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Do You Think I’m Such A Fool?

Published March 18, 2018 by tindertender

“Do you want to know when I first got suspicious? Do you reckon I’m such a fool? ….. Chemtrails, Colonel …. Giulicacci. He was the first to get me thinking.

I used to believe what my air force colleagues told me, “Look, they’re just condensation trails. No more than that” OK. So they say. But how on Earth can a trail stop and start up again? So I guess there’s something more to it than that. So, with all this stuff going on, I started to think, that’s strange, when top meteorologists,and, more importantly, top ecologists started screaming and yelling against the associations that look into chemtrail, into these dangers, and they say they’re crazy idiots, and that the trails occur naturally.

How do you identify chemtrails? Yes, chemtrails are condensation. And YES, IT’S TRUE that there are trails that contain certain substances which have certain functions! But the substances are sodium, barium, aluminium. If they’re all there, it must be for some reason!”

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Governments spray this “radar block” in the attempt to maintain secrecy, as well as control weather … all at the expense of planetary health. This is life or death … and it looks like the latter … a fast track to complete and total destruction. No one wins this one.

Slipping Out Of Their Hands Now

Published March 18, 2018 by tindertender

“Don’t listen to their threatening language, just do your thing.” 

Astral World_4

There are those who wish to use you for their own agenda. There are those who wish to stop you from being all that you can be. They see the light in your eyes and the positive energy you emit and they want to close it down, save it for when they have opportunity to manipulate it.

The scourge of the earth slinks about unseen, using others to do their dirty deeds.

Products world wide are laced with toxins. These toxins pollute the mind and body, they dull the senses and make connection difficult. Sickness comes upon people and they are so focused on the pain of it they cannot see the root cause. Doctors today treat the symptoms, rarely discussing origination of the dilemma … and the body and the mind become even more polluted than before.

And then we die, and change which we arrived to incorporate never occurs.

“Just listen … back and forth between sobbing and serious contemplation of the situation. Mind warp at its best.” But is it good enough to fool you? You decide. Will you allow your emotions to be toyed with, or will you step into your inherent power ~ that which you arrived with, that which is deep within you?



Open the door and let the light shine. Light the incense and watch the smoke rise. A bed of sand insulating the heat, aroma wafting through the air.

This is your time. There may not be much of it, use it wisely. Many of the older people did not know, being raised by another with belief that the reason for living was to simply survive. You know better.

The young have limited DNA damage caused by the poisonous market. Their bodies and minds sharp, their desires for peace potent. I consider it a blessing to see them rise and work what some call magic, but I call creation. Intense, honest, free from greed, they see the damage done to the world. They see how it is pushed onto the masses, they see right through the lies.

They are the future. YOU are the future.

Conscious Connection

Published March 17, 2018 by tindertender

Conscious Connection

I sit listening to the high pitch in my ears as well as music, soft without words in the headphones. The two sounds mesh and I feel the pulse of blood course through my body. More than blood though, there is energy, alive and fierce.

I thought of the supplements I take and realized I hadn’t taken them. A cleanse has recently happened … first a 3 day fast, then a cell cleanse followed by little food and much water, or at least more than normal. The body is vibrating a soft hum.

Understanding has changed. It has gone from the superstition taught in today’s world to a deeper source, truer. Many call it mythology, but the evidence cannot be denied. Regions around the whole world have similar data which has been kept in shadow for a very long time.

Funny when really considered … history is a made up story, much of it … mythology more real than we’ve been led to believe.

Eagle staring me in the face,
Huge, hooked beak right before my eyes.

Sensing is quite interesting. Coming into it again, slowly. The first round was too fast. While I do not understand it fully (or at all, consciously) it’s happening, none the less.


Before Time

Published March 17, 2018 by tindertender

“What the heck you doin’?” he asks.
I reply, “Remembering.”

Golden Grasses

Long ago he was there, on top of the mountain, far away, yet seemingly so near. The message was clear … he was mine. I walked toward the sun in a meadow of golden grasses, looking once more over my right shoulder to see him … and then I was here.

