It seems most days many acquaintances don’t have anything to say. No information to share, no advice to offer, no assistance in solving complications.
Frustration arises as a tired mind takes in this … this situation which has transpired into ‘normalcy’. This is a difficult realization for one who has never rested in ‘normal’, especially when it appears as this is a seemingly one-sided reality. Alone, yet surrounded by an incalculable figure of other life.
Observation and experience screams this is SO unhealthy!
Every once in a while this life gifts situations that cause a desire to drop everything and leave it all behind. The need to ‘purge’ becomes strong. It will not be denied … how much time remains for the old, is yet to be seen.
There is at least one more major shift waiting … it calls, it pulls strongly.
It is amazing how the human struggles, or at least provides resistance to change. The older one gets, the clearer it becomes that to resist change is futile … change is going to happen regardless if one holds to the past/present or embraces the future … it is a river, getting into the flow can be a challenge.
It is not always easy being nice. The more frustrated a person gets with the current the testier they may become.
Imagine having to spend time in a home where people continually talk to each other about you … not caring that you are right there listening. Imagine telling them to zip it, but they pretend to not hear you and they keep talking to each other, ignoring your repeated statements as if you are a ghost who left an unforgettable memory behind, and folks just can’t seem to stop discussing it.
The pit of the stomach turns as the desire to leave them all to themselves arises. Is this an opportunity to practice emotional alchemy? Transmuting lower vibratory thought patterns into something more beneficial? What a challenge! Is this the time to practice manifestation?
Dream a new dream … build a new life.
Thieves and crooks, stealing wages in taxation, stealing attention by creating unending drama, siphoning energy from people and never leaving anything beneficial behind. This cannot be allowed. It will not be permitted. Sooner or later that ‘power grab’ shall be stifled.
Here I am, riding the wave.
The whole wide world is FREE,
and I’ve got a hole in my heart.
After deep reflection over life, it is amazing how beautiful and intense and vibrant all aspects of it have been! These deep reflections have been occurring quite a bit lately. This ‘review’ reminds me of what people say the end of life review is like … except I plan on being around for a very long time yet … so, this is indeed strange.
Since everything in life has an equal in strength opposing pole, then that means those who love intensely are capable of the equal in intensity, opposing pole. Likewise, those who despise everything with an indescribable intensity are capable of the opposing swing of its opposite, equally intense.
But … but … I only want to Love! Why must that experience swing to the other end? If the pendulum swing slows, will the intensity also lessen? It seems we cannot have both. Are the down-times worth the up-times? Will they be equal in duration as well as intensity? Does anyone ever have a long duration love with minimal down swings?
Temptation … I can’t resist. This is no ordinary Love.
How many are there?
How do we reconcile?
When a beautiful song comes on, I find that my eyes want to leak. All my life I just wanted to be in love, and be loved in return. It seems this is a universal desire among people … even among the animals. Common ground among ALL life.
It’s not all candy and ice cream … some times it gets a little sour.
Is reality a degradation, or an expansion? It can be difficult to tell, for both require a tearing down of what currently is, making it into a was … so the new can be.