She found herself drowning, hard to breathe. It felt as though water had filled her lungs as it poured from her eyes and dripped from her nose. She couldn’t fathom where it was all coming from, she didn’t even care ~ she just wanted it to stop, to dry up.
The whole world sat atop her shoulders and she just could not carry it any longer … it was so heavy, it was crushing her. She crawled along the baseboard of the room, feeling her way to bed, for she could not see anymore.
Curled into a ball she begged for release and none was given. She must learn to rise above this, to surf this ocean of waves. How does one float when fear of water is present, how does one swim when strength was never built?
She takes a deep breath and wills her body to stop leaking, she insists her mind obey when she says Be Still. After a time all is silent, empty, dull and void ~ It is finally quiet.
She resolves herself to pick up the shattered craft that is her intellect, her peace. She will make it through this storm, and she will carry what remains of memory into the unknown, using it to assist her in endurance and patience, she will harness this pain and create compassion from it, for self … and for those who gifted her with it.
Determination grows stronger within her, her will increases … not in stubbornness, but in a sure capability to continue on.
I lay my head on his shoulder after I give him a visual on how people treat each other, and I sob. I cry out from deep within my heart an all encompassing sorrow, for I see, and tell of, the great disconnect between people in the world. One after the other ‘scams’ to gain while knowing full well it depletes someone else. This life is not about simply living, but how great we live. Doing well while others suffer is not greatness, it is the most heartbreaking cause of grief … watching people destroy one another, seeing the lack of care.
There are those who harm the ones calling forth the light. Holistic practitioners, judges, whistle blowers, all who will not stand for law breaking and who cannot be bought off. Women (and men) who refuse to bend to the will of a tyrant, children who refuse to allow their inner light be stripped from them, no matter the brutality bestowed upon their being, are harmed, even killed, daily.
Yes, the ones in the shadows believe that by stepping up their cruelty they will be able to get those living in love, with great integrity inside them, to shrink.
“The city of Dickinson, Texas, is requiring applicants for Hurricane Harvey rebuilding funds to certify in writing that they will not take part in a boycott of Israel. The American Civil Liberties Union criticized the city’s condition as a violation of free speech rights.”
Saying good-bye is never easy. Even when we leave behind situations that are painful, it still requires an adjustment, for pain, too, is something which can be missed once gone.
Every relationship, every situation, is for a reason. It may be that some knowledge of current, must be brought forth into future endeavors. Usually, if paid heed and utilized correctly, this new knowledge can be beneficial to all involved.
Grow. Never stop adding to the learning adventure. Stretch your comfort zone, move beyond what you may see as your capacity. There is always room for something greater. You have so much to offer, and while others offer their own experiences for lessons, you can do the same for them.
Your life is valuable, your knowledge is perfect and when used for good can shift the world view and path toward the outcome of peace and compassion. The seeming negatives, which undoubtedly have been yours, are teaching tools. For others, and also for self. Moving beyond the pain they may have caused, increases care for self, and for all in the world.