People you ache for will reject you
Let them
People are going to show you
with their actions
the painful reality of who they are
Let them
People are going to violate
your boundaries
and then blame you
Let them
People are going to believe
their own version of who you are
despite truth or facts
Let them
People are going to misunderstand
misalign and malign you
Let them
I know it’s agony
to allow false stories
to take center stage
rather than truth
but let them
This way lies power
and healing and self-reclamation
The energy you were spending to gain
approval, inclusion, validation
is a false-belonging wound
that’s bleeding you dry
Warning:
To “Let Them”
requires many
stops
and
starts
Stop
the hemorrhage
of explaining
Stop
the frazzle
of justifying
Stop swallowing
the slow-killing poison
of defending
Stop striving, earning, performing
Stop telling yourself
you need their back-breaking
version of love
or understanding
Stop allowing their judgement
to injure your self-love
Take a breath
Dare
to fill your lungs
with something other than
anxiety
Exhale
diminishment
Inhale
expansion
Now start
Start
seeking inside you
the thing that you
always wanted from them
Start
owning all your truth
the beauties
and the beastly
daring to embrace it all
Start
delighting in the wonder of you
as vast as a moon-sky blanket
and dazzling
as a starlit circus
Start
healing the fracture
of your tender fierce heart
gluing and gilding
the jagged edges
with the 24 karat courage
Forgive yourself
for mistaking them
for your power source
The day you start
giving yourself
the love
you wanted from them
is the first day of your freedom
A sky walker once said,
“We’re all living in cages
with the doors wide open.”
You, little songbird, deserve to be free
Take wing from the prison
of your thoughts
You’ll soar
They’ll criticize
Let them
~ Angi Sullins prints, books and card decks http://www.angisullins.com
Art by Digitiel
