All posts tagged Endurance

We All Do It

Published March 9, 2018 by tindertender

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All people live life while trying to determine future events. We walk around dreaming up scenarios for this and for that, imagining all different possibilities. No one knows for certain what will happen to them, or to anyone for that matter, yet try to figure it out anyhow.

A waste of precious energies … rather than spending time on the here and now, so much of thought is spent on these waking ‘dreams’. Lured here by others who tell us “you have no idea what is going to happen …”. They are right, and rather than allow them to lead thought down a road of guessing, delve deep into a subject in the present moment.

The future is not a threat. It is a field of limitless possibilities. All too easy it is, to get trapped in a box of fear, shrinking when thinking of possible hazards. It amazes me how the mind always attempts to go there, rather than positive results which could be, when appropriate actions are put into place.

Paranoia, fear, negative expectation … whatever you call it, it is theft in action, a robbery of possible joy which can be created now.

Every human has the ability to gather these emotions, these energetic impulses, and re-apply them to something else, somewhere else. For instance, if fear or anger crop up, start counting the things in which you are grateful for … the air, water, music, poetry, breathing, food, flowers, etc. There is so much to be grateful for … as this list grows in your mind, you’ll find a shift takes place. Now fear and anger shrink, and hope and beauty grow, all due to your conscious application of thought.

This power is yours, always has been. No one is subject to anything … the power of the mind can transport a person anywhere. So yes, while I have no idea what is going to happen to me, I dream of peaceful tomorrows, and joy filled todays. I will never give up on that thought, it will never be replaced by gloom … for this is what I wish to create, and with every breath I take, I will be working toward that today, and toward that tomorrow.

Stubborn ~ Willful ~ Human

Published February 12, 2018 by tindertender

From the approximate age of 4 or 5, I have been determined to make my own decisions, about what I would wear, and what I would do. I still remember the day I told my mother I would wear ‘this’ and not what she had planned for me. It snowballed from there.

Stubborn_3At the age of 15 I ‘got’ a boyfriend, who told me what to wear, what to do, and how to even wear my hair. At first I wanted to please him, but the more abusive he became, the more I hated this invisible thumb on my life, and I rebelled. He became more physical in his attempts to control me, and I fought back, intensely, having to leave town for he knew not when to stop and my very life was in danger.

This was only the beginning of understanding. You see, at first I thought it was only humankind that wanted to do manipulation, but now know that we are all just pawns, given a certain set of circumstances to test our reactions and our ability to handle stressful situations.

Stubborn_1There are others who hear not only what we say, but what we do not say as well … those thoughts we do not give audible words to. Not only that, they see our dreams as well. I know a man who thirty years ago told me he knew me better than I knew myself. I suppose it was true to a certain extent, however he still did not know my thoughts unless I told him, and he was not aware of my dreams.

These others, they know the three parts of a person, indeed, they know all about us, even those things we’ve forgotten. They know our waking verbal self, our waking non-verbal self, and our sleeping self. They watch, they listen, they discuss among each other our strengths and our weaknesses. They observe as we face our trials, and they see how we treat each other, in calm times, and in times of intense stress. Our hearts are known without any misconstrued stories.

mindful selfIn the silence of your mind are you working to build a compassionate life, or are you scheming the next steps in order to ‘pull one over’ on someone? Are you trying to be kind, or are you practicing some sort of revenge for perceived wrongs? All of these things do not go unseen, unknown.

Those who go through life without delving deep into their own being, projecting harm into the world, albeit mostly unconsciously, they will need to come back and try again, for they obviously haven’t got what it takes to merge with the whole which is in constant connection and awareness. Chaos does not work in a situation where they must be listened to at all times, not if one hopes to have a peaceful atmosphere.

And those ‘ones’ wish for peace. Which is why we face these trials. It is important to forgive, to release emotions which cause chaos in the mind and to practice calm responses and not extreme reactions which do more harm than good.

time bombJust yesterday I had to sever ties with a person who works very hard to create chaos in the world. I understand, for I was once an angry person who did the same. It is not something I choose to practice any longer though, it hasn’t been for nearly two decades. I instead wish to practice and see if I can be a person of peace, just as thoroughly as I was a person of chaos. It’s a personal challenge, and not done because ‘someone’s listening’. I honestly wish to see if I am as good at creating good with thoughts, words and actions as I was at creating harmful words, thoughts and actions.

Many people think God hears their prayers, when spoken and when thought. Yet these same people are in denial that He also hears everything else that they say and think, they believe that their actions go unseen unless they personally call in His attention. Or perhaps they think they have the freedom to behave as poorly as they wish for they ‘believe in a savior’ so have a ‘pass’ on bad behavior.

CreatorReality is, no one is without what mankind calls sin. No one. However, ALL of mankind has free will and the strength to become more than they were before, bearers of peace and healers of the world. They also have capacity to be destroyers of all that is good, and they can watch while that ‘good’ recovers and persists even through all that bullshit. Watch as true strength is seen in a continuation of forgiveness and release, watch as the sun shines down on their heads and they notice it, and relax into it. All the while chaos will stew and concoct plans for destroying this.

It is seen, observed, and discussed by those who are not seen by human eyes, by those who ultimately decided whether or not they wish to reside with us in the heavenly realms, out there in the multi-verse.

The Team

Published February 6, 2018 by tindertender

Team of One

As a youngster in school we had sports. Instructor would call out captains for the two sides who would then call out their pick for their team, one row on one side, one row on the other, huddling together as the team grew to make a group decision when their next choice came. Always, every time, I would be the last one called. No one wanted me on their team. It really hurts to be that one.

In the unseen realm there are others who watch, they determine who is who. The only difference here from before is they are unseen, and they can hear the inner workings of all mankind. It’s not about whether you play sports well, but about how sturdy the mind, how gentle the heart, how strong the will. The test is in the capacity to endure, yet maintain compassion.

