I live in a way now that if something feels broke, I fix it.
I don’t often lament anymore. Or get stuck in shame, or talk to my mom about it for hours or get everyone’s opinion or eat a bag of whatever.
I do something about it.
For example: Yesterday I was having a real AF relationship check-in with my husband, we hit a painful spot, and decided to get coaching ON THE SPOT.
We got clarity, excitement, closeness, and spent the rest of the day in bliss. The ease that we get when we have nowhere to be and no schedule to keep under other than the spaciousness of going on adventures and experiencing the world together, is incredible.
If something feels like it hurts in my relationships, I lean in and figure it out. I refuse to walk around in pain or allow my loved ones to be in pain.
I often face panic whenever I’d look at my bank account. After a year of feeling like shit, I decided to get some training on money and been rocking my woman on fire programs ever since, that continue to book up effortlessly and with so much fun.
Whenever I look at my bank account, all of my bills have been paid and I still have more than enough. It is an unreal feeling.
If something feels unclear or uncomfortable? I have a conversation right away, or at least I want to.
If something doesn’t feel quite right? I inquire about it and get to the bottom of it.
To allow something to be crunchy, uncomfortable, or unfinished, or not to speak to what I perceive to be an elephant in the room and figure it out, THAT is where I struggle.
To sit in the UNKNOWING and have no idea how something is moving or what is happening, that is when I start to freak out.
Not when I feel like I can act, repair, create, influence, make something.
I know I’m not alone in this:
High achievers, perfectionists, emotionally mature humans, we can have a real hard time with having a hard time.
Letting it not feel that good, and not making a story about it or heaping judgements on self or others. Not RUNNING from the thing that feels momentarily unsolvable, and instead, making space for all of the uncomfortable unclear feelings that come along with it.
In woman on fire, we learn how to sit in the fire. Unharmed.
Freaking the FOOK OUT or going numb, running away or leaning in, and learning self-compassion and gentleness. Learning how to take a breath and make enough space for a feeling until it reveals your heart underneath. It reveals a need you didn’t realize you had, or a desire you have been ignoring.
We get to NOT BE PERFECT, and stay with it anyway. If we fail or succeed or are loved or hated, it makes no difference, for how we learn to show up for ourselves is what keeps us in the fire. Everything that is not meant to be, burns slowly and steadily away. So our aliveness can wake up fully.
Reach out to me to chat to see if this community is for you. For the ones who are tired from running from their fire and ready to embrace it.