After all these years I must tell you that this is why I will not stand with you. I have experienced your presence while you speak about me as though I cannot hear you, you behave as though I am not worthy of a one on one conversation. This is not acceptable, I am not at your disposal, nor am I willing to give you any further energies.
I have tried many times in the past to convince myself that we are alike, that you must have good reason to behave the way you do, that if I were in your position I might even do the same. Regardless, I am not in your position, and I do not behave the way you do, even though I have good reason to.
In this manner, we are nothing alike. In fact, you could say that we are polar opposites. While you are very good at mimicking goodness, sooner or later your inner self shows. It brings down the House you try to build, time and time again. The foundation is not true.
I am sorry for you, but I do not pity you, for you have consciously, fully aware, chosen to do the things you do, putting forth influence onto the vulnerable and unaware. Many lives have been affected … or ended, due to your selfish behaviors and trespasses.
I would like to say I understand, and that I forgive you. I will also say that I will do whatever I can to ensure that the privileges you’ve been taking advantage of will never be fully loosed, or enjoyed by you.
This is a time for those who have been running with you to open their eyes and get serious about what they choose. In the ‘end game’ nothing could be more serious.
How many life times does one soul need to determine where their heart resides? How long does it take to reclaim the spirit and mind from those who have manipulated actions and circumstances to coincide with greed or need for power?
When will mankind discover that no one has more authority over their life than they themselves do? People are always looking for a ‘leader’ or a ‘teacher’, not realizing that they can, and do lead, and teach … they lead their own lives, getting what they give, or accepting what they allow. They are in process of teaching others what to, or not to, be and do, shared through example. They are in process of being ‘taught’ by those they have perhaps not been willing, or able, to acknowledge.
All of this, all of it is known to the gentle heart who wishes to participate in the healing of the world, of life in general.
You know this. You take advantage of the gentle souls who long for peace. You lead them to believe that if they trust you, if they agree to help you, that peace will be. But peace is not coming forth from the chaos you bring. It has only become more chaotic, more solidly enriched with pain, supported by fear, by paranoia.
I hear you laugh as you see the affect you bring to people. I sense your pride in your ability to manipulate emotion, allowing, or ending life … as you will.
As a collective, this I know to be true. You have dared to attack the unwitting. The selfishness of your goal leaves no room for compassion. You say, “I like this one” as though they were an object … not someone who feels, thinks, loves, and acts. You behave as though you do not see the truest power that resides in them. Maybe you do, and simply pride yourself on the methods used to extinguish that bright light within them.
I cannot silently stand by and watch you ruin lives.
Those of us who are on to you know full well that the ones you attack are not only fighting you, but fighting the others who you have controlled. Double whammy, the people who join you are not even aware they are under your influence, actually doing your bidding … as you laugh, all kicked back enjoying yourself. I am amazed how well you keep secret the influences you lay upon minds, they so often are not even aware that these ‘thoughts’ and ‘desires’ are not even their own.
There is a time coming soon when we will find out how this goes. So many believe they already know. Unfortunately, all they really know is what they’ve been told to believe, what they’ve been taught as factual. The actual ‘experience’ of knowing eludes many.
On this level, I am torn. I would never wish my experience on anyone, for I know many who did not make it through. Yet at the same time, if something doesn’t shake the ol’ tree, no one will ever see clearly, or at least come to the knowledge that what they thought they knew was a lie, all along.
May the eyes and minds of humanity be quivered ever so slightly to break up the rigidity of ‘lessons learned’ which have developed into habits. May they be ‘gently nudged’ into motion and discovery of their inner, innate power for goodness. May it be done quickly, thoroughly, and with minimal ‘safeties’ on. May the hearts of mankind be unshackled and set free, without erupting into deep sadness, depression, remorse or anxiety. May they see through the fog that has been placed upon them, may their blood remain warm, and their strength and courage steadfast, their hearts pure.
… and may all that is good bless me with the same.