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And The Sky Opened

Published September 19, 2018 by tindertender

“She has the strength of a thousand suns”, they said … or was it only herself speaking? What is it like, knowing life is so … very … large? What is perceived with the mind through emotion is just the tip of the iceberg. Life is much more vast than that small understanding. It is so large, understanding ceases to exist!

Uncovering the inner most portions of self is like the best present ever! There is a time when you may feel like you “know” you … but didn’t you feel the same ten years ago? And are you that same person you were then?

This package we were born into holds treasures beyond words.

On the job site, or in relationships of all kinds, there may be a ‘holding back’ of heartfelt ideas or desires. There may be a twinge of fear, or shame attached to it. Through life others may have instilled the idea that the sweet inner fire of you is a thing that should be doused.

Underneath the programming, when the heart and the inner parts of self are delved in to, beautiful surprises begin to show up. When opportunity arises to try something new … one day, rather than saying no thanks, instead the answer may be, “Why not? I may not be good at it, but I might just be, as well!” And the effort is made, and the answer as to whether it is something one would wish to add to the tool belt of knowledge is discovered.

Try, try, try again. All that which does not harm self or others, when opportunity arises, try it.

How many gifts will you discover buried ‘neath that barrier that has been created? Are you a painter, a writer, a food preserver, a gardener, a medicine man, or woman?

In life, attention is often on finding the treasures within others, our partner, children, friends, acquaintances. Very rarely does one look inside for the treasure, they’ve instead taken on others opinions of what their personal treasure is, or is not.

Solitude is a blessing, even if only an hour a day. Sit, quietly with personal thoughts and see what relations on the “larger side of life” may offer you.

You just might be surprised.

Feelings

Published September 16, 2018 by tindertender

What are you feeling? These types of questions can take time to answer.

Last night I joined a drum circle and met a man who does Shaman work. Considering the energies I’m experiencing I am thinking of sitting with him awhile, should his initial observation convince me I ought to.

My auric photo from 2016 and the one recently taken has shown the energies of my ‘field’ have changed pretty dramatically. Although I feel better now than I did then, there is much work to be done.

Aura 2016 & 2018

What am I feeling? Right now I feel a ‘pinch’ in the shoulder blades across the upper back. During drumming last night I felt a lot of release of the ‘pressures’ in head and heart areas, but as soon as the drumming was over and I was headed home an intense pressure came once more in my heart space. (This is not medical, for I’ve done the tests that show heart is not under stress).

Energy … it gets stuck every now and again. There are ‘others’ who work in our inner energetic spaces remotely. Some ask our permission, and others … well, they take liberties.

Physical sensations we have are not always explainable by our doctors. They do not know of the spiritual attachments we gain over time. All they can do is prescribe a drug to counteract the affects of the base cause.

Back to “what am I feeling” … I am grateful for community, for seeing the beauty in people who come to gather in spirit and walls come ‘tumbling down’ as we interact with each other. Most of all I’m quite happy to be alive, and have opportunity to choose what I will contribute to this world, consciously, aware.

I would need to focus in depth to know what one feeling leads to, a deeper, more inset feeling that perhaps isn’t thought of consciously … but for now, I’ll leave it at this.

Commitments

Published September 14, 2018 by tindertender

What are you committed to?

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Photo by Rainier Ridao

This can feel like a loaded question. Often we are afraid to tell others what we are committed to, for inevitably there will be those who deem inappropriate or silly that which we deem important.

I ponder this question, and I know it is not something that can be answered in a matter of minutes, no … this one requires deep thought and consideration. Some of the things I am committed to:

My pets, my friends (which seem to be few), myself (not necessarily in this order, anymore). I am committed to speaking truth, to not baring false witness against anyone, to taking long hard looks into the depths of me and find out what is making me tick, where are my triggers, and how can I alleviate them.

I am committed to seeing beauty in this world that tries so hard to strip it from my view. I am committed to finding this same beauty in me, and blocking those who would have me see something else. I am dedicated to seeing the best potential in all situations and people, and if I cannot see it, then I turn away and try to remain silent so as not to cause damages I cannot see.

It is difficult to remain silent on subjects we see around this world, in the people, and what many do. The easiest way I have found is to turn it around and begin to reflect on what part of the outside world do I find within myself, and then mend that.

It is a daunting task, this shift creation, and it always begins and ends with our inner workings. It is all too easy to point fingers and say the blame, or problem, lies within someone else, or somewhere else … and quite difficult to find these things in our own being. Rarely does one choose to pick themselves apart, and it is no wonder. Most of life is built in defending ones self from the outward attacks of others, and so we lash out, giving what we receive.

Change comes in giving what we wish to receive, and no matter how often we are given the opposite, a continuation of goodness must be poured forth in order to change the balance of things. This ‘alchemy’ is the most difficult of all. It has taken lifetimes of training to get where we are, and to undo the learned habits will not be easy.

