Here I stand in the doorway of my mind. The wind rushes past my left as it goes behind me and circles back around to my right,
wrapping me in its embrace. Where is this breaths source? I look, yet just at the arc in front of me
where it turns, there is a blank space where I cannot see. This ellipse of ever rotating breath, I am grateful for that which gifts
Nothing to do … twiddle thumbs, look around … and eat. Get up from chair, pace the room, repeat.
A new adventure is about to begin. When these moments in life, these opportunities occur, it may feel as though the clock stops, butterflies do their thing in the belly and slight agitation erupts in the mind.
Calming the nerves takes effort and practice. Running at 1000 miles per hour, or 2 ~ it has the same affect. Being so busy one cannot think, and being so stagnant that is all one has to do, has the same unsettling outcome … both require an effort of stilling the mind.
With eyes shut feel a long breath enter the lungs, with a long slow exhale, feel it leave. Pay attention to the way air moves into, and out of, the body. Do not stop after 3, let the uncomfortable sensation sit, keep breathing ~ slowly. After a time, a small relaxation will arrive … keep breathing. Breathe through the need to get up and be busy … just sit and breathe.