Photo by Giulia Bertelli
I found myself saying aloud that, “I no longer believe mankind is capable of loving”. Oh how I wish this weren’t true, but for me, it is. Over fifty now, I’ve had my share of experience … Infidelity, being used for those ‘guilty pleasures’ all the while under the delusion it was about love.
Stepping back and away from those would be partners I look at things from the outside. I see people as they are with each other, I see them hurt each other out of selfishness. While the beginnings of most relationships are warm and fuzzy it soon develops into a ‘what about me’ thing.
This I conclude, is from the lack of teaching about love, the lack of experiencing it. So many look for that partner who will ‘complete them’, not understanding that first, they must make themselves whole. If they do not, then they are not bringing their full potential to the meetup.
This idea of women being ‘objects of desire’ is so stupid! I wonder what makes people think that the outside is more important than the inside. Cat-calls, near collisions as drivers crane their necks for a look, shallow meetings with those thinking shallow. As a younger woman I recognized these things in others, and only when I stepped out of the mess did I also see them in me.
Time … and our attention … are precious gifts, these are our most valuable assets. Sharing them with full, conscious comprehension is the best we can do for the world. Working together for a better whole is the only logical way this story concludes, the heart knows it.
So while still quite young, this is my focus.
Most people must pair up in order to have enough, since circumstance and the housing and food markets are so outrageously priced, even if they don’t really like each other. This countries situation has gone from one of potential opportunities for greatness, to one of excessive lack and need.
It is no wonder so many people are depressed, given pills to ease their obvious knowing that things are not right. “Dull the mind” they say, “this will make it all better” … while the world spins out of control, crawling deeper into the hole of corruption.
Hopefully mankind will be able to return to the earth ways before it is too late. It is apparent that the current system of things is not a healthy one.
That being said, I DO believe that the root of love still dwells deep within the heart and soul and spirit of humanity. My hope is that a warm wind blows across the land, through the energetic fields of all people, and takes with it the darkness that has covered the inherent joy living inside the child within all humans … And I hope for it to begin soon.