Come alive and thrive. Stand in your light and glory with grace and majesty.
You have an opportunity to thrive. Trust in all that you have to offer – all your gifts, strength and power – and make the most of it. You were born to lead and this can only become reality when you are willing to put yourself in that position. Stag energy allows you to feel safe because the antlers keep away anything that could interfere with your intelligence and presence, and their strength gives you the power to be agile in your thinking. You are being encouraged to retain your dignity and be proud of who you are and all that you’ve accomplished. This in turn will give you even more power to thrive. Onwards and upwards!
Honour Your Inner Knowing
Take action. Do what you know you need to do.
There is an old pattern rising up in you now and it’s time to deal with it and release it for good. You’re being encouraged to love and respect yourself enough to take the steps you know you need to take to move closer to where you’d like to be. You already know the answers. You know what you need to do. You may have been using delaying tactics or holding back, but now you are being guided to take action. Action requires courage, but your angels and guides are bringing you the courage to move forward. Take just one step. When you do, the next one will be presented to you.
Reading from the deck “Angels and Ancestors” oracle cards Ted by Kyle Gray
We think others should be this way or that way, and if they do not measure up to our own thought forms, we pass judgement, often in a negative form.
We are liable for the output we generate.
Regardless if we are being judged, bullied, slandered … we ought to be very careful of our own output.
Be the example you would like to experience for self.
Plant the seeds of acceptance and tolerance.
Grow the garden you wish to see in this world shared by all life … create the peace you wish to enjoy.
As Creators, we must take responsibility for our Creation.
It is not the politicians fault we don’t like what we see. It is not the presidents fault, it is not our mother or fathers fault, or our mates … it is our own …
Sure, we are exposed to rotten judgements, actions and implants. Sure, it hurts us. Are we going to pass the hurt onto others? Are we going to skip the inner work and simply offload our pain into the world, creating more of the same? And blame others for the creation we ourselves participate in exacerbating, in growing?
It is time to take a deep look at self and the creation we are generating, through our own reactions, responses, and outputs.
Own it.
It belongs to you.
It belongs to WE.
WE can cause serious and beneficial change in this world … with attention, intention, and effort.
It starts with self, this positive transformation.
It requires your inner participation and transmutation.
You have every ounce of everything needed to do this.
What does it sound like in your head? Do you talk to yourself a lot? Thinking on overload?
You’ve heard, most likely by now, of the “angel on one shoulder and the devil on the other” saying do this, or no, don’t do that.
Are you aware tho, that the many who would have you commit error are also using your own voice? They mimic your voice and implant thoughts into your mind. You think it is your own thought, but it is not.
You have these implants, these thought forms, and you feel shame that they would even be in your mind, certain they are your own thoughts … after all, it sounds like your voice.
You may carry out a deed, thinking it your own desire. Most often it is not you … it is the tempter … swaying you. They have millennia of practice, they are very good at what they do. Hooking minds.
Personally, I have caught on to this bullshit. When I have a thought form that does not align with my heart, I reject it, knowing bullshit artists are working magic, hoping to get lucky.
The key here is knowing what is in your heart. The innermost portions of your soul. Your intuition speaks quite clearly should you listen … it’s the center, your solar plexus, your heart space … the seat of you.
The inner work must be done, investigating the tiniest details of your triggers, what is making you tick, finding out why you feel this or that way, removing blockages, visiting past hurts, forgiving others … controlling your emotions rather than being controlled by them. It starts with the inner knowing.
When you begin rejecting thought forms that are not in alignment with who you believe yourself to be, the attack will increase, it will be tough to continue rejecting the thought form. Hold sway … this is your life. Command it.
People in body will be influenced to certify the implant, they will goad you, coax you … know they are being manipulated by those who are out of body, or those who inhabit the aethers. Those closest to you are not actually the ones who hurt you most … they are being manipulated, unknowingly by those working hard, doing shady deals in the unseen … the occult, if you will.
This does not mean you stay and take it, for they will use the situation to wear you down … you see, it is you they want to stop, for it is you who carry true power.
