So often our subconscious is “programmed” while we sleep. The manipulators use our own voice to do so.
I was between sleep and waking when I heard a thought pass thru my mind … I am a coward.
Well, I knew right away that was not MY thought, but an implant. No way would I ever say that about myself.
So I countered … and every time I came close to consciousness, I repeated …
I Am Courageous.
I Am Brave.
I Am kindness.
I Am Love.
I Am Compassion.
I Am Care.
I had many experiences in the astral last night intended to cause fear in me. The energies were dark and quite gross in the solar plexus … I breathed into it, and released it. I will not own the programming. The attempted programming.
Know this … those negative thoughts rolling around in your head are NOT yours, but a scheme from the manipulators in the unseen, to weaken you, to strip you of your courage and personal value.
I fell back to sleep and this particular entity said, using MY voice, “I’ll show you …” and proceeded to get very serious about the same type of manipulation.
I am grateful, for I see it for what it is, and I recognize my true self as gentle, pure, joy.
It has come to my attention that I am easily manipulated in the astral for I subconsciously believe I am powerless. In the astral I am 17 years of age.
The story …
When I was 15, I met a man who was 26. He treated me like a princess. He moved in to my parents house with me, although our sleeping quarters were on the opposite side of the property.
For one year he was my prince, a pure gentleman. Then it began.
At 16 he started to beat me. By the age of 17 I was receiving beatings once a week, usually followed by him requiring sex from me while he rattled on about how sorry he was and how much he loved me.
My mother and step-father did not lift a finger to help me. We were very poor and this abuser poached salmon and dear for the dinner table. There were many mouths to feed.
The last time … At 17 I had tried to leave him. I was in my car and he ran me off the road. He yanked me thru the drivers side window and threw me into his truck, tying me in. He drove me to the river where he proceeded to beat me hard. I tried to jump in the river and he picked up a huge rock and said he would smash my head should I try it. I did not. He then grabbed me by the throat and choked me until I passed out. When I came to he was smashing my head into the rocks. He stopped, then he pulled me into the truck, where he proceeded to have sex with me … once again saying how sorry he was, how much he loved me.
This lasted for many hours. When I finally arrived home, to my mothers house (she had moved out of the previous house) it was the wee hours of the morning. I went to the bathroom and drew a bath. I locked the door so my mother could not walk in. I sank into the bath water, my body full of scrapes from the rocks and the start of bruises from his attack beginning to show. I was shaken … I realized I could have died that night.
I left town, for I knew I was in extreme danger.
Fast forward to these days …
In the astral I am manipulated my the masculine. They are not human, but they can shape shift into human form. They are expert at manipulating the psyche of the human.
They cause me to do things in the astral I would not choose to do if I were resting in my power.
It has come to my attention that my astral self, my 17 year old self, is still in that mode of powerlessness, and these ones take advantage of it … or perhaps they are simply showing me that this scenario exists in my subconsciousness, bringing it forth so that I may heal it.
Either way …
It is time to heal that girl in me, to bring her into her power, the power she wields as a conscious 54 year old me.
I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles. I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles.
It is time to reprogram my subconscious.
Here are a few things I’ve discovered that can assist in the process.
My first action is to strictly limit the negativity I am exposed to … from this moment on, then …
1: Listen to the wisdom in my resistance, being humble 2: Decide, Commit, Resolve 3: Don’t assume I know everything 4: Listen to my fears and define what they are 5: Interview my subconscious: What am I afraid of? 6: Repeat what I believe to my subconscious ~ Affirmations 7: Promise myself I will make it work
The subconscious mind is a force. It has the power to stop me from dreaming big and moving forward — but all its power comes from the programming I put into it.
I will allow feelings of love, joy, and peace to flow through me as if I were truly having these experiences, and …
8: Adopt empowering beliefs 9: Focus on Gratitude 10: Visualize, 10-15 minutes per day 11: Be very consistent and persistent 12: Biohack the subconscious mind with Binaural beats
Gamma when engaged in certain motor functions
Beta when fully conscious and actively concentrating
Alpha when relaxed
Theta when drowsy or lightly sleeping
Delta when in deep sleep
These audio programs can help reprogram the subconscious mind by creating a more receptive forum for installing positive messages.
“Whatever we plant in our subconscious mind and nourish with repetition and emotion will one day become a reality” — Earl Nightingale
For I am free, the ‘chip’ has malfunctioned and my mind is wide open, aware, and seeing more clearly than ever before.
I wake in the morning, refreshed, yet the Blue Lotus Flower does not provide the dream recall I had hoped for.
I know I was in a ‘meeting’ behind ‘closed doors’ during my astral travels. I woke to hear aspects of the masculine speak of me as though I am an innocent, docile, but boy oh boy, in my conscious state, I am a rebellious one! Full of “attitude” … this is how they describe my power, my strength.
During my waking state I do what I wilt … I practice meditation, chanting, magic, the generation and the collecting of my amplified energies for intensifying a specific command, intention, or prayer upon release.
“She’s dangerous”, they say …
Not realizing that yet again they use me as their mirror, dropping the vision of their own self onto me and then claiming it is mine.
They say I am sabotaging self.
I reply no … I am simply awake. I am living more fully, and more realistically, that I ever have before. And I cherish this awareness. And I will live it with every fiber of my being, expanding, not shrinking, until I am not able to any longer.
I claim my Sovereignty, I claim my Divinity.
I AM …
And it is Heavenly.
It is my birthright, I will not shrink away from it.
Over my own body and mind I am sovereign. ~ J.S. Mill
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