Healing

All posts in the Healing category

Creation ~ Mother’s Bucking The ‘System’

Published December 11, 2018 by tindertender

“She drifted aimlessly in the dark void; a dark mist of energy not knowing whether She was awake or asleep. She only knew that she existed. Then, very slowly at first She became aware of a pull on her energy from somewhere else that was attracted to Her and She knew that their coming together was imminent. She was filled with pleasure at the thought of merging with a new energy and felt a new force emerging in her consciousness; the force of LOVE. She and He combined causing them to expand creating Space and Time and the birth of the Universe.” ~ An Ancient creation story.

Our connection to the earth and all life on it started with this first connection, with Divine Spirit. It has remained so throughout history. There are some of course, who classify this connection as a ‘disorder’, not being aware of their own participation, and not giving consideration to those who have extra sensory perception.

The female was once revered as sacred, giver of life. The priestesses led sacred ceremony, maintaining the spiritual well-being of the community. Males honored her. After a time, priests took over the maintenance of the spiritual well-being of the community. Compassion became pity, love became dependence, and spirituality became religion and dominance. Male assertiveness replaced female nurturing, sensitivity and intuition.

As with all things, what comes around goes around. We see in today’s world the rising of the feminine once more. It is clear patriarchy is intense as it tries to hold on to the gains they’ve made over time.

The planet is suffering … all of life has suffered under the influences of greed and need for power. It is time for nurturing once more, and all who live know this to be true. Anyone who is paying attention knows without doubt that a great healing is in order if we are to survive.

All of life, every aspect of it, will come full circle. Not only in the world view, but in the individual life as well. What is given shall be received … ‘Mother’ is bucking the system, and all who have an iota of intelligence should listen, or forfeit everything they hold valuable.

http://www.etana.org/sites/default/files/coretexts/14907.pdf

http://oracc.museum.upenn.edu/amgg/listofdeities/tiamat/index.html

What Is Your Breaking Point?

Published December 9, 2018 by tindertender

What is your breaking point?

What have you done when you’ve arrived there?

My breaking point came a few times in this life. The last one actually nearly cost my physical life, it surely did cause a ‘rebirth’ in my spiritual life, and a complete shift in the way I think and live.

Strength is born out of these times, when the world seems to crash down on our heads. It isn’t uncommon for a person to fall, then swim in the affects of previous actions. It can seem like drowning, dying, or make us wish we would, and sometimes that is exactly what happens.

For those times a person is able to crawl out of that deep well into the light of day once more they will find that a portion of them is left behind. That portion of them which caused the fall in the first place is shed, and newness is birthed to fill the space left from its removal.

Falling enough times, or falling so deep, and then the fight that ensues to come back to light, is indeed a rebirth … you may not even recognize yourself. You may find that many others will tell you, “This isn’t the you I remember.” Embrace it … especially if the layers of pain, which perpetuated pain I this world, are left behind.

Be bold in the creation of a new you … society no longer dictates who you will be … YOU do. This is your story now.

Free ~ No Longer Your ‘Assistant’

Published November 18, 2018 by tindertender

After all these years I must tell you that this is why I will not stand with you. I have experienced your presence while you speak about me as though I cannot hear you, you behave as though I am not worthy of a one on one conversation. This is not acceptable, I am not at your disposal, nor am I willing to give you any further energies.

I have tried many times in the past to convince myself that we are alike, that you must have good reason to behave the way you do, that if I were in your position I might even do the same. Regardless, I am not in your position, and I do not behave the way you do, even though I have good reason to.

In this manner, we are nothing alike. In fact, you could say that we are polar opposites. While you are very good at mimicking goodness, sooner or later your inner self shows. It brings down the House you try to build, time and time again. The foundation is not true.

I am sorry for you, but I do not pity you, for you have consciously, fully aware, chosen to do the things you do, putting forth influence onto the vulnerable and unaware. Many lives have been affected … or ended, due to your selfish behaviors and trespasses.

