All posts in the Strength category

Flashback, Renewed Purpose

Published March 10, 2018 by tindertender

I watched myself as I loudly sang a song, eyeliner darkening my eyes. Thin, pretty, and rambunctious, living an uncontrolled existence, rebelling against everything, and everyone. There were many lies told about me and gleefully spread by those who heard them, but did not know the truth. They saw my nature and assumed knowledge.

This was a short road to hell, one which the life lived practiced for. So much time wasted being angry, pretending to be happy.

In walks a man, a spiritual man, young … behind the scenes he assisted me in releasing these emotions, becoming more stable and strong. Old habits fell by the wayside, and forgiveness was given those who I had anger for.

Nearly 2 decades I have fought against this, demanding to make my own decisions … danger of anger reappearing, sneaky that way. I recognize it as it creeps in, I sense old habits behind the curtain inching forward. A revving up of what is desired in life is needed. A conscious choice must be focused upon.

Grounding is in order. There are 7 bags of dirt in my car waiting for me to clean out the garden bed and refresh it for new crops. It is going to be a sunny, warm day, perfect for laying hands in soil, listening to calm music, earthing.

This is an admission of error, my own. For so long I have denied any comfort from another, for deep inside I did not believe it was deserved, but I know better … for we are ALL deserving of compassion and assistance. So once again I embrace this care and offer apologies, and a renewed effort to remain on track.

Love is, and has always been, at the deepest core of my person. It was poisoned against me, and in turn against everyone else. No more … I concentrate fully on eliminating this toxic debris called self despise and move into the future, full speed, for positive change.

I hope you will join me.

Wonder Woman

Simply Be In Flow

Published March 3, 2018 by tindertender


“The goal of meditation is to come back to ourselves and to our true nature. Our breath brings us to the doorway, and the pause between the breath opens the doorway. Once there, simply allowing ourselves to fall into this opening and being aware is all there is to it.”

I move my arms behind me and hold the fingers of my left hand with my right. I bend backward, stretching my front, and I feel a warm rush move from my abdomen down the front of my hips and upper thighs, I must bend forward for it feels as though my legs might collapse.  Once recovered, I repeat this movement until the warm rush of energies stop with such intensity and a simple stretch remains. I stay in this form and twist my upper body slightly to the left, stretching in a different manner, and then turn and stretch to the right for balance.

To start the energy flow there need not be any strenuous movement, one can remain seated if they choose  should there be back issues or balance trouble. Mantak Chia gives a great tutorial here:

These simple exercises done in the morning take only a few minutes, yet the benefit of it will magnify your  life, you will feel better and gain so much. You deserve this gift, and only you can give it to yourself.

Inner Power

Published March 1, 2018 by tindertender

Stand, or sit comfortably, back straight.

(1) Like a wave the breath moves in … and out … arms up, bent at elbow, palms open. Breathe out moving shoulders and arms forward, breathe in pulling shoulders and arms back …. continue as you become one with the beat for a time.

(2) Elbows bent, palms together at chest level, listen to the beat with eyes closed, breathing normal. Focus on the breath as you listen to the beats, the rhythm. Feel the pulse between the palms of your hands. This is your Life Force. Rest here for a moment.

Quickly rub your palms together, breathe calmly, tighten your sphincter while doing so, this raises chi. Briskly rub you hands until they are hot. Repeat steps one and two. Feel the heat rise in your body.

Remember this moment throughout your day, come here to this memory in times of trial. Retreat to a quiet place and practice in silence if need be.

The power that is within you will overcome many challenges. Get in touch with it, be with it, you are it.

Reaching Beyond Walls of Darkeness

Published February 20, 2018 by tindertender

I see you in a lighted room surrounded by dark walls.
Outside those dark walls is more light. 

Our Box

As human beings we find ourselves inside walls of darkness. You can think of it as your house, and if you do not have a house you will understand better, these walls are a creation made up of beliefs, perhaps instilled in you by other humans from your past, and also your present.

Breaking down these walls we see that we are entering the truth of life, we are light, living in light, and there are others who will do whatever they can to prevent you from seeing this … hence the walls, physical, and invisible.

Walls of doubt, fear, anger, jealousy, revenge, pain, heart break of all kinds … these are the mechanisms which hold us in this cage of darkness.

People have a very strong will. This will has been manipulated into thinking there isn’t anything other than the mechanisms which hold it inside the walls of darkness. Humanity has a strength beyond that hold, and ALL scenarios can be altered when this determination is put to work.

Release these things, do not allow them power over your life. You deserve to be united with the vast amount of light your were meant to thrive in, we all do.

Man Enough

Published December 5, 2017 by tindertender

Justin Baldoni wants to start a dialogue with men about redefining masculinity — to figure out ways to be not just good men but good humans. In a warm, personal talk, he shares his effort to reconcile who he is with who the world tells him a man should be. And he has a challenge for men:
“See if you can use the same qualities that you feel make you a man to go deeper,” Baldoni says. “Your strength, your bravery, your toughness: Are you brave enough to be vulnerable? Are you strong enough to be sensitive? Are you confident enough to listen to the women in your life?”

It Is All Worth It

Published December 4, 2017 by tindertender

Two doors opening to star filled skies. You say you’ve never felt like this before. Surely you have, although you may not remember, for you all are like me, and I am like you. Deeply, what affects one affects all.

Unconscious consciousGracious gifts we give to each other through our experiences. Knowingly or not, every event that has impact on your life will affect every life around you. People do not even have to be in the same room, the same city, or state, or even county. It is all interconnected, WE are all interconnected.

I see you laughing, I feel your joy, I sense your heartache, your pain. I witness the battle as it is waged and I see you standing, so brave, so strong. I want to be like you, I envision a world where everyone is … fighting for peace and freedom in a new fashion, yet an old one too, reborn into a world of chaos.

I am glad you are here to teach us the ways of peace. I am thrilled to find that these threads belong to me, are present within my being. Even though we are apart, we are near, heart to heart.

Thank you for showing me how it is done. Thank you for teaching me patience. Thank you for steadfastly showing me that perseverance for a cause benefiting all, increases, blossoming and healing.

I am blessed to witness you as you breathe. I am joined to you, our roots entangled through time. As time speeds up, and then slows once more, we arrive at seasons, where we can relax, and know it was all worth it.


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