You will be told to “be careful of what you say” to shrink, because others will be triggered by you. You will be coaxed into disrespecting your own voice, to stifle the stream of thought forms you do generate on your own. To stop the progress of standing in your own authority. To slow the flow that brings you into your true self … the desire by the unseen is to manipulate you through any miens necessary, and that includes manipulating those closest to you, using them to enforce the implant … the implant they too have received.
Once you recognize this truth, the dreams will start. Nightmares even. Threatening. You may even become telepathic, and be told you’re going to hell for being a bad person by someone claiming to be god.
Fear tactics … the greatest tool of a manipulator.
I’ve been told by a few of my closest relations that they have to hang up the phone or end a conversation because I “hurt their head” … they’ll tell me I’m not thinking right, that I’m wrong … they are being manipulated into trying to stifle my flow, to cause me to shrink and become unsure of self. It is sad, for when I put my foot down and say they do not have the authority to tell me what is right or wrong for me, I see the confusion on their faces …. a tell tale sign that they are manipulated.
I will not have any of the manipulations. There are those who choose to remain distant from me now that they know they are not able to control my output, my thought processes, and this is fine.
Feel for them. Love them … from a distance if you need to … I do … I greatly do love them all … but I will not allow a constant barrage of degradation against my own person, and I will not allow another to tell me what I should or should not think … not unless I personally invite the lessons, asking for the truth, desiring a teaching.
I think a lot. I always have. There are many in the aethers who listen and attempt to interject conversation, as tho I was actually speaking to them in the first place.
I have conversations with self. I have great epiphanies, logic comes to play, common sense intrudes in the manipulators story … through my memory of ‘its’ presence.
Love is the root of fear. Yes, love can be manipulated, turned into fear or anger or pain … it can become love degraded … it is still love nonetheless.
I laughed a little at this, for those who want power and control must dirty love in order to attain it. They decrease its potency in order to control it. They are still absorbing love, however, simply a less powerful form of it. The control aspect comes by making love believe it is less than it actually is.
… Back to the invisibles implanting thought forms, using your own voice, and manipulating other people to make solid that thought form.
Do not be quiet. Let your voice, your thoughts be heard. If no one wants to listen to “deep thoughts by you” let them walk away, don’t allow them to change your thought … let them offer different perspectives, but your mind is your mind and it should be programmed by you, and you alone.
Know thyself … know what is yours, and what is manipulation … it is a very sensitive space and barely visible line between the two.
We’ve been trained into it from birth.
Untrain … and then retrain your mind and being, into that which you can have respect for, into that which you can love not just surface level, but deep, deep self-love.
You are worthy of your time and attention … attention is the most valuable currency known to ALL life … pay yourself first … if you’re ‘wallet’ isn’t full, you cannot properly pay it to anyone else.
My hope is that once you find your peace, you will also let it be heard, spreading across the land like rain.
Here are a couple references explaining certain mind control technologies, it is very real, and the unsuspecting are the test subjects.
“She took me deep into her night and her fog. She tried to break me on her demonic altar.
But I told her No.
And she listens to my No, when I infuse it with all of my conviction and my heart.
On the dividing line between sanity and madness, life and death, love and loss, I found myself finally, learned the lessons my father could never teach me. He abandoned me to the darkness so I had to find my own way. How to love. How to breathe, how to surrender to the breath. How to trust. How to stay kind. And how to keep walking, even when death is close.
That is trauma, you see, my love, the sense that you’re on the edge of oblivion, about to disappear, when in reality you’re not, and you’re safe but you’re hurting and you find no relational haven in time or the world. That sense of doom and the overwhelm of the night. The absence of all empathy.
But No. No. You are not her meat. You are not her prey, her collateral damage. This screaming in your head may be loud but thoughts shall not define you and will not hurt you as you learn to embrace them, even laugh at them through the night.
I have learned this the hard way. I have passed through the hell realms where the brain seems close to madness and the body is on somatic fire. I have learned to give myself to the night so she cannot take me by force. This is the secret of all healing, I tell you.
I will not be her victim any longer. I have found power in my powerlessness, victory in the ego’s failure. My strength lies in my willingness to shatter for love and for the goodness of things. Her night will not devour me; I shall devour it first, in trust.