I would like to say I understand, and that I forgive you. I will also say that I will do whatever I can to ensure that the privileges you’ve been taking advantage of will never be fully loosed, or enjoyed by you.

This is a time for those who have been running with you to open their eyes and get serious about what they choose. In the ‘end game’ nothing could be more serious.

How many life times does one soul need to determine where their heart resides? How long does it take to reclaim the spirit and mind from those who have manipulated actions and circumstances to coincide with greed or need for power?

When will mankind discover that no one has more authority over their life than they themselves do? People are always looking for a ‘leader’ or a ‘teacher’, not realizing that they can, and do lead, and teach … they lead their own lives, getting what they give, or accepting what they allow. They are in process of teaching others what to, or not to, be and do, shared through example. They are in process of being ‘taught’ by those they have perhaps not been willing, or able, to acknowledge.

All of this, all of it is known to the gentle heart who wishes to participate in the healing of the world, of life in general.

You know this. You take advantage of the gentle souls who long for peace. You lead them to believe that if they trust you, if they agree to help you, that peace will be. But peace is not coming forth from the chaos you bring. It has only become more chaotic, more solidly enriched with pain, supported by fear, by paranoia.

I hear you laugh as you see the affect you bring to people. I sense your pride in your ability to manipulate emotion, allowing, or ending life … as you will.

As a collective, this I know to be true. You have dared to attack the unwitting. The selfishness of your goal leaves no room for compassion. You say, “I like this one” as though they were an object … not someone who feels, thinks, loves, and acts. You behave as though you do not see the truest power that resides in them. Maybe you do, and simply pride yourself on the methods used to extinguish that bright light within them.

I cannot silently stand by and watch you ruin lives.

Those of us who are on to you know full well that the ones you attack are not only fighting you, but fighting the others who you have controlled. Double whammy, the people who join you are not even aware they are under your influence, actually doing your bidding … as you laugh, all kicked back enjoying yourself. I am amazed how well you keep secret the influences you lay upon minds, they so often are not even aware that these ‘thoughts’ and ‘desires’ are not even their own.

There is a time coming soon when we will find out how this goes. So many believe they already know. Unfortunately, all they really know is what they’ve been told to believe, what they’ve been taught as factual. The actual ‘experience’ of knowing eludes many.

On this level, I am torn. I would never wish my experience on anyone, for I know many who did not make it through. Yet at the same time, if something doesn’t shake the ol’ tree, no one will ever see clearly, or at least come to the knowledge that what they thought they knew was a lie, all along.

May the eyes and minds of humanity be quivered ever so slightly to break up the rigidity of ‘lessons learned’ which have developed into habits. May they be ‘gently nudged’ into motion and discovery of their inner, innate power for goodness. May it be done quickly, thoroughly, and with minimal ‘safeties’ on. May the hearts of mankind be unshackled and set free, without erupting into deep sadness, depression, remorse or anxiety. May they see through the fog that has been placed upon them, may their blood remain warm, and their strength and courage steadfast, their hearts pure.

… and may all that is good bless me with the same.

You Have The Remedy

Published November 18, 2018 by tindertender

“You do not know it, but in you is the remedy; you cause sickness, but this you don’t see. You are but a small form … this, you assume: but you’re larger than any universe, in reality. You are the book that of any fallacies is clear, in you are all letters spelling out, the mystery. You are the Being, you’re the very Being … It: you contain That, which contained cannot be!”

Blood Donation

Published October 4, 2018 by tindertender

I donated blood again today. I am only able to donate whole blood as I am under 5′ 5″. My last donation shows a green check mark up to stage 4, storage.

It has been just over 4 months since my first donation, and the Red Cross App shows my blood never went beyond “storage”. I can only hope that this donation will be used for good, considering they are calling frequently saying there is a critical need for blood.

