I will blow your crown to clean the old memories that make you repeat the same behavior. I will blow your forehead to scare away the thoughts that cloud your vision. I will blow your throat to release the knot that won’t let you talk….
I will blow your heart to scare fear, so that it goes far away where it cannot find you. I will blow your solar plexus to extinguish the fire of the hell you carry inside, and you will know peace. I will blow with fire your belly to burn the attachments, and the love that was not.
I will blow away the lovers that left you, the children that never came. I will blow your heart to make you warm, to rekindle your desire to feel, create and start again. I will blow with force your vagina or your penis, to clean the sexual door to your soul….
I will blow away the garbage that you collected trying to love what did not want to be loved. I will use the broom, and the sponge, and the rag, and safely clean all the bitterness inside you. I will blow your hands to destroy the ties that prevent you from creating….
I will blow your feet to dust and erase the footprints memories, so you can never return to that bad place. I will turn your body, so your face will kiss the earth. I’ll blow your spine from the root to the neck to increase your strength and help you walk upright….
And I will let you rest. After this you will cry, and after crying you will sleep. And you will dream beautiful and meaningful dreams, and when you wake up I’ll be waiting for you. I will smile at you, and you will smile back. I will offer you food that you will eat with pleasure … tasting life, and I will thank you. Because what I’m offering today, was offered to me before when darkness lived within me. And after I was healed, I felt the darkness leaving, and I cried…
Then we will walk together, and I will show you my garden, and my plants, and I will take you to the fire again. And we will talk together in a single voice with the blessing of the earth. And we will shout to the forest the desires of your heart…
And the fire will listen and whisper the echo, and we will create hope together….
And the mountains will listen and whisper the echo, and we will create hope together….
And the rivers will listen and whisper the echo, and we will create hope together….
And the wind will listen and whisper the echo, and we will create hope together….
And then we will bow before the fire, and we will call upon all the visible and invisible guardians. And you will say thank you to all of them…
And you will say thank you to yourself. And you will say thank you to yourself. And you will say thank you to yourself.
I am the river of life I am the keeper of this dream Walk with me I’ll tell you a thousand stories Long ago given to the earth
These mountains tall They are my only walls In this temple where I bow
Haseya
Rise up, my sisters, rise up We are the water, the sacred cup It’s in our hands that all life grows It’s in your dance, it’s in your hands It’s in your love we rise above
It’s in your song I hear my soul So rise up, my sisters, rise up Let us lift each other up Sing it from your heart and from your soul
Haseya
Sun and moon they shine together She moves the waters and dances with the heavens
In your eyes I see Haseya rise In your eyes I see the giver of this life
I have been without power at home for six days and haven’t showered for seven.
I Am Grateful that I have had a pretty significant crochet habit the past few years and have made several blankets, they are coming in quite handy at night!
Last year I went crazy and made a whole bunch of candles. Little did I know I would be needing them this year. I will replenish once I gain power.
I’ve also had a hobby of preserving foods the last few years. I am not in lack.
It is 38 degrees during the day here.
I still have wood for a fire this evening and have access to more should I need it. I have gasoline to make the trip for it too! What a blessing!
In the night my dreams are quite active. It seems my intention for my future is being polluted in the astral, but I wake. The night is the night and the day is the day, and once again the smile is spreading upon my lips as I sit and type this message, drinking my tea.
I still have employment, so have a nice warm place to go during the day. The work load is light, yes, but here I am still … Grateful.
My co-workers will need to avoid me as much as possible for even I am beginning to smell myself, haha. If the power is not on soon I will figure a way to heat water for a sponge bath. I’ve 3 – 7 gallon jugs of water that I filled and replace the water occasionally, specifically in the event I would need it.
My Higher Self, Guardians and Master Teachers and Guides have been looking out for me, and I’ve been listening, obviously, on a subconscious level.
Rather than focusing on what I do not have, I focus on the things I DO have, and I make a conscious effort to be grateful for these things.
I pour forth LOVE from my Core Essence, Grateful for You.