Only the true warrior will attempt it,
The rest will continue to shift responsibility to others,
Who are doing the same.

There are many tools to allow time and space to stand still for a moment, while we reflect on that which is needing attention, the mala and mantra, meditation, exercise, time in nature … knowledge brings us closer to our goals. Listen to Spirit, for what you need to know and understand is so desperately trying to reach you. Give it a chance.

Electric Life In This Universe

Published September 11, 2018 by tindertender

Where have you been?
Where are you going to?
I wanna know what’s new
I wanna go with you.
Chris Rea, The Blue Café, 1998

There are many who work in the Qsar Studies.

Although this is not the field I work in, it is apparent this particular ‘field’ and those who work within it are being ‘called out’.

As I relax, words are processed as they flow, and someone said, “You’re probably right … God does work.” Meaning … faith in One who truly loves us can heal and keep our minds strong through tactics meant to destroy. Love with this One will hold it together for us while black-hearted and curious manipulators do their dirty deeds.

Not exactly sure what these people are up to, but I have an idea.

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There are tactics being used against mankind. Chemicals are being sprayed over our heads in a consistent manner. We are not told what is in these sprays, many people are criticized horribly for questioning it, and for speaking out about it. It is part of this process I speak of … Qsar.

The foods and liquids we purchase for consumption are inundated with chemicals, all of which are geared toward the manipulation of body and mind. These are made to taste quite good which ensures they are eaten. There are addictive chemicals added, much like nicotine, which make people go back for more and more, regardless of the toxic affect they notice it having on their bodies and their minds.

There is an attempt to control the thoughts and actions of mankind without their consent or knowledge. WiFi technology distracts the masses, few are even aware.

They pump the atmosphere full of these chemicals which are then absorbed into the flesh (the largest organ of the body) and also inhaled through the lungs.

Once these chemicals are in the body and soft tissues, those manipulators can then blast away with radio electromagnetic waves and manipulate the body and mind more thoroughly … the body and mind are mostly water … when hit with these frequencies, they combine and formulate in the mind and body with the chemicals and nano-metal particulates there.

Testing is underway to see which waves, and which chemicals, give them the results they desire.

Anyone who thinks these technological advances are being used only for good are fooling themselves. As with all things, there are those who long to abuse the power it (whatever it is) gives them.

Space war … this is the space in your mind, the space in your heart … it is your energetic spaces being manipulated and tweaked to trigger thoughts and responses.

Know this ~ there are those who will play you like a puppet, pulling your strings so well you will not even notice it … unless you begin to pay very close attention.

When frustration arises, what were you thinking or doing? Where were you? Who was there, what were you eating or drinking, or what gadgets were you using and programs operated? It’s all a combination action.

Electromagnetic waves
Smart meters
Food and drink
Sprays overhead
HAARP
Medications and other synthetic drugs
Television
Certain Music

Your triggers are being tested in combination with these things. Tragic events are often planned just so your energies will become scattered and more easily siphoned and controlled. Horrible photos, or news stories, or violent movies will send inner energies left and right, to and fro … these energies are then siphoned and used as the manipulators see fit.

This is no ‘tin foil hat’ scenario. It is very real. Pay close attention to your own emotions and triggers, notice if it is in relation to any of the above items or secretly manifested events.

https://eurl-ecvam.jrc.ec.europa.eu/laboratories-research/predictive_toxicology/doc/EUR_24522_EN.pdf

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4540130/

https://www.history.com/mkultra-operation-midnight-climax-cia-lsd-experiments

http://www.theblackvault.com/documentarchive/cia-mkultra-collection/#

Mind Control: It’s Happening to You Right Now

https://www.iflscience.com/technology/government-agency-accidentally-releases-reports-on-orgasminducing-mind-control-weapons/

Answer Yes, or No?

Published September 8, 2018 by tindertender

I bought a pendulum today. It seems it can hardly say anything but no, even my name isn’t what I thought it was, apparently.

Either it’s a lemon, or the answers I seek are secret. I feel I’m getting the distinct message that this ought not to be used by me for seeking answers.

I bought several books and other items to stage an alter for my indoor personal prayers and ‘callings’. Hopefully all that goes better than the pendulum work given by my new piece of art.

I went drumming today with a group of people I hadn’t seen in quite some time today also. Oh my goodness! The energies were moving at high speed! The drum keeper brought some cards and offered everyone in the group to choose one from the deck. I pulled “Tribal Spirit Dancer”. I felt like a Spirit Dancer! And later in the day I had a chance to read what my card actually meant.

Aaaaannnndddd … release. I danced like no one was watching. I made rain (sounds) and thunder too. I really love just letting loose with that which dwells inside me. Literally, the energy had me shaking on the inside, it was great!

