Process of Reclaiming Power

Published February 18, 2021 by tindertender

I woke at 3am after a particular nasty manipulation of myself in the dream state. I blogged about it, said it was shallow and vague at best. https://opensenseme.com/2021/02/18/connected-whos-in-control/

I fell back to sleep and this particular entity said, using MY voice, “I’ll show you …” and proceeded to get very serious about the same type of manipulation.

I am grateful, for I see it for what it is, and I recognize my true self as gentle, pure, joy.

It has come to my attention that I am easily manipulated in the astral for I subconsciously believe I am powerless. In the astral I am 17 years of age.

The story …

When I was 15, I met a man who was 26. He treated me like a princess. He moved in to my parents house with me, although our sleeping quarters were on the opposite side of the property.

For one year he was my prince, a pure gentleman. Then it began.

At 16 he started to beat me. By the age of 17 I was receiving beatings once a week, usually followed by him requiring sex from me while he rattled on about how sorry he was and how much he loved me.

My mother and step-father did not lift a finger to help me. We were very poor and this abuser poached salmon and dear for the dinner table. There were many mouths to feed.

The last time … At 17 I had tried to leave him. I was in my car and he ran me off the road. He yanked me thru the drivers side window and threw me into his truck, tying me in. He drove me to the river where he proceeded to beat me hard. I tried to jump in the river and he picked up a huge rock and said he would smash my head should I try it. I did not. He then grabbed me by the throat and choked me until I passed out. When I came to he was smashing my head into the rocks. He stopped, then he pulled me into the truck, where he proceeded to have sex with me … once again saying how sorry he was, how much he loved me.

This lasted for many hours. When I finally arrived home, to my mothers house (she had moved out of the previous house) it was the wee hours of the morning. I went to the bathroom and drew a bath. I locked the door so my mother could not walk in. I sank into the bath water, my body full of scrapes from the rocks and the start of bruises from his attack beginning to show. I was shaken … I realized I could have died that night.

I left town, for I knew I was in extreme danger.

Fast forward to these days …

In the astral I am manipulated my the masculine. They are not human, but they can shape shift into human form. They are expert at manipulating the psyche of the human.

They cause me to do things in the astral I would not choose to do if I were resting in my power.

It has come to my attention that my astral self, my 17 year old self, is still in that mode of powerlessness, and these ones take advantage of it … or perhaps they are simply showing me that this scenario exists in my subconsciousness, bringing it forth so that I may heal it.

Either way …

It is time to heal that girl in me, to bring her into her power, the power she wields as a conscious 54 year old me.

I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles.
I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles.
I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles.
I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles.
I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles.
I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles.
I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles.
I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles.
I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles.
I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles.
I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles.
I release my 17 year old self from the victim/victimizer/savior roles.

It is time to reprogram my subconscious.

Here are a few things I’ve discovered that can assist in the process.

My first action is to strictly limit the negativity I am exposed to … from this moment on, then …

1: Listen to the wisdom in my resistance, being humble
2: Decide, Commit, Resolve
3: Don’t assume I know everything
4: Listen to my fears and define what they are
5: Interview my subconscious: What am I afraid of?
6: Repeat what I believe to my subconscious ~ Affirmations
7: Promise myself I will make it work

The subconscious mind is a force. It has the power to stop me from dreaming big and moving forward — but all its power comes from the programming I put into it.

I will allow feelings of love, joy, and peace to flow through me as if I were truly having these experiences, and …

8: Adopt empowering beliefs
9: Focus on Gratitude
10: Visualize, 10-15 minutes per day
11: Be very consistent and persistent
12: Biohack the subconscious mind with Binaural beats

  • Gamma when engaged in certain motor functions
  • Beta when fully conscious and actively concentrating
  • Alpha when relaxed
  • Theta when drowsy or lightly sleeping
  • Delta when in deep sleep

These audio programs can help reprogram the subconscious mind by creating a more receptive forum for installing positive messages.

“Whatever we plant in our subconscious mind and nourish with repetition and emotion will one day become a reality” — Earl Nightingale

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