You are not going crazy, you are under attack.
Study it, know it, and understand God is not asking you to harm yourself or others. And for the sake of goodness, once you learn of it, don’t put more of it into the system.
There are very evil people doing very evil things, I have experienced this personally, and you may have also, or will.
Drinking and doing drugs will make you more susceptible to manipulation techniques. Do yourself a favor, and stop doing these things.
Firm up your mind, and know you are safe.
Do not believe everything you “hear”.
Egregore (also egregor) is an occult concept representing a “thoughtform” or “collective group mind”, an autonomous psychicentity made up of, and influencing, the thoughts of a group of people. The symbiotic relationship between an egregore and its group has been compared to the more recent, non-occult concepts of the corporation (as a legal entity) and the meme.
It doesn’t help that CERN is collapsing time-lines …
There are people out there, including me, who are sometimes, unintentionally shallow in communications and relations. A longing for depth is usually present, somewhere. But when depth is finally attained one may find it doesn’t look like what was imagined. In fact, it looks more like death than depth. And it can feel like it too. It can change the entire persona of an individual … triggering a rebirth if you will. Some of you may have remarked at how completely different an old friend seems to be.
When younger, the polarities in life are extreme. I’m sure I’m not the only one who can agree. The absolute, emotional devastation or anger vs the all encompassing love and joy among many other areas of action and reaction etc can seem insane.
Sometimes it is quite pronounced when a person consumes alcohol or other substance. Their alter ego comes out, the one who typically dwells in shadows. This alter aspect will cause all kinds of chaos, and man … emotional pole shifts are hard enough without purposefully eliminating capacity to handle the swing of it.
As one who used to drink, I know quite well the affects it has on the psyche, the relationships, and the personal capacity to maintain mental health.
If you wish clarity and control, the spirits must go.