Late Night Ramblings of a Sleepy (or not so sleepy) Mind

Published May 9, 2020 by tindertender

I think I must be having an issue with being stubborn.

“It” doesn’t feel good. The potential for damage is great, and yet, I still do.

Is it simply because it is suggested I don’t?

Am I settling and adapting to my social environment?

Am I creating excuses?

Not being truthful? With self? With others?

Am I really that stubborn that I would risk personal damage due to … to what?

A force of WILLS?

I am not accustomed to surrender.

Why would I purposefully agitate my own mind?

Do I honestly think I am stretching my capabilities, my tolerances?

Or have I become addicted to chaos, internal, chaotic energies?

Do I like the rush?

Am I addicted to drama?

Am I creating this?

(LOL … of course you are!)

She shakes her head and says to herself, “What am I gonna do with myself?” And sadly, softly, she chuckles.

It is no wonder I feel uncomfortable … right now … geesh …


We must learn to be responsible for our energy.

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