She walked beside her, listening as she was being verbally attacked. She felt her blood turning within and then … something snapped. She leaned into the verbal spewing, it seemed she grew 3 inches, shoulders broadening. The eyes of the one spraying poison from her mouth widened, she became silent.
This strange and terrifying energy is ‘in check’ most of life, never exploding in an effort to do harm, yet it is available for use in the need of defense.
He began the beating, and growing tired of this repetitive mess she retaliated. She threw everything she had into letting him know this was not going to be tolerated any longer, he ran from her as she beat him about the head and neck with her stick. He never thought he would bear witness to this wild defense, he was taken aback, this tough man. Witnesses told her of it afterward, she had no memory of it.
This world is full of those who give no mind to what they put into it, they take and take, they harm and continue, as long as no one stops them. The intensity of their venom grows stronger as the masses are led to believe they must be silent, that they somehow deserve it, that it is their lot in life to be abused.
She found herself alone, after all the energy she poured into helping another receive what was needed. She spilled her life force so thoroughly that she was completely depleted. Even after all was said and done, he could not stay. He left her to pick up the pieces of what remained of a fragmented self, to put it back together. One trauma after another occurred and she wondered what it all meant. Slowly, she began to understand that she needed to put herself first. She knew then, that self care is not selfish.
Our best friend is the sleeping giant within our core. The innermost portion of our being is so large. Perhaps you have said it yourself, “I am larger than life!” Many of us have stated this, as though it is an embedded bit of knowledge, a truth, that we know for certain. This majesty which is us waits to be recognized, not with arrogance, but to be embraced with the authority we possess already.
There are those who have worked very hard at maintaining a fear based, pain related society. They plan, and then carry out agendas which are shocking and spark outrage, followed by pleas of the people to have more of their rights taken … shrinking the already constricting cages they dwell in. They manipulate the minds of folks and make them believe they actually want to live within these bonds.
If only you knew how great you are. If only you would sit in stillness for a time and feel the blood pulse through your veins. If only you would notice the power of this life force within you. You would then know that you need not fight for anything, for you already have everything you need.