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Obstacle Challenge

Published March 16, 2018 by tindertender

An appointment yesterday left me with knowledge of a current health situation. Without going into detail, I will tell you, I accept this challenge.

OM – The Sound, the Vibration of the Universe, The Primordial Sound
GAM – The Seed Sound, or bija sound of Lord Ganesha
GANAPATAYE – Another name of Lord Ganesh, the one who overcomes of obstacles.
NAMAHA – I offer you my salutations, I bow to you.

I will transform this body.
I will purchase a stationary bicycle, and use it.
I will join a water aerobic class.
I will retain and gain mobilization.
I will alter my diet.
I will shed extra pounds which cause stress on the body.
I will gather with open minded people.
I will share my intention of health.
I will do whatever is needed to more fully synchronize mind and body.
I will strengthen spirit/soul.
I Am a warrior.
I will sprint to the finish line.
I will continue to affirm what I will do, and not what I won’t.
I will grow love and compassion in my mind/heart/spirit.
I will love me just as I am, and then some.
I will let this compassion for self merge with compassion for others.

This challenge I have been given wasn’t really given. I was told to go about life until I couldn’t any more and then we would look into resolution. I say NO. I will look into resolution now, when it is needed most. I have a vision embedded in my mind, and I will transform this reality into a different one … because I have that power … and it will be.

Turning Tides

Published March 11, 2018 by tindertender

One of the most disabling circumstances for humanity is, it has been stripped of the capacity to trust. Many, if not all of us, have had our trust abused. At first we believe it’s a solitary situation, so we continue to wear our hearts on sleeve. Then, it happens again. Now naivety is dissolved, and it becomes harder to have faith in the goodness of people, yet we do, again, believe and hope with faith.

Heartbreak after heartbreak, damage untold … causes friendships to be rare, any type of relationship becomes most difficult to build. This circumstance causes anger, pain, despair even.

I look at women, on women’s day, and I see them opening to each other, even though trust is difficult, still they try. It seems many women have moved beyond the thought of another woman taking their man, or whatever. The courage shown and lived is extremely powerful.

Women have decided on a large scale that we need each other if we are to heal ourselves, and the damage in the world. This union of spirit is the only way out of this mess.

There are many men who stand by woman’s side not as an authority, but as a partner, friend, and co-creator of that which is good, blessing us, and the world with their wider vision.

Seeing young people stepping into adulthood with eyes wide open, strong, and only slightly damaged dna is exciting! They are showing grit and integrity which has been lacking for some time.

As I attempt to turn back my own dna damage, I continue to watch the scene, hope is growing once more, for the future.

Flashback, Renewed Purpose

Published March 10, 2018 by tindertender

I watched myself as I loudly sang a song, eyeliner darkening my eyes. Thin, pretty, and rambunctious, living an uncontrolled existence, rebelling against everything, and everyone. There were many lies told about me and gleefully spread by those who heard them, but did not know the truth. They saw my nature and assumed knowledge.

This was a short road to hell, one which the life lived practiced for. So much time wasted being angry, pretending to be happy.

In walks a man, a spiritual man, young … behind the scenes he assisted me in releasing these emotions, becoming more stable and strong. Old habits fell by the wayside, and forgiveness was given those who I had anger for.

Nearly 2 decades I have fought against this, demanding to make my own decisions … danger of anger reappearing, sneaky that way. I recognize it as it creeps in, I sense old habits behind the curtain inching forward. A revving up of what is desired in life is needed. A conscious choice must be focused upon.

Grounding is in order. There are 7 bags of dirt in my car waiting for me to clean out the garden bed and refresh it for new crops. It is going to be a sunny, warm day, perfect for laying hands in soil, listening to calm music, earthing.

This is an admission of error, my own. For so long I have denied any comfort from another, for deep inside I did not believe it was deserved, but I know better … for we are ALL deserving of compassion and assistance. So once again I embrace this care and offer apologies, and a renewed effort to remain on track.