Perhaps they tossed all parts of my last donation and just kept the plasma. If this is the case, where did the other parts go to?

Or … perhaps the app does not say anything about the end of journey until all parts of the separated donation are used.

Elements of blood

  • Red blood cells can be stored for up to 42 days at 1°C – 6°C, depending on the additive. When kept at -65°C or below, red blood cells can be stored for up to 10 years.
  • Platelets can be stored at 20°C – 24°C for up to 5 days with constant agitation.
  • Plasma that is frozen at temperatures of -18°C or below within 8 hours of collection, platelets can be stored for up to 1 year.

At any rate, I donated. I have multiple reasons why I want to do this, regardless of my inner suspicions. My hope is that by doing this, someone who does good in their life might be saved should disaster befall them, and perhaps life will take on more significant meaning.

I asked about the scarring left by the big needles they use. A gal told me that if I do this enough they’ll know it by the way my arms start to look after time. I said, “I’ll look like a drug user?” She smiled … and I thought, is this something I want to have imprinted on my arms? What will the coroner say??

For now, they have two donations.
May they be used well, in morality, with honor.
And may someone out there live.

http://blog.fisherbioservices.com/whole-blood-basics-how-to-maintain-a-stable-sample

 

 

Sharing, Healing, Moving On

Published October 1, 2018 by tindertender

Recently I shared my #metoo experiences and today I took the sharing down. It amazes me how shame of another persons act upon me can still be so embedded in the psyche.

My life is moving forward, as it has always. The wrong-doings against me proved very well the privileges people feel they are entitled to. It also made clear the pain in this world, for hurting people hurt others, this includes those who have strived for financial or power gain while their hearts wither and atrophy.

Indeed, since Divinity is experiencing life through multiple facets, it also knows the hearts and minds of humanity. It knows those who choose to harm or take advantage of others and then blame them for their own deeds while they gather supporters, and it knows those who carry the weight of immoral behaviors bestowed upon them. It knows how an attempt to ‘join in’ with what seems can’t be beaten turns into a walking away and shedding company with the likes that repulse heart space.

Today, I walk away from all that has ever violated my heart, my trust, my mind and my peace.

I wonder what “enduring to the end” really means. The Bible has been horribly edited and tailored with just enough of the original to keep the masses in the dark, thinking they are in the light. I do not feel the need to endure trespasses against me, nor do I feel the need to try and understand their behavior.

I will be busy creating a better world for my end of days … and it won’t be involving anyone who lacks a willingness to clean up their own inner chaos.

Forgiving Self

Published September 28, 2018 by tindertender

alex-iby-387606-unsplash.jpg

If one lives long enough, and they are willing to look at their past deeds, there will inevitably be something in that time-line which is difficult to come to terms with … some hurt that may have been done to someone, abortion/murder, rape … fear, sorrow, anger and guilt which surrounds these things can seem impossible to shed, or to ‘reconcile’.

This is my current journey. Finding a way to forgive self is a challenge. It is said that we are our own worst judge. I’m not too sure of that, but I do know it has been impossible to heal the pain of some actual events in my life … I know also that I am not the only one who has this dilemma.

As I reach out for assistance in this matter, my hope is that one day I’ll be able to free myself from constant punishment, remorse and guilt. Society has a tendency to affirm judgement that people may have laid upon themselves (and absorbed from others), rather than try to understand, and assist in healing.

These pains we carry with us must be mended, reconciled and healed if there is any glimmer of hope for a better tomorrow, and future. Pain, suspicion, fear and guilt keep us in a perpetual cycle of doom and gloom, making it impossible to gain higher vibration, no matter what practices are used in the attempt to raise it.

If, when you look at past experiences, you find it difficult to forgive yourself I encourage you to seek assistance from someone who may be able to help … this is what I am going to do. Life is too short, and these burdens are heavy. Perhaps in self healing, the aid we can bring to others and the world will be amplified.

%d bloggers like this: