A coworker said to me today, “You’re always so happy.” I smiled and replied, “It is a choice I make, every morning, and a continuous, conscious effort throughout the day.”
In no way am I saying this is easy, however it IS getting easier. In the rare occasions I come up against someone in authority (or anyone for that matter) having a bad moment, I have learned that I must take advantage of these moments, and teach myself to roll with it, and let it go.
Feelings … it is good to be soft, and it is good to be firm … be firm in your softness.
Isn’t it cool that we are everything, simultaneously? When you think of time collapsing, and visualize yourself as a young playful child, and an abused child, and a happy, seeing wonder in everything teen, to a loving adult who may later have trust betrayed, to a single woman (or man), finding their self and loving their self again as an older version of that loving, wonderment of a teen.
Pancake, feeling it all in a mixed up soup of a life … mind blowing, and cause for extreme gratefulness.
Strength comes from trials, and to know love prevails through it all is an awesome reality!
I have been abused, loved, and taken advantage of … and I have given these things to others as well. WE share ALL experiences … in one fashion, to a greater or lesser degree, even while denial may say it isn’t true.
When we finally see our self in each other ~ pain, love, compassion, and desire to be more joyful, or talented or whatever, sharing similar experiences, with varying responses ~ life becomes magical, a true, stunning experience.
I once stapled the end of my finger off. The doctor picked out the bone chips and sewed it back on, right through the nail. As it healed I would stare at it in amazement. It actually grew back together! I now retain most feeling in that fingertip also.
The mind, when it is completely scrambled by a traumatic event or events, and perhaps there is a thought that no thing will ever be learned again, and love will never come again because of the damage … when things start to progress, and skills are learned, a surprise happens, an understanding that the human mind, body, and spirit really can overcome very much, and still return to love and health.
Certainly, some of these understandings can take years to form, and the pain, fear, doubt, and many other emotions will appear to win the tug-of-war. Yet we are resilient … and by practicing patience, knowing Creator often does things in a time line that does not always seem fair, or appropriate (to us), always turns out to be just perfect.
Learning patience is one of the most difficult lessons. Controlling anxiety and frustrations while practicing patience nearly impossible … but it IS possible, and the more it is practiced, the easier it becomes.
Life is a dance, and we are our own partner. When we learn to dance and smile and laugh and experience joy through it all, gaining a clearer understanding through previous trials, then we can share the dance with others more heartedly, and be more grateful for it.