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And The Sky Opened

Published September 19, 2018 by tindertender

“She has the strength of a thousand suns”, they said … or was it only herself speaking? What is it like, knowing life is so … very … large? What is perceived with the mind through emotion is just the tip of the iceberg. Life is much more vast than that small understanding. It is so large, understanding ceases to exist!

Uncovering the inner most portions of self is like the best present ever! There is a time when you may feel like you “know” you … but didn’t you feel the same ten years ago? And are you that same person you were then?

This package we were born into holds treasures beyond words.

On the job site, or in relationships of all kinds, there may be a ‘holding back’ of heartfelt ideas or desires. There may be a twinge of fear, or shame attached to it. Through life others may have instilled the idea that the sweet inner fire of you is a thing that should be doused.

Underneath the programming, when the heart and the inner parts of self are delved in to, beautiful surprises begin to show up. When opportunity arises to try something new … one day, rather than saying no thanks, instead the answer may be, “Why not? I may not be good at it, but I might just be, as well!” And the effort is made, and the answer as to whether it is something one would wish to add to the tool belt of knowledge is discovered.

Try, try, try again. All that which does not harm self or others, when opportunity arises, try it.

How many gifts will you discover buried ‘neath that barrier that has been created? Are you a painter, a writer, a food preserver, a gardener, a medicine man, or woman?

In life, attention is often on finding the treasures within others, our partner, children, friends, acquaintances. Very rarely does one look inside for the treasure, they’ve instead taken on others opinions of what their personal treasure is, or is not.

Solitude is a blessing, even if only an hour a day. Sit, quietly with personal thoughts and see what relations on the “larger side of life” may offer you.

You just might be surprised.

Healthy vs Sick

Published September 16, 2018 by tindertender

The difference between people in a healthy world full of relationships, is in the ‘healthy’ see potential in others and situations, whereas the ‘unhealthy’ search themselves, others and everything else for what they see as lack.

This world is very sick right now. We’ve been bred and trained to see lack in our self, in others, and in every situation we may be part of.

It is up to the individual to break the mold and rebuild their training, searching for potential in everything instead.

When we see our self in the mirror, if there are any thoughts of negativity directed at that image, at self, then immediate and hard work must be done to counter those ideas. It’s difficult, but necessary to break the cycle.

When one can finally look in the mirror and like the person they see … not all about the ‘looks’, but the strength behind the eyes, the endurance while wearing a smile through all trials, if anyone comes along to try and tear down that fresh new view, walk away from them quick.

No one has the right to tell you who you are, how strong you are, or what potential you have … that is for you to decide … or to one day ‘find out’.

Even when not making a decision, a decision is made. Be present.

Personal Boundaries

Published September 14, 2018 by tindertender
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Photo by Nathaniel Flowers

Childhood teaches us to behave in a certain manner. How often we allow our own personal thoughts and ideas to be superseded by others … it is trained behavior.

Some of us do not live long enough to come to this realization. Sometimes the fact that our inner voice becomes just that, inner, is when identity becomes lost, or skewed. Trying to please those around us all of the time, it can be noted that the one we will spend the rest of our lives with (our self) loses the battle, and is shoved into a closet while the world on the outside is catered to.

What are your boundaries? Those created through training from others are only habits, a practiced manner of being. Habits are meant to be broken, especially if they do not honor self.

I had an experience with a friend recently, a friend I love dearly. I’m still trying to figure out if I’m overly sensitive (a story fed me day after day in youth) or if my reaction and response to certain things is warranted. I tell myself I would not have had a reaction at all if there were nothing wrong. Yet at the same time, miscommunication, or lack of it, is often the culprit behind misunderstandings.

Our language is so complex. There are many ‘short-hand’ ways of speaking to each other, but to one who is learning the language, it may be quite confusing. (No reference whatsoever to my friend). I have been told by some that the way we speak leaves out much detail of what is really happening in our mind, therefore the listener cannot possibly understand properly, no fault of their own.

It is easier to walk away from someone than to try and hash out misconceptions. Old triggers, once flipped, can shut doors for a lifetime … indeed have already shut many doors. How can doors be opened if speech is so frivolously tossed about?

This may be the cause of many of the issues we face in the world today. For all the schooling we’ve received there is a profound lack in the ability to be clear with one another, as adults, speaking exactly what we mean.

Boundaries … it could be that triggers get flipped and life goes on, simply bringing to our attention a wound, or lack of thought going into a process, allowing us to try to do it better next time around … and there will always be a next time … faces may change, but situations will come ’round again.

If we find a friend who is willing to work with us as we delve deep to unravel those strings and unhinge the hooks which keep us trapped in hurtful scenarios, then we ought to hold onto them … should they wish to hang around, doing their own work, reciprocating healing to old stories.

The Secret Is Non-Exotic

Published September 8, 2018 by tindertender

Very plainly the message was given … the secret is non-exotic.

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So many of us look to other countries for our medicines and foods. Truth is, the foods and medicines in any given country, and the people that live there, are geared for each other. The body that dwells in a certain environment is meant to ingest and absorb the plant life of it’s own region.

