Do you dare to believe that what you want, is also wanting you? The genuine desires of your heart are the sacred purpose of the soul, swathed in pleasure. Yet, if you have been shamed, judged for, made to feel guilt over, or denied your natural desires or pleasures in anyway, you may have developed a very tricky and complicated relationship with the yearnings of your heart. We often learn to distrust our own desires and come to believe that they are something to be overcome or avoided. We may even try to want second best, disbelieving that we are worthy of our first choice, of what we really, genuinely want, and would fulfill us deeply. Perhaps we have conditioned ourselves to believe that getting what we want is for others, not us.
First, trust in what you truly want. Not the substitutions and make-dos, but what would truly bring a sense of passionate, playful purpose and fulfillment to your life. You might not know anything more than “I want to sing!” or “I want to write!” or “I want to help animals!” or “I want to paint!” Start with what you know and hold it in your heart. If you genuinely do not know what your heart wants, you will very much enjoy the process of exploring your desires by making gentle and persistent enquiries of yourself. Ask yourself what it is that truly moves you. Give this matter consistent attention without forcing a response. Your answers may come in a sudden flood, or slowly, over time.
As you get to know your genuine desires and give yourself permission to feel and receive them, a powerful sequence is set in motion. From the depths of the universe, your desire hurtles its way towards you as the perfect manifestation. It is coming to you even now – manifesting itself as the best situation or relationship or circumstances to bring fulfillment to your heart, radiance to your life path and a creative awakening. So don’t give up. Keep dreaming of your fulfillment, but don’t imagine it as always awaiting you in some distant future. Instead play with what it will feel like to be so fulfilled, right now. How will you feel different? Will you be more grateful, more peaceful and content? More confident? More trusting of your ability to create and in the loving responsiveness of this wild universe? Cultivate those feelings. Get to feel what genuine desire and the meeting of that desire – that can then generate yet new desire – is like for you. Give yourself permission to go there, right now.
Remember that if you have people in your life who are shutting you down, suggesting that what you want is not possible or that you are aiming too high, then they need this healing too. Perhaps you can inspire them by giving yourself permission to heal. This will naturally open them to the idea that they could give themselves permission to know and fulfill their unique desires too. Whether someone chooses to be inspired by you, or to be fearful of your innate creative power, is completely up to them.
Whether you see it coming or not, your desire is already on its way to you. It is closer than you think and soon you will be able to see it, touch it, feel it and enjoy it. You will then become inspired for your next manifestation based on the true desires of your heart.
Healing Process ::
Repeat this statement three times, with feeling: “What I want, wants me, and I am open, willing and capable to receive it, through unconditional love now.”
Sacred Rebels oracle by Alana Fairchild