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Sharing Is Caring

Published December 3, 2018 by tindertender

The tavern, bar, pub – whatever you call it, wherever you are, it is a place of sorrow, loneliness, anger, frustration and pain wearing a mask of happiness. I know, for I spent some time there, surrounded by others who were experiencing what I was also.

It seemed that life was a series of running to the edge, pushing limits as far as possible, testing them to see just how far I could go without going over the edge, until I did. At that time I met many others who had transitioned and were still in such a place, in shadows. They were seeking help to be free of it. I sat with them and asked them to explain why they were there, and the answer came from one with authority, “Because they are too bad”.

I’ve been thinking of this recently, examining my own life. Often when people find themselves trapped in the cycle of cruelty, receiving it, or giving it, it is because they themselves are suffering and in pain. Most will never admit it if they dare to look deep into their hearts, they’ll instead act tough and continue the cycle, creating hurt wherever they go, sometimes not even aware they are doing it, it becomes second nature.

Alcohol … it is poison and is only good as a disinfectant, or use in making tinctures for medicine in combination with nature’s finest herbs. It was never meant to be utilized as has become the norm. At least this is my inner conclusion when I sit with my senses.

I also understand that those in these places, on earth and in the shadow land, for the most part are not bad people, or spirits. They are suffering, a pain that cannot be comprehended for they are too close to it for understanding. Often it is a trauma that either takes their life and sends them beyond, or snaps their minds out of the cycle so they are able to see clearly once more, or at least then have opportunity to study the past and work toward making sense of the experiences.

Atoning for pain sent into the world … how does one do it? I compare it to all of the cigarette butts I threw out as a smoker. Young, never understanding the concept of biodegradable … heck, that word only recently came into my awareness, within the last decade. When I walk in the forest and see them I pick them up, one by one, and hope that I’ll be able to pick up as many, and hopefully more, than what I threw out over time, garbage too … cups, wrappers …

This is the time to prove to myself, and any benevolent spirits who are watching, that I can be as good at creating peace and loving and compassion in this world as I ever was at creating turmoil. My hope once again is that I will create more loving memories and good feelings than I ever did the opposite, being a powerful contributor for positive experience for all.

There is indeed much suffering in shadow land while they continue to live in the cycle they left behind on this earth. The good thing is there is still opportunity to make choice, to set the beer down, to remain in the corner and just watch … rather than participate. And hopefully there will come a time when they will be able to walk out of that dingy place into the light of day, warm, and free.

There needs to be an overall healing of soul before this can happen. Admitting there’s an issue, seeing it for the first time, studying the behaviors, what caused them in the first place and learn how to undo the knots that were tied in the heart of spirit. The desire to change must come first, usually preceded by a tiredness of hearing oneself say and do the same old things, over and over again, having the same experiences.

Of course there will be those who cannot face the trauma. They have felt alone their whole existence and buried their sorrow in drink, or in drug, or some other thing that took the mind off that pain. Too often people replace pain with a different pain, rather than doing the hard work to heal.

Sure it’s easy to shout out and blame someone else, it is easy to snarl and frown and throw our pain in the face of others, too hurt and immersed in the core of it to notice or care that we are potentially putting others where we currently stand … and then they too will need to try and climb out of that pit. Exacerbation … continuing cycles … of our choosing.

I ask Spirit why they kept saving me, why is it so important that I remain living. It could be that I needed to find my way, to share the experience and perhaps help someone who is looking for a way out themselves.

Talk is talk, I can share my experience but whoever wants betterment must walk the walk, no one can walk it for them. I am still on my own journey.

Oh yes, I’ve experienced what some call ‘tough love’ and I’ve also experienced a lack of love, and fortunately through it all there has been support, mostly from the unseen. You can say I have a family so big even I am unaware of its vast nature, or you can say it is my inner fortitude. Either way, whatever way, if it is not hurting anyone, including yourself, and if it works, giving you strength to rise, it is perfect.

Negative self talk: it begins with others views and opinions of us. We hear them and we may believe them, or not. If not, and the same criticisms are repeated enough, it becomes rote, the little pathways in the mind are set. The memories of the words live there and repeat, and repeat, and repeat. Depression or anxiety or complete self destruction can occur, a breakdown.

These words, these memories of what others have told you, they do not belong to you … release them, give them to your ancestors who have come before you, anyone who you know loves you in the Spirit realms, or send them back to the people who gave them to you.

