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Hidden Messages Of Mind

Published March 14, 2018 by tindertender

subconsciousIt never ceases to amaze me how my defenses stir, even when there is really no reason for it. First defense, then embarrassment and a desire to close the self down to certain situations. As I notice these energies in my mind and body  I find that there is a shift, quickly from one to the other, even to something like shame … which is weird.

When intention to share stems from a beautiful and loving space of the heart and finds itself faced with different formats … I hesitate to call it rules and regulations … but different structures, a feeling of not belonging, of being out of place, of separateness arises, even when the differences are subtle.

Here I thought I was doing quite well, yet this experience teaches me that in order to move forward I must allow myself to be exposed, and be open to learning new things without judgement. It is true, we are our own worst critic (although some would deny this). I am happy these emotions have shown themselves, for this allows me to further my personal work.

Remaining open can be quite difficult when the instinct is to shut down, turn tail and run. It is really a very interesting thing that is happening in my mind, so I’ll observe it and work with it and see where it leads.

War & Peace

Published March 10, 2018 by tindertender

I’ve said many times and truly believe that war will never bring peace. Yet when I look to the galaxy and the universe and beyond, I remember being told about the way planets are born, stars are destroyed, galaxies birthed and so on.

big-bang

This explosion of stars, constant reconstruction … is this the equivalent to wars on earth? If so, would life cease if chaos no longer existed? It seems destruction is necessary for the birthing of something new, for change to take place.

Perhaps world wide love and compassion are not possible after all. But oh how I wish it were … and so I will continue to live life to the best of my ability in order to align with this desire.

Odd, how these moments of silence give way to possibilities. Who needs television anyway?

Faulty DNA?

Published February 24, 2018 by tindertender

It is said that God made man in His image. It is also said that the world was destroyed, for no man was without sin, and then repopulated. It is also theorized that extraterrestrials have altered the DNA of humanity throughout history, several times, to get what you now see today.

genetics-studies-dna-molecules-among-other-concepts

We are still incapable of caring for each other fully.
We still hurt and maim one another.

Perhaps we are truly under the influence of one who hates us with a passion and works very hard to manipulate us, so that we end all life.

Or … perhaps there is something wrong with the ‘base’ DNA used for the creation of mankind.

I know many people who work very hard at being nice, at being caring to others … this takes quite the effort. I believe all humanity has a dark side that must be acknowledged and brought into awareness, only then can a conscious decision be made about what we will choose to be, what we will gift the world.

As I consider these things, I will also look once more deep within myself. I will be aware of the energies I put into the world and do my utmost to remain in the present moment, aware of my every action and phrase. It can be quite difficult as the many forms of ‘news’ come my way. It is very easy to get caught up in things, near and far.

My daily practice, all day.

Human Analogy

Published February 17, 2018 by tindertender

I hadn’t checked the mail today, and when the car alarm sounded I went outside to have a look. Walking to the mailbox I saw the neighbor in the shadows of his driveway. I asked, “Was that MY car alarm?”, to which he replied, no, it was his … very sensitive alarm.

I was also greeted by his massive Pit Bull. What a beauty!! He is over 100 pounds, thick and strong. He sniffed my shoes, my pants, I could tell he smelled by dogs on me. His owner kept calling him back, and he slowly made his way home, but not before peeing on my mailbox post for what seemed like an entire minute.

Back inside, I thought of the dogs, mine and the neighbors, and how although two or more can work it out and actually live together in somewhat peace, two neighboring dogs will tear each other apart, warring for dominance.

Dog Man

Then I thought of the world … Are humans really no better than dogs? It seems so, the way countries try to out weaponize each other, doing everything they can to be a bigger threat. One country and one race over another, men over women, among many other examples … push back from those stepped upon, pushed down, abused, used … trying to survive.

I shake my head as this realization sinks in.

Living Without Strings

Published January 22, 2018 by tindertender

Argument has it … it never ends. It is a pity the way compromise of a sort can never be made. Back and forth they go … it is as though one has to convince the other of their point of view. I do not know why they can’t just say to each other, “I respect your views, and here are mine. Now let us move forth into progression of a kind.” But no, spinning, spinning, spinning … minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day, year after year, it never ends. I am sorry for this … I do not think I’ve caused it, but then perhaps I do not know. Maybe the simplest of things has gotten skewed by my own contribution, however that continues to show up. It changes, frequently.

I close my eyes and am still for a moment …

It very well could be all of the tentacles of the past which has inundated my journey are twisting what started as something so beautiful into a mess. Releasing the binds that have formed knots in this life, in this heart and mind, is not an easy task. There are no teachers, only experience. It is a short life … will there be time sufficient to complete the smoothing of thought?

