Burdens carried can weigh us down. Often the burden has become such a part of life its presence is nearly undetectable. The symptoms are masked as physical pain, and perhaps depression, or anxiety.
Is the story of life real, or simply an illusion built around that which is ‘less painful’?
Just underneath consciousness there is a place where communication happens with those who we cannot see. Being quizzed, I woke to hear myself silently answer, “I carry the burden of shame”.
I thought about this periodically throughout the day and have come to the conclusion that this ‘burden’ is facilitated in the mind from birth.
As children many of us are taught that our creations are lacking beauty, that we ourselves are lacking that which makes us lovable. When pure joy rises up in us there is always someone there to squash it. It seems to carry on into adulthood, until it is recognized, and consciously ended. Often we must leave behind those who claim to ‘love’ us.
I wonder about this cycle in the world. It happens everywhere, not limited to this country or that.
As chaos grows on the planet we can see those who facilitate destruction more clearly. They are being called out, exposed for the ‘average person’ to see. This can be quite disheartening, for those we have trusted, and their methods, will be seen plainly.
The tough part of the process is to learn to see our own heart just as clearly as we ‘think’ we see others. This is difficult, for many of us prefer to think we are ‘righteous’ and the others who do harm are not. It is important to know that what we see in the world is also part of our self. The only way to heal it is to recognize it, ask of our self how much of it we see in our own actions and thought patterns, and then heal that.
In the shadows of the mind many things dwell, many things that are difficult to look at, to decipher, and to cast out. So many people project outward, trying to mend the illness of the world, all the while refusing to mend what is in their own heart.
Personally, I am left to discover this ‘burden of shame’ which I carry and make the attempt to find forgiveness where it is concerned … to heal, to shed the weight of it, and to freely rise beyond it … without the use of excuses.
It is a difficult process, for while the inner work is done, those who we see, other people, will attempt to reinforce the negative. At the same time, those who we cannot see will attempt to reinforce the burden we carry, convincing our mind that the burden cannot be released.
This battle is with the invisible realms, attempting to keep us from joy and balance and love. This battle is also with others we can see who are under the influence of those who wish to keep us from happiness.
The key is to observe, not absorb. Outside influences we can hear, and sense, are only that … outside influences. Let them remain as such while you gather your own thoughts and ideas about what you believe will bring healing … to your life, and to the lives your life touches.
