If one lives long enough, and they are willing to look at their past deeds, there will inevitably be something in that time-line which is difficult to come to terms with … some hurt that may have been done to someone, abortion/murder, rape … fear, sorrow, anger and guilt which surrounds these things can seem impossible to shed, or to ‘reconcile’.
This is my current journey. Finding a way to forgive self is a challenge. It is said that we are our own worst judge. I’m not too sure of that, but I do know it has been impossible to heal the pain of some actual events in my life … I know also that I am not the only one who has this dilemma.
As I reach out for assistance in this matter, my hope is that one day I’ll be able to free myself from constant punishment, remorse and guilt. Society has a tendency to affirm judgement that people may have laid upon themselves (and absorbed from others), rather than try to understand, and assist in healing.
These pains we carry with us must be mended, reconciled and healed if there is any glimmer of hope for a better tomorrow, and future. Pain, suspicion, fear and guilt keep us in a perpetual cycle of doom and gloom, making it impossible to gain higher vibration, no matter what practices are used in the attempt to raise it.
If, when you look at past experiences, you find it difficult to forgive yourself I encourage you to seek assistance from someone who may be able to help … this is what I am going to do. Life is too short, and these burdens are heavy. Perhaps in self healing, the aid we can bring to others and the world will be amplified.