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The Day That Everything Changed

Published March 22, 2018 by tindertender

Wilderness River

The sun was shining. Leaning back in my lounge chair I watched the river flow, the sun glistened off the rippling current, the sound lulled my mind. It was quite warm, and amazingly there were no thoughts, I was wide open and at peace.

Connection happened just then with those I had not been aware of. I felt like a girl who had just been bestowed with attention, special somehow. I looked around me yet could not physically see the source.

That was summer of 2002. I spent over a decade trying to convince myself of what others opinions were of it, that something must be wrong with me. I drove myself batty trying to come back into the person I was, but chaos ensued … going back was / is … not possible.

For many years after 2002 there was a struggle going on, one which crushed my life. It seemed as though I was not the same person, there was no peace, only constant tug of war in mind. One thing I’ve discovered through it all is there is within me a will of iron. I survived.

Sacred Community

I met a wonderful group where I lived for 10 years after this experience. They helped me open up and to see the possibility and wonder of sacred connection. Chaos began to quiet and I sought to understand, with support from others who had a different point of view than the so called professionals I had been listening to.

I moved again 2 years ago and spent time in solitude, processing some pretty intense emotion. Again, chaos settled. I began searching for others who understand that reality is not what we may have understood it to be, it is so … much … more.

Recently I was introduced to a small group who gathers and the teachings are different and profound. I feel my head ‘pressurizing’, or shall I say, ‘depressurizing’.

Finally, 16 years later, I am so close to releasing all that rubbish and beginning again, with what is true and good and beautiful. I am closer to that day of stillness in mind than I have been since the beginning, I sense it is so near, the space of ‘no thought’. It is not a spacey frame of mind, just complete stillness, in awareness. There is a comfort there I have missed greatly.

SunflowerSoon I will meet another group of people, who celebrate union with life in a different manner than past exposure. I am being blessed with these two introductions to varying groups of people, it’s as though the time has come … to try again, to merge.

Once again this life is molding into a we consciousness. Many others feel it too, it is seen in the actions of people in all arenas of the world.

What a wonderful thing to have someone state so clearly that the mind will find millions of ways to keep a life in suffering. Sometimes, when we aren’t used to sacred connection, ‘hearing’ is difficult, although it happens just the same. The ability to process information needs fine tuning, and I at least find it easiest to sit with others who have walked the path and are able to speak in a way that is readily understood.

My perception of what a wise man once said is, “You can stand stoically alone, strong, yet you are still alone.” Community helps us to stretch boundaries more swiftly, moving beyond where we are in solitude.

Being vulnerable is difficult, yet it is also the door to freedom, truth, and acceptance. There is no need to hide from each other any more.

Ties That Tug

Published March 22, 2018 by tindertender

Spirit Man
In dreams an effort is sometimes made to diminish hope, to strip joy from the mind. The closer one comes to realizing that choosing to be happy is easy, in comes a dream with some sinister act in the attempt to convince it is not. Whether in conscious life, or in dreaming, the reality is that power is within choice and as recently affirmed, in the 100% commitment to release of that which holds us in pain cycle.

When a person who has an alcohol dependency decides not to drink any longer, there will be dreams, called using dreams, that arise. Many at first, over time they lessen and eventually go away entirely. This is the subconscious mind reminding of the matter, tempting the return to destructive behaviors. This is so of all chemical abuses.

The same is true of negativity addiction, we all have this issue. Most is an inside personal bashing of self. Breaking this habit requires effort, it took years to train for it and it can be found embedded in the deepest recesses of mind.

Spirit woman

I am relieved to know that it is quite easy to step away. It can be difficult to believe, so much of time is focused on suffering. In the past it was made clear and I believed it, yet this negativity lays traps everywhere and it is tempting to fall into the snare, although one would never call it a temptation, not unless they really saw the situation.

To remain aware of this and consistently choose to step away from that which will entangle the mind into this pain cycle is key … called the key to eternal bliss …

… thank you friend for pointing this out.

I am reminded that 100% commitment to joy is all that need be done, and I walk away from the cycle once more.

Underlying all of this is a pureness born with, that which we entered life with, before it was manipulated. It is still there waiting to be reclaimed. A person will understand their true strength when they are able to walk away from diminishing behavior and self inflicted pain and return to love. I say self inflicted for nothing has power over us but for what we give it.

Power of choice is inherent strength,
And it belongs to all people.

Slipping Out Of Their Hands Now

Published March 18, 2018 by tindertender

“Don’t listen to their threatening language, just do your thing.” 

Astral World_4

There are those who wish to use you for their own agenda. There are those who wish to stop you from being all that you can be. They see the light in your eyes and the positive energy you emit and they want to close it down, save it for when they have opportunity to manipulate it.

The scourge of the earth slinks about unseen, using others to do their dirty deeds.

Products world wide are laced with toxins. These toxins pollute the mind and body, they dull the senses and make connection difficult. Sickness comes upon people and they are so focused on the pain of it they cannot see the root cause. Doctors today treat the symptoms, rarely discussing origination of the dilemma … and the body and the mind become even more polluted than before.

And then we die, and change which we arrived to incorporate never occurs.

“Just listen … back and forth between sobbing and serious contemplation of the situation. Mind warp at its best.” But is it good enough to fool you? You decide. Will you allow your emotions to be toyed with, or will you step into your inherent power ~ that which you arrived with, that which is deep within you?



Open the door and let the light shine. Light the incense and watch the smoke rise. A bed of sand insulating the heat, aroma wafting through the air.

This is your time. There may not be much of it, use it wisely. Many of the older people did not know, being raised by another with belief that the reason for living was to simply survive. You know better.

