Photo by Emily Goodhart
Abundance calls for giving, and that is what I did. I brought gifts for her, and him … I was told to be careful, or his wife would get jealous … I looked at her and gave her smile and a hug and asked that she not do that.
I remember the days when this would would happen to me … I would be suspicious of people when they were ‘too nice’. And so when I heard this it made me sad, for when people cannot accept genuine care without hooks or need of return, then the world becomes a sad and lonely place, suspicious of everyone and everything … essentially, what you see today.
I understand what is happening for I’ve worn the shoes of both aspects. I’ve been jealous, and yet I long to give, no strings attached. Jealousy usually comes from insecurity, in having the need for love, and not exactly trusting in that love.
When someone comes along with gifts and a smile, it doesn’t necessarily mean anything other than you’ve finally met someone who wishes to share and make life a little better. Someone who, by their actions, wishes to assist in the improvement of life in the whole of the world.
It can be difficult to trust when there has been so much hurt given. Shutting out kindness not only shuts out possibility for more hurt, but it closes the door to friendship, to care, to the ‘lifting’ of each other.
We must shed past habits of defense, to embrace sharing and caring, giving of ourselves to each other without strings … it’s the only way to heal.
Not everything is an attempt at theft … often, it is only an attempt of giving … receiving can be so hard.
“Humans are addicted to the illusion of separation. We fall for it constantly. We must protect ourselves from harm, but we are not separate from the fate of others. We are bound, relentlessly so, to one another. Harm to one is harm to the whole.”