On a personal note …
The visitor log took a plunge today.
I had no idea this involved the entire globe. It is strange being judged by countries rather than individual people. I thought it was just a few folks, but no, it’s entire countries. No wonder they’ve been telling me to be very careful of what I say.
There are many aspects of the feminine under examination these days.
There once was a time when I thought to myself that there is no reason why I cannot get along with everybody. I can surely make efforts to that end.
It is unfortunate though that some lack capacity to accept people as they are … even I am having this issue. Yet I understand that accepting someone for who they are does not equate with sharing space with that someone.
We get to choose who and what we want in our life, what we will accept, or reject.
I am in process of reclaiming the energies I have spent on making others problems, my problems.
I am retraining myself to spend my attention and energies on promoting the things I desire in my life, things of benefit rather than drain.
~ A clean environment (whew! what a task!)
~ A nice, cozy and pretty place to rest my head at night.
~ Time to meditate and clear the head, making room for proper connections.
~ Art, painting, drawing, doing puzzles, creating blankets or what-nots.
~ Love … my pets are full of love, and they are hairy which makes the clean environment a task.
Repealing the energies given to another will be difficult, I do not care for being bitchy. So I focus instead on simply extracting myself and my efforts from the entanglement.
First here, then there.
I had no idea that settling for a situation could be so draining on potentials in life. Yet settling does just that.
When I was younger, if I did not care for a situation I removed myself from it. This time however, I need to pluck something from my environment, while staying put. It is difficult, especially when that something has become accustomed to a certain character performance by myself.
I never considered myself an enabler, until my subconscious picked up on it, insight gifted to me by those who wanted me to see. (Thank you).
I did not wish to follow in the path of my ancestors. Creating relationship, and then leaving it, only to start another. It does look like this is how it goes though …
I longed for steady, for the surety of it (whether it be relationship or dwelling), and I became the glue that held it all together. The one who worked at it so that it was stable.
It is now time to let it unravel though. I’m done pouring effort into something that will not improve, that will not advance the goodness in my life, no …. it only remains stagnant, feeding off what I agree to give.
I’ve come to the conclusion that it is I who needs my loving kindness and care … haha, do I even know what that looks like? I think not, and it is time to learn what it is, what it looks like, and what it feels like.
Yes, something BIG is happening.
They say the dead will walk the earth once more. This could be literal, which it may, and it could also mean that the sleeping herd of we, the sheeple, are waking up and understanding that we have been kept in a sort of limbo.
I know my future does not resemble the past 12 years … no, I’m aiming higher, rising to the occasion, at least, this is my intention.
I’m guessing this is happening in many minds right about now.
After realization …