The young have limited DNA damage caused by the poisonous market. Their bodies and minds sharp, their desires for peace potent. I consider it a blessing to see them rise and work what some call magic, but I call creation. Intense, honest, free from greed, they see the damage done to the world. They see how it is pushed onto the masses, they see right through the lies.

They are the future. YOU are the future.

Obstacle Challenge

Published March 16, 2018 by tindertender

An appointment yesterday left me with knowledge of a current health situation. Without going into detail, I will tell you, I accept this challenge.

OM – The Sound, the Vibration of the Universe, The Primordial Sound
GAM – The Seed Sound, or bija sound of Lord Ganesha
GANAPATAYE – Another name of Lord Ganesh, the one who overcomes of obstacles.
NAMAHA – I offer you my salutations, I bow to you.

I will transform this body.
I will purchase a stationary bicycle, and use it.
I will join a water aerobic class.
I will retain and gain mobilization.
I will alter my diet.
I will shed extra pounds which cause stress on the body.
I will gather with open minded people.
I will share my intention of health.
I will do whatever is needed to more fully synchronize mind and body.
I will strengthen spirit/soul.
I Am a warrior.
I will sprint to the finish line.
I will continue to affirm what I will do, and not what I won’t.
I will grow love and compassion in my mind/heart/spirit.
I will love me just as I am, and then some.
I will let this compassion for self merge with compassion for others.

This challenge I have been given wasn’t really given. I was told to go about life until I couldn’t any more and then we would look into resolution. I say NO. I will look into resolution now, when it is needed most. I have a vision embedded in my mind, and I will transform this reality into a different one … because I have that power … and it will be.

An Honest Observance

Published March 14, 2018 by tindertender

I begin the day listening to this song, and I unwind from a light sleep.

Standing sure in ones knowledge of personal authority can, and will, be challenged through time and experience, often unintentionally.  Past conditioning may find that there is a questioning of this surety, a doubting. In these times it is important to slow down, listen to intuition and be in touch with the inner self. Observe where these questions are arising from … past beliefs of smallness, or present circumstances. This knowledge should be easy to distinguish. Recognizing the triggers will aide in the soothing of them, a smoothing of the edges which get snagged on current realities, having a dragging affect into the past.

embrace the shadowAll of these occurrences are a blessing, for they bring us once more into the present circumstance of self, pointing out the areas that need attention. Everyone is perfect, right where they are, right in this moment, for their own personal soul evolution … ever forward, ever rising. With attention, there will be less duration for the ‘bumps in the road’ along the way.

As the search for connection continues, in its various forms, it is important not to be dissuaded from reaching out if a trigger is flipped. Keeping the door open for these events and experiences allows also those experiences which are of love and learning … learning of the deep inner self, in relation to the world around us.

In these relationships, our personal authority comes ever closer to solidification. Gift yourself this experience, do not shrink from it. (Of course, if it is harmful or manipulative in any way, absolutely avoid it!).

Cheers to you as you move forward in your journey. Progress is being made on many levels, quicker now than ever before.


A Different Kind Of Movement

Published March 9, 2018 by tindertender

Many people assume the goal is the “rise above” suffering. Busily, they try to do this, struggling daily. So far, we can see pretty well that this doesn’t work.

Some say they are swimming in pain and they simply can’t get out. Well, here’s the deal, a connection to what assists in moving through it must be made.

A swimmer needs to find their fins, so to speak. A ‘walker’ must learn to balance on legs. An emotion surfer, a mover and a shaker, learns to end that perpetual sinking and swim, and walk, and fly through it, finding the other side. A skill like any other, and just as difficult to learn.

Don’t give up if you are thinking to. The traveling method you are learning now beats all else!

As Above, So Below

Published March 8, 2018 by tindertender

My mind has a lot of chatter going on, wondering this or that … how I may sometimes be strong, yet in others a blubbering mess of a weakling.

Open Your MindThere are those in this world who speak and listen to the unseen: mediums, chanelers, psychics, intuitives of all kinds. They tune in and listen / sense the conversation and many times bring back a message here and there.

This place beyond time could, I suppose, be considered heaven … where people go when their bodies quit them. A place where there is no day or night, awake or asleep, where hidden and secret things are known by all for there is no barrier between conscious ‘minds’.

That being said, all of those apart from physical form think overwhelming thoughts, each of them, just as we do in our own heads. So when some one says, “As above, so below” I have to wonder if this cannot be altered or helped at all.

If the above has not the ability to bring peace and quiet and calm to their existence, then it bubbles right into our world and into our minds, our collective energetic field.


Well, I say to ‘them’ … get it together!  And I laugh, even though it isn’t funny.

There are sinister ones here who want war … they’ll do anything they must in order to achieve it … a never ending battle. They’ve robbed the whole world of it’s wealth and use it against them, keeping them enslaved in this illusion.

If the majority chooses not to participate in this game, then the game will be over. And you must see by now the telltale signs that this is where it is headed. Hence the sudden bursts of mass shootings, bombings, intentional starvation of whole peoples, a purposeful elimination of peace lovers.

Before it is said and done, they will gather together as many bearers of light as they can, and they will try to eliminate them so they can continue in this charade. They have before … it worked then.

This time is different though, this time we are coming into an awareness never like before. (I speak as though I know, HA, never been there that I recall).

This mass awareness is seeping through AI into each others minds. As this information travels through my mind, into this ‘computer’ and then into your mind, what are the radio waves being transmitted by your device as you read? What is mine transmitting as I write?

Again I will say, Above to below, so get with the picture. This story must shift. It is time for a metamorphosis.

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