It could be one reason for these mental illnesses. Cannibalism … in the beginning of my spiritual battle, an angel pleaded with me not to eat the meat.
Who do you symbolically kill and eat every Sunday in order to be saved from your own “sins”?
Sacrificing the innocence of someone else, animal or human, in order to save yourself from sin is a cowards way out. How about you focus on improving your presence in the world instead?
Making someone else pay the price for your poor essence in the world is wrong in so many ways.
Did you ever stop to think he isn’t free right now because you keep sacrificing him every week?
The story they fed you about him being in heaven is bullshit. Your actions keep him in a state of suffering.
He did not give his life for you. His life was stolen as sacrifice, the bond of which keeps humanity bound … and they do it to themselves.