Energy ~ It sprouts from me in a very boisterous manner. Many people over the years have bypassed making me part of the team, or making good on promises to allow opportunity for advancement in life, or simply denying training and coaching.
This journey has been somewhat of a solo one. I’ve had to be observant of those in action, those who received what I did not. I’ve studied their performance and behaviors trying to figure out what others saw in them, that they did not see in me.
As time passes I see also that those who left me standing alone look at me with new eyes, seeing something they didn’t notice before. Although I would like to say I would join the team, it is past that time now … for this soloing journey has moved me beyond what they could offer.
There are others though, who have something to contribute to this life long lessen I study. I am grateful to them. AND I am grateful to those who denied me, for without them, I would not have been so persistent.
It is still hard though, when someone states there is “no room in me” for … peace … or whatever else they think of. It really only tells me that I’ve got a lot more work to do … and with, or without them, this work will be done.
I suppose it is difficult for anyone to understand another. We are not in each others heads, we have not lived each others experiences, we do not feel as another may feel. Even this leaves room for acceptance and growth.
We may not always receive what we want, but we DO always receive what we need.
Let’s get to it.