I talk a lot on this blog about trusting instincts.
Recently I began going to meetings with a group of folks. After the first meeting my whole being said not to go back. I considered maybe I was being unreasonable, so went back anyhow. That next meeting was okay. Then the third meeting came which threw me for another loop and again the feeling that there was something ‘not right’. I waited and went back again, feeling okay with it. However this last meeting I recognized the game … I was looked at in the eyes and was told that there was no room for truth in me, for I had no awareness. Although it was later explained that it was not a judgement on me (even though the message came with solid eye connection and words spoken directly to me). Well, this absolutely went against my intuition and everything I know about myself and lifes experience.
I conferred with a friend who sees energy and was told a little about this group from his knowledge and experience. I’ve decided to remain aloof from the group for it fosters self-doubt, it decreases the surety of ones self to be able to trust in their own experience.
Standing firm in ones personal, instinctual knowledge, knowing that we are surrounded by our kin of past generations (and others), we can relax in the beautiful exchange between us … like the trees convert our exhaled breath into the next one we inhale, this exchange is crucial to life. There is a balance being maintained … a balance between each other, and a balance between the seen and the unseen. Within this experience a nurturing must take place, not by causing uncertainty in others in order to have them ‘follow’ a certain teaching, but by lifting each other and sharing our experience, freely, to whatever capacity we are able.
Manipulation of any kind is not acceptable.
Time to knock it to it’s knees.