Like you, I have felt the wild heart pounding and the terrible heat generated by the body, and the sweat and the constrictions and the tremors of primordial arousal. I have felt the contractions in the belly, and the numbness and the tingles in the arms and legs and the way we sometimes feel like we are falling into oblivion and all things are coming to an end. I have known it all and I know now, finally, finally, it is God. I have given up the fight against life, surrendered to the power of my very own body, my healing temple. I tell my heart to beat faster, harder, to beat out of my chest, and it does. I tell the heat to rise to a peak, and I tell the tremors to intensify as much as they need to. I invite the storm so it does not end me. I beg the anxiety to increase. I beg the terror to do its worst. I know nothing can break me except my own refusal to live. I know I am stronger than I would ever believe.
I have told my nervous system to show me its terrifying healing power. I have relaxed into my own sweat and flesh and pounding. I have given myself willingly to the night and to the darkness, to her convulsions and contractions, I have become one with her and she has become one with me. Entered the death realm, was sucked into the heart of trauma, it was not happening to me but alongside me and with me and through me and it was finally a part of me and I was bigger than it all at last. And I was no victim, no helpless child, but the life force – yes, the fucking LIFE FORCE – that created a billion universes with energy to spare, with playful laughter and wild abandon and a twinkle in its eye.
Vibrating with warm energy, shivering with awe, I open my eyes again. I see you now.
Hello, my love.
Hello.
The worst has happened and I am alive. We are alive. Terror as portal. Yes, terror as portal. We are here.
Hello.
I have gone deep into her night and fog and I have found only a stronger version of myself, and I know this is possible for you too. I tell her not to break me and she does not. She listens, she does, when I talk with the fullness of my being, with a courageous heart, and with all my authenticity. She will listen to you too.
Do not fear the night, my love, do not fear her fog and her contractions, do not run when the dark material emerges and do not panic at the point of utter helplessness for that is the healing point. The eye of the storm will inoculate you. Her darkness will strengthen you if you let it, and she will show you things the daytime knows nothing of.
Trust the night! For she is you, you see – your own dark warrior heart, your own ache and longing for safety, and warmth, and home…
Unity has many different meanings, the most common is a union between cultures, countries, peoples.
There are the base four bodies, possessed and worn by all individuals. The Physical, the Mental, the Emotional, and the Etheric.
It is important to ponder these four bodies, meditate on them, or in other words, relax the mind and allow the meaning for each to come through for you.
What is the foundation for the Physical body?
What is the foundation for the Mental body?
What is the foundation for the Emotional body?
What is the foundation for the Etheric body?
Once you have got this, written it down, and solidified it in mind … consider Unity … uniting the elements of these four bodies.
This is where union begins.
Alignment.
The work you put in, you get out.
Effort made toward wholeness cannot, and will not, be overlooked.
Your higher self, in combo with your guides, the angels who watch over you, and the elementals of this world will assist you in process.
All you need do is ask, relax, and let it flow.
I am currently in student mode, and I share my ‘lessons’ with you, so that we may grow into it together.
Peace is the goal, and it begins on the inside of each individual.
As you can see, the outside layer is the Mental body, the most commonly afflicted body. The easiest target by anyone who wishes to manipulate form.
Strengthen the bodies, understand the foundations for each, unite them into a cohesive whole, and it will be easier to walk in this world and bring about positive adjustment, to create the Peace you wish to enjoy.
Use your intuition. Practice discernment. See through illusions and blockages.
Lunar energies are surrounding your life, allowing you to understand what is standing in your way. Not everything is as it seems and you’re being guided to use your discernment. When the moon appears, intuitive or psychic urges are seen, so take note of any feelings arising at this time. They are messages from your soul and angels. The Moon shines her light on all that has been kept in the dark, so ask yourself if you are avoiding anything or refusing to deal with something of importance. If so, it could be holding you in the shadows when your Destiny is to be in the light. If you feel someone isn’t being completely real with you, know that their intentions will be revealed to you. The Moon has no secrets – she reveals all.
Embrace the Energy of Peace
Let go of the need to defend yourself and prepare to offer peace. You are safe.