Sixteen years ago, late at night by rivers edge, I looked to the sky and saw several spinning wheels, different colors … red, orange, yellow, green.

Color wheel

A few months later I lay in bed listening to an amazing choir singing in mind, nothing like it had I heard before. After a time, they stopped and, “You Bitch! We knew it was you!” an invisible female shouted.

2015, January, I was told by spirit that eight years were going to go by quickly. Confused I spoke of it at church. Adding numbers, that puts it at 2023 … five more years to go.

Present day, there are many who deny the existence of this war in heaven. They refuse to even consider its reality. They think that it happened long ago, not realizing it is going on now, still.

There is an awakening in process. Perhaps you have noticed more now … seen the truth behind the facade. Maybe you are now aware of the smoke screen which has kept evil veiled. As people speak out against new knowledge, they are attacked, killed, maimed, jailed … the world over.

The awareness continues to grow, spreading like a wild fire now. As shadow is brought to light it is painfully obvious, shocking even, perhaps so much so that it is tempting to deny the truth of it.

There is no going back, only forward. I am fortunate, just as you are. We know what we need to know, when we need to know it … nothing before. We are being eased into this new reality. This is how much we are loved.

Hold it together. Walk into the fear, for it is a blockage in the mind only. Face it, run right through it. You will be amazed. And remember always, love is waiting.

… So Now What?

Published March 17, 2018 by tindertender

“The land of the gods was a luminous enclosure or turning wheel. It rested upon a mountain rising to the center of heaven. The mountain became a tower of seven or nine levels or tiers. A dragon, demon, or monster once held a princess captive in the tower. The warrior-hero slew the dragon and rescued the princess.”

The man on the mountain … he’s mine … and they’ve found me … so now what?


Obstacle Challenge

Published March 16, 2018 by tindertender

An appointment yesterday left me with knowledge of a current health situation. Without going into detail, I will tell you, I accept this challenge.

OM – The Sound, the Vibration of the Universe, The Primordial Sound
GAM – The Seed Sound, or bija sound of Lord Ganesha
GANAPATAYE – Another name of Lord Ganesh, the one who overcomes of obstacles.
NAMAHA – I offer you my salutations, I bow to you.

I will transform this body.
I will purchase a stationary bicycle, and use it.
I will join a water aerobic class.
I will retain and gain mobilization.
I will alter my diet.
I will shed extra pounds which cause stress on the body.
I will gather with open minded people.
I will share my intention of health.
I will do whatever is needed to more fully synchronize mind and body.
I will strengthen spirit/soul.
I Am a warrior.
I will sprint to the finish line.
I will continue to affirm what I will do, and not what I won’t.
I will grow love and compassion in my mind/heart/spirit.
I will love me just as I am, and then some.
I will let this compassion for self merge with compassion for others.

This challenge I have been given wasn’t really given. I was told to go about life until I couldn’t any more and then we would look into resolution. I say NO. I will look into resolution now, when it is needed most. I have a vision embedded in my mind, and I will transform this reality into a different one … because I have that power … and it will be.

Hidden Messages Of Mind

Published March 14, 2018 by tindertender

subconsciousIt never ceases to amaze me how my defenses stir, even when there is really no reason for it. First defense, then embarrassment and a desire to close the self down to certain situations. As I notice these energies in my mind and body  I find that there is a shift, quickly from one to the other, even to something like shame … which is weird.

When intention to share stems from a beautiful and loving space of the heart and finds itself faced with different formats … I hesitate to call it rules and regulations … but different structures, a feeling of not belonging, of being out of place, of separateness arises, even when the differences are subtle.

Here I thought I was doing quite well, yet this experience teaches me that in order to move forward I must allow myself to be exposed, and be open to learning new things without judgement. It is true, we are our own worst critic (although some would deny this). I am happy these emotions have shown themselves, for this allows me to further my personal work.

Remaining open can be quite difficult when the instinct is to shut down, turn tail and run. It is really a very interesting thing that is happening in my mind, so I’ll observe it and work with it and see where it leads.

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