Love is, and has always been, at the deepest core of my person. It was poisoned against me, and in turn against everyone else. No more … I concentrate fully on eliminating this toxic debris called self despise and move into the future, full speed, for positive change.

I hope you will join me.

Wonder Woman

A Spiritual Warrior

Published March 9, 2018 by tindertender

The questions I have tend to lose meaning once they are formed into words. There are so many of them when viewed from a wide awareness, I really don’t feel too much like asking.

Spiritual Warrior

Making conscious choices that create balance … it seems easy enough when said, but actually making the choice consistently is more difficult. Does this make a person weak, or only show that they are human? Being a spiritual warrior is a big responsibility. All too often the ease of selling ones self short prevails … but we have been chosen as the embodiment of the Scared in this world, to be the best ‘we’ that we can possibly be … be ready, respect yourself, have courage, believe in your purpose.

Relinquishing control and allowing others to assist can be a challenge. All too often it is easier to ‘just do it ourselves’. This, however, creates a barrier, and shuts off the possibility of greater good.

Finding joy in the trivial tasks can be quite elusive … washing the car, cleaning the closet, readying the garden, mowing lawn, painting, meditating … yet it is the stillness of mind while doing these tasks where peace is found, and larger ‘chores’ which lay ahead are outlined and planned in the subconscious.

Get busy. End self destructive habits and embrace the fullness that is within. A crisp awareness is going to be needed where you’re headed, so start now.

Deeper Insight Into Recent Acquired Numbers

Published March 6, 2018 by tindertender

I had a vision the other night and I wake this morning wondering what is behind all of those numbers I saw/heard/knew of. I spend a little time this morning searching about them.


“28 to 14 to 7, even numbers must be the layout. Looking for the path there are no signs, obscure numbers are key to finding the way, 46 always means one, and 70 always means another.”


** In Hebrew Gematria, koakh meaning “power”, “energy” is a word that corresponds to the number 28. The number of Hebrew letters in Genesis 1:1, the first verse of the Bible.
** The phrase ‘the Lamb,” used to refer to Jesus Christ as the Lamb that takes away the sins of the world, occurs 28 times. The word “Hallelujah” also appears 28 times.


** Being double that number (7), implies a double measure of spiritual perfection.
** The number 14 represents deliverance or salvation and is used twenty-two times in the Bible.
** 14 represents a symbol of a change in balance with a tendency toward improvement.
** 14 is the number of love.


** The number 7 is the seeker, the thinker, the searcher of Truth. The 7 knows that nothing is exactly as it seems and that reality is often hidden behind illusions.
** Seven is the number of completeness and perfection (both physical and spiritual). It derives much of its meaning from being tied directly to God’s creation of all things.
** Number 7 finds a place between two worlds, the world of life and the world of death. It refers to completeness and the aspect of things well done.


** Number 46 sustains and evolves itself and creates its own support according to its own determination — generally focused on building a secure foundation for the future. It represents self-determination and self-sufficiency … independent, self-motivated, must take the lead
** The 46 speaks about compromise. There’s always a peaceful way to resolve issues where both parties will be satisfied, and will not be achieved by being stubborn and ignorant.
** Number 46: Work of Grace: Reconstructed Life, Resurrection.


** Symbolizes perfect spiritual order carried out with all power. It can also represent a period of judgment.
** Number 70 transcends the barriers of time and space and brings you in touch with the world of the mystic and clairvoyant.
** Seventy is a double-sided coin, representing on one hand the ultimate unity, and on the other hand, the epitome of disunity.

Take from this what you will … I know I will. There is a distinct message here, important for all to see … if they are ready. A link to the original post is here:

There are shifts happening in this world, in each of our lives. Whether we care to become actively involved in what this newness requires depends on the amount of unease we will experience. It is difficult to make change, to embrace a new way … however, this new way will happen, regardless if you fight against it or not.