I feel as though I should apologize, yet I do not know exactly what I’ve done wrong. I can theorize, there are plenty who will offer their opinions on where I’ve erred. It seems this is the easiest thing for folks to do … yet I continue to look deep and hard into my heart. Who am I? There are many answers, so many possibilities, so many truths. A well rounded experiencer of light … of shadow … of joy … and of pain. It is all true, every reaction, every response to an outside event or occurrence, was me … in the moment. And I have changed immensely over time.

Time ~ the clock keeps ticking, going round and round. It will stop, indeed, it stops for many every moment, every day, and someday it will stop for me too. I am curious, where on the wheel of time I will be when I arrive in a timeless state. I wonder if all experiences will conglomerate into one big ball of energy, which would be the new me. Will my spirit be able to handle all of it? It is a good question, for the nervous system of the human body can only take small portions of this grand reality at once, before a fissure erupts in the psyche.

Some call it madness, some call it a gift. Few can lead one through it, even fewer survive it. So here we are, floundering in a vast sea of awareness that was not here before. Embracing the unknown is a difficult task for fear is a substantial staple in this land, perhaps in many lands.

Twisted shadows in twisted minds hide in plain sight. Seeing the whole from the inside is difficult, impossible even. The only way is to step out of the box, turn around, and truly see. Death may occur, it often does but once seen, life will never be the same. Explaining to someone, anyone, impossible, for we can only comprehend what we’ve experienced, no more, as much as we’d wish to.

So yes, this journey is a solo one. There really is no one who can travel this path the way you can, the way I can. We have come equipped for a certain amount of tension, the skill is in keeping just taut enough, so we do not go limp, or snap into pieces. Like balancing a pencil on its tip, gently moving it in any direction to maintain its uprightness, this is our life.

Live without strings. You’ll be glad you took time to develop fortitude.

Is It Really You?

Published January 21, 2018 by tindertender

What shall I say to you? You are near but you do not understand. The flow is quite complex! How can one possibly dwell in one place, yet live in another? A dilemma misunderstood by many.

Hand and sand

Some of us do not have a choice, it just is. Which brings a question, “Is there such a thing as freedom?”. Certainly systems can be shut down but is this the wisest thing to do?  Is true freedom having knowledge and experience which surpasses what is thought of as ‘normal’?

When people are faced with an unknown, fear can develop, and there may be a closing down … it can be painful to remain open. But you know this already.

On the other side of time is a soul lived in varying aspects  of itself, revolving through childhood, adult and elder phases? Are there highs and lows, a speeding up and a slowing down, a rising and a falling?

Like a wave,
As an orbit,
In and out of season.

Is there light combined with night or is it all the same, constant, never changing? I don’t really want to know, yet I do.

Is it really you, or is it not? Things change so frequently it is hard to know. Time will tell … as soon as it ends.

Radiation Effects

Published January 16, 2018 by tindertender

Something in the air, energies of a sort … microwaves mixed in with what is natural. Hair raises, flesh tingles, mind becomes slightly agitated and it can be an effort to remain calm.

5G ~ it is a DNA changer, it is a cell disrupter. Although they have not “rolled it out” yet, it is plain they have been ‘testing’ the technology for awhile.

What do you supposed will happen to the human body when the short and mega-fast microwaves hit? We see what happens to foods in the little box sitting on most kitchen counters. When there are towers blasting these waves every tenth house, when these towers are placed every few yards in the forest, do you think the cells of all life will be disrupted? They will be, indeed they already are, and yet the manufacturers and those who stand to make ‘money’ push hard for it anyway.

Can you envision the human body literally dissolving under this barrage?

Radiation effects

“Health Effects. The various types of radiation affect the human body in different ways. … As high frequency radio frequency radiation, i.e., microwave radiation, penetrates the body, the exposed molecules move about and collide with one another causing friction and, thus, heat.”

https://www.cwa-union.org/national-issues/health-and-safety/health-and-safety-fact-sheets/microwave-and-radio-frequency

https://www.cancer.org/cancer/cancer-causes/radiation-exposure/radiofrequency-radiation.html

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4440565/

https://www.naturalhealth365.com/5G-wireless-technology-1958.html

Warning for humanity: The FCC automatically approves the use of untested frequencies

The 5G network will use higher frequency bands than previously thought possible – which are untested frequencies of 24 to 100 GHz or more.

https://www.iitk.ac.in/ibc/RadiationUnits.pdf

https://www.ccohs.ca/oshanswers/phys_agents/ionizing.html

Are we slowly cooking humanity to death?

https://www.naturalhealth365.com/0972_microwave_radiation-html.html/

EMF’s seem to disturb the human body’s own energy field which can lead to fatigue, cancer, possibly even DNA changes.

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