Although thoughts and ideas about personal transformation often comes from varying cultures, which is greatly beneficial to humanity, the foods and the body of specific countries go hand in hand.

All information learned along the way is adopted into the mind frame of a person. This then becomes ‘non-exotic’ for it becomes part of who they are, therefore deeply personal.

I suppose this could be the point of this message. Allowing truths to become deeply personal, integrated into the way of life one chooses to live.

In today’s world nothing really is off limits, for many. For those who do experience scarcity, know this … the secret is non-exotic. You have everything you need already, search for it, be aware of it, cultivate it, share it.

If we consistently wait for someone else to ‘give’ to us, then we could very well be choosing to remain in lack.

Control your life, your future, by working with the divine for specific outcomes. It all takes effort, and faith, hope, and patience.

Talk with your guides, with your guardians in the unseen realms. You will gain direction … if you believe you will.

Freedom of Expression ~ Gained

Published September 7, 2018 by tindertender

I was fortunate to hear Don Jose Ruiz speak in person last night. I am grateful that he is traveling, sharing portions of his story and the wisdom gained through these experiences.

Being our authentic self in full view of others can be a challenge, for in doing so it requires that we shed all the ‘stories’ we have created to justify certain behaviors. It requires that we do so in order to share our most personal selves.

Walking into the fear of judgement from others is not easy, nor is it easy to withstand when it arrives, which it inevitably will. Do it anyway, free yourself, LIVE.

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Visitors Come and Visitors Go

Published September 6, 2018 by tindertender

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They enjoy showing themselves and also mimicking ‘the good guys’. It seems their greatest pleasure is fooling life into believing the facade, and then in a quick turn show their true selves … twisting the mind of humanity.

While there are those who are here to assist us, the intruder wishes to create doubt in us, causing us not to trust our guides, our helpers … often they succeed. Yet when we pay attention to this pattern, we begin to see the flow of it, learning the signs.

These ‘visions’ some will try to convince you are merely day dreams are actually visitors penetrating the energetic field of mind, attempting to either aid, or disrupt. It is up to the individual to determine which is which. If one chooses to ignore it, it does not mean this influence ends, it only means the influence goes on unhindered.

Male, fair skin, short cropped brunette hair, spiked at top. Looking straight at me his eyes are icy blue, faceted, as crystals.

Another person, squatting, back to me, white short hair, blue base-ball cap and tan jacket. He’s working on something, tinkering with it.

Lady in white dress. Brown hair pulled back in gentle clasps. Standing on clouds with golden sun in the background. She’s handing something to someone at the edge of the cloud. Someone I cannot see.

Woman with burgundy lipstick, smoking, blowing the smoke out the right side of her mouth. Her lips are moving, she has much to say as though threatening, yet her words do not have sound.

His eyes began to slant upward, they opened. Soon the inner eye changed becoming animal like. He began to speak, moving his lips. Another, different face joined him, and yet another. They were all speaking, yet once again the sound was muted. Their appearance was that of a lizard-like form, various species. They too appeared to be giving threats of a sort.

Be aware of your visitors. Dig into their intentions. Feel them and determine what you will allow the use of your energies for. If you cannot seem to stop the flow they use to drain you, then consciously send them what you choose for them to receive. Take the steering wheel, and guide this experience as you see fit.

At some point simply withstanding the intrusion is not enough. Certainly this stretches your capacity, but there comes a time when action is required, a physical and mental effort to manipulate the senses arises. Who is in charge here? Who owns this flesh suit at this moment? The one wearing it, or the ones who wish they were?

Defining Self

Published August 28, 2018 by tindertender

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How many people still equate “who they are” with their physical body, their job, or their possessions? Although I honestly believe the number is on the decline, there are still many who think of these things ‘as them’.

It can be difficult to look deep in to ones own psyche and take a good long, hard, honest look at what is there. Personally, I think those individuals who have are those who may be depressed … at first (been there). Yet it is also they who show the utmost bravery, for it takes a tremendous amount of courage to see truth, raw and bare. (The key is to not allow any other person define who we are).

Youth, remembering it I see clearly the flippant cocky way I once behaved. When I experience the same behavior from others today, it takes me right back. I think to myself, there must be a reason I’m being exposed to this right now … what have I to learn that I haven’t yet learned from those days? So I ponder it …

Not so much focused on what was said by another, but what I said … then, and now. What do my actions of past, and my responses of present have to teach me?

Well, I can assure you life is one grand affair! To be able to say I was young and naive, then hurt and depressed, beaten to the ground, then a fighter … cocky and … dare I say, cruel? Then lost in twilight zone, to now. Rebirthed, new, yet filled with so many memories of these roles I’ve held. So funny, and odd, to see an aspect of my younger self in action today, as a male no less!

It seems I am different, and I am, yet the memories remind me of what I hold inside, that which has formed my current reality.

And still, there are those in this world which make it their mission to tear down people, too afraid to tear down their own psyche, bust their egoic person right open and create a kinder, more connected, gentler self. Or perhaps they are still, only too stubborn, unable to see.

The day will come, if they make it. So many do not …

I’m curious what tomorrow brings for this world. I see the whole. It is so much bigger than my personal world … than any ‘personal space’.

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