UPDATE: I understand now that my intentions are NOT being polluted. I am simply being shown what COULD happen should my intentions materialize … and it is an OPPORTUNITY to re-evaluate … GRATEFUL.
HA Breath with Ho’oponopono
In Breath: I Love You Hold: I Am Sorry Breath Out: Please Forgive Me Hold: Thank You
It`s imperative to understand that there are MANY plans and Agendas right now playing out. Illuminati against Satanists ( a lot for show), Dems against Rep (also a show), Biden/Trump (big cinema) – but the really important thing is that there is a DEVINE PLAN in order and unfolding with the Ascension of Earth. I always told people how can they talk about ascension in the mind that`s about a Presidency???? I never got this “logic” – 5D is about Unity Consciousness and not about left or right. And so we can observe HOW MANY of the so-called “Love & Light” groups become hi-jacked and completely got lost in the “game”. We HAVETO TRUST OURSELVES and trust OUR INTUITIONS – we are interdimensional beings, celestial beings and no f……ing AI.
On of the first Lords Rothschild said : Give humans the Illusion that they can choose, vote or elect – you will always win. Especially when both parties are already yours. Why do this 1% become more rich with every war?? Because the sell weapons to both sides – for them it doesn’t matter who is “winning” because they always win. It’s a “win/win” situation for them. And the Election of a President is the same procedure for them.
MSM is such a vital part of the Illuminati and negative forces – programming consciousness.
I am really quiet sure that by now more than 2 Million lightbeings are incarnated on Earth. It’s already the 3rd wave of incarnated higher consciousness here. And with 144,000 we wouldn’t be able to keep, hold and ground the incoming energy for humanity. The 144 has something to do with the activation of the DNA strands and the Solar Rishi.
They are well aware that we are all here now. And they also know that they can’t stop the solar event and can’t stop the ascension of Earth. They just can try to take as many as possible with them into they 4th negative dimension.
Probably people have to hit the ground first before they are willing to wake up and take self responsibility for their own life and don`t blame and judge always others because this just causes the law of cause and effect for THEMSELVES – not the others. Universal laws in effect.
Self responsibility is important but waking up is necessary.
Free Will:
Let me share something with you about YOU as an IS-BE (Interdimensional Spiritual Being having a human experience) and the dilemma of this realm:
Movies, tv shows, comic books, fantasy movies, etc that disclosed ET presence on Earth and what interacting with ETs really entails. The fact of the matter is, extraterrestrials IS-BEs are not interdimensional IS-BE. You are not required to take DMT supplements or drugs to interact and communicate with extraterrestrial IS-BEs.
In order to exist on this level, each IS-BE must be in sync with their full chakra frequency alignments. Full telepathic communication and mind meld. This is what it means to connect with someone on a deeper level inside the brain and mind, stored inside of your DNA which then is the signature used by your subconscious to project reality around you. Your IS-BE is the God inside you. You have the ultimate control over your own destiny, however to comprehend and manifest those lessons, patience, prayer, meditation, empathy, love, and union are emotions that will manifest positive life energy manifestations to become in your reality.
Allow us to connect a few dots for you that may be unclear. These interdimensional beings responsible for the child sacrificing obsession the society has been driven to are also the source of where fascism is coming – the Universities. We can visually see the Universities are cults with massive pedophile rings inside of them using Government subsidized programs to perform illegal experiments on millions of lives.
Understand that all life forms are IS-BEs. Including mice. Including rats. Including bacteria. All IS-BEs are a manifestation of a conscious projection of an IS who wishes to BE. The IS-BE responsible for the Biological entities it encompasses. This logically and compassionately.
Universities are experimenting on animals and lower cast life forms because they are deemed worthy to be experimented upon. Here is a moral dilemma, what gives one life form the permission to take the life of another lifeform? That who created you. This is the beast of burden debate in vegetarianism. However consuming meat for food is the psyop The real beast of burden is what Universities are doing to global consciousness in the sacrifice to science.
After a long night of manipulation in the astral, I once again reclaim my smile, my ease, my joy.
