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Seeking Answers

Published December 16, 2018 by tindertender

If you tell me the truth perhaps we can move forward and experience something other than what we have been.

“It’s too soon.”

This is something I will trust, as I have seen and experienced in the past your knowledge of ‘good timing’ far surpasses mine.

While I would resign myself to this experience, instead I realize I have the power of choice. While you refuse to share your truth with me I will move forward seeking truth in other arenas. This is my choice, promoted by yours.

I have a question … when will it not be too soon? When it is too late?

How does an empath learn to read or sense energy that is attached to them as well as energy coming off of a physical person? Even though this energy, which is attached, can feel and sense all that the physical and mental body feels and senses, they seem to put up a barrier so they themselves cannot be read. Or they merge so thoroughly, it is difficult to determine what is theirs, and what belongs.

“Y7” ~ Everything points to this meaning “year seven” usually pertaining to children in their 7th year. In 2015 I was given message that 8 years were going to go by quickly. I have no idea what this means for certain. Some say it, (2023), will be the second coming of Christ. During a shamanic drumming meditation I attended this year, I was seated next to a woman who had been studying with her (now deceased) grandmother in Brazil, who’s spirit told her to attend this meeting. When I mentioned my ‘message’ she told me that she had been told the year would be 2022 … which makes it Y7 from 2015, when I first received my message. Perhaps this is why we were both 10 minutes late, ushered in and seated next to each other in the back of the room.

“558” ~ “It is time to step into your own power and pursue the life and lifestyle that you choose.” Number 5 represents wisdom and knowledge (x2, since it is doubled here) while number 8 represents eternity. 558 is also “a reminder to honor your word, and be who you claim you are inside and out.”

Is Creator a sadist/masochist? Who else would want to bond with, and experience a traumatic entry (birth) and a traumatic exit (death) all the while experiencing pain, and love, over and over again? Only someone who is in love with giving and receiving pain, over and over times billions of lives, thousands of times every single day.

Perhaps it is two opposing forces, in battle over life. One pouring pain into the world, the other countering it with love and periodic experiences of complete peace. This trade in energies … the pain giver stepping all over the minds and life of humanity, while the one who wishes to give peace steers clear of over-riding the will of humanity, instilling faith in ones own abilities and strengths instead.

Doesn’t seem like a very fair fight, especially when most of humanity does not participate in the ‘balancing’ of the ‘life force energies’, instead being dragged to pain, and then given healing, over and over. It seems the average mind cannot fathom they hold the power to say yes or no to these energies which mold their minds daily.

Amnesia upon entry into this world is placed upon the memory of each life. It is given for if people remembered how it felt to hurt, or be hurt, they would stop. The ‘powers that be’ do not seem to want people to stop, it seems part of the unseen may thrive on this chaos which perpetuates, generation, after generation.

Those on the outside, looking in, who may or may not be attached to energies of physical body, or that of the world, do not experience amnesia. They experience the birth, the life including all traumas, and death x millions, world-wide … and they remember it all. There are some who cry tremendous tears for they cannot seem to stop the experience, and try as they might to bring peace to a troubled world, people keep hurting each other, and they keep experiencing this trauma with no relief, or forgetfulness to dull the pain.

The ending of pain is a choice humanity must make, conscious, aware choice … and then act upon it. I have faith that this is possible, and will be the end result, for I see the shift happening everywhere I look.

Often I find that myself, and those around be, are immersed in a very personal game of “Mind Charades” … when will we be totally honest and transparent, telling it like it is, to those we meet, and most importantly, to our self. Looking deep into ones own mind is the toughest thing a person can do, and also the most courageous.

Seeing The Bigger Picture, How High Does An Eagle Fly?

Published December 15, 2018 by tindertender

It is obvious to most by now that many, many secrets have been kept from public awareness. There is an energy shift happening which is allowing the opening of minds, and a knowledge which was hidden is coming into view on a much larger scale than before.

Why did John Kerry go to Antarctica? There’s not supposed to be anything there. Why did a representative of the Pope go to Antarctica? Were they there to receive direct instruction from this non-existent source?

