When younger, and smaller in stature, I felt much larger, larger than life! Now that I am physically larger I still feel spiritually larger than life, yet forget how my body has grown until I actually roll to the side and rest my hand on my belly.
Funny … I still feel the frame made by bones and therefore feel ‘smaller’ yet know the physical has grown. I realize too, that the spiritual aspect of this that I call me has grown also … I am in awe as I recall the differing phases this life has afforded me. I am in complete wonderment of this experience.
I have a friend who knew me when I was much thinner and used to say I should have more pride and join a gym, lose the weight I had gained. I let it be known I would learn to love me as I was. It is foolish to always be chasing some ‘form’ or dream … the ‘now’ IS where it is at … besides, for quite awhile now I have felt sort of separate from this flesh, even while living in it. Strange.
When I hear people judge my appearance … my weight, my current hair style, my clothes, or my tattoos … I tilt my head in wonder. Can’t they see there is so much more than that going on here?
Photo by Karl Magnuson
I think about the human experience and I wonder … aren’t people aware that we are all so similar? The BIG one is the fact that our minds are always churning thoughts, even when from looking at us it seems we are calm, cool and collected. Most of us dream and have difficulty remembering them, unless we journal right away upon waking. We have all suffered loss … of things, of love, of friends. We have all experienced lack of some sort … food, shelter, compassion and care. Many of us probably believe we deserve mistreatment it has been happening so long. Many of us have grown hard and decided we simply don’t care any more.
How do we return to love? How do we foster joy and feed the innocence within us? How do we release pain, sorrow, anger, jealousy, fear?
It begins by undoing the broken record which plays in our mind. It is in the creation of NEW super thought highways, it is in counter-intelligence.
Do you know you have the power to transform every single aspect of your mind? And in that transformation you essentially create new realities?
Perhaps you have been in a sour mood, yet put on a happy face, pretending. Before you know it, you may even actually BE in a good mood. This is the power of the mind. You can flip these switches on and off at the slightest intention!
Intention is everything, and it is yours, it is mine, it is ours.
This world is the collective dream, and together we can change what we see and what we experience, simply by choosing a different thought, action, and outcome.
And so when I think of my physical form I think me ‘skinny’. I wear comfortable clothes which do not bind and I honestly am not interested in what people think of my attire. I am too focused on the inside work, the inner expansion.
Awareness … it means so many things to different people. Let the vision expand, take it ALL in, and the ‘little’ things, such as the body, seem much smaller … whether some say it is or not.