Retrain your mind. When a memory of drama or trauma begins to spin in your consciousness, recognize it, acknowledge it, and determine what it is you will allow to be there. Override that memory with something beautiful, positive, supportive and loving. Every time … do this, and you will find that the old ‘thought highways’ in your mind disappear and new paths are made, ones you’ve personally chosen, ones that affirm and support the Divinity in you. Claim your Sovereignty.

Habits are learned through training. We accept them from others, we incorporate them into our life trying to ‘fit in’ or ‘gain approval’, perhaps searching for that which we’ve never had before. Habits are also meant to be broken, every single one of them. In so doing we train our mind (some call it ego). We let it know that our higher consciousness is in charge and will only allow what is personally deemed acceptable.

Honestly, I know it’s hard, seemingly impossible. Many have died without even trying, or without even being aware of the possibility to lay claim to their own authority.

You are the only one you will spend the rest of your life with. Become the love of your life, not in arrogance, but as someone who is cherished as the most important being in your world. From this place, a great gift of compassion can be shared with others.

It is not an easy task. Some quit, thinking it easier to drown out the pain with substance. But it is so worth it … gift yourself, yourself. Love you like you deserve to be loved, like you have always deserved to be loved. Fill up your heart and mind so full of this love that it spills over into the world … it is going to be so beautiful! You’ll be amazed at what begins to show up in your life when you’ve done this work.

Day of Absorbtion

Published December 2, 2018 by tindertender

This morning and early afternoon has been spent sitting by the fire, watching Gaia streaming on the television and stretching my imagination, filling up with a sense of possibility.

Recently these ideas have been weighing heavy on my mind, and to find a channel that actually feeds the need to know, to supply information in which I am able to research and expand upon is a real blessing.

One of the questions I find interesting as I hear people try to answer it is, “Can science explain spiritual visions?”

Many of us have been, or are beginning to ask these same types of questions. We are certain there must be more than what we are currently experiencing, and we are correct … verified as our intuition resonates with new knowledge.

One conversation described the human ‘visual’ of life. What we can actually see is smaller than a grain of sand compared to the whole.

One interesting program spoke of Shambhala … it is a country, not a city, and located at the North Pole. It is said to have 96 million inhabitants and 96 provinces. “The Kalacakra tantra prophesies that when the world declines into war and greed, and all is lost, the 25th Kalki king will emerge from Shambhala with a huge army to vanquish “Dark Forces” and usher in a worldwide Golden Age.” Alex Berzin puts this date at 2424 but many are quite certain the date is off. The Dalai Lama says he does not believe in the prophecy.

Can we attain peace? Will we be able recognize consciousness as larger than the entire Universe? Will we be able to develop the skills to go from macro to micro?

Everything in this Universe is experiencing Quantum Entanglement. Get over the idea that there’s only a few people with psychic skills, everyone has them, all at various degrees and stages of development. All beings are interrelated, entwined, and sensing each other.

What we are witnessing on the earth is rebirth. When a woman delivers a child it is painful, it is destructive, it is dangerous and often (less so nowadays) leads to death. For this planet and the current life it holds, it appears as though we may be reaching the sixth mass extinction. However, just as with the birth of new life by human mother, the planet will birth a new human. Everything is developing into The Field of Singularity.

H.R. 808 is a proposal to establish a Department of Peace and Non-Violence. It suggested that all options to be considered must be done by the Secretary of Peace before any act of war is implemented. Unfortunately, since it’s first submission for consideration in 2001, and every year since then, those who desire its dismissal have fought it and prevented it from being accepted. The bill asks for $10 billion per year. That’s a little more than the Environmental Protection Agency and a little less than the Department of Commerce. Comparatively a 1.3 trillion dollar budget has been authorized for the military, for war, plus another 160 million dollar boost over two years. I have attached a link for highlights of this administrations 2019 budget and a separate link for the military budget.

I watched a recorded conversation between Terrance McKenna and Ram Daas, the author of Be Here Now. It is quite interesting to listen to two men who have had their minds opened, and their reality widened. Listening to them I don’t feel quite as strange in this world.

They made mention of the World, mad of mind … beautiful, yet terrifying. Their experience comes from standing half way between hope and hopelessness. I’m sure I’m not the only one who can relate to that!

In their journeys they have explored life and the purpose of returning back into the Garden of Eden. They both agree it is too late for the Rain Forests. Destruction is the process of transformation. The question which is shared between them, and I’m sure many of you is, can we hold it together?

