The yogic mantra “so hum” is not only a reflection of the sound of the breath but also carries a contemplative meaning: “I am that” (so = “I am” and hum = “that”). Here, “that” refers to all of creation, the one breathing us all.
Do not give up yet. Be brave, forgive. Instead of placing blame on others, speak to those who are doing the perceived wrong. Feeling jealous, or angry, gossiping, or becoming a bully are cause for reassessment of self.
One of the most difficult things to do is to look at ones own actions and thoughts, evaluating them and their cause … looking deeply at what is living in the heart. Get to know your triggers, find out why they are there in the first place, choose to act with integrity. Sometimes when an old wound opens it is so it can be cleansed, and so it can be kept clean while it heals once more.
Every person has emotional scarring of some sort … every one … some are fully aware of them, others have buried them so deep they do not remember they are there, influencing the behaviors they share with the world.
It is ultimate courage to look into the inner self and truthfully, honestly, transparently, face what is there. Some will embrace vulnerability as they allow the world to see them for what they are, their spines will become strong, their minds firm, as they are judged and harassed for being open and authentic. They will absorb the brunt of these attacks and they will process the energy into something beneficial.
They are alchemists, an example to the world, showing that it is okay to come out of hiding, to stop playing the role that was chosen for them. They will teach us how to transmute historical illusion and create a better, more open tomorrow.
Compassion builds in the heart as frailty is seen in the world and in those who attack, the fear buried deep in the minds of those who lash out will be acknowledged. These tendencies will be recognized in the observers heart and mind as well. The studious and serious ones will become great soothers and healers of wounds as they learn to transform the inner most being of themselves.
Becoming aware of the relationship of the inner and the outer is a risky endeavor, for it will tear open facades built over decades, centuries even, passed from one generation to the next. It will be tempting to turn from it, to retreat back into the illusion … and it may be necessary to do just that. The important thing is to keep getting the feet wet, dipping the toes into this pool of reality that has been shunned for so long.
The veil is lifting, the willingness to do the inner work, and the stamina of the courageous will speed this process.
Watch the thoughts as they flit through the mind. Who is it that says these things in the silence? Who is it that hears them?
Photo by Johnson Wang