What is true for me?
Asking questions of self can be a liberating exercise. The answers which come out first are only an entry point into deeper meaning and realizations.
For instance, I might say that what is true for me is a desire for family. True family. In my past there were many step fathers and step siblings, they came and went as the wind blew it seems. But deeper than that …
I desire a sense of belonging. We don’t always get to choose who our ‘family’ is, but when the day comes that we are able to choose, sometimes we have to let go of that which was chosen for us.
Truth for me is a longing of connection to those who appreciate the earth and the ancestors, who respect each others decisions, even though we may not always agree.
Freedom, to be and to do what our ‘heart-speak’ whispers to us, as long as it is not harmful or deceitful. Yes, our heart-speak may not be what someone elses heart-speak is, and it may hurt the feelings of another especially if they are smitten with us, but honoring each others heart-speak is essential … for it is this freedom which allows our soul to grow.
Pain cracks open the heart, and what happens to a seed when it ‘cracks open’? It blooms, it grows, in a way that it never would have been able to if it had not been cracked.
Free-will allows us to choose whether we would have this crack ooze poison, or a healing salve which creates a beautiful experience, enriching life and offering possibilities to grow, and to harness strength.
Remaining open after a heart crack is a challenge, but it provides extreme beauty if we are willing to move with it, forward into the next opportunity for love.
So, what is true for me? I long for love, for peace, for belonging, and so I work to cultivate it … I love who I am today, more now than before all of the heart break and rejection. I have discovered that the beauty within me only became richer by my experiences and losses. Even today, I embrace those who deny me opportunity, for I know that the time will come when all will flow quite nicely.
Patience, this is key to all things. Trust in the grander scheme, the higher plan. Humanity cannot possibly know what this is, but it always seems to work out that every need is met (even when we are living in our car, yes, I’ve been there).
Connecting Heaven and Earth is a wonderful thought, and totally possible. Effort is needed, for this connection happens through the human body and mind. If we are wiling to try, if we want it to be, it will be.
Here is an exercise for morning and night and any time you feel the need to fill up or recharge or get grounded. I did this in the restroom yesterday afternoon, it was a great break from number crunching, and brought a sense of peace in the middle of my day … and no one even knew I did it.