If you have been exposed to a situation in which you have felt the need to protect yourself or defend what you feel is right, know that this is now coming to an end. You are being guided to know that the energies of light are entering to wash away all the darkness. You can drop your shields and protection. You are now in a situation that will honor you and honor your needs. Arguments are ending and disagreements are being resolved. Prepare to talk things through and offer the peace that you would like to enjoy. In order to move forward in a more fearless way, it’s important for you to let go of the idea that you can be hurt by this situation or the people involved, because this will only work against you. Know that your angelic guides and ancestors are standing around you, protecting you and taking you lovingly forward.
Reading from the deck “Angels and Ancestors” oracle cards created by Kyle Gray.
Balance between being Love and being asshole … I may have finally arrived.
What is balance exactly?
I was reminded of a single portion of it, pertaining to my writing.
If I write 10 things about light and dark, I ought to balance it by writing 10 things about self.
Self is worthy of its own attention just as much as any other is worthy of our attention.
The focus is often too much on what is outside of self … indeed, this seems to be the norm. Many are unwilling to dwell on self. I do not mean being selfish, want want want. I mean focus on the inside, what makes us tick, what does our inner child have to say, what care may we be neglecting for self?
The thoughts … are they always upon another, or others, or some thing?
Attention is the most valuable currency any form of life possesses, and ALl life has it. ALL life spends it. We give it away, here and there, yet how often does one actually sit with self and ponder what brings happiness, love and peace … to ones own life and mind?
There is plenty of chaos in this world, and most people are focused there, completely avoiding, or missing self-care.
I know, for I am one, and I see it everywhere I place my attention.
My current self-imposed task is to reign in my attention once more. To find balance, the balance that has gone catawonky.
It is give and receive.
We may be of service to others, and must balance it with service to self. Physical actions, mental efforts … not only do we give, but we are responsible for the receive … not any other person. WE give to others, WE must give to self.
If someone is demanding you give and give, and does not reciprocate, yet demands also that you never take time for self … these must be released … it is a form of vampirism.
Remembering to give to self, to care for and love self, seems to have become a lost art.
Mastering balance … it’s a challenge which requires continual conscious effort.
If the mind wanders there, pull it back to here for a time.
If it is focused on everything that is wrong, then it must also focus on everything that is right. Equal portions, in the same day.
Old habits are difficult to release.
Creating the new replacement patterns, ones that are of deeper benefit to health in body and mind more of a challenge.
Worth it?
Check in with body and mind and see what they say.
High and dry in the long hot day Lost and lonely every way Got the flats all around me sky up above Yes I need a little water of love
I’ve been too and long lonely and my heart feels pain Crying out for some soothing rain I believe I have taken enough Yes I need a little water of love
Water of love deep in the ground But there ain’t no water here to be found Some day baby when the river runs free It’s gonna carry that water of love to me
There’s a bird up in a tree sitting up high Just waiting for me to die If I don’t get some water soon I’ll be dead and gone in the afternoon
Water of love deep in the ground But there ain’t no water here to be found Some day baby when the river runs free It’s gonna carry that water of love to me
Once I had a woman I could call my own Once I had a woman now my woman she gone Once there was a river now there’s a stone You know it’s evil then you’re living alone
Water of love deep in the ground But there ain’t no water here to be found Some day baby when the river runs free It’s gonna carry that water of love to me, carry that
Water of love deep in the ground But there ain’t no water here to be found Some day baby when the river runs free It’s gonna carry that water of love to me
When I need you I just close my eyes and I’m with you And all that I so want to give you It’s only a heartbeat away
When I need love I hold out my hands and I touch love I never knew there was so much love Keeping me warm night and day
Miles and miles of empty space in between us A telephone can’t take the place of your smile But you know I won’t be traveling forever It’s cold out, but hold out and do like I do
When I need you I just close my eyes and I’m with you And all that I so want to give you, babe It’s only a heartbeat away
It’s not easy when the road is your driver Honey, that’s a heavy load that we bear But you know I won’t be traveling a lifetime It’s cold out, but hold out and do like I do
Oh, I need you
When I need love I hold out my hands and I touch love I never knew there was so much love Keeping me warm night and day
When I need you I just close my eyes And you’re right here by my side Keeping me warm night and day
I just hold out my hand Just hold out my hand And I’m with you darling Yes I’m with you darling All I want to give you Is only a heartbeat away
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