I Am Grateful that the night is the night, and the day is the day.
I Am Grateful …
On my way to work this morning, still tender from the nights “affairs” a vehicle pulled in front of me, nearly right after I left the house … the license plate began as 444. My beautiful message that my guardians and guides were, and are, with me, as requested.
Every time you see this number, say (out loud if possible) “all is well”. Take a moment to feel calm and confident in your situation. This number was sent to confirm to you that everything is working out and that you are on the right path.
I fell back to sleep and this particular entity said, using MY voice, “I’ll show you …” and proceeded to get very serious about the same type of manipulation.
I am grateful, for I see it for what it is, and I recognize my true self as gentle, pure, joy.
It has come to my attention that I am easily manipulated in the astral for I subconsciously believe I am powerless. In the astral I am 17 years of age.
The story …
When I was 15, I met a man who was 26. He treated me like a princess. He moved in to my parents house with me, although our sleeping quarters were on the opposite side of the property.
For one year he was my prince, a pure gentleman. Then it began.
At 16 he started to beat me. By the age of 17 I was receiving beatings once a week, usually followed by him requiring sex from me while he rattled on about how sorry he was and how much he loved me.
My mother and step-father did not lift a finger to help me. We were very poor and this abuser poached salmon and dear for the dinner table. There were many mouths to feed.
The last time … At 17 I had tried to leave him. I was in my car and he ran me off the road. He yanked me thru the drivers side window and threw me into his truck, tying me in. He drove me to the river where he proceeded to beat me hard. I tried to jump in the river and he picked up a huge rock and said he would smash my head should I try it. I did not. He then grabbed me by the throat and choked me until I passed out. When I came to he was smashing my head into the rocks. He stopped, then he pulled me into the truck, where he proceeded to have sex with me … once again saying how sorry he was, how much he loved me.
This lasted for many hours. When I finally arrived home, to my mothers house (she had moved out of the previous house) it was the wee hours of the morning. I went to the bathroom and drew a bath. I locked the door so my mother could not walk in. I sank into the bath water, my body full of scrapes from the rocks and the start of bruises from his attack beginning to show. I was shaken … I realized I could have died that night.
I left town, for I knew I was in extreme danger.
Fast forward to these days …
In the astral I am manipulated my the masculine. They are not human, but they can shape shift into human form. They are expert at manipulating the psyche of the human.
They cause me to do things in the astral I would not choose to do if I were resting in my power.
It has come to my attention that my astral self, my 17 year old self, is still in that mode of powerlessness, and these ones take advantage of it … or perhaps they are simply showing me that this scenario exists in my subconsciousness, bringing it forth so that I may heal it.
Either way …
It is time to heal that girl in me, to bring her into her power, the power she wields as a conscious 54 year old me.
I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles.
It is time to reprogram my subconscious.
Here are a few things I’ve discovered that can assist in the process.
My first action is to strictly limit the negativity I am exposed to … from this moment on, then …
1: Listen to the wisdom in my resistance, being humble 2: Decide, Commit, Resolve 3: Don’t assume I know everything 4: Listen to my fears and define what they are 5: Interview my subconscious: What am I afraid of? 6: Repeat what I believe to my subconscious ~ Affirmations 7: Promise myself I will make it work
The subconscious mind is a force. It has the power to stop me from dreaming big and moving forward — but all its power comes from the programming I put into it.
I will allow feelings of love, joy, and peace to flow through me as if I were truly having these experiences, and …
8: Adopt empowering beliefs 9: Focus on Gratitude 10: Visualize, 10-15 minutes per day 11: Be very consistent and persistent 12: Biohack the subconscious mind with Binaural beats
Gamma when engaged in certain motor functions
Beta when fully conscious and actively concentrating
Alpha when relaxed
Theta when drowsy or lightly sleeping
Delta when in deep sleep
These audio programs can help reprogram the subconscious mind by creating a more receptive forum for installing positive messages.
“Whatever we plant in our subconscious mind and nourish with repetition and emotion will one day become a reality” — Earl Nightingale