For so long no one wanted me as a team member, today, I expect the same. No matter what I will continue to try, not to please others, but to test myself. Team of one, holding my own, wearing a smile that is genuine. For in trying, I have given my all, and am quite satisfied with just that. No one else need confirm or deny, whether seen or unseen, my ability … they are free to think what they like … and so am I. We are connected, anyway.

Limitless Crest & Trough

Published January 10, 2018 by tindertender

Time is spent in a wave-like movement, from crest to trough … intense connection, to a much needed disconnect. Life is more than the eye can see, the senses know it.

Swimming in a sea where worlds collide, a meshing which only some will know, yet everyone will feel. In certain light-waves, or even sound-waves, this union can be seen. As the moon pulls the tide to and fro, so too are the substances of fleshly bodies and minds, and all the fluids which flow there.

Crest & TroughThis is where I rest ~ the straight-line, the steady, just before cresting once more, or visiting the trough of the fallen wave ~ I breathe.

The intensity of the connect can throw the nervous system for a loop! Living in a body of flesh and fluid isn’t quite geared to such strong union. If only the nervous system were ~ it might be gentler on us all if we truly knew what we are part of.

Back into silence I go, dream-time is upon me. Perhaps I will receive a most important bit of information which will be allowed into the light of day.

Nonsense Making Sense

Published December 14, 2017 by tindertender

Just Ask

It doesn’t have to make sense, any of it. Those who are doing the best they are able, with care not to harm others, are bathing in honor. This invisible bath often goes unrecognized by the bather, and unmentioned by those who notice it.

Often times when good deeds are seen, they are not commented on, for when too much attention is given to them, those who do little, look bad. (Now) and when I was younger I would come into a job and work so hard. I was fast and accurate, giving 110% and put all of my focus and ability to whatever task was at hand, always pushing myself. A co-worker once drew me aside and told me to slow down, that I was making the group look bad. I thought silently that this was just the way it would be, for I did not have it in me to be less, so that others, resting in this mode, would look better. I still don’t.

There are many people who are comfortable in a state of mediocrity. They want to put forth minimal effort while reaping the reward for success. The issue with this, is that while less is being done, more people need to be hired, hence, there goes opportunity for wage increases and promotion. Hard work is beneficial to all who are willing to team up and get it done.

All pieces of the puzzle, whichever format it may take, are crucial to the end result, none being more important than the other. So while it may sometimes make no sense at all, stepping back and looking at the larger picture, the beauty of it is apparent at all times.

It Is All Worth It

Published December 4, 2017 by tindertender

Two doors opening to star filled skies. You say you’ve never felt like this before. Surely you have, although you may not remember, for you all are like me, and I am like you. Deeply, what affects one affects all.

Unconscious consciousGracious gifts we give to each other through our experiences. Knowingly or not, every event that has impact on your life will affect every life around you. People do not even have to be in the same room, the same city, or state, or even county. It is all interconnected, WE are all interconnected.

I see you laughing, I feel your joy, I sense your heartache, your pain. I witness the battle as it is waged and I see you standing, so brave, so strong. I want to be like you, I envision a world where everyone is … fighting for peace and freedom in a new fashion, yet an old one too, reborn into a world of chaos.

I am glad you are here to teach us the ways of peace. I am thrilled to find that these threads belong to me, are present within my being. Even though we are apart, we are near, heart to heart.

Thank you for showing me how it is done. Thank you for teaching me patience. Thank you for steadfastly showing me that perseverance for a cause benefiting all, increases, blossoming and healing.

I am blessed to witness you as you breathe. I am joined to you, our roots entangled through time. As time speeds up, and then slows once more, we arrive at seasons, where we can relax, and know it was all worth it.


Gaining Traction

Published November 16, 2017 by tindertender

I drove to the gate and began speaking with the person at the other end of the speaker. I could not remember my pass code, but they knew me. They were able to pull up all information needed to inform me of exactly what I had available … relieved, I stated Thank You!, for I still have insurance and pet medicine to purchase!

There are always people with their hands out. It seems I am quite wealthy with this monetary stuff, until the medical practitioner, the pharmacist, the vet, the electric, the gas, the cable and the phone company take their share. Let us not forget the food for human and pets, the toiletries and water and housing. It all leaves very little for personal hobbies and for gas … to drive back and forth to work, to earn another round of wages.

Escaping Gilded Cage
Many people are attempting to leave this ‘system’, purchasing land, building an economical home, investing in solar energy and composting toilets, growing their own organic foods … yet we hear of counties which confiscate this land, prohibiting people from dwelling in their newly created homes and enjoying their chosen lifestyle. We hear of counties who prohibit folks from utilizing their grassy yards for gardens to grow their own organic foods, we see people criminalized for collecting rain water. Indeed, it appears there is a great desire to keep us contained within our gilded cages.

“I’m getting through it”, I said to her, as she lowered her voice and spoke to me in a manner that seemed apologetic. I looked into the voice box, smiled, and asked her to Have a great day.

Despite everything this invisible society does, we still have the option of smiling, pushing forward, prevailing through it all. Giving up is a choice, and a sometimes a very much needed rest while thoughts and energies are gathered for another shot at this thing called life. There have been times, where to an outsider (which all are, for they cannot be within our minds) may have thought I have given up, seeing me spinning my wheels, and then coming to a stop, wallowing in self abuse for a time. But then, traction and a desire for something more took place.

This journey is indeed quite difficult, but none of us arrived here with less than needed to push through and reach for the stars. It definitely will seem as though that is a false statement at times, however when looking back, you’ll see how far you’ve come, how many obstacles you’ve hurdled. The question is, are you letting these trials steal your joy?

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