The understanding has been realized my them, and many others that, “I am you, and you are me. When you hurt I respond. Not because you are in need, but because we are one.” The Toroidal Energy field of each body is intertwined, mixing with the whole. What is generated emotionally in one, is felt by many.

Posing the question, “How do we make non-violent revolutions”? The naturalness needs to be allowed to come back.

William Blake once said, “If the truth can be told so as to be understood, it will be believed.” Yet I look around, paying attention to what is being said and find that William may have been mistaken. Has the human capacity for understanding diminished, or the ability to communicate in a manner that is easily understood been forgotten?

“How is it possible that suffering, which is neither my own or my concern, should immediately affect me as though it were my own, and with such force that it moves me to action?” ~ Arthur Schopenhauer, 1788 – 1860

What is ‘Space Time / Time Space’? IDARF (Interplanetary Defense and Reaction Forces). There is NO WAY to determine these Directed Energy Weapons are only used in space, especially given the curious, recent fire in Paradise.

Something to ponder, or research if curious is Nanite Enhancement Therapy (NET). Nanites are microscopic machines, and just as susceptible to hackers as are computers. The use of them is said to have been part of the “20 and Back” program.

“Science without religion is lame, and religion without science is blind.” ~ Albert Einstein

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shambhala

https://www.theguardian.com/science/2008/may/12/peopleinscience.religion

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quantum_entanglement

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gravitational_singularity

https://www.washingtonpost.com/politics/us-department-of-peace-may-never-get-its-chance/2012/05/18/gIQAJg4iYU_story.html?utm_term=.96aeeee9bedd

https://www.congress.gov/bill/111th-congress/house-bill/808

https://peacealliance.org/

https://www.voanews.com/a/agency-by-agency-highlights-of-trump-2019-budget/4251152.html

https://dod.defense.gov/News/SpecialReports/Budget2019.aspx

https://arxiv.org/pdf/1604.03511.pdf

http://www.deepspace.ucsb.edu/wp-content/uploads/2013/09/Planteary-Defense-SPIE-Aug-2013-Lubin-8876-101-final.pdf

Flexing In Time

Published October 10, 2018 by tindertender

The questions we ask of ourselves, and then ponder, are keys to opening up and expanding current awareness. For instance:

How can I be more flexible?

Flexibility could mean the bodily joints, it could mean having patience when plans go afoul, and it could mean being open to people, places and things that have unknown potential for life.

Fear often inhibits the freedom to be flexible. Suspicion of others intentions often causes rigidity of spine and energies, and a stillness comes over one, or should I say, a stubbornness.

Flexible spending, flexible time schedules, flexible mind, willing to take on, or at least consider, new knowledge or possibilities.

Thinking about things deeply can bring about criticism, especially if far-out ideas and theories are shared. Not too many people are ready to consider the fantastic as possible reality.

Star Trek, Space War, Weather modification and manipulation, Mind control, The presence of other life forms right before our eyes … these things are not fantasy, although there are plenty of folks who insist they are.

So as not to be part of the rigid, unbendable type, I practice ‘flexing’ the mind, considering all possibilities and investigating all scenarios that are called ‘conspiracy theory’.

The more you are willing to know …

Life is about flow. The years flow into each other, the seasons too. The human body flows through the years, so slowly the shift in appearance is barely perceptible until several years pass. The mind flows from one opinion to the next, and when what is thought to be real and true are blown out of the water, the mind once again latches onto something ‘comfortable’, making this new situation ‘real’.

Sitting in my chair last night I envisioned myself as a child, fresh and innocent, in love with life and with love. As the years went by things happened, people happened, and hurts felt were shared and spread. And time continued to flow, until an awareness began to creep in, and then pour in.

I saw these aspects of my life hold hands and form a circle. They smiled at each other and others, and they began to dance a little, moving in a counter-clockwise circle.

I Am Many …

We all are. How can we be more flexible? By first understanding that every single memory we have of every single day we’ve been alive, is an aspect of ourselves which still lives, and is very real.

Some folks talk of the inner child, and it is true, they are there too. Along with the 10 year old, and the 16year old, and the 21 year old, and the 30 year old and so forth. Thinking of these times in life I am certain you too have solid memories making it easy to visualize yourself at certain events or situations.

Let every single memory you hold be embraced and loved by the adult you currently are. Hold the injured one, laugh with the smiling one, and work with the adventurous one. They are all here, living still … inside each and every one of us.

To deny these important parts of ourself is to deny the strengths and courage each aspect has to offer.