America … not mentioned in the Bible. It seems the founding fathers chose to create a new future, one in which people could be whatever they chose to be, getting inspiration and strength directly from God … a free people.

Why aren’t companies like Amazon, and Google getting together with the power companies to insulate the power grid? You would think they would, since they make billions of dollars doing business through the grid. Are they thinking they’ll just collect their money and when the grid goes down they’ll be one of the very wealthy entities who will rebuild after humanity takes each other out during the ensuing suffering and chaos which will happen right after grid failure?

Monsignor Balducci is a Vatican theologian and an insider close to the Pope. He has been featured on national Italian television numerous times stating that extraterrestrial contact is a real phenomenon and “not due to some psychological impairment.” Here is a link for ‘traditioninaction’.

Perhaps there really is a way to regenerate the human cell, promoting a youthful body for a very long time. Do you suppose we’ll ever be told the truth?

Many say to “See as the Eagle does”, but just how high does the eagle fly? Is there such a thing as too high? Is there such a thing as a mind too open? How many things written as science fiction are not fiction at all? It is clear we cannot trust those who have been hired to represent the country. Will we stand and represent our self? Will we determine that which we allow into our minds, and demand to know the truth which has been pointedly hidden from us?

Destiny, Fate, Or Passive Acceptance?

Published December 6, 2018 by tindertender

Is destiny a real thing? If people knew their fate, or where their actions were going to take them, do you suppose they would work toward shifting possibility? Do you think people would show their authentic self if they truly believed their actions mattered for their continuing journey after physical life? I don’t think so, for they would live fearful about being punished and would bury their heart in lies, they would pretend to be good boys and girls … do you think this is what has happened?

There are Parallel Universes, or levels in the world. Where does this physical reality, as we know it, fit in with other realities? How many levels are there? There are many ideas about this … are they all accurate? Is every persons perception correct for them, where they are, in their understanding at the time? I’m thinking, yes … and it is different for many people, depending on their mental position in relation to life.

I have discovered that while syncing with the energies around me, closing eyes, if I step left, it is as though I take about a half inch step down … if I step right, it is as though I take a one inch step up. While I am in physical form between these two levels, I wonder, “How many levels are there? How many more stepping downward, how many more stepping upward? Is this existence closer to the bottom of the ring, or closer to the top, or is it somewhere in the middle?”

What energetic influences are being dumped in to this reality from the neighboring parallel universes? One level down … are they influencing chaos? One level up … are they working to balance that chaos?

I am happy to know that more and more people are tuning in to their personal energy field. This is causing big shifts to happen … the cart (so to speak) is being over-turned.

It is funny (not funny haha) that Joe Biden talks about this being a “war for the soul of the country”. This “war” for the souls of people has been going on for a very long time. I find it intriguing that he actually says as much (in a twisted, semi-covert manner) in a talk he gives in plain site for everyone to see and hear. It is said that the best way to keep a secret is to put it right in front of people. Many, unfortunately, will take his words at ‘face’ value.

How can real positive change be made for the majority if there is fear of Gods judgement, or an unwillingness to ‘read between the lines’, or to really pay attention to what is happening, studying multiple situations and groups of so-called leaders.

Don’t make the mistake of swallowing the emotional pills representatives feed you when they show you people trying to storm entry into the country, saying how bad it is for them, when Americans are losing their homes and living on the streets in unprecedented numbers and children here go without food or safety. How can you save the world when you can’t, or won’t, save those in your own neighborhoods, or states, or country?

Of course we care … and this is what is being manipulated by the ones who wish to see chaos break out enmass all over the world. They foster it! They sell weapons to some, who then terrorize their own people, who then run to the country who sold their countries madmen weapons in the first place!

It is time for people to seriously ask themselves, “Who is orchestrating war, who is selling the weaponry, who is being paid to breed chaos, and who is becoming wealthy off of death, destruction, war-making and fear-mongering.”

Then ask yourselves why a Peace Project proposal has been denied by Congress (cost, $10 billion) year after year since 2001 while the military budget and capacity for war has been funded with a budget of trillions of dollars, with a several million dollar ‘boost’ over two years.

