Years ago something happened to me, it took away the ability to have a personal relationship. I, at times, feel as though I have been robbed, that a thief came into my life and stripped this capacity from me. Sometimes I think it would be nice to share with someone, to be held … but truthfully, that is the extent of it, all of the other drama and energies spent, I now feel are better used elsewhere. So back and forth I go with this thought. Missing being close, and then realizing I am close to so much more now days instead.
I recently replied to a blog someone wrote about sex. They wrote that if you don’t get it, you lose the desire for it, you lose the ability to think clearly, blah blah blah. The response to my reply was pretty amazing … quite a few women stated that it sounded like “you can’t get it”. Well, I can, I simply am so over that shallow chasing of the elusive dream. Momentary (whether the evening, the year, or years) pleasure, and the compromising in order to ensure someone else has no complaint … argh!!! Please …
My ex-husband still lives here, and even he is kind of in my space. If I want to shout to the walls, or cry and howl at the moon, I must face his opinion and questions about whether I should get on medication. See, that little thing right there, is why I do not choose to have relationship. I do not live for someone else’s opinion on who I should be, or what I should be like.
That being said, I do miss the hugs. The church I attended in my last home town was great for that fact (one of the many great things). Every one hugged, it was a welcoming and a departure thing. I loved the connection and the freedom to hug someone without that “icky” uncomfortable, too close feeling.
I also recognize that things never stay the same.
Someday there will be another shift, I am hoping a GREAT BIG one!!! Paranoia over being touched has gone rampant. People feel afraid that if they allow a touch, they’re “asking for it”, then there are those who feel they will “get it” if someone allows a hug, well, they only take privileges that are not granted.
This world is screwed up from the top down. This is how it works, yes … from the top down. We see it in corrupt governments imposing corrupt rules and regulations, we see it in our justice systems where the victim is further victimized and innocent people are punished, we see it in families which allow their children to be abused, and then we see it in ourselves, as bad habits which we may find difficult to break. My hope is that the cycle of all this drama and harm stops with this generation, Right Now.
If we all awaken to the fact that we have been playing rolls created by sick minds, and if we choose to step out and away, breaking free from this sinister game, and do the work to break these “habits”, it WILL change. However, only if we do the work, and look deep within our self to see where the connection has been broken.
Change does not happen in the fight to alter others beliefs. Change happens when the energies to do that fight are withdrawn and utilized for peace … peace in our own minds and lives. This then ripples out like that perfect rain drop when it falls on a body of water, touching other ripples caused by other rain drops. A battle is not needed to win this fight, only a steady stream of love, one drop at a time.
Show them how it is done.
There are many critics now days, in ALL areas of life. I have have received a private message from one who wants to “connect”, only so they could throw an abundance of foul insult and degrading rhetoric into words. Of course I did not accept, however it amazes me that this is the energy that this individual chooses to put out there.
When we find ourselves faced with a communication laced with profanity and insult, it is important to shut it down immediately. Do not give that language room in your mind. It can be difficult, for I myself have had the experience of being backed into a wall with someone physically in my face screaming these hurtful and harmful words, performing damaging deeds.
They are possessed with an evil that lurks in the ether, and truly, I do not think they even know this. When they come at you, hurting you, simply remember that it is your light and your inner strength they hate, and they will try to break you … do not let them.
Shine your light so bright! Smile at them when they are hurtful, delete the comment before reading the whole thing, take away the power of this crazy vulgar mess … for it is using YOUR power to hurt you, do not let them have it. It belongs to you, and you have been, and must continue, to use it bringing additional light into the world.
You have within you the power to change the world, and you are doing just that. These mean and hurtful comments and actions … the people who spew them out there like liquid dung, straight from the mouths and bodies … they know, they see your light, and it infuriates them. But you are strong, and no matter what comes your way, the light you shine will assist others in being brave enough to follow suit, for they too have this beautiful light within.
Show them how it is done. Practice. No one said it would be easy, but this is why you are here. Deep within you, you know this to be the truth.
The day was a fortunate one, for the ocean took from us what it needed. The energies of the body seem to clear, leaving us calm, as though we have been massaged.
Blue Laced Agate is joined by purple hued beads, my best friend enjoying, as well as I, the beauty of this day. Everything is perfect.
I am surprised I am awake 3 hours after going to bed. I thought, surely, after today I would sleep through the night. Perhaps I haven’t given it fair effort.
Off I go, to dream of this heavenly earth, remembering the exquisite healing it gives to those who step into it, opening the senses fully.
Mary Magdalene was the Apostle of the Apostles, a spiritual leader, and the beloved partner of Jesus.
Are you ready for this?
From the 8th to the 14th, major shifts for everyone are in store.
I for one will be embracing the change.
Yesterday I treated myself to the first mineral water soak, wrap, and massage I have ever experienced. I cannot believe I waited so long to indulge in this wonderful activity. Past ~ so much money and time have been spent on not so healthy practices. I lay on the cot in full wrap, just inside the open door, I listened to the birds speak … back and forth their calls to each other sounded, many different bird dialects from various species, SO beautiful.
I took video of the place I lived for 7 years. This is where I matured into adulthood.
I am saddened to see the once lush and full forest dwindling away as it dries up and deteriorates. I know exactly what is causing it and am so discouraged, for if the forests die, the animals will too … and that includes us.
My hope is that many people will begin to take note and understand the destruction that is happening right before our very eyes. We see it in the skies, evidence supporting the truth found right here in the trees, and indeed, in our own health issues. Our gardens do not grow as they once did. The FDA, who allows Monsanto’s poison in our foods and fluoride in our water, is doing nothing to stop the overhead spraying which pollutes soils all over the US. They now want to tell organic farmers what they can, and cannot do to ensure good crop growth.
It is so important to see through the facade and pay attention to the manipulation. It is the only way we will be able to stop it, for awareness is the first step.
The thought of this forest being purposefully dried up, which will in turn, from a tiny spark, cause it to burn until absolutely destroyed, infuriates me. The spoon fed stories just don’t cut it any more.