Be flexible, offer them homage inside your mind, your heart, and your life. Your capacities will amplify, and love too … self love, spilling into love for all life in this world, other planets, and in all spaces between.

Flying High

Published July 27, 2018 by tindertender

Drama can be extremely tiring! I wonder why so many people wish to instill the feeling of inadequacy and insufficiency in others. Could it be they are damaged and must try to tear down the world around them?

Overcoming doubt is not a challenge for the faint of heart. A fierceness must be lived, but in balance with a gentleness which can only be ‘cured’ by the experience of dismay and disappointment.

How does one unbind the self?

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Photo by Daniel Curran

Shedding beliefs that have been embedded in the psyche isn’t easy. Words spoken by others play in the mind like an old worn out record, memories fade but never really disappear. For most of us what we hear about ourselves plays over and over, so often, that one day it may be mistaken for an actual personal thought or belief.

From my perspective, the best way to ‘combat’ living memories which spawn emotional charges is to counter them with positive responses, new phrases created by self. I have challenged these memories which have lived in my mind for so long and am pleased to notice clean thoughts of my inner house are multiplying while the ‘others’ fade.

Balance is coming along nicely and I plan on enjoying every minute of it. Of course there are moments which spring up where the emotional energies are a bit amped. But right away, or nearly so, it settles and an even flow remains. Maybe this is the true work of humans in life … Learning to manage the flow of energies while in the densest of forms … for once this form changes, the spigot will be in the ON position, all the time.

Too often humans are willing to embrace and absorb anything negative, however when something of a positive nature crosses the path, it is met by a blockage in the consciousness. Walls are constructed everywhere … in the mind, between countries, in our languages (communication). A great effort must be made to soften and become open and receptive to all things which align with love.

Gifting each other gentleness which requires no return is a natural skill we brought with us when we entered this world. Something dwelling here sets about stripping this purity from the memory, and usually doesn’t take long to set up camp, constructing more of the same destructive mechanisms … planting them in the brain, over-riding the original message we came with.

Living in this environment is not for whimps … and none of us are, for we have prevailed against some very strong forces and are beginning to shine so brightly once again.

Pause, and enjoy this truth as you study your experiences of the last 10 or 20 years and more. Remember, there is always time to take the next step, to grow seeds of peace, to unite with others on similar paths. Sharing wisdom and courage and strength with each other will help everyone involved realize their potential quicker.

Potential … what do you see when you think of that word? Are you envisioning something as big as the world, beneficial for all? Have you learned to see as the eagle does?

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Photo by Mathew Schwartz

Real, Or Fantasy?

Published February 12, 2018 by tindertender

Years ago I entered the Twilight Zone.

Twilight zone

It was quite frightening! I previously had no idea that it was a real place.

Now, I realize that this twilight zone is only an entryway into Star Trek.

Star Trek

There are plenty of folks in the world who actually believe these two examples are only a made up story, fiction which was born from the mind of people who were quite creative.

The writers of these series were indeed very creative, but more than that, they were open to receiving insights most people are not aware of.

Until humanity comes in tune with reality, they will dwell in the land of denial and blame. I’m pretty certain by now most people are aware that this is not the most comfortable situation.

There is so much more to living than what we’ve been told, what we’ve been led to believe. I think this is why people like to watch television so much. It is a great escape, a place where fantasies can be played out, where people can live vicariously through the stories told.

But not everything we see on the screen is fantasy, now is it? I think we could agree on that point.

Engage, Or Disengage?

Published February 8, 2018 by tindertender

engaging in life

Life is full of fluctuation. We wake, we sleep. We speak, we are silent. We are social, we stay at home. We work, we retire. Within every part of life, from pole to pole, there is varying degrees of it all. Minute details happening differently, at different times, for each of us.

Some folks think of relationships as hit or miss … but it is so much more that that. When people, and events, are in alignment then things flow smoothly. When they are not in alignment, there is much chaos, or there is … nothing.

In the stillness that inevitably comes for everyone is opportunity to get to know self. This is needed very much in order for growth and future connection which will inspire us to become ‘more’ than we were before.

Most often these ‘connections’ don’t happen when we think they should, and they do not look like we think they should. Letting go of preconceived notions about they way things ought to be is very freeing, and it allows room for the things which will enrich life.

Engage when there is something you feel will enrich your life, disengage to absorb it, then engage fully with personal mind to see how it all lines up. Cycle through, and repeat, ever in an upward motion.

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