The answer? There is no frigging MONEY in peace!!!! We (in this world) are allowing evil, greedy, perverted souls to steal our lives and livelihoods. It seems many just kick back watching murder mysteries on the television … or chaotic news broadcasting, scripted and read (the very same script) on every news channel, owned by ONE group of folks, all linked through religion, or the Rothschilds.

We’re being played, have been for a very long time. Only now some are becoming aware of it, while the others are still eating it up.

I compare it to a person who used to drink and hang out in the bar, but quit. For awhile they hang out, but notice it isn’t fun to be sober around drunk people, in fact, it becomes quite disgusting. So major change happens, and that way of life gets completely left behind.

Let us hope this happens for the political/corporate arena before they kill every living thing.

Mind Open, Eyes Closed

Published December 2, 2018 by tindertender

Finally … it is 5 am and for the most part, with the exception of the snap crackle pop of fire in the fireplace, it is quiet. Last night was another story, and below is the flow which was experienced.

I woke myself, stating, “There’s a barrier of some kind”. Astral travel shows a blockage at a certain place of entry. Perhaps the barrier is thought form … Who’s? And why does it permeate mass consciousness?

What is this illusion seen? Can it be touched? If so, how does it react? Does it move, or change at all?

Bodies with Soul are larger than life, consisting of consciousness, sub-consciousness, and dream time. Life outside of body has all of these same layers. If life in body is larger than life, then life experiencing all layers at the same time is as well, or more so. Who is this barrier affecting? All life in all its forms?

Is this barrier a thought form, or an illusion? Is it a mass hypnosis of a sort? Is it tangible? Can human thought form change the properties of this ‘illusion’? In combo with mass life, can it’s properties be altered?

In the land of thought form, am I also a thought form? If so, who is dreaming me?

Your presence has power, in that it causes chaos in the human nervous system … your intention may not be that, but it happens none the less. How to adjust so this connection is more gentle? How can the goodness in mind be amplified rather than paranoia or taught and trained fear?

See the barrier, see it change.

Maybe the energetic flow is going the wrong direction.

What if the magnetic flow of Toroidal Energy is going the wrong direction? What if the flow causes a closing of connection to all that is outside, in the unseen? What if this flow, when reversed, opens avenues to information and connection previously impossible? Which direction gives open flow and open mind?—dynamic-flow-process

“We are all part of this world … the seen, and the unseen. I would like to see turmoil end, for it affects ALL parts of life.

Previously I hypothesized that perhaps those in the unseen world were not only fully conscious and aware, but inhabit the subconscious as well as the dream time humans experience. Maybe it is true that being fully conscious, they do not have access to what humans term subconscious, and since they do not sleep, perhaps they have no access to dream time either … unless they connect to humanity … but in doing so often find the human nervous system is overwhelmed, becoming chaotic and sometimes violent.

I had (currently) concluded that in the dream state, or subconscious state, or even the meditative state is where the barrier(s) are seen. I’m wondering if those who have transitioned to the other side of this seen life, not having access to dreams, or subconscious levels, cannot see these barriers, or manipulate them. Perhaps this is why some of them feel as though they are trapped.

In their frustration I ask them, “Please do not argue. See the barrier, see it shift”.

Beliefs are limitations, however they can also be used to break free of limitation. Thought forms are applied both ways, chosen once aware of their power. If you believe the one you are for is me, or anyone else, then you haven’t given yourself credit.

Perhaps we can shift this into another frame of mind, yet maybe we shouldn’t. That may be part of the issue, for everything is in frames or boxes, which create barriers for change. The box, or frame, is accompanied by a one track mind. Eliminate the frame, or box, and recognize there are many paths.

Part of the experience of being in body, walking this earth, is learning that no one can do anything for you that you are not willing to do for yourself. For a time, it may appears as though force works … overall, it does not. Rather than focusing on the strengths of others, take responsibility for growing capacity for your own strengths. Be fluid in movement and thought. Flow, do not force. Force will be met with force, flow will be met with flow.

Perhaps this is true, perhaps it is not. For me, currently, it is true.

Shhh ….. frustration and anger are inhibiting factors, release them.

