“Dream Lovers” tag the vaginal cavity and womb, or the phallus of the Divine. It’s the cord they use to yank back on them as they elevate, ascending into higher realms. Their pretend divine fems/masc use seggs magic together against the divine to assist in this cording. They “dirty” the divine by pushing the foul orgy magic, making them look like whores. They think they’ll elevate and rise into the kingdom, while the true divine get yanked back. They need you to remain so they can continue to drain your root and sacral chakras, your God-like Lifeforce.
Screaming with intention, not just for release. The vital essence expressed in an explosive manner will banish unnecessary irritants, especially if directed toward them. Of course, screaming just to scream is sometimes needed and desired.
As I sat in the bath I cried. The realization hit me hard and I called out to TMH asking, “Why do I have to die every time I fall in love?”
Three times in life I have loved a man deeply.
The first, aged 15-17, beat me, choked me, raped me, all under the nose of my “guardians” for he mooched his way under the roof and into security.
The second 18-20, innocent, sweet, and a slave to his phallus. I came home after work to find him and his ex on the sofa nearly naked. A heart shattering. Blind faith destroyed. Trust obliterated.
The third, aged 24-31, I won’t go into detail. Infidelity. A slave to his phallus. A moving out. Dog murdered, job lost, homeless, living in car.
It’s obvious someone cursed me. That every time I loved, I would also be shattered.
I’ve determined I’m no longer willing to “die” for love of a man. He has proven himself unworthy of the essence herein. I connect to TMH, my King of the highest heavenly mountain, and deny the rest.
After 22 years of conscious attack within the field of awareness (and 37 years prior of sleeper attack) I woke this morning feeling as tho I had been eclipsed out of their reach. I thought, it’s all well and good.
Solitude in my life, solitude in my mind. I need no ripples in my waters made by an other who feels the need to dictate my moves, my mood, my life. There is no value in such a connection and I’m not willing to pay the price. It simply isn’t an equal give and take. It’s parasitical, and I won’t feed into it any more.
I choose me. I am worthy of the value of the gift TMH has given ME. It’s weird how some say,”bring all that is yours as tho it is mine.”
I say, if you were worthy of such a gift TMH would have bestowed it upon you.
But he didn’t. He gave it to me.
Pawing … energetically, physically, by those who desire to TAKE the gift from me, to claim it, to control it, to flaunt the wealth of it to their friends… to hurt the source and play with hoes draining the essence, dressing up in the energy, prancing about as a lord.
No.
No more.
I choose me.
I choose to be eclipsed out of this energy.
TMH knows where I’m at if he needs me. If our family, true blue, needs me they know where I am.
I no longer entertain parasites who cannot win the battle with the snake they must live with.
I’ve no need.
TMH has provided.
And the whispered questions of “Who will be with the woman?” Go unanswered.
Hidden harvesters of the Stars, who don’t abide in Love.
The energy begs to argue. The intellect tells the energy it’s not in charge. I breathe, steady and paced. The body regulates the nervous system, and mind. The energy passes.
It’s wild to me that those who choose cbd and cbg over pharmaceuticals for pain and anxiety are treated as tho they’re addicts … when they’ve simply chosen the medicine that won’t harm their internal organs and bioform. Holistic is the way. It’s gentler on the House of the Soul.
“No weapon formed against you shall prosper, And every tongue which rises against you in judgement You shall condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, And their righteousness is from Me,” Says the Lord.
Water holds memory. Water holds energy. If the energy of the body has been disrupted, or interfered with by some technology, it can become dense, dark, or chaotic. The body is mostly water. It affects to mental body, the emotional body. To clear, the waters of the body need to be flushed, replaced. Pour it in, until it pours out of you. Don’t complain about bathroom breaks. Water is our friend. I have found that after pouring in (and out) 2-3, 20 oz waters, the energies begin to clear.
Sometimes while sleeping, energies from an unknown source are planted into the bioform. It comes into the armpits, the heart, solar plexus and root chakras. These energies are not yours. It’s a “dressing” someone wishes you to be seen as.
33 years ago I was in relationship with an older man. We were together for 7 years, I thought we would be married … instead he had an affair and even bought her a house, he was bored with me.
At first, I was extremely hurt, angry, betrayed. I questioned my value, once again, as it was rejected by one I loved, once again.
I had to move out, I lost my job, my dog was murdered, and I became homeless, living in my car. It was an extreme low point in my life.
Beginning: I had deep love for a man who could not love me. Middle: I worked through my jealousy and hurt, found that love still existed in my heart for him. Present: He is my best friend, longest known friend, once lover, now brother, and guardian.
Love does not end, unless we choose to kill it. Even through betrayal and abandonment, if we can remember the love, nurture it even when our heart is breaking, the love will transform, become something else, different, yet still powerful.
When our heart breaks, it is only expanding … and trust me, I know how it can put one into a spiritual dark well, and it can take a long time to climb out into the sun once more …. but expand, you will.
If you have been betrayed, rise above it and remember the love. Never forget the love. Perhaps this one is not meant to be lover, but is more compatible as friend. And should they choose to walk away, release them …. it brought necessary growth, in disguise.
My longest known friend? He now considers me to be his best friend. And I’m living in the house he bought for the woman who interjected herself into my relationship. And she knows I’m living here …..
It does not pay to break up relations. It does no good on the karmic trail to cause heart break for a sister, or brother. It does not do any good for self to take take take from another. It only prolongs the suffering that must come from such actions.
Be aware. Take care. Remember the love, regardless of those who bring suffering.
The controllers of this world subliminally program minds to perpetuate situations of suffering. We must not allow them to maintain this control.
Remember the love, feed its memory.
Do not attach to the suffering, for it is you who generates the energy of sadness and it is you who are feasted upon by the energetic vampires when you do.
As individual, we are the only one we will share every moment of this life with. (Besides our Higher Source). Sometimes, it is we who are the only kind person around.
If we’ve been trained to believe tending to self is selfish, we will neglect self … our best friend in the world. Often, the only one who will pick us up when we fall. (S)He deserves the utmost care any most precious and loyal friend deserves. Don’t wait for someone else to treat you kindly. It rarely comes.
Some people say you should pay yourself first, putting a few bucks in the bank.
Your cup needs this same deposit in order for you to continue pouring kindness out for others.