Thought Transfer On Waves

Published February 28, 2018 by tindertender

Standing, I stretch my arms out to my side, fingers splayed. I start low and slowly raise them, feeling the stretch in my elbow and the pulse in my hands. I raise then higher, slowly, feeling the stretch in my shoulders, in my back. I lower them, slowly, feeling this pulse through my hands and arms, fingers stretched out and a reaching for something ‘out there’, and then I raise them again, just as slowly. Doing this several times, I then lower my arms slightly, bending my elbows. At first all is quiet, but then the pulse begins again as this energy flows through my body.

Qi EnergyQi (chi) … life force …

Palms facing away from me, I push out to the front slowly. I feel the energy move. Turning hands inward to face me, I bring them back slow and feel the energy pulsing from them as they move toward my face. I hold them there a moment, I move them slowly down my face without touching flesh, to my neck, to my chest, to my stomach.

A warmth spreads through my body unlike heat, more like a ripple of energetic fusion. It’s nice. My hands are electrified, everything they come near feels this effect, knowingly or not. The hands are the highest transfer of this force. I rub them together swiftly, tightening my sphincter. I release and stretch them out to my sides once more, repeating the above. The entirety of both arms are now alive and pulsing. I hold them, bent at the elbow, palms up, and I feel the energy move.

I clasp my hands together loosely and I raise them over my head. I release, and move the arms slowly outward and splay the fingers once more, feeling this pulse as I do. I bend my elbows once more, palms upward, and I chant … Aum … Aum … Aum. I feel the vibration of my voice in my hands, and I know that this energy is in full flow. As I chant Aum, I silently think the words … Healing, Peace, Harmony. I send these thoughts out on the wave coming from my body.

I am now ready for work. I will walk with this energy and vibration throughout the day, coming back to this moment in times of intensity.

This can be done seated as well, keeping the feet uncrossed for proper flow.

Abuses, World-Wide

Published February 28, 2018 by tindertender


Bombs continue to drop in countries accused of using chemical weapons. Civilians who have alerted others are being killed by these attacks. Why is this so, when every country in the world has highly trained elite forces who can go in and eliminate the decision maker of this horrible chemical abuse?

Yes, I spent the morning watching world news before I sat down to write my thoughts. Shifting gears will be quite difficult.

People are tired of being bombed for the error of their government, and others are tired of having their paychecks robbed in the form of taxes which fund billions of dollars of weaponry used to inflict these attacks on innocent civilians. Yet governments continue to do just that.

This war making has little to do with eliminating harmful threats, for if it did they would send in special forces trained to take out these threats, and not blanket bomb entire cities and countries. No, this is a much deeper and more sinister issue that many people really do not want to acknowledge.

The only thing this never ending war making accomplishes is gain for the greedy. It makes civilians weak, destroying their food supplies and their waters, making them eager for a takeover which will bring in these supplies. The one appointed to lead the way to ‘regrowth’ will then have power over the resources of the land and do with it what they will … which will be in agreement with the ones who destroyed everything to begin with.

This is the strategy. Tear down, destroy, offer assistance to rebuild, claim resources. It’s purely tactical, without care at all for the civilians.

This greedy war making and fighting for control of the world and its resources must end. Those in governments do not represent the people. No, they are nothing like the kind, hard working individuals who are robbed while complying, and beaten every single day for non-compliance. They practice tearing down the spirit of humanity so they can retain power over them.

I see the people speaking out against this insanity, and I am quite happy to note it. The young people are rising and they are indeed the future. The old men in the big house will die, whether they choose to acknowledge it or not. It will not matter if they have 7 heart transplants and other organ replacement, eventually they will die, and the young will take their place.


The young, who are sick and tired of being stamped down for greed, who are tired of being killed and jailed for some payoff between factions, treated as though their lives mean nothing.

Yes, those in government see it too … and they lack what it takes to work with them on resolution to this madness, for all they know is madness. Their persons will be replaced soon enough, I only hope that these old men do not destroy the world before then.

“None are more hopelessly enslaved than those who falsely believe they are free.”
     ~ Goethe

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