I go quiet for a moment and a phrase from a song plays in my mind. “We’re all sensitive people, with so much to give”. Although this was the only phrase of the song which came to mind as message, my mind took off and listened to the whole song on its own … one of my favorites.

“STOP”, he says. I ask, “Will you please explain to me why I should stop trying to make peace with what is happening in my mind?

I closed my eyes and saw what appeared to be a lightning strike, only it was just light, flowing through the synapses of my mind.

“We’ll handle this”, he says. “It would be helpful”, I reply.

There are certain barriers of the mind which should not be trespassed, likewise, if it is a barrier to greater mind, you should not trespass. Even though I would like to help you move past, I will not, for it is trespass. It must be a willing exchange of allowance, and the barrier clearly states it is not a willing exchange.

It could be you are trying to enter through the wrong gate. Look for other points which are not barricaded, maybe one of those will be the entry you need.

The interconnectedness of all that is, in all realms, is incredible. Acknowledgement of these facets of life is essential for growing peace … on the earth plane, and beyond. I can only imagine the frustration of those unseen and unheard by most as they try to improve their conditions, and their situation.

Filling Up and Filing Away ~ Life’s Exposures

Published November 26, 2018 by tindertender

What does it mean to be so full of the goodness of life? The best word to describe it may be everything … to be everything, or to be the ALL. The ALL has been split into pieces and spaced out along a time-line.

Memories, being linear allow us to look back along the time-line and feel the intensity of experienced love, anger, hate, forgiveness, joy, sadness, depression and fear as well as courage.

I’m thinking at the end of this road the beginning and the ending of this time-line will curl around and touch ends … and the spiral of experience will begin again … moving up a notch to the next level.

I am the ALL, immersed in the ALL, experiencing the ALL. Sounds insane! But nevertheless, true. At times it is clear this life is experienced as a ‘walking oxy-moron’.

I want to be nice because it feels nice … no other reason. If it feels good …

For many years now I have described my accumulative experience and knowledge as the ‘massive library of my mind’. It has been obvious I do not have access to every row or shelf of this massive library at any given time. Curious how it has never occurred to me until this moment that this library is the Akashic Records. The mind can’t remember all things at once because it periodically downloads the information into the ‘cloud’ known as the Akashic Records, making space for new experience.

What does it mean when the unseen become part of your Akashic Record? How can multiple entities become intertwined with the lifeline, and if they do, do they remain so for every lifeline which follows?

Humans have a tendency to underestimate everything. In all subjects, all ways, for all time. It’s really quite sad.

I have responsibility but am not a slave to responsibility … or am I?

How do you account for decades and centuries in 5,000 year chunks of time? Perhaps time really IS infinite.

If a switch was flipped and ALL people could hear each other’s thoughts, the whole of humanity in this world would implode, or explode … that would be the end of most of them. I envision them with hands to temples bent at the knees and back, screaming about the twilight zone. Imagine the (comparatively) few who have currently survived this scenario … and the many who have not.

Perhaps this is what will happen in the near future. The switch will be flipped, the human body being mostly water, full of heavy metal, has become a super conductor. When electromagnetic frequency is directed at the body, it will NOT be pretty. There will be massive damage to all life. Much more than we’ve seen yet.

I guess the time for diplomacy is over. Let us hope this body survives, and if not, let us hope it is renewed.

Thousands of studies link low-level wireless radio frequency radiation exposures to a long list of adverse biological effects.

~ Millimeter and Submillimeter waves are biologically active
~ 5G frequencies are used in weapons

”There is an urgent need to evaluate 5G health effects now, before millions are exposed. We need to know if 5G increases the risk of skin disease such as melanoma or other skin cancers,” stated Ron Melnick, the National Institutes of Health scientist, now retired, who led the design of the National Toxicology Program study on cell phone radio frequency radiation.

Theory vs Reality

Published November 16, 2018 by tindertender

How many ‘theories’ have been proven as ‘reality’ throughout time?

As we age, thought processes and belief systems change, sometimes just as drastically as our physical appearance. Considering ‘you’ of ten years ago you may be hard pressed to see yourself there … Foods disliked are now liked or rigid beliefs may have had a shift.