Yesterday I bought some prayer beads, my first strand! Now I will create a few mantras that I will use (in my own language). I’m going to write them on a miniature scroll, roll it up and put it in a little bottle, then in a leather pouch I bought. I’ll wear it, or keep it handy for those times when I need to choose a particular mantra for a particular occasion. Some day I’ll have them memorized, but while I begin my practice, this will help.

Tools! Let us take advantage of the items we have available to us to hone our concentration skills. Meditation can be a challenge, the beads help keep focus in the moment.

With all the excitement today, I think I’ll break open one of my books … right after I finish reading The Emerald Tablets of Thoth, a few excerpts are as follows:

Talking about evil turns creative force upon it
and gives it life and actuality.

Fear should not be allowed to enter self.
Neither should we create fear in another for fear is bondage.

If within our hearts we have kindness, then those of like harmony are attracted to us.
If this is not the case, then that one is ruled by disorder.

Love is the beginning and the end of the path, for in love lies oneness.

True greatness does not require self praise. Let others acknowledge your greatness which is recognized by your attitude toward your fellowman.

Strife, hatred and fear are the results of darkness. Freedom from darkness eliminates these.

Wisdom comes only to those who seek her.
You must take the first step and then continue to walk forward.

Man is not truly of the Earth or material but, in the final analysis, is the divine fire itself. The soul of man is a divine fire, a flame cast forth from the great fire yet still one with it. Light in darkness is man, yet separate in power and order.

The prayer is really a command and is for the purpose of establishing a harmony or connection between soul or consciousness and the cosmic consciousness.

 

 

The Secret Is Non-Exotic

Published September 8, 2018 by tindertender

Very plainly the message was given … the secret is non-exotic.

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Photo by chuttersnap

So many of us look to other countries for our medicines and foods. Truth is, the foods and medicines in any given country, and the people that live there, are geared for each other. The body that dwells in a certain environment is meant to ingest and absorb the plant life of it’s own region.

Although thoughts and ideas about personal transformation often comes from varying cultures, which is greatly beneficial to humanity, the foods and the body of specific countries go hand in hand.

All information learned along the way is adopted into the mind frame of a person. This then becomes ‘non-exotic’ for it becomes part of who they are, therefore deeply personal.

I suppose this could be the point of this message. Allowing truths to become deeply personal, integrated into the way of life one chooses to live.

In today’s world nothing really is off limits, for many. For those who do experience scarcity, know this … the secret is non-exotic. You have everything you need already, search for it, be aware of it, cultivate it, share it.

If we consistently wait for someone else to ‘give’ to us, then we could very well be choosing to remain in lack.

Control your life, your future, by working with the divine for specific outcomes. It all takes effort, and faith, hope, and patience.

Talk with your guides, with your guardians in the unseen realms. You will gain direction … if you believe you will.

Visitors Come and Visitors Go

Published September 6, 2018 by tindertender

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Photo by Andre Benz

They enjoy showing themselves and also mimicking ‘the good guys’. It seems their greatest pleasure is fooling life into believing the facade, and then in a quick turn show their true selves … twisting the mind of humanity.

While there are those who are here to assist us, the intruder wishes to create doubt in us, causing us not to trust our guides, our helpers … often they succeed. Yet when we pay attention to this pattern, we begin to see the flow of it, learning the signs.

These ‘visions’ some will try to convince you are merely day dreams are actually visitors penetrating the energetic field of mind, attempting to either aid, or disrupt. It is up to the individual to determine which is which. If one chooses to ignore it, it does not mean this influence ends, it only means the influence goes on unhindered.

Male, fair skin, short cropped brunette hair, spiked at top. Looking straight at me his eyes are icy blue, faceted, as crystals.

Another person, squatting, back to me, white short hair, blue base-ball cap and tan jacket. He’s working on something, tinkering with it.

Lady in white dress. Brown hair pulled back in gentle clasps. Standing on clouds with golden sun in the background. She’s handing something to someone at the edge of the cloud. Someone I cannot see.

Woman with burgundy lipstick, smoking, blowing the smoke out the right side of her mouth. Her lips are moving, she has much to say as though threatening, yet her words do not have sound.

His eyes began to slant upward, they opened. Soon the inner eye changed becoming animal like. He began to speak, moving his lips. Another, different face joined him, and yet another. They were all speaking, yet once again the sound was muted. Their appearance was that of a lizard-like form, various species. They too appeared to be giving threats of a sort.

Be aware of your visitors. Dig into their intentions. Feel them and determine what you will allow the use of your energies for. If you cannot seem to stop the flow they use to drain you, then consciously send them what you choose for them to receive. Take the steering wheel, and guide this experience as you see fit.

At some point simply withstanding the intrusion is not enough. Certainly this stretches your capacity, but there comes a time when action is required, a physical and mental effort to manipulate the senses arises. Who is in charge here? Who owns this flesh suit at this moment? The one wearing it, or the ones who wish they were?

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