Often we are told the far out and unbelievable are only conspiracies spread by those who do not know any better. We do know now that for decades there has been in place employees who intentionally spread disinformation so that those who try to get the word out about some things are slandered, even by those too afraid to look at the information themselves, preferring to remain naive.

In order for the plan of chaos to work properly, people must be led to believe all allegations are false. Many people just need to be told what to think or believe, and if it sits well within their safe zone, they’ll fight to make it as real as they are told it is. They will attack anyone who puts the illusion at risk.

Too many times it has been proven that different representatives are basically the same, if not at the start, then by the end. Citizens do not want to believe their representatives would lie to them … sadly, many do not want to admit the truth.

Those who speak of chemtrails or geoengineering, or the use of HARRP technology for weather manipulation are slandered and attacked. Some of the attackers are they who refuse to have their comfort zone altered, others, are hired to start the attack, to work up a crowd who refuse to consider possibilities.

At first those who tried to warn people were attacked, but more and more people became suspicious. The claim that the particles sprayed into ‘prolonged contrails’ were being used to confuse tracking devices, or block out the sun was included in the conversations. We can see deniers turned into sharing ‘partial’ truths, just enough truth combined with falsehood to confuse people about the reality. Still, it is easier to have a conversation about ‘cloud seeding’ than ‘prolonged contrails’ with most people. Its easier to attack, dismiss, and forget what some are trying to share.

We live in a world that is for the most part detached from reality. In the comfort of schedules and normalcy relaxation takes over the mind and outside influences ignored.

It is almost the year 2019. Let us hope that whoever takes office in 2020 with put the brakes on and work toward regenerating community in country shared the world over, rather than further division. With division all will be lost, all of it. We should know the direction it’ll go by 2021. Although I’m fairly certain now, and have been since 2015, I still have hope.

Let the ‘theory’ and ‘prediction’ of yore be found to be just that … theory. May ‘reality’ bring us peace and harmony in a world on the mend.

“Bowing to the wild intelligence of your life force, and choosing to respond to the deepest wisdom of your soul, is no longer merely an opportunity for growth, it is the global imperative upon which cultural transformation depends.” – Clare Dubois

39205 Collaboration

Published October 18, 2018 by tindertender


This morning as I opened my eyes a number presented itself, 39205, as well as the word ‘collaboration’. Below is an article from 2010 for the “Oklahoma Water Quality Management and the BACTERIA AND TURBIDITY TOTAL MAXIMUM DAILY LOADS FOR THE RED RIVER, OKLAHOMA” which is the first thing I came across when I plugged the number in to google.

5.7 Reasonable Assurances
“ODEQ will collaborate with a host of other state agencies and local governments working within the boundaries of state and local regulations to target available funding and technical assistance to support implementation of pollution controls and management measures. Various water quality management programs and funding sources provide reasonable assurance that the pollutant reductions as required by these TMDLs can be achieved and water quality can be restored to maintain designated uses.”

Does anyone believe they have made good on the claims of these documents?

I have been mocked because I post things such as this, told I have no understanding. Some of the things I speak of, it is true, I do not understand, but I DO receive messages about them. So I hope that by posting about it, someone out there WILL understand the meaning of the message, and perhaps know what action to take.

THIS is where collaboration comes in. If the citizens of the world do not act together, pooling their knowledge for the betterment of the whole, the world will continue to suffer.

Those who would rather spend their time and effort ‘mocking’ people, have no part in the healing needing done, or in the peace that must be made, with each other, and with the planet.

Below is another site that came up under “39205”. It is about molecular characterization and evolution of a gene family encoding both female and male specific reproductive proteins, among other things. These things are that which the average person, or the nightly news does not ever touch on. I have been given this number for the purpose of bringing attention to certain issues, and so I post about them here.

This number is also linked to:
39205 Aldrich

Catalogue of Life Management Hierarchy

I am certain there are scientists an biologists who will know right away what these things mean. There very well could be others who have a completely different take on what this number means, and where collaboration may need to occur.

This is an invitation to research and combine knowledge, in conjunction with those in Spirit who wish to